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I NEED BRIDGERTON SEASON 3 PART 2 RIGHT NOW ITS KILLING ME

For all my fellow Bridgerton Fans I need to know if I am the only one, but when we are first introduced to Marina’s pregnancy did anyone else first thought she was being raped by Lord Featherington now on my second watch through I can see we’re I misread the signs and obviously that wasn’t the case. I just need to know did anyone else get that vibe their first watch through too?

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Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma sister! reader

Description: Anthony Bridgerton has declared he's looking for a wife. He now has every debutante competing to capture his attention in hopes of becoming a viscountess, although there is not a lot from whom to choose from. However, with a new season also means new comers, and the Sharma family has entered this season.

Warnings: friends to lovers, angst (obviously) , both Anthony and y/n acting like a pair of idiots denying their feelings for each other, fluff, slowburn, roller-coaster of emotions

Note: this is my first Bridgerton fic so excuse me if it's not as great as it could be, I guarantee it will have grammar mistakes or language that was not used back in the 1800s but as I have fallen completely in love with Anthony, I couldn’t resist writing my own fic about him

Status:ongoing

Started: June 19,2022

Finished on: July 1st, 2022

Bold writing +*** = smut

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Part 1 : Introducing the Sharma sisters

Part 2 : The Ball

Part 3: The New Diamond

Part 4: Off To The Races

Part 5: The Poetry Reading

Part 6: Pall Mall

Part 7: Dinner night

Part 8: Inappropriate Encounters

Part 9: Unacceptable Feelings

Part 10: A Swim In The Lake

Part 11: Revelations

Part 12: She Knows

Part 13: A New Plan

Part 14: Another Scandal

Part 15: A New Step ***

Part 16: New Beginnings

Part 17: Make Him Chase

Part 18: Finally

Epilogue

Bonus chapter 1 ***

Bonus chapter 2

*they will also follow the storyline from s2 apart from a few things I will change or that I will add

The ball

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Warnings: unedited, probably bad grammar, probably is cringy

Word count: 2.4k

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Kate and I are roaming around the garden, Newton trudging in front of us. I breath in the fresh air, closing my eyes for a minute. I open my eyes and turn to look at Kate, who is staring emotionlessly in front of us.

“Don’t listen to anything they say deedee” I tell Kate “You certainly need no man to be happy if you desire so, but if you do want a husband and no one wants to court you because of your age, then it is their loss. Because they choose not to court a strong, beautiful, kind woman that could make them the happiest they could ever be. Age should not even matter to find love.”

She smiles at me fondly “You are very mature for a young lady of one and twenty”

“Although it is not exactly love everyone is looking for now. Women are looking for a rich husband, someone who can buy them beautiful things, no matter how old they are. And men are looking for a young beautiful woman who can give them heirs and look good in their arms” I say frowning “All I want is a husband that loves me as I love him, a love like the kind that is in the books I read. Someone who cares about my personality and not how I look, that pays attention to the little things about me”

“Society certainly is now after materialistic things, but I have no doubt that you will find the man you are looking for Bon, you are such a magnificent woman, as you said to me, I now say to you, anyone will be lucky to have you and your love” Kate rubs my shoulder comfortingly before pulling me into a hug

“Now, let’s head back inside that we have to get ready for the ball”

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“it will be most wonderful, I can already feel it” I cheerfully tell Edwina who laughs as we walk towards our bed chambers

“Just imagine the music, dancing across the room, the gentlemen-“I stopped walking “The gentlemen, I do hope they are not terrible people, I do hope everyone likes us, what if they do not like us and nobody courts us the whole season, we will return to India without a husband, of course, maybe Lady Danbury will offer to house us for another season and it is not the end of the world if we don’t find a husband on our first season but-“

“deedee” Edwina chuckles nervously “Stop with the negative words, You will make me nervous”

“Sorry” I apologize as we entered our bed chambers.

Kate stood in front of the mirror, looking at a dress she held in front of her body. Edwina and I looked at eachother happily.

“Are you thinking of wearing that one?” Edwina speaks up startling her. Kate turned around, the dress now on her hands before she put it on the davenport. “it is quite beautiful “

“No, these are for you both, we have come to London to find you both a husband, not mine” She says firmly

“Yes, Yes, you are but a old maid” I say teasingly sitting down.

“uh, who shall be perfectly happy doting on my many nieces and nephews one day soon, I shall spoil them exceedingly, you both do know that, yes?” Kate answers, Edwina gives her a small smile before looking down “What is it?”

“i- it is just an observation y/n made. Only hope they like us tonight”

“How could they not” Kate says as she grabs Edwina’s hand, tugging her to sit on the bed

“Mama is doing that thing she always does when she is worried, the gossip she endured after marrying apa had to be unbearable, do you not think?” Kate sighs at Edwina’s comment

“Is this what troubles you, that was many years ago” She frowned

“Everyone will still have questions, about our family, about how you, y/n and i are related-“

“We are sisters” I cut Edwina off “this place may feel different, but it will never see the way we see each other” I stood up and walked towards them, I sat on the other side of Kate, she nods

“Besides, you heard Lady Danbury, she will smooth everything over, she is on our side” She grabs a necklace and holds it over Edwina’s neck

“The dowager is more formidable than I imagined” She smiles and then turns to us both “ She will have both of your heads when she learns of your secret morning ride” I groaned

“We are certain no one saw us” I assure her

“Never mind her, the dowager is not as half as frightening as she thinks she is” Kate says making us all laugh “You must be excited, this is the chapter of a happy story”

“All we have to do this evening is remember what you are looking for” I say determined

“Someone charming” Edwina says

“And handsome, of course” I add cheerfully

“A prince, or a Duke perhaps” Edwina finishes, I shook my head

“I don’t care about their title” I say thoughtfully “As I have said a dozen times before, I just want a man who loves me, it is not a man’s appearance or title that will woo me, it is his mind and spirit that will captivate me, we will speak in a manner that only my heart can hear”

“that is the true love that you deserve” Kate smiles at me softly before we turned to look at the door from where a few maids entered

Kate stood up and picked up 2 dresses “Both of these?” we all nod “they will not be ready” we laughed and stood up to get ready

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We were now riding on the carriage on our way to the ball. Once we got to the entrance, we got off one by one before we started to walk inside. I was in the middle while Kate and Edwina were on either side of me, Lady Danbury and Mama behind us.

We looked around the garden amazed, a lot of people littered everywhere. Once the door was opened for us, we walked inside where we saw people dancing, and a more beautiful ballroom. A wide smile graced my face as I looked around.

“Just remember to breath Bon” Kate told Edwina who looked nervous

We heard Lady Danbury exclaims from behind us, then she started to walk to the side, us following her behind.

“The Marquis of Ashdown, a little young, to be sure, but he has 10,000 a year” Lady Danbury said then looked towards another man “ The earl of Gloucester, his wife recently died of influenza” she informs us

“He might make a particularly estimable addition to your dance card this evening, Miss Sharma” She told Kate

“ I will not be taken to the floor tonight, Lady Danbury” Kate said

“Is there someone back home you've yet to tell me about?” She says questioningly

“You know, Lady Danbury, that is something I particularly ask myself” I say teasingly, Kate rolls her eyes playfully at me

“come now, I am long past all of that, the only match I am interested in is for my sisters, they trust me implicitly” She says sharply “now what about the Duke of Suffolk? According to Debrett’s, he should be quite the catch this year”

“The Duke flaunts his mistresses, I assure you, Miss Sharma, I have our prospects well in hand, ah there She is” Lady Danbury says looking in front of us

Lady Danbury walks towards the queen who seems to have arrived, mama follows her, beckoning us to follow

“So what is your thoughts so far?” Kate asks us both as we walk behind them

“It is amazing” I say in awe

“It most certainly is, the only thing left is that someone asks us to dance” Edwina says

“Your Majesty, may I present, Lady Mary Sharma, whom you must remember” Mama bows her head

“And may I present her daughters, Miss Sharma and Miss Y/n and Edwina Sharma, my personal special guests for the season” we bow our heads in greeting, Edwina and I smiling happily

“A high honor indeed, I hear you have made quite a long journey here to join us after all those years, Lady Mary, if only you had extended the courtesy of offering your queen a final farewell before you left” and with that, the queen turned and walked away

“Oh I do relish a challenge ”Lady Danbury nods

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We now stood to the side of the dance floor, looking at all those couples dancing when suddenly a hoard of debutantes started to crowd around someone, I looked carefully, trying to decider who was it.

