Apathy - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
I will never be good enough for You
You, the one who was supposed to have unconditional love
I'm stuck chasing/loong for love that is supposed be there from birth
a new day
my eyes peel open.
they lift the weight of my sleep
with no small effort.
bleary vision clears.
6 P.M. , violet sun-set.
i'm awe-struck, briefly.
Apathy bleeds through.
oblivion waits for me.
i go back to bed.
I love how the mentality that's been pushed lately on social media has been one of "being in your you era" or "entering your villain era" or worst of all "not owing anyone anything" which, as I've mentioned in a previous post, is nothing more than the same hyper-individualistic self-isolation, and apathetic mindset that many gymbros participate in that's simply being repackaged and marketed femininely as "self-care".
Meanwhile, and not to sound like I'm "not like other girls", the mindset I've been in has been one that's completely the opposite in which I seek to strip myself of any and all egoistic tendencies, while simultaneously looking towards those who are very talented and skillful but are low-key and humble about it as inspiration for what I one day aspire to be.
APATHY
The middle part that
My mom's so sure
Makes me look aged.
The girl my age
Who has over 2k followers
When I don't even engage.
The minor social interactions
That haven't left any space
For the happy ones in my brains.
The opinions about
How numb I am
People just have to shout.
The things others are doing
That make me feel like
I'm not even persuing.
This is to let you know
That I do care
But I don't care enough.
⸸†⭑ ๋࣭ 𝓔𝓜𝓞 ๋࣭⸸†
📎⚰️ ⛧°。 ⋆༺♱༻⋆。 °⛧ 🧷🚬
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Characters: Todoroki Fuyumi Additional Tags: Todofam Month 2020, Jour 10, Apathy, Depression, Non reconnue, Dabi is Todoroki Touya, Personne ne l'a bien pris, pas de beta Series: Part 9 of Todofam Month 2020 Summary:
Jour 10 : Apathy
Fuyumi entendit Natsuo quitter la maison.
Enfin.
Non qu'elle se fût disputée avec lui, c'était quelque chose au-dessus de ses forces pour le moment.
Elle se renfonça un peu plus dans les couvertures. Pourquoi son frère ne voulait-il pas comprendre qu'elle était simplement fatiguée ? Elle ne voulait pas se lever parce qu'elle n'en avait pas envie, pas parce qu'elle était malade ou quoi.
Il n'y avait personne à la maison. Maman avait fait une rechute, avec père à l'hôpital et Dabi se révélant être Toya qui n'était en fait pas mort. Shoto habitait à Yuei et Natsuo au campus universitaire. On n'avait pas besoin de la fille Todoroki, celle qui n'avait jamais s rien faire à part s'écraser et se taire.
Fuyumi voulait seulement dormir, et il n'y avait aucun mal à ça.