Maybe I Can Make Myself Feel Better By Working On Skills To Help Me Out So I Dont Have To Spend A Lot

Maybe I can make myself feel better by working on skills to help me out so I dont have to spend a lot more money.

Including learning more about homesteading. Especially homesteading.

Trying very hard to focus on having fun right now but it's kind of hard to do that when you were reminded that the moment I move out of my parent's house I will be considered poor and that I will probably need to work two jobs to live.

I know I'm posting a lot of sad shit but today sucked and I'm sad.

They said to just keep mapping lmaoooo. They said all prep work would be done in session and I'm like. Ok. I'll map then. 🫡

Also mapping is so much harder when the alter you thought was All Seeing and All Knowing actually has lost a lot of connection with alters and I'm like. Wtf.

My therapist is going on break for three weeks so I'm gonna ask them what they think I should work on over the course of those weeks to prep for EMDR, which they seem fairly confident about me doing (if only for the trauma behind my medical anxiety) so that'll be a fun bout of upcoming therapy homework. I will totally update once I actually get that information.

"We intentionally did not include anyone . . . from the subreddits devoted to exposing 'munchies'- a term they use to describe individuals with Munchausen-by-Internet who feign mental illness and medical illness for often complex psychological reasons. Part of that decision was because a lot of the posts on these forums contain misinformation as well. For example, someone on a forum wanted to expose a fake DID poster by citing that DID cannot happen before age 30. This is not accurate. Furthermore, these subreddits drive further traffic to the accounts they are exposing which is counterproductive given the motivation beyond many of these accounts is to get attention, any type of attention, and also to get revenue from viewers and clicks. Jessica has instead suggested that if we come across accounts that appear to be spreading mental health misinformation, we should first approach with constructive criticism and compassion. Some individuals will not be open to this but others may be. At the very least, leaving comments that are constructive may help others who come across the account. She also emphasizes that the inner experiences of individuals are opaque to outsiders, especially when it comes to mental illness, and trying to 'out the fakers' is fraught with problems and should be left to trained mental health professionals."

The Frontier Psychologists and Carlene Macmillan (2021) on the witch-hunting of people who fake disorders/illnesses. [Source]

hi! recently fused system here. did your autistic habits get... "worse", for a lack of better wording? i feel like i'm far more sensitive now that i don't lean on dissociation as a crutch. i had a horrific meltdown yesterday over something that used to just trigger intense dissociation and "freeze". i normally experience shutdowns instead. (i'm alright now, that's not the point of the ask. just context.)

anyway, the real point, i'm taking care of myself, obviously, but it just... i dunno. i feel like everything is way more easily overwhelming and i guess i'm wondering if other fused/functional people relate? solidarity is always nice to find and your blog has been a big source of hope/comfort for several months now.

i hope your day is going well. 💙

Oh ABSOLUTELY. Like the first year after hitting functional multiplicity was honestly almost DEDICATED to autism related issues that only arrose when our dissociation became so much less. Its also something Ive generally heard from people with really any of their non-trauma and/or dissociative centered symptoms.

But yeah it was like a whole saga of having to figure out and navigate the symptoms of secondary conditions now that dissociative was much lower, so huge solidarity

Heyyy to anyone with any master docs of medical literature about DID... can I have a link? Notes or DMs are fine either way!!

"This policing of illnesses online often verges on bullying, and can have serious ramifications for both posers and people with real-life conditions. It creates a 'boy who cried wolf' culture around health on social media, which subjects actual sufferers to skepticism and condemnation. . . . Feldman calls actual sufferers 'the real casualties of deception — because they are there legitimately seeking help. When the skepticism ends up undermining their efforts to get it, that's just deeply unfortunate.'"

Harriet Shepherd (2021) on the witch-hunting of people who fake disorders/illnesses. [Source]