“I know that gentleman” I said once I saw his face, they turned to look in the direction I was looking at

“The viscount, I do not believe I’ve yet made an introduction” Lady Danbury furrowed her eyebrows as my face had gone pale at my mistake

“Of course, it must be her mistake” Kate tried to remedy what I had done

“Though she has quite the eye, Viscount Bridgerton is wealthy, well connected and from one of the tons most illustrious families, apparently hoping to marry this season, he may very well be our most eligible bachelor indeed” Lady Danbury remarks

“He is very handsome” Edwina observes

“hey!” I exclaimed playfully “I saw him first” I grinned nudging her, making her laugh

“Alright, alright, you saw him first” She concedes

“Lord Corning, I was hoping to see you this evening” Lady Danbury said once a tall young man walked towards us “ allow me to introduce Miss Sharma and Miss Y/n and Edwina Sharma” we bowed for what felt the million time this evening

“It is a pleasure, Miss Edwina, would you honor me with a dance?” He asked Edwina

“Corning you said?” Kate affirms looking at Lady Danbury

“The baron corning”

Edwina looks at us for affirmation, I give her a reassuring smile while Kate nods.

“I would be delighted, My lord” Edwina smiles at him before she grabs his hand and he leads her to the dance floor

“I do not recall reading of Corning’s family in my research” Kate frowns

“It does not matter what you have and have not read, it is unacceptable here for a lady to decline a dance with a gentleman unless she is already reserved by another, I see we have much to learn” Lady Danbury then leaves, mama rubs Kate’s arm reassuringly before following behind her. I look all over the dance floor, before I see a familiar face. A small smile on my lips before I cough.

“I am going to walk around the room, I’ll see you later, yeah?” I leave Kate no time to answer before I walk away, and closer to where I saw the man, I now knew to be Viscount Bridgerton, dancing

I walk closer to be able to see him clearly. He seems to be frustrated with his dance partner, although I feel sorry for her, it is quite funny seeing his frustration. I see him stop before he bowed and took the lady out of the dance floor. I followed after him.

“Strange man from the park” I remarked once I was near him, he turns to me, annoyance plastered on his face before it faded away, a small smile replacing its place

“Young lady who can be taken advantage of” he says back

“That was quite the dance” I tilted my head to the dance floor, he chuckles softly

“You saw that” he shook his head sighing

“hard not to, most certainly the highlight of my night so far” I laugh remembering what took place a few moments ago

“Glad you found my suffering amusing” he looks at me

“My sincere apologies Mr…” I trail off, although I knew who he was, I wanted him to introduce himself

“oh, Viscount Bridgerton, miss…” now it was his turn

“Miss Y/n Sharma, my lord” I smile at him, making him frown confused

“You do not seem impressed nor did you throw yourself at me” he says shocked

“I do not care about a title, but instead about his mind and personality” he raises an eyebrow intrigued “or was I supposed to? In that case…”

“Oh lord Bridgerton, make me your viscountess, I will make the perfect wife and give you the most beautiful heirs and we will live happily in your grand house” I exclaim cheerfully making him laugh

“You are most intriguing indeed” he says chuckling at my imitation, I chuckled along with him

“Miss Sharma” someone says in front of me, I turned to look at a young gentleman “Lord Briar. Would you honor me with a dance?” I smile delighted at my first dance of the evening

“If you excuse me, my lord” I tell viscount Bridgerton, who gives me a small smile “ I would be delighted” Lord Briar then leads me to the dance floor, leaving the Viscount alone.

We dance a few minutes before we departed and I walked towards Lady Danbury, who was talking to a woman near the refreshments table.

“Ah, Miss Sharma” Lady Danbury remarks once she saw me “ This is Lady Bridgerton, Lady Bridgerton, this is Miss Y/n Sharma, one of my guests this season” I bow

“It is a pleasure to meet you, Lady Bridgerton” I smile happily. We make small talk before Kate came, dragging Edwina along.

“Lady Danbury” Kate says “ we wish to leave”

“Miss Sharma, allow me to introduce to you-“

“charmed, my mama is already in our carriage, we will see you at home, people are watching, my dear, you are clearly upset” Lady Danbury whispers as I watch with a frown

“what is clear is we are woefully unprepared to navigate this lions den, I am sure Edwina and Y/n’s presence will only make them that much more desirable” Kate says seriously

“It truly was a magnificent soiree, Lady Danbury, we are most grateful” Edwina says as Kate tugs at her hand to walk away

I stood next to Lady Danbury, looking conflicted as to whether leave with them or stay with Lady Danbury.

“Go along dear, It is alright” Lady Danbury sighs

“I was delighted to make your acquaintance, Lady Bridgerton” I smile at her sheepishly “ Lady Danbury” I bow before leaving after Kate and Edwina.

Off To The Races

Summary: It is time for the horse race, mend friendships and break them once again when you learn something saddening

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.6k

Warning: grammar mistakes, most probably is cringy

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Dearest reader, it has been said that the competition is an opportunity for us to rise and stand ready before our greatest challenges.

Well if what this author hears this morning is true, then a great challenge concerning this season’s diamond has been set forth, indeed,

Any suitor wishing to get in an audience with Miss Edwina Sharma, or her sister Miss Y/n Sharma, must first tame the rather prickly spinster of a beast, otherwise known as her eldest sister.

Of course the only competition that appeals my attention, is the game of courtship, so best of luck to this year’s player’s, do try not to stumble along the starting line.

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“Lord Lumley, at the top”

“is he not something of a dandy” I heard as I walked down the stairs, I sighed shaking my head.

Another day of Kate and her list of suitors we are allowed to converse with. Honestly, I love my sister, dearly, but she can be quite controlling at times.

“I would use the term, gallant” Kate shook her head

“Is that what you look for Edwina?” Mama asked worriedly, Edwina smiled, looking at Kate

“If Kate believes in him, so do I” Edwina says making Kate smile triumphantly, I groaned.

“Deedee, please” I pleaded with Kate “ Just for one day, let us converse with the gentlemen we want” She looked at me with raised eyebrows

“At least let me,” I huffed “You know I trust your judgement, and I know you only want the best for us but, those men you write in your list are a bore”

“Alright” She agreed making me smirk

“I see you’ve left off Lord Bridgerton” Lady Danbury comments, I raised an eyebrow

“Oh, now he is, what the girls are looking for” Mama said

“Unfortunately, he already has in mind which of us he wants to marry” I scoffed thinking back to his comment on the night of the ball, they looked at me confused “Forget it” I walked to look at a painting, ignoring their conversation

“An oversight on your part, my dear”

“Lord Bridgerton is quite adept to conveying false first impressions”

“What did you hear?”

“He stated rather clearly that he seeks a wife only to fulfill his duty and in fact does not believe in love at all” I payed attention to them again

“Oh” I said raising an eyebrow

“And you find this unusual”

“Most marriages of the ton are in fact mere matters of business, my dear, matters that have been working for centuries, it is the true love match that is quite rare” I huffed once again at Lady Danbury words and turned to continue what I was doing before.

“You know what it is what you are looking for, sisters” Kate addressed us both “You must not forget it, Lord Briar will turn the Viscount into a distant memory, I am certain” Kate addressed me alone now, mentioning the gentleman that she wanted me to see first, I nodded without looking back at her, feeling her eyes on me.

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“Oh yes” I feigned my laughter, as the man in front of me told me a story. I sat on the drawing room, along with my family and Lady Danbury. Suitors coming in one by one.

