This Applies EVEN IF YOU ARE ALREADY SUICIDAL, So Don't Give Me The Whole "I'm Actually Doing This To

this applies EVEN IF YOU ARE ALREADY SUICIDAL, so don't give me the whole "I'm actually doing this to die, not to lose weight" thing. i was there. i was already suffering, but this shit made me go insane in my head even more than i already was. it made me constantly angry, brought me to the point where i started cutting myself (which i now can't stop), made me lonely and misrable from having to constantly lie to my family and brought two extra suicide attempts on me.

I'm not telling you to fix your mental health, i know from experience that feeling like you are morally required to get better can make things worse, but please, for the love of god, if you haven't started a new form of self destruction yet, don't. you dont have to have an eating disorder (this one applies to both the proanas and the promias) to be mentally ill. you don't have to cut to be mentally ill. you don't have to do drugs to be mentally ill. getting these won't prove anything, it will just put you in a loop of addiction you can't pull out of that will ruin your body. and if you already got yourself one or more of these, I am not telling you what to do, but if you feel at all sympathetic to the concept of quitting, here's your permission to not feel shame for that. 90% of the self-destruction-romanticizing pages you're following would support you in getting better, and the remaining 10% are, as i am sorry to inform you, horrible people. and i just want you to remember- what's happening to you is bad. and if you get the chance to, the actual chance to, you should do your best and get out of it. and this one i will actually tell you. because you deserve to know this.

tips for people new to ana/fasting

• leave • leave • get help before it’s too late • leave • delete this app • LEAVE

Me: (gets up too quickly)

*vision gets fizzy* *brain gets dizzy*

Me: (humming the line from I/me/myself) I've been feeling lightheaded... Since I lost enough-

Me:

Me: OH THAT'S WHAT HE MEANT BY-

Me:

Me: "light hearted since I gained enough weight back to cover my-" oh my fucking GOD that's about recov-

Me:

Me: wait shouldn't skeleton appreciation day have just given it all away?

Okay, so I just started reading snuff (the discworld novel), and I just came across the point where Sybil explains to vimes why the reason there's professional distance between house workers and the people they work for is that before that was a thing, rich men used to abuse their position to behave super inappropriately towards the women they employed to work in their homes, and I was just like... Couldn't pick a worse time to read this, could I? Or maybe better, who knows

"There's no thought crimes and no thought heroisms" is honestly such a good piece of life advice.

You could be having the most fucked up problematic thoughts 24/7 but if you treat people with kindness, the good you do is the only thing that matters. But if you have only the purest thoughts and all the correct beliefs, it doesn't matter one bit if you spend most of your time being an asshole to people.

Would anyone like to go over the musical script I made as... Basically a fanfic plot, using "the normal album"? and when you look at it, try and find things to give me useful feedback for? If so, dm me and I'll send you a link to the current version of the document.

Just had a dream where Monty had a proana twitter account. The fuck?

Edit: okay so I'm gonna turn it into a fanfic. Someone help me with planning out the plot? If you're into that, dm/comment that