Love Yall Forever - Tumblr Posts

So sorry to my family for me ghosting y'all/ I swear to God it isn't my #1 choice at all/ Not really a conscious choice it just happens and I disappear/ for days then days turn into months/ months turn into years/ ..I'd rather be around all the time ok now that's wassup up/ but y'all shouldn't have to hear it whenever my mind erupts/ whether meltdown or rage fit/ I wanna keep y'all away from it/ y'all my people and I love y'all/ I just wanna to keep you safe from it...

Negativity is contagious. I kinda have peace knowing my family don't have to be around my uneasy mind even though I miss them at the same time. Its a tough spot to sit in. Kinda like you are playing tug of war with ya self nonstop. It's exhausting. More than anyone probably will ever know.