Although I was not named the diamond of the season, I certainly had a lot of gentlemen seeking an audience with me, almost as much as Edwina, but of course, it is understandable that the people were seeking the diamond’s attention.

Kate walked out of the drawing room, checking the line of suitors standing outside. After a few moments, I interrupted him.

“If you may excuse me, I am going to tell Kate to fetch us some more tea, this one has grown cold” I smiled at him pleasingly and walked away, leaving him no room to answer.

“Did I say something funny?” I heard Kate say on the other side of the door, I went to open the door when I heard someone else say.

“ I believe you did” The Viscount.

“What is funny, my lord, is you here now after not only what I overheard the other night-“

“What you overhead the other night was not meant for your ears”

“-But after asking my sister, Y/n for a dance, and then going after my other sister, Edwina, after she was announced the diamond, you will know that you most certainly hurt her feelings by doing that-“ How did she even kno-

“-I did not mean to hurt her feelings, I consider Y/n only dear friend of mine, even if I’ve known her for a few days-“ of course, friend

“-but also in addition to everything I have now read of you, your dubious and libertine reputation goes before you” Kate finished, then just heard her start to walk inside, I took a few steps backwards, making it seem like I was jut now coming to get her.

“Deedee, tea has grown cold” I told Kate innocently, she smiled

“I will tell the maid to fetch some more, do not worry, now do not leave Lord Briar alone too long” I nodded and walked back towards Lord Briar. Trying to forget the conversation I just heard.

Only a friend

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“It is a marvel you love literature as much as i do” Lord Lumley told Edwina, who were both walking beside Lord Briar and I “Do you enjoy Byron”

“I have read some, my lord, though I believe myself a novice when it comes to poetry” Edwina answered

“How fortunate to have found such a well versed teacher in Lord Lumley, then” Kate intervenes

“And yourself , Miss Sharma?” Lord Briar asked me, pulling me away from their conversation, I hummed questioningly

“Do you read poetry?” He said

“Well, I am more of a novel person, I am afraid I have not read much poetry honestly” I told him as we came to a stop

“Lady Danbury” a young man approached us “ I would be so honored if you could facilitate a proper introduction, I fear my courting card got lost in the shadows of your home this morning” he looked at Kate

“Of course” Lady Danbury smiled “ Mr. Thomas Dosert, allow me to introduce, Miss Sharma and Miss Y/n and Edwina Sharma” we bowed, I looking at him intrigued

“A pleasure” Mr. Thomas Dorset said

“I’m afraid my sisters already have an escort for today Mr. Dorset” Kate informs him. Oh I am so certain he is not here for us, considering how he keeps on looking at Kate.

“That is very well, though I was hoping to speak with you” He said. A smile formed on my face happily, I tugged on Lord Briar’s arm and started to walk forward, Edwina and her escort behind us.

“ How are you finding the day so far, Miss Sharma” Lord Briar said, I smiled falsely at the boring conversation that was soon to follow

“Delightful, truly” I turned my head to look at the race track “Watching some horses race is fun, certainly keeps you on your toes as to which one us going to win”

“Shall we find our seats” Kate approaches us and ushers us on.

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“I cannot take this heat any longer” I complained to Lord Briar who nodded in agreement

We were seated now, I was sat between Lord Lumley Lord Briar, Edwina on the other side of Lord Lumley, and Kate and Mr. Dorset beside Edwina

“The helping of others is a noble interest indeed” Edwina said, I tuned in to the conversation now “Mr. Dorset is much like you in that regard, sister” she looked at Kate knowingly

“Edwina, you’ve yet spoken to Lord Lumley of his interests at all” Kate reprimanded .Lord Lumley suddenly stood.

“Lord Bridgerton” He called out

“Miss Sharma, Miss Edwina, Miss Y/n” The Viscount greeted us with a smile, I simply looked at him , making him frown for a small second “Lumley”

“How surprising to see you here, my lord” I said knowingly, he tilted his head at me

“Lord Bridgerton, allow me to introduce myself, Thomas Dorset” He nodded his head in acknowledgement

“Miss Edwina, I was hoping to call on you this morning-” Lord Bridgerton started

“-My sister is well aware of everything” Kate interrupts

“But I promised my family I’d join them for breakfast, we’re exceptionally close, break our fasts together regularly” he defended himself, I looked over to Edwina, who looked enchanted at what he was saying, I pursued my lips, looking away

“Oh, there they are” The Viscount pointed over to a group of people

“One can tell a great deal about a man from his family, I rather think” Edwina looked at Kate with raised eyebrows

“yes, there are many excellent, affectionate families amongst the ton, are there not?” Kate looked at Lord Lumley

“But none quite as inviting as the Bridgertons” Lord Lumley pointing in front of him, the Viscount holding his hands out happily “ my mother’s been wanting to come and enjoy another tea at Bridgerton’s house for some time, my lord”

“Well we must gratify a wish, Lumley” the Viscount answered making me scoff quietly, jt not going unnoticed by the man himself “ speaking of refreshments, I can’t help but notice the ladies without”

“We are perfectly content, thank you” I said without looking at him

“It is an unseasonably hot day and any gentleman would ma-“ Lord Lumley stood up once again from beside us

“Miss Edwina, allow me to fetch a lemonade” Lord Lumley offered making Lord Briar stand up too, saying the same thing.

“That would be most agreeable, thank you, my lord” Edwina agreed

“Alright I suppose one drink cannot hurt” Lord Briar nodded and left along with Lord Lumley

The Viscount then stepped between the people seated at the first row and sat between Edwina and I.

“It’s a splendid day for a race” Lord Bridgerton exclaimed, I looked at him unamused

I sat there bored, listening to Edwina and Lord Bridgerton’s murmuring “Lord Lumley and Lord Briar seems to have gotten lost on their journey back from the lemonade stand”

“I am sure Lord Bridgerton would be happy to search for him” Kate remarked “It was the Viscount who insisted on refreshments after all” the Viscount looked at Kate

“When the race is set to begin” he chuckled

“Which one is your pick, my lord?” Edwina asked him

“Nectar” he answered “ well bred, highly trained and well favored” I huffed amused

“Nectar, really?” I raised and eyebrow at him, he looked at me

“Yes, I have a feeling about him”

“ a feeling” I chuckled shaking my head

“Pardon me?”

“You simply chose the horse that everyone else has chosen, quite the feeling” I stared at him back

“I made a strategic bet” he defended himself

“Oh so you’ve considered your horse’s temperament, as well as the conditions of the track?. In order to properly assess it’s true potential” I huffed

“Why, it’s suddenly feeling rather warm these days, is it n-“ The Viscount cut Edwina odd

“Nectar is a prized steep” He argued

“Perhaps we should find a little more shade” Mr. Dorset cut in, Kate shook his head at him, amused at the Viscount and I’s argument

“Nectar ran well at Doncaster, but that was a firm course, the weather was much cooler, thus his size was an advantage, today the track is soft and it is hot, meaning he will struggle to make headway, overheat and slow down during the final leg, giving High Flyer, a much swifter, lighter, cooler horse, the victory” I smirked smugly

“You think too much about it” he said backing off from the argument

“And you too little, my friend” I held my head up high and looked away from him

“My apologies for the delay” Lord Lumley apologized as he returned once again, Lord Lumley behind him

“Don’t worry” I smiled at Lord Lumley “ Lord Bridgerton has been keeping us entertained”

“I’m quite certain he has” Lumley replied knowingly, suddenly not that happy with the Viscount’s presence. Lord Briar sat once again on his spot next to me, handing me a glass of lemonade, I smiled at him thankfully

“There is plenty of room, my lord” Kate said scooting over so Lord Lumley can sit besides Edwina. I now squished between the Viscount and Lord Briar.

