[1.18.18] I Recently Found Myself Hitting A Wall With My Korean Studies, So I'm Going Back To Refresh

[1.18.18] I recently found myself hitting a wall with my Korean studies, so I'm going back to refresh on the basics using a different textbook (My Korean 1) to spice things up! I'm also using this to keep myself busy while I wait to hear from graduate schools....

When you start a new goal/activity/program, make a list of reasons why you’re doing it. Make sure it is filled with:

-Reasons why you chose to start this path of action.

-Positive thoughts.

-Personal goals.

-How it can benefit you.

-Where you hope the activity will lead you in life.

-Happy memories surrounding the activity/program.

Open the list and read through it whenever you feel like giving up. It works.

I used this when I marched drum corps because the demanding schedule was exhausting both physically and mentally. When I wanted to quit I opened to the page and reminded myself why I was there, and it always helped me feel better.

Personal Body Image & Motivation Issues

I’m gonna have some rant/confession time with y’all, because the studyblr community is probably the most supportive community I’ve been a part of and the internet is a wonderful place of anonymity.

I hate my body, and I don’t want to hate it anymore.

To give you an idea of what my body type and situation is like, I’ll tell you that I am 5’ 2” and 200lbs. When I was younger I lived with a verbally abusive father who contributed to me developing an eating disorder (binge eating disorder, or BED). I have never been able to shake the weight or the unhealthy habits that I formed during my childhood. I try- believe me, I try to do what I can to shed some pounds. I currently run on my college’s cross country team because I love the way exercise makes me feel and I want to try to be healthy. But I still struggle with binge eating and hate the way my body looks.

I don’t want to feel this way anymore. I believe that all body types are beautiful- let that be known. I just feel heavy and gross and have so many self-esteem and body image issues because of my weight. Clothes shopping is the absolute worst. Clothes shopping makes me feel absolutely terrible about myself because most plus size clothing is a) super expensive, b) shoved in the far corner of a department store, or c) very baggy and unflattering on me. I want to fit into clothes that make me happy. I want to feel comfortable wearing shorts for once in my life. (A brief tangent on wearing shorts: My cross country team consists of eight very fit girls, and our coach only orders these skin tight shorts for competitions. I can’t wear the shorts because they don’t even fit me. Last year he gave me the mens’ shorts to wear but this year they changed the cut of the mens so now their shorts don’t work with my body type either. I don’t know what I’ll be wearing to track meets this season and it feels terrible to not fit.)

I feel it is best to at least share with the studyblr community because you guys are great at sending positive vibes and help keep each other accountable. I am going to start being more conscious of my eating habits and adding some extra bodyweight workouts to my weekly cardio/track workouts. On top of that, I have been doing  yoga and trying to make little mental changes to improve my negative thoughts towards my body. Having an accountability buddy (or even just a friend) during this attempt to help me learn to love my figure and be healthy would be greatly appreciated.

Alright, my rant/confession is over. I am going to go back to reblogging study tips and aesthetic photos of study sessions.

Love you all,

thecosmicstudyblr

I was tagged by @idiosyncraticstudyblr!! Thanks for including me!

rules: put your music library on shuffle, list the first 10 songs and tag 20 people

Freak Show, Set It Off

Believer, Imagine Dragons

Goodnight Moon, Go Radio

Spaceship, Comet Blue

Take My Hand, Picture This

Time Bomb, All Time Low

Do I Wanna Know, Arctic Monkeys

I’m Born To Run, American Authors

Devil’s Backbone, The Civil Wars

The Room Where it Happens, Hamilton Original Broadway Cast

I am tagging: @stvdies, @emaleibronte, @studiees, @architstudy, @phdstudygirl, @breathelovepsych, @macchiato-study, @psychblr, @prefrontalcortx, @estudiear, @undergradnerd, @starlight-student, @studybab, @studypsyche, @fundergrad, @studiousgrace, @fit-and-studious, @shayystudies, @study-acorn, and @nebulodic!! I love you all and I hope you have a great day!!

may 2018 be a warm, softly glowing year that’s overflowing with healing, growth, self love, pure bliss and a “darling, it’s going to be okay” vibe.

wake up at a decent time

1. waking up at a set time each day will allow you to accomplish more throughout your day! since it’s summer, I usually wake up around 8-9:30 but it all depends on your schedule for the day! just try you best to not wake up too late, because you’ll just waste what could’ve been a productive day :)

make a bucket list

2. bucketlists are so much fun to make especially for the summer time! some ideas for your bucketlist could be…

• going to the beach, parties, on vacation

• write a novel, pick up/finish a series

• start a new Netflix series/movie marathon

• find some new hobbies

you can add some more ideas here, but making bucketlists allows you to have something to look forward to. :P

create a plan

3. if you’re summers are usually jam-packed with activities and vacations, try and schedule your studying in your day. Setting aside one to two hours a day or even a week can benefit you a lot. 

• Personally, I think it’s best to try and space out your studying so you aren’t doing everything at once. Summer is still time to relax from school so make sure you don’t overdo it with the studying. Since I’m taking AP classes for the first time next school year, I decided to buy the AP prep books now, so I can occasionally read throughout the summer.

**most importantly

don’t get caught up in the “studyblr style” of thinking you have to study 24/7 and only post aesthetically pleasing pictures. Summer is you’re time to relax and de-stress from the previous 10 months of work you just had to endure. Please make sure to take time for yourself because that is what is most important! 

I hope some of you benefited from this!! and I hope everyone has a great summer

- Amanda ❤️