I Am Bored And Vaguely Sad. Guess Theres Only One Option ! Reread All The Young Dudes :)

i am bored and vaguely sad. guess there’s only one option ! reread All The Young Dudes :)

i was year 10 once. i don’t want to be again

todays a self care day (retail therapy + fast food)

that funny feeling where you went to an all girls school and therefore had no interactions with men and so you thought you were a lesbian and all men are gross but then you go to university and you meet some really cool guys and now you’re dating one and he just absolutely lights up your world and makes you feel so calm and grounded and you’re so in love with a man who is not only a man but also a car guy AND a gym bro AND a j-name? it’s absolutely crazy how the world works but i’m grateful it brought me him

my least favourite running joke amongst my friends is how i’m “straight” because i’m dating a man. how my (actually) straight guy friends are gayer than me because they always talk about sucking each other off. i didn’t go to an all girls high school and get bullied and ridiculed and mocked and shamed for liking girls just to have that erased. i didn’t live my formative years in confusion, shame, and embarrassment because i like girls for these fuckwits to come in and say this. but if i say that, i’m just “being dramatic” and “it’s just a joke”. they don’t get it.

i love my boyfriend to absolute pieces he is the light in my life and i don’t know what i’d do without him. and he’s leaving to go back to his home town in a few days. so he’s staying the night at my flat, but i have had to move to the couch upstairs because he’s breathing so loud and he’s snoring and he’s a little sick which is making it all so so much worse. and i feel so awful because i want to be around him, but there’s only so many hours i can sleep with my fingers jammed into my ears, or clawing and my skin. it’s sad.