*Trigger warning* I STRUGGLE SPIRITUALLY BUT I WONT QUIT AND YOU SHOULDN'T EITHER. I WILL CONTINUE TO FIGHT. I SEEK THE MESSIAH! THESE ARE PERILOUS TIMES! ITS TIME TO CHANGE AND SEEK GOD! Love as you would want to be loved. Forgive as you would want to be forgiven. I say everything on this blog... Everything. and maybe more. I guess I do music?🤔 This is a digital journal/diary/collection of poetry/rhymes and thoughts. PRAISE GOD! GOD BLESS. my story prior to my walk with Christ and some recent poetry/music...tread lightly↓↓↓ https://youtube.com/@thaunknowndreadhead4185
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So Sorry To My Family For Me Ghosting Y'all/ I Swear To God It Isn't My #1 Choice At All/ Not Really
So sorry to my family for me ghosting y'all/ I swear to God it isn't my #1 choice at all/ Not really a conscious choice it just happens and I disappear/ for days then days turn into months/ months turn into years/ ..I'd rather be around all the time ok now that's wassup up/ but y'all shouldn't have to hear it whenever my mind erupts/ whether meltdown or rage fit/ I wanna keep y'all away from it/ y'all my people and I love y'all/ I just wanna to keep you safe from it...
Negativity is contagious. I kinda have peace knowing my family don't have to be around my uneasy mind even though I miss them at the same time. Its a tough spot to sit in. Kinda like you are playing tug of war with ya self nonstop. It's exhausting. More than anyone probably will ever know.
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Though I feel I am omniscient of my conscience, I fear the whim of my, often crippling, internal afflictions.
The desolation in my heart nowise equals outward, but inward calamity.
~ThaUnknownDreadHead~
(Note to self)
If the person you fully confide in doesn't hear or fully grasp your mental after your 'blue in the face' efforts of trying to explain it, in all it's grim complexity, then you are probably meant to succumb to it alone.
Happy birthday to my cousin! Enjoy your day you might not ever see this until... but happy birthday Ki___ 🎂
Heavy stress/ daily dealin wit a lot of it/ so tired of it/ I wanna fling that shit like hippopotamuses