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i’m vivie ౨ৎ

current status:

tired

current concern:

life...like actually

song(s) stuck in my head:

heaven - rm

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thoughts:

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last updated:

june 1, 2024

MAJOR JJK MANGA SPOILERS !!!

mahito:

hatred is instinctive the moment you think of a character like mahito. someone who murders recklessly, including a loved and an incongruous character like junpei. but what if there’s more?

mahito is a special grade cursed spirit that was born from human transgression. hatred towards one another and yet is immature and frankly, new. dispute between humans has been going on for centuries and only now is he alive. unlike him, jogou, hanami, dagon, and etc are all, seemingly, mature. they seem to have been in existence for a while now. representing the fear of nature, they are powerful due to many dreading those aspects of the world.

so why did mahito only recently come into existence? i don’t think that’ll ever be concluded because he's dead. AHAHAH ! but that leads me to question humanity.

do we fear expressing our hate towards others so much that we repress it, ultimately leading to the representation of our resentment, mahito, to be nebulous? nebulous of how to express this hatred causing sadistic death?

I didn't edit this soooooooo it might not really 100% make sense butttttt you get what i mean... right?!

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MAJOR JUJUTSU KAISEN ANIME + MANGA SPOILERS

megumi:

the aloof yet caring character, something anyone would love. what interests me most about megumi is not what sukuna finds interesting about him, but his moral compass.

megumi has stated multiple times that he only saves those who he deems as worthy of saving. that mindset isn’t like what yuuji preaches throughout the duration of the anime and manga. yuuji hopes to save everyone and anyone who is suffering from the cursed spirits. megumi always questions “who the hell am i supposed to save?”, which then comes to the conclusion that he should save whoever he wants. not to be a person who is deemed as nice, like his sister tsumiki.

is that a valid way of thinking? is saving whoever you wish, bad?

the answer is that there is no answer.

yuuji believes that by giving everyone a chance to live out their lives, he is doing good for the people. but what challenges this idea is whether it’s a good idea to save people who are considered “bad”? the act of saving people, in general, is “good”, or whatever “good” is. but in this eternal bleak, there is so much that happens. how to we come to the conclusion of the two polar choices?

megumi challenges yuuji’s moral compass. gojou’s moral compass also challenges yuuji’s.

i agree with megumi. saving those who i believe is worthy is the only way i know-how. unlike gojou, i don’t have the power to say i could make those decisions. but i wonder, is megumi’s way of thinking, selfish? i don’t know when the situation of saving someone arises, but if it comes, what would i do?

what would you do?

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let me show you this beauty. suou azami

my husband

from raise wa tanin ga ii

he’s so sexc

MAJOR ATTACK ON TITAN MANGA SPOILERS

levi:

humanity’s strongest soldier not just by blatant strength but mentally as well.

when levi ackerman was first introduced, i thought he was just another strong character to be revealed simply because of their skill, but after season 1 and the ova, “no regrets”, i began to understand the true strength of this character.

trials and tribulation are not enough to describe the atrocities that levi had experienced throughout his life. being on the brink of death in a room with a dead body for who knows how long, abandoned by his uncle, the death of friends he considered family, and i can go on.

through it all, most of his relationships ended with death. it seems as though he is cursed to lose those with who he develops relationships.

when the last chapters were releasing, i thought levi was going to die, multiple times i might add. but now that attack on titan has ended, i understand why levi didn’t die.

levi ackerman is humanity’s strongest soldier, someone who no matter what happens will always fight until the end.

i can ramble for hours on the adversities levi had gone through, but understanding his genuine strength, from his odm skills to him always caring for his family, is what made me love levi more.

i understand that i wouldn’t be able to take the pain, the genuine pain that levi went through.

through it all, he lived.

i’ve been super busy with school work. it's been stressing me out so much, but today i got a surge of productivity that i wrote this ! hehehe

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MAJOR ATTACK ON TITAN SPOILERS

jean kristein:

jean is probably the most relatable to the common man within the story of shingeki no kyojin (aot). prior to the beginning of the story, all of the characters have their separate lives: eren with mikasa and armin, reiner with bertholdt and annie, and etc. out of all the background stories, jean’s is normal, or what normal can be on the island.

he grew up with a loving mom, and although he finds her embarrassing, he was still able to grow up with a rather peaceful life. thus, leading him to join the 104th scout regiment to live a lavish life in the wall of sina. when i first began attack on titan somewhere in late 2015 early 2016, i agreed with jean’s thought process. yes people are dying, yes people are living in a cage, yes people don’t have “freedom”, but that is not my life (or yk if i was living in jean’s position and in the universe). death, massacre, genocide even, is inevitable. HA ! that's someone who has been living in a comfortable bubble would say.

i, like jean, have never gone through the horrors of life compared to characters like levi or reiner. who cares about other people when you can live a comfortable life. oh, the privilege dripping out of my mouth when i say that. nevertheless, jean’s rose-tinted glasses are broken once he sees half of marco’s body.

why was this so traumatic? some people said they didn’t even rememberer marco or didn’t pay attention to him, but why? i did. the effects of marco’s kindness, observations, and mere presence were comforting. it almost makes you forget the reality of the situation until those moments become mere memories.

through this, he develops drive and motivation. after seeing reality, tell me, how can one standstill?

maybe this should’ve been a post about marco, but this about how he had a big impact on jean’s awakening.

jean kristein is a common man, then became a character whose maturity is clearly shown throughout the series. ignorant to a man who sees it as it is, not what he wants it to be. no longer a “common man”. that is why he is admirable to me. (that's also why i'm in love with him)

eren yeager, ymir fritz, zeke yeager, floch forster, etc may be well developed characters, but, jean clearly demonstrates growth in people. a change in perspective. a change in heart.

i have a lot of character analysis stuff about a bajillion characters and all of a sudden i got an urge to write about certain aspects of them. hehe

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