I Hold A Grudge Against My Life

I hold a grudge against my life

I hold a grudge against the people

Our dreams were never considered

Our hopes never enough

I didn't think life was this way

I guess I was wrong

I pray for a shelter to put my head

And pray for time to stop

“It gets hard to just sit still sometimes, you know? My mind wanders a lot, it always ends up thinking about everything that was or is or could be. On rare occasions, I think of you and when I do I see you reading, laughing, talking, the things I imagine you would be doing right now. I try to ward it off by thinking of the bad you did but I find myself forgiving you just to catch these glimpses, smiling to myself like a fool. Pathetic right?”

— my journal entries

Materialism is what drives this world around...

Maybe you have to know the darkness before you can appreciate the light.

— Madeleine L'Engle

💞

* dark and light *

I am dark

which surround the stars

and the pale moonlight

I am the vibrant sun

which exists

in the midst

of that very

same sky

to fully love

is to love

wholeheartedly

into the very depths

with complete

understanding

of both

dark and light

so please,

love all

that I am

or walk away

and don’t love

at all

Pic credit - wildheretic

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“There must be a stronger foundation than mere friendship or sexual attraction. Unconditional love, agape love, will not be swayed by time or circumstances.”

-Stephen Kendrick