The bells then sounded, indicating the start of the race, we all stood up as the horses ran. I now finding this day much more enjoyable. We cheered for the horses we bet on

“Good, High Flyer, Steady! Steady!” I cheered, it drowning between all of the crowds cheers

The horses ran, some falling behind while Nectar and High Flyer stood in the front. Nectar then, as I predicted, started to slow down

“Come now, High Flyer!” I cheered as I saw the horse get more closer to the finish line. I put my fingers In my mouth and whistled, the Viscount looking at me astonished

“ Should we separate them” Mr. Thomas Dorset said amused looking at the Viscount and I

“It’s all in good spirit” Kate laughed

“Yes! YES!” I cheered happily as High Flyer crossed the finish line first

“I must say I’ve never bested a Viscount before, beating you feels the same as any other win, but somehow smells sweeter” I said smugly “It is alright, maybe you will win next time, my friend, just let me enjoy this one, although you must be certain I will remind you for many days to come” I smiled at him, this time genuine. He smiled back happily, nodding his head

Maybe I should let this little grudge I held against him go, it is better to have him as a friend than as a enemy

“Alright, Alright” the Viscount agreed

“Sisters, does Nectar not remind you of the beloved horse I use to adore” we both nodded “ do you remember the one”

“Hold on to my arm, I’ll take you down to see him” Lord Bridgerton offered to Edwina “ Do you want to come along Miss Y/n?” He turned to me, I thought for a minute before nodding, he offered me his other arm. I grabbed it before he led us down and to where the horses were.

Lord Briar stayed behind along with Lord Lumley.

“Oh it Is so beautiful, are you not the sweetest thing ” I caressed the horses head “ Look Bon, touch it” I grabbed Edwina’s hand and held it to the horses head

“Oh it just reminds me of our beloved horse” Edwina said

“Does it not” I chuckled

“Although there is some saddening news” the Viscount informs us

“They are planning to send Nectar to knacker’s yard” both Edwina and I gasped saddened, Kate approached us then

“Kate, it is dreadful” Edwina exclaimed frowning “ they say Nectar is to be sent to the knacker’s yard”

“We are leaving” Kate told us both, I frowned confused

“I heard of a sore loser, Miss Sharma, but never of a sore winner” the Viscount huffed humorously

“Do not speak to me, or my sisters, ever again” Kate said rudely

“What has happened?” I asked confusedly

“It seems a second game was afoot today” Kate huffed looking back at Mr. Dorset “and Lord Bridgerton made certain I play the fool, let us go” Kate turned and left. I looked at the Viscount hurt.

“Miss Y/n, I did-“ he tried to explain once he saw my face, I cut him off

“ I do not want any of your explanations” I grabbed Edwina’s arm gently “ Let us go, Bon. And to think I considered you my friend, Viscount Bridgerton, at least for a few minutes” I walked away with Edwina, not bothering to let the Viscount speak

Inappropriate Encounters

Summary: 2 more encounters that lead down to a more dangerous path

Paring: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.6k

Warnings: unedited, probably bad grammar, Bee stings, Anthony panicking, Angry Y/n and bewildered Anthony, encounters that Y/n and Anthony should stop before it gets out of hand

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I was walking around the garden meanwhile Kate was riding on a horse around somewhere. I breathed in the air, it hitting my face softly.

I got to the entrance, where I saw Anthony looking down at the flowers.

“Anthony” I called out

“Y/n” he turned to me “Is your sister..” he trailed off

“She is in her room,” I approached him “Not feeling her best today, it seems”

“What happened?” I asked “You told me you were going to propose to her, and yesterday was the perfect time to do it”

“I did not mean to disappoint her last night when I did not declare myself” He murmured “But she should not be disappointed for long, rest assured I will still propose to her”

“Well you should tell her that, not me” I huffed

“Last night wasn’t the right time, with my brother acting strange, and everyone staring at me, I panicked, my feelings would not allow me to speak ” He tells me as we walked back to the house

“So your feelings are too strong for you now?” I said incredulously

“Y/n-“

“No, no” I cut him off “ You did not see Edwina yesterday night, you toyed with her emotions, she was destroyed, she thought she was not good enough to be Viscountess and that she should have been better, you are my friend Anthony but if you keep on playing with her, I will never forgive you” I snapped

“Without offense y/n, but Miss Edwina seems perfectly capable of forming her own impressions-“

“So now you claim to know my sister better than me?” I said angrily

“I know she wishes to be happy-“

"Precisely" I exclaimed making him look at me annoyed

“That is all I want for her, I know you are a good man, you have been so good to me and with her,” he looked down at my chest, his face paling “but how is she going to be happy if you only delude her and when she is at the peak of excitement , you disappoint -“

“Do not move” he pleaded

“Do not interrupt me, I am g-“ I shook with anger

“No, No, stand still, damn it” he grabbed my hand exasperated

I stayed quiet and looked at him carefully, he was breathing heavily, looking down at my chest scared. I looked down and saw a bee, realization showing on my face. I moved to shove it off.

“No, do not do that!” Anthony exclaimed, I did it anyway, waving the bee off

“It will be fast and it will not- ow-“ I exclaimed in pain as the bee stung me. Anthony started breathing more heavily, panic in his eyes.

“Are you hurt?” He asked

“What?” with the pain I felt, I did not pay attention to what he was saying

“Can you breath?!”

“Anthony, I am fine, I have gotten stung before” I tell him

“Are you certain?!”

“Of course I am certain, Anthony-“

“No, No do not-“

“Anthony!” I looked all over his face, trying to think of something to do to help him with his panic attack

“I am unharmed” I shook my head trying to reassure him

“I am unharmed” I thought for a minute before grabbing his hand and putting it on top of my chest, on top of my heart.

“Anthony” I stepped closer, grabbing his other hand and, intertwined with mine and put it, this time on top of his heart.

“I am fine” I look at him sadly “Listen to me, I am fine” he nodded looking intensely into my eyes, trying to calm down

“Feel my heartbeat” I urged him, he rested his forehead next to mine, concentrating on my heart “Breath” he looked back into my eyes, his face getting closer to mine.

We jumped apart when we heard horses nearby and people talking. Anthony assessed me one more time before he walked away. I sighed, closing my eyes, thinking back to a few moments ago and that if we did not hear the horses, we could have possibly k-

I cannot possibly fall in love with Anthony, it is absurd, we are just friends, he is my sister’s suitor, no, just no.

I picked up my gloves, that seem to have fallen, from the floor, before running quickly to the nearest wall.

But I cannot ignore the way my heart raced as our faces neared each other.

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I stare out the window, deep in my thoughts.

“Deedee? Is it the sting” Edwina said, I turned my head quickly towards her

“What?” I panicked thinking that she found out about what happened between Anthony and I “Whatever do you mean?”

“Is it still bothering you?” She clarified “seems ever since the awful creature stung you, you’ve been keeping to yourself” I shook my head

“No, not at all, bon” I tell her standing up

“Are you sure? You have been very pensive lately” Kate comments “Did something happened that you did not tell us about?”

“No, nothing happened, why?, should something have happened?” I rambled “Anyway, how are you Edwina, are you still feeling upset about Anthony’s lack of action”

“His mind also seems elsewhere lately, I thought I’d be announcing an engagement at tomorrow night’s ball” Edwina sighed

“We return to Mayfair in a few days, where there will be many other suitors” Kate said cheerfully

“Suitors will only suspect that there is something lacking in me when they discover the Viscount is no longer interested” Edwina snapped

“Bon,-“ I huffed smiling, going to hold her hand in reassurance

“He is the one I want, Y/n” My smile faded as she pushed my hand away “The Viscount, his family, this home, the life he offers me” Kate and I stayed quiet

“I’ve been thinking and, I am now quite certain I know why he has not made his declaration” I looked up at her “It’s because of you both”

“Kate, you hate one another and Y/n, he has seen how hostile you’ve been towards this past day and has regrets his decision on proposing to me” I sighed in relief

“I am sure that is not why” I assured her “ Anthony knows I am still his friend, and even if I am hostile towards him for 1 day, it would not change his mind”

“And hate probably too strong a word” Kate adds

“It is clear from your exchanges with the Viscount, that he shares your feelings” Edwina says “All this time I though I needed your help getting him to fall in love with me-”

“You know how Anthony feels about love, bon” I remind her, she only gives me a look

“Maybe it is something I can change” Edwina wonders making me laugh

“I love you Bon, but nothing and no one will change his mind, not even you, I know him and he told me so” I murmured

“That is why, you, are going to help me win over his heart” Edwina smiles, I looked at her shocked

“I beg your pardon?”

