Thevoidstaredback - Cats Welcome, Humans Tolerated

Feeling a little bit like a Dazai-typical Suicide Mentions tag on Ao3

You know what's really fun?

Being AroAce with Abandonment Issues

You know what's even better?

Having my family (supportive or unsupportive) casually dissing/invalidating my lack of feelings towards other people

And people wonder why I'm so apathetic all the time.

It's called a defense mechanism, sweetheart

My trauma Is different from yours, but it is no less debilitating

I'm tired of the commercial breaks!

Can't people see I'm reading?

I have a hardcover book open and in my hands. My attention Is sole on that book and I am turning the pages.

I'm not interested in going into your white van, nor do I care that I'm probably bleeding out.

Let me finish my story!! It just got to the good part!

I have two singing attitudes:

1. When I know people can hear me, I'm quiet. Not a lot of emotion or passion

2. When I'm sure I'm alone, I'm loud. So much raw emotion and passion

The second someone says anything about my singing, I get shy about it. Idky. Though, you'd think people would've learned not to say anything by now. I've been this way for 16/20 years

Wanna know one of the only good things I have going for me right now?

I'm obsessed with my stories.

(Not all of them, but that's okay. I don't have to be hyper focused on every little thing I do.)

Does this mean I've written them? Kinda. Does this mean I've posted them? Also kinda.

It's a whole process, but we're getting there.

I'm obsessed with the ideas I have down. The hard part Is stringing them together coherently.