When You Want To Book It...but There's No Where To Run

When you want to book it...but there's no where to run

- Sequoia Red (via Sequoia Red)

Is it worse to be alone with no one, or feel alone surround by people?

Is there even a comparison?

I have family. A mother and father, a sister and brother. And I love them dearly. But I feel alone. Sometimes when I am with them, I question if they are even aware of my existence. I am not sure they can even see me unless they have some sort of insult to sling. I am my families punch line.

When I feel low and I need someone to talk to. I have no one. Except my siblings. I regret contacting them every time. As when I am low. It is as if it excites them. So they push me lower. And it surprises me every time. I am always so sure they will see my desperation. See the pain in my eyes that i usually hide.

I think about running away. But I have no where to go. I think about it every day. 

I wonder if I move away where they can't get to me easily, will I be happy that I am safe from their prison? Or will I finally be thankful that I am alive to see that day where I can breathe and feel safe that I am living on my terms. And my wounds finally have time to heal, will I feel hopeful?

man I can't write today. nothing poetic about those words. I've lost it.

- Sequoia Red

Don't tell me you love me and then try to control me.

- Sequoia Red

Weww...my heart just skipped a beat reading this.

Sometimes I wish, my mind wouldn't allow me to dream. Waking up is the hardest, as you visit me only in my dreams, that's only 8hrs a day.

Sequoia Red 

if someone hurts you, stay the fuck away, no matter how hard it is, stay the fuck away

unknown (via someonedrankmysoda)