“You, will spend more time with the Viscount, tell him nice things about me, and subtly convince him to propose”

“Edwina I can-“ I start

“Please” She begs “I really want to become his wife” I looked at Kate asking for help, she only shrugged.

“fine” I agreed, she squealed in delight and hugged me tightly.

What have I gotten myself in to?

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“Y/n!” Edwina calls out to me when she sees me

I smile and head over to where she is sat at, Anthony seated to the side of her.

“It has been a wonderful evening” i laugh “Little Auggie is the sweetest baby ever, he definitely gets that from his mother, although I have not met his father, the Duke, so I cannot be completely sure” I said sitting down opposite of Anthony, nodding at him in acknowledgement

“Did you tell the Viscount about your bee sting?” Edwina said

I sighed amusedly “ I got stung”

“Ah” Anthony said as if he did not know, I nodded

“I am well” I looked at Edwina

“Ah” He said once again, looking at me

“Y/n was telling me how eager she was to see more of the grounds of this magnificent estate” She informs him

“I was?” Edwina kicked my foot under the table, giving me a look “Yes, I was, you know I like to explore all kind of magnificent places” he nodded

“Might you give her a tour today while I spend time with the ladies” Edwina insinuates

“Uh i-“

“I am certain Lord Bridgerton is occupied with other guests” I said chuckling

“Shooting, in fact, with the other gentlemen” He said “the party is to leave quite soon, I am afraid”

“Did you know, Y/n, is an excellent shot, Kate taught her, after all” Edwina smiled

“I am sure she is” I raised an eyebrow

“Are you all set for the hunt brother?” Benedict approached us, patting Anthony’s shoulders

“Y/n! Tell him how you used to shoot all the time with Kate” Edwina urged me

“Miss Edwina” Anthony chuckled

“She is just being modest”

“Do you not think it true?” I asked getting angry, seems like ever since a few days , our friendship has gotten closer and closer to being non-existent. Why? Who knows

“Perhaps your sister aims straight in a field” Anthony started “but surely she would have some trouble managing-“

“Why would you assume I would have any trouble at all?” I raised an eyebrow

“I only mean to say-“

“Because I am a women, is that it?”

“No, no y/n, just only meant that-“ I could hear Benedict chuckling at his brother's expense

“What did you mean exactly?”

“You could get hurt, that is why ladies do not hunt”

“Do not, or are not allowed to”

“I am certain, Lady Danbury can spare a maid to act as a chaperone” Edwina cuts in

“No, there is no need Bon, I would not be able to endure being around egotistical, prideful men who think they are superior to women in every way” I stood up from my seat angrily “ If you excuse me, I am going to talk with the better Bridgerton’s, no offense Mr. Benedict” I marched away huffing, leaving Anthony to stare at me bewildered

“She has grown rather infuriating these past days” I hear Anthony say behind me, I stop in my steps

“Oh, I'll show you infuriating” I start to march back to him, Kate grabbed my hand, stopping me.

"Sister" Kate laughs nervously "Let us go calm down, yeah?" She led me inside the house while I muttered angry things about the Viscount

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I lay in my bed, late at night, rain pouring down. I stared at the ceiling. Once thunder sounded again, I stood up carefully.

“Bon?” I hear Kate whisper

“I’ll just be going outside for a little, I won’t be long” I whispered back

I walk down the corridor, until I found the library, opening the door and entering after, leaving the door slightly shut so as not to wake anyone up with the noise it would make. I neared the bookshelf’s and grabbed a book. The door opening behind me full once I did so.

“Anthony” I turned around and looked at who entered

“I did not mean to startle you” He said “I saw a light and thought I let a candle lit” he explained

“No, only me” I stepped down from the stool

“Could you not sleep?” He asked, I stayed silent “If your lodgings are not comfortable-“

“No, it is the storm” I tell him “I’ve always found them unsettling”

“I was 12 when apa died, but I remember he used to read to my sisters and I during monsoons, now the rain makes me think of him” I approached him, he grabbed the book I was holding, grabbing it carefully

“This was my father’s library, these books were some of his most treasured possessions “ I stayed quiet

“I apologize for this afternoon, I did not mean to offend you in anyway,” he apologizes “it just is not appropriate for a lady to hunt around a bunch of me, that is not how the rules work” and there he goes again

“Ugh you and your rules” I scoffed, he started to get frustrated, I looked out the window

“Perhaps if you’ve not been out once again the other morning, we might not have been put in such a difficult situation” I looked at him once again

“Exactly which difficult situation are you referring too?” I scoffed

“Your-“ he stopped himself, I raised an eyebrow “The other morning” he nodded as if that made everything clearer

“When I was stung?”

“After which you put my hand to your bosoms”

“To show you I was unharmed, you were overcome, and I did not put your hand on top of my bosoms, it was my chest!”

“I was not!”

“You were the one who then looked at me”

“You looked at me!”

“Not in the way that you did”

“How did I look at you?” I stayed silent, us looking at one another, breathing heavily

“Alright” Anthony sighed “ Let us not fight, let us just forget about that accident and not speak about it anymore” I nodded agreeing

After a moment, he spoke up once again “I will need help proposing to your sister”

“I don’t really know how Edwina wants to be proposed to” I mused, he hummed

“How would you like to be proposed to?”

“Edwina and I are very different, I am not sure what I want is what she wants”

“Just answer my question”

I thought for a minute “I would like it to not be a big thing, the moment being private between us both or at least with just our families present. It does not matter if he gives me flowers or not, but it would be nice, Lilacs, especially, my favorite, symbolic of first love ” He nodded

“Although I am not sure if I would be able to marry, I would like to , yes, but I am not sure how” I admit

“What do you mean?”

“There is the matter of my dowry” I answer “ It is just mama, my sisters and I, we do not have any title or money, and no one will want to marry me without a dowry-”

“I would” I looked at him surprised “ I mean I would marry your sister regardless if she has a dowry or not, I have enough money as it is, I do not need more”

“Edwina is very fortunate” I smiled slightly

“And you need not worry” he assures me “ When I marry your sister, I myself, will provide you with a dowry”

“Are you serious?” I gasped

He nodded “Of course, we will be family and besides that, you are my friend” I laughed happily and hugged him, he gasped surprised, while I muttered thank you’s

“Once again, my sister is very fortunate that you are pursuing her” I pulled back from the hug and smiled at him as he stared at me.

My smiled faded as he continues to stare at me intensely. My eyes trail all over his face, before they stop on his lips for a second. I can feel him getting closer, his breath fanning my face as my heart starts to race. I look back up to his eyes, he leans in before a thunder interrupts the moment.

“Oh” I gasped pulling back “ This is not appro-“

“No, it is ok-“

“I should bid you goodnight” I say and bowed

I march out of the room and into my bedchambers, trying not wake my sisters up. I lean against the door, trying to calm my racing heart.

I am heading down a dangerous path, and I should stop before it gets out of hand.

A Swim In The Lake

Summary: uh oh, a new suitor has come for Y/n, a Duke to be precise, how does Anthony feel about this? Guess we'll find out, you know you love me, xoxo imalexaalonso1

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 1.9k

Warnings: unedited, a wet Anthony 😗😉, a little, sprinkle, dust, of angst, also, a new suitor that will change things between y/n and Anthony

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The frenzy competition, the thrilling delight of hassling your all, I am referring no to the lure of London luxurious gaming halls, but to a gamble of far higher stakes.

Matrimony.

For, once that particular wager is placed, it cannot easily be undone, a fact of which I am sure, is met with both, regret and sheer relief .

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My chest heaves up and down rapidly, I flutter my brise fan, trying calm down.

“Calm down, bon” Kate says from beside me

The doors open in front of us, Anthony stepping through them. He walks closer to us, holding my stare as he does so. My heart races quickly.

“Miss Sharma” he greets Kate, making me look down.

I let out a sigh and walk into the room after him, Kate following behind. Everyone was already sitting. I sit down on an armchair, Kate next to me.

“Now, tell me of your wedding plans” The queen urges them, I look at Edwina and Anthony “There is no talk of a special license, I would hope” they chuckle nervously

“Of course not, your majesty” Mama assures her

“I believe a modest family affair would be fitting” Anthony adds “Perhaps back at the country, at Aubrey Hall”

“In the country” the queen raises an eyebrow “No, that would not do, you must have it here, in town, in fact, I should host the nuptials, myself” Edwina laughs cheerfully. I wipe my hands on my dress, smiling slightly.

“That is most generous, ma’am”

“Most generous”

“But not at all necessary-“

“nonsense” the queen cut Anthony off “ She is my diamond, after all, it is only right I give you both a wedding of that title” I grab a cup of tea to distract myself, swirling the spoon.

“Besides, one could almost credit me, myself, with bringing about this illustrious match” I stare at them as thoughts consume me, thinking back to a few nights before. Anthony looks back at me, sensing my stare.

“Can you believe it sisters” Edwina asks Kate and I “It is like a fairytale come true”

“You deserve nothing less, bon” I smile at her, Kate nodding agreeing

“Nothing less, for a true love match” the cup shakes my in hand, almost falling off.

“My apologies, your majesty” I say

“It is alright, my dear” the queen waves me off “Miss Y/n, now that you are here, there is someone I want you to meet.” I look at her questioningly

“A family friend” She explains “The Duke of Fairfield, I would rather think you both would make a marvelous match” I could feel Anthony’s stare on my face

“I would be most honored, indeed, your majesty” I say making her smile

“Perfect!” She exclaims “He will be there to see you in a few hours, the earlier you get to know him, the better”

“And we may just have two weddings done by the end of this season” my smile dimmed as I looked down at my tea cup.

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“I do wonder about the trim” Edwina said as she tried on a wedding dress “Is it too much?”

“No” mama laughed “ Nothing is too much now that the queen is hosting”

“Let me show you the French tulle” Madame Delacroix offers

“Did I tell you both we will be married by the archbishop himself?” Edwina questioned, I turned my head towards her.

“Several times” Kate mused

“We must find you a dress too”

“Oh, we have plenty of dresses”

“This one must be special” She urged “and y/n, don’t you want to impress the Duke, I’ve seen you both get closer” a smile came onto my face.

Ah yes, the Duke of Fairfield, Louis Matthews. He is a young, handsome man of seven and twenty, he is kind, has a good sense of humor and very attentive. We share a lot of interests and I am sure I would have fallen in love with him, If only I met him first. Unfortunately, I didn’t.

“the Duke will not care what I wear, bon” I mused

“Besides, this wedding is very much your triumph as it is mine” She smiled at me “after all, whatever you said to the Viscount back at Aubrey Hall, clearly swayed him to declare himself” of course.

“I cannot claim credit”

“I shall bestow it all the same, it will be so exciting living in London, the Viscount said there might be snow this winter, won’t that be exciting”

“ May you recall that Y/n and I are returning back to India once you are married” Kate tells her

“But what about the Duke?” She frowns

“I may not even marry him, Edwina, it is not certain” I shook my head, sighing “ And even if I did, the Duke lives in Birmingham”

“But you both will return to visit, of course”

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“Thank you, Clara, that will be all” I smiled at the maid and climbed up the stairs.

I walk past the drawing room before stopping and entering. “Lord Bridgerton?”

“Miss Y/n”

“Lord Bridgerton and his guest are waiting!” A footman stumbles in quickly, growing sheepish once he noticed us all staring at him.

“I see that, thank you” I sighed taking off my gloves

“This is the jeweler” Anthony nods to the man next to him “ We are to have Miss Edwina’s betrothal ring altered to fit”

“I am afraid my sister and my mother have not yet returned home” I smiled

“Of course, we should trouble you no further” he made to leave before the jeweler stopped him

“Is that cake?” He pointed to the table

“It is, indeed”

“lemon? I fancy a good lemon” he chuckles, I sighed frustrated

“Might I offer you some refreshments, Mr…”

“Brooks, only if you insist” he started to serve himself, I sighed and went to sit down on a chair

I looked at the Viscount who paced desperately. He turned his head towards me.

“It is a fine weather we are having Miss Y/n, I s it not?” I raised an eyebrow, humming

“You wish to speak to me about the weather?” I scoffed

“Is there another topic of conversation that would be more appropriate?” I stood up and walked closer to him

“There is nothing appropriate about what you are doing, proceeding with this engagement” I whispered furiously, insinuating about what happened, or what almost happened, between us.

“On the contrary, I believe it is the most proper outcome for all”

“Oh” I say “And what of everything that passed between us at Aubrey Hall?” I whispered

“Nothing passes between us, I am a gentleman, that was something that should not have happened and never will” I felt a sting in my chest

“Is that so?” I scoff to hide my pain “ might I remind you sir, if anyone other than your sister discovered us in that library, that night, then we too, would be obliged to wed”

“Nothing happened in that library, and even if someone else did discover us, they would think nothing of it, I was pursuing your sister, why would I change my mind from Miss Edwina to you?”

I looked at him with hurt plastered on my face, tears sting my eyes. I stepped further way from him, smiling sadly. “Of course”

“No, wait-“ panic filled his face “ I did not me-“

“Miss Y/n-“ Mr. Brooks started

“If that would be all gentlemen, you can wait for my mother and sister if you like, I must bid my farewell” I left the room, ignoring Anthony’s calls, wiping away my tears.

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I breath in the fresh air of the park. The Duke walking by my side. We were currently promenading, Anthony and Edwina in front of us, Kate and Lady Danbury behind us.

“Are you okay? ”Louis asks “You seem a little down” I look up at him, before looking in front towards Edwina and Anthony, and back at him again.

“I” I sighed “ I am so sorry, my mind seems to he elsewhere ” I apologize, he chuckles

“You are in love with the Viscount” he affirms, I look at him with wide eyes

“What? Of course not!” I exclaim

“It is obvious” he chuckles, I sighed

“I am so sorry, your grace, I promise I was not leading you on or anything” I explain

“You do not need to explain anything” he says “ Although, I’ll just say, I do not care that you love him” I look at him confused

“You are a wonderful woman, and to be honest, I wish to marry you” I gape at him “I will try my best to woo you, if only you give me a chance, I cannot make you forget about your feelings for him, but maybe with time you will” I smile happily

“Alright” I laugh “Courtship first, your grace, although I do not promise anything”

“That is more than enough, and you may call me Louis, none of that, your grace, nonsense” he laughs “now, accompany me on a turn around the lake”

“ I would be delighted”

We walk towards the boats, walking past Anthony, Edwina and Lady Bridgerton, nodding in greeting and continuing our path.

“There is something I must admit” Louis says chuckling as we board the boats “I am afraid of riding on a boat”

“Why would you ask me to ride one then?” I smiled confused

“Well I wanted to do something sweet” he complains “ this seemed the perfect thing to do” I laugh

After a few minutes of laughter, jokes and talking. We return back to the port, Louis trying to tie the rope while we talk.

“I see you are smiling, deedee” Edwina approaches us, Anthony behind her. “See the amusements London has to offer?”

“indeed I have, maybe something, or someone, will change my mind, after all” I smile making Louis laugh, I pay no attention to Anthony’s figure behind Edwina.

“I hope I am that reason, Miss Y/n” Louis teases

“ just Y/n, please” I say

“That knot will never hold” Anthony says sourly and goes to help Louis

“It is perfectly adequate”

“Then I must question your skills, your grace” Anthony looks over at me while I roll my eyes “Allow me” Louis huffs and steps out of the boat, holding his hand out to me.

“Pardon me” Anthony says and holds his hand out also, Louis, once again, huffs and withdraws his hand

“the Duke was going to help me” I raise an eyebrow

“Just accept my hand” he sighs “please” I accept it and he pulls me out of the boat.

He holds my hand for a minute too long before I withdraw it harshly, making him stumble back and trip on Newton, who was laying down behind him. Taking Louis down into the lake with him. We all gasp, before I start laughing.

“Your grace, are you hurt?” I ask Louis who is laughing

“I am fine, thank you for asking” Anthony says angrily, taking off his cravat, his white shirt sticking to his body.

“Your grace” I hold my hand out towards Louis “You may catch a cold” he accepts my hand and steps up into the port, I hold his hand and walk away along with him.

“Oh yes, thank you for worrying about me also, Miss Y/n, what a caring future sister in law, you are” Anthony scoffs sarcastically, I ignore him.

I turn my head back and saw Anthony watching us walk away with an unreadable look on his face. I shook my head and turn back around

He is not my problem to worry about.

Revelations

Summary: Dinner with the Sheffield’s may bring secrets forth

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.1k

Warnings:

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“You seem distracted, deedee” Edwina tells Kate

“It’s, uh, just a headache” Kate says and walks over to Edwina after the maid was done dressing her.

I look at Kate worriedly, the ladies maid doing the finishing touched to my hair.

“From, uh, all the excitement these days”

“Is that all that ails you? I have seen how ill at ease you are with the Viscount” I see Kate’s eyes flick over to me “ I was hoping we had put all that behind us now that, Anthony is to be my husband” She smiled giddily

“He has asked you to call him by his given name?” Kate said shocked

“No, not yet” Edwina frowned “It is weird, he gave Y/n the privilege before me, and I, am the one who is going to be his wife” I ignore their talk

“But it sounds fine, does it not?”

“Do you think the Sheffield’s, will like us?” I ask them, changing the conversation “ My stomach is in a knot, wondering what they will think of me, considering I am one and twenty, not married yet, even if it is my first season, and that Edwina was chosen as the Incomparable being younger than me”

“Sisters, before you go, there is something I must tell you both” Kate started, we look at her expectantly

“Our guests have arrived” Lady Danbury interrupts her, Edwina and I looked at each other and smiled, we held hands and walked to the dining room together.

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“Ah, Lord and Lady Sheffield, it has been too long, may I present, Miss Sharma and Miss Y/n and Edwina Sharma” we bowed in greeting

“Oh my dears, look at you” Lady Sheffield smiled “Aren’t they as lovely as the reports say” She looked at me

“Although we were kind of shocked that your younger sister, got to be the incomparable, instead of you” She laughed “Imagine being overthrown by your younger sister, she is the Incomparable and marrying a Viscount ” my smile dimmed at her insult

I looked back at Mama and Kate, they smiled at me reassuringly, I turned back around and got a glimpse of Anthony’s expression from behind the Sheffield’s, his jaw tightened in annoyance.

“We are so happy to make your acquaintance” I said instead, Lady Sheffield gave me a tight smile

“Yes, I am sure” She turned back to Edwina, giving her all her attention “I wish to know everything about you, do enjoy dancing, music”

“You must accompany us to the opera” Lord Sheffield added

I looked between them three before turning and walking back next to Kate, my cheerful mood now gone.

“We have a box that is gathering dust”

“Indeed it has been too long since we’ve seen you both in town, Lord and Lady Sheffield” Lady Bridgerton said

“Yes, indeed it has” Lady Sheffield snarled, looking at mama

“Mother, father” mama greeted

“I do enjoy the opera, My sister, Kate, was the one who introduced Y/n and I, into it” The Sheffield’s said nothing

“Oh, shall we go through to dinner” Lady Danbury cuts through the silence

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We ate dinner, The Sheffield’s speaking only to Edwina, which was a disappointment seeing as I was excited to meet them. But what could I expect from the people that disowned my mother for finding true love.

“Of course, you shall be our guests at the Sheffield Manor, It is nothing compared to the estates of Aubrey Hall to be sure, but I think it a most pretty part of Hertfordshire”

“Do you shoot? We have a fine stock of birds and you are welcome”

“Thank you for the invitation, I do enjoy shooting”

“So does Kate and Y/n, Kate is the one who taught Y/n, and she does enjoy it much” Edwina gestures to us

“How unusual” Lady Sheffield looks at us “ Do they teach young ladies to shoot in India”

“Only the fortunate ones” Kate answers

“Lord and Lady Sheffield, how long do you plan to remain in town?” I ask them

“Well, we will stay for the wedding” Lady Sheffield answers “Imagine, the queen herself overseeing my granddaughter’s nuptials, we should spend more time together, and you tell us all about what you are planning for the wedding”

“May I be able to join you all?” I ask smiling, Lady Sheffield pursued her lips

“You are not the one marrying the Viscount, are you?” I stayed quiet “I thought so”

“Her majesty is so forgiving, after everything that happened”

“Now, now, we are all family” Lord Sheffield said to his wife, who laughed humorously

“Of course we are” she looked at mama “even after our daughter so callously rejected the match we had found for her”

“My dear, we agreed-“

“-Ah and no less, with twelve thousand acres, any other young lady would have fallen to her knees in gratitude that her parents were showing such care” I looked at her annoyed

“This was delicious Lady Danbury, you must have your cook give mine the recipe” Lady Bridgerton interjected

“it is the gooseberry, I believe” Lady Danbury laughs “Lady Sheffield, you’ve got quite the sweet tooth, I do recall?”

“And all for what? A mere clerk, was he? And with a child from a previous marriage to God knows who”

“She did it for love!” I exclaimed, everyone looked at me shocked

“Y/n-“ Mama started to say but I ignored her

“Something which I am sure you know nothing about since you disowned your only daughter because she fell in love? What kind of parents are you?” they gasped incredulously

“How dare-“

“And my sisters mother has a name”

“We could not show our faces in society for years, not that she should care” she ignored everything I just said

“She simply sailed away from all of us with that man, robbing us of our grandchild”

“Grandchildren” mama said “I have three daughters with whom you have had every opportunity to form a connection. But the choice to shun us was yours alone”

“I beg your pardon-“

“Do not think I took it lightly, being cast out by the only family I had ever known. I was heartbroken, indeed. But in time, I came to see, that in your cruelty, you did us all a great service”

“I hardly think this is a proper dinner conversation”

“I completely agree, please collect-“

“When you cast me out, what you did was set me free. Free to raise my daughters far from your constant judgment and craven demands that they should chase wealth and titles above all else!”

“I see where Y/n gets her character from, talking back to her seniors, where is her manners” Lady Sheffield chuckles “You are a fine one to talk. You speak of scoring riches, and yet you have come crawling back to snatch at our fortune”

“Lady Danbury is right-“Kate interrupts

“Believe me, I want nothing from you”

“Oh, you may not, but your daughters certainly does” She points at Edwina and i, we all look at her confused

“mama?” Edwina said confused

“The trust funds we have set up for her, the condition of which clearly states that she must marry a man of good English breeding to inherit. You did not think we would allow another generation to pollute the Sheffield name, did you?”

“What nonsense are you sayi-“ I say angrily

“Oh shut up child, you are the least person to talk seeing as it does not concern you, you are not marrying anyone of English nobility” I furrowed my eyebrows

“Deedee, what are they talking about?” Edwina asks Kate

“What have you done?” Mama snaps

“Anthony, did you know about this?” Lady Bridgerton questions

“I shall explain everything” Kate tells us

“I see this one has inherited your penchant for avoiding the truth, honestly dear, are you even raising your daughters right? Seems Edwina is the only pride of the family. The eldest one, I am not even going to bother saying anything. The second? Has the character of the first, a disappointment, does not even have one single proposal from a gentleman, and was not named the incomparable, which I can see why as Edwina is more prett-“

“That is enough!” Anthony exclaims furiously, Lady Sheffield quiets down “I can only think you’ve been exiled from good society because of your deficient manners rather than any other sin. Since the moment you arrived, you have failed to show the proper respect for the Sharma family, and I will not stand for it.”

“I declare-“

“I will not stand for it!” Anthony repeats “Lady Mary has done admirably in raising her daughters. They are intelligent, kind, loyal women and a credit to both their parents” He stares at me

“And since you clearly do not wish to jeopardize your social standing by associating with such company, I suggest you do not. You may leave at once!” he throws his napkin at the table and stands up

“You cannot be serious!”

“Please be kind to send for Lord and Lady Sheffield’s carriage, they can wait outside, and do not trouble yourselves for an invitation for the wedding, for you shall not receive one”

“This is beyond the pale, and if you think you shall inherit a single sovereign now, you are solely mistaken” Lord Sheffield says as he takes his leave

Leaving us all confused and betrayed by Kate’s actions at the table

“Lord and Lady Bridgerton, I must apologize-“

“We should take our leave” Anthony interrupts mama

“Thank you for the evening, Lady Danbury, it was quite enlightening ”

“My lord-“ Edwina stands up

“Good evening” he walks away

“Y/n, do something” Edwina begs me “Anything, he will listen to you” I look at her unsure before I go after the Viscount

“Lord Bridgerton!” I call out desperate “Lord Bridgerton, I beg a word!” he stops

“We must be going”

“please”

“Mother, I shall meet you at the house” Lady Bridgerton nodded and walked off

I looked around and walked into a room, Anthony following behind.

“You must know, neither Edwina or I knew about what Kate did, coming to England, finding ourselves a match, we had no idea, you cannot be angry at her” I plead

“I am not, I take it both of you were in the dark about your sisters schemes”

“I am sure Kate did not mean any harm, she is not like that, she only wishes the best for us” I cut in

“I take it there’ll be no dowry now that the Sheffield’s have withdrawn their support” I scoff

“You care about the dowry? I am quite certain it is because of what you just did, that the Sheffield’s withdrew it”

“It is regrettable, to be sure, but clearly Miss Edwina and I have both been misled, and it is best to call off this doomed engagement before it is the cause of any more strife”

“Of course, I would never besmirch, my mother and Lady Danbury will make a plan-“

“Anthony!” I looked at him as if he had gone crazy “What is wrong with you?”

“Why are you even suggesting this?” I ask “ Were you not the one who has been set on marrying Edwina, and now you intend to cast her?” He nodded his head angrily

“And do not say because of the dowry, you told me yourself that you had enough money of your own and did not care for something like a dowry” I scoff “So, tell me, what has she done?”

“She has done nothing, it is you. You have made this match impossible” he admits

“Me?! I have done nothing but he supportive of you both” I exclaim

“Supportive?” He huffs “Of course, you were being supportive when you put my hand on your bosoms, you were most definitely being supportive in that library when we almost-“

“I am leaving with Kate for India”

“And it is not far enough!” he stuns me into silence “Do you think that there is a corner of this earth that you could travel to far away enough to free me from this torment?”

“I am a gentleman, my father raised me to act with honor, but that honor is hanging by a thread that grows more precarious with every moment that I spend in your presence” my heart starts to race rapidly

“You are the bane of my existence, and the object of all my desires, night and day, I dream of you,” he walks closer to me “and what i- do you even know all the ways a lady can be seduced? The things I could teach you” his breath hits my face, his lips brushing mine

“Anthony” I whispered looking down at his lips “I did not ask for this, to have this feelings, for you. Hiding them from Edwina. Being driven to distraction every time you enter the room” he puts his hand on my cheek

“Then you agree, it is insupportable.”

“Impossible” his lips meet mine for a second before he pulls away, shaking his head. Tears start brimming in my eyes.

“If I wed your sister, it will bind me and you together for eternity and I will spend every day of my marriage wanting you, dreaming of you, dreading the day when my last thread of honor finally snaps.” He murmurs

“Is that the future that you want for us? For your sister? Because I do not,” he gets closer to me once again “So it is better that we call the engagement off, so as to not hurt her, and maybe, after some time, I can-“

“What is going on?!”

She knows

Summary: Arguments and farewells

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 1.3k

Warnings: unedited, angst, a moment you were maybe waiting for, arguments between sisters, and goodbyes

*Also, i skipped the wedding and instead made Edwina find out about Anthony and Y/n’s feelings that very night, as I couldn’t do that to my Bon. I can’t write what is supposed to be Edwina’s happiest day of her life and make it her worst. So it’s better for her to find out sooner than when she is already at the altar. Although, this doesn’t mean there will be a happy ever after that quickly, no sir/ma’am, there will still be more parts and obstacles to overcome*

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Edwina walked into the room as we jumped away from each other. “I asked what is going on!”

“Nothing is going on, bon, we were just talking-“ I say as she looks at me betrayed

“Just talking, I saw you both close enough to kiss, why would-“ realization crossed her face as tears filled her eyes

“I get it now, all those times you both would disappear alone, you both would be very pensive and distracted, you call him by his given name!” Edwina exclaims

“Miss Edwina-“

“Lord Bridgerton, if you could leave, I would be most grateful”

“But Miss-“

“Now please!” I looked at him and nodded. When he left, Edwina continued.

“I want the truth!” She exclaimed loudly, footsteps could be heard approaching the room. Mama entering soon after.

“What is going on?”

“Oh, suddenly your words fail you, sister?” She scoffs

“Edwina, Y/n, I am not sure what is going on”

“I shall tell you what is going on mama,” Edwina says “ after a time of ‘helping me’ win over the Viscount, all those talks I’ve had with her and Kate, of great, gallant notions and looks between lovers-“

“Edwina-“ I shake my head panicked

“You have feelings for him!” Edwina cries out, mama looks between us shocked “All this time, you wanted him for yourself”

“No, that is not true” I denied

“Oh, you cannot deny it now, Y/n!” She yelled “How could I have been such a fool? You made a fool out of me, again and again! You told me, you told me nice things about the Viscount, made me like him more each, and every single time!” tears drop from my eyes

“I fooled myself into believing you and only the purest of intentions, that your only desire was for me to be happy”

“And you are no one's fool. That is the truth” I plead with her, she walked closer to me.

“Do you love him?” my face paled “You told me it did not matter that he was pursuing me, that you were happy for us, but I saw you, every time, the pain in your eyes but I ignored it, your happy smile… your feelings were strong. Do you love him?” I stayed quiet

“That is enough!” Mama exclaimed “Let us all take a moment to calm ourselves, shall we?”

“Now, the Viscount does not wish to marry me any longer and it is all your fault, I am certain, this has not been the first time you have been in such circumstances, has it?” I nodded slowly, she deserves the truth after all. Edwina sobbed.

“You know, you were supposed to be the one to stop me from getting hurt, instead, you are the person who has inflicted the most pain in me, your betrayal hurts worse than Kate’s” She stormed out of the room, mama going after her.

I breath out, looking around the room before I fall down to the floor, crying.

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I was taking a walk around the garden, thinking everything over. I sit down on a bench, looking at the fountain in the middle of the garden. I sniffle as tears stung my eyes, for what seems like the million time since the country visit to Aubrey Hall.

“Y/n” I turn around wiping my eyes, Anthony behind me.

“You cannot be he-“

“I have just spoken to Miss Edwina, we thought it better to end this engagement” I stayed silent “ She certainly was harsher than I thought her to be, you know she gave me a lecture, said she thought everything over in the night and has come to a conclusion”

“She is braver and wiser than us both, she had the courage to act on what she sensed between us, and here we are, standing perfectly still, having felt it for months, and not even acting on it” I looked down at the floor

“I suffered all this time” I admitted sadly “watching you pursuing my sister, those moments that passed between us and you saying it was a mistake, and something that should have not happened, you proposing to my sister and saying that no one would suspect anything happening between us because of you had the diamond, why would you pursue a piece of coal”

“So forgive me, if it is now my wish, to suspend time, to not start something that I know is inevitable, to distance ourselves, and this time, make you wait”

I walk closer to him and put my hand on his cheek. My eyes roaming all over his face before I leaned in and kissed him.

He kissed me back fiