I’m lost and confused
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Today I was able to fast for 17 and a half hours. This is not enough. I need to lose the weight. I hope that now( my first meal) won’t be a binge and purge type. Hope to be around 800kcals today. Stay motivated guys.
Date: 16/04
Age: 17
Height: 1,58
CW 52 🤮
GW until may 16: 49
Genre: feminine
Age: 14 almost 15 years old
Height: 1,56 m
Weight(s):
01/01/21 = HW = 50.5 Kg
CW = 42,5kg I’m eating to much every day… aprox. 2000 cals or more :(
LW = 40,3
GW = 39 (I hope to achieve this goal until the end of October 2021)
I am so tired of Mia. My journey stated last year and continue until now. Purging is tiring and hurtful, my thorough is sorrow and my body fells sick. I want Ana so bad.
I AM SO EXCITED. today I went to the nutritionist to weigh myself and am starting to notice the weigh loss.
Today is the third day of sticking to my Ana diet. I am so happy that my parents already noticed the weight loss. I can’t wait to lose more anda more weight, I’ve been trying so hard for the pasted months and just now being able to fully control myself.
New year new goals. It was at night the time I had realized how much time passed and still wasn’t able to lose weigh. I open my tumbler and binge all the amazing posts there is and decided how I want to be my 2023 which is focuses only in my weight loss. It is not new to me but since I gained so much weigh I fell is time to get rid of if.
Couldn’t be more true.
“ur so quiet” its so fucking loud in my head
I was just stopping my fucking medication. Why do people hate me? I never done anything but being sweet and quiet.
NO!!! NOT AGAIN, I WAS GETTING BETTER, PLEASE NOT AGAIN
What am I doing with my life? Can someone please tell me? A can’t handle it anymore specially now that one of me only friends is turning at my back. A fell I want to cry but a just fell numb and nothing else.
Never forget how they gave you distance when you needed love
I was looking at my reblogs and just realized how much I changed. Now I just stay silence and if the person doesn’t notice or act I, even knowing it shouldn’t be like that, let it happen and though away all off our memories together.
If I'm arguing I care, if I'm silent, I'm done
When I say I have binge eating disorder I mean it. Almost every day I choose a determined moment to eat ( just junk food) for more than 3 hours consecutive until I’m so full my stomach constantly hurts, quadruplicate it’s size and I fell like a bag of shit. Normally I end up eating more than 3000 kcals in just one round, and I always eat during the day so…
I’m depressed. That sucks but what am I to do?
In less than 6 months I gained more that 15 kilos. I’m just a fat whale that abandoned Ana and Mia and now want to get back.
(that was me not even in my lw) that time I saw myself as a morbidly obese person but now I now I have became one and just want to get back to my lw desperately.
I can’t control myself and it sucks. I have never felt so bad. Now I started Mia and cutting but the only thing I truly want is my dear Ana back.
Genre: feminine
Age: 14 almost 15 years old
Height: 1,56 m
Weight(s):
01/01/21 = HW = 50.5 Kg
CW = 42,5kg I’m eating to much every day… aprox. 2000 cals or more :(
LW = 40,3
GW = 39 (I hope to achieve this goal until the end of October 2021)
I’ve always been introverted. I’m not the kind of girl that enjoys being notice by everyone and I don’t have many friends, so unfortunately I tend to over focuses on my self, especially on the way I look, since I’m constantly alone and end up looking and spending too much time analyzing me at the mirror. Because I have changed a lot over the year’s, and people never told me about my imperfections, I know I have still many of them for sure many but I haven’t just realized, and also because people don’t want to comment. That bothers me so much because I fell they do that (normally girls) because it make them fell pretira about them selfs. I wish we all were united and always cheering and hoping for each other’s best. Continuing what I was saying, that made me develop a really messed up relationship with food and how I treat my body, and honestly I believe this is a problem many of us, girls, fell.