New Year New Goals. It Was At Night The Time I Had Realized How Much Time Passed And Still Wasnt Able

New year new goals. It was at night the time I had realized how much time passed and still wasn’t able to lose weigh. I open my tumbler and binge all the amazing posts there is and decided how I want to be my 2023 which is focuses only in my weight loss. It is not new to me but since I gained so much weigh I fell is time to get rid of if.

I was just stopping my fucking medication. Why do people hate me? I never done anything but being sweet and quiet.

NO!!! NOT AGAIN, I WAS GETTING BETTER, PLEASE NOT AGAIN

Couldn’t be more true.

“ur so quiet” its so fucking loud in my head

Date: 16/04

Age: 17

Height: 1,58

CW 52 🤮

GW until may 16: 49

Genre: feminine

Age: 14 almost 15 years old

Height: 1,56 m

Weight(s):

01/01/21 = HW = 50.5 Kg

CW = 42,5kg I’m eating to much every day… aprox. 2000 cals or more :(

LW = 40,3

GW = 39 (I hope to achieve this goal until the end of October 2021)

I’m depressed. That sucks but what am I to do?

In less than 6 months I gained more that 15 kilos. I’m just a fat whale that abandoned Ana and Mia and now want to get back.

(that was me not even in my lw) that time I saw myself as a morbidly obese person but now I now I have became one and just want to get back to my lw desperately.

I can’t control myself and it sucks. I have never felt so bad. Now I started Mia and cutting but the only thing I truly want is my dear Ana back.

I’ve always been introverted. I’m not the kind of girl that enjoys being notice by everyone and I don’t have many friends, so unfortunately I tend to over focuses on my self, especially on the way I look, since I’m constantly alone and end up looking and spending too much time analyzing me at the mirror. Because I have changed a lot over the year’s, and people never told me about my imperfections, I know I have still many of them for sure many but I haven’t just realized, and also because people don’t want to comment. That bothers me so much because I fell they do that (normally girls) because it make them fell pretira about them selfs. I wish we all were united and always cheering and hoping for each other’s best. Continuing what I was saying, that made me develop a really messed up relationship with food and how I treat my body, and honestly I believe this is a problem many of us, girls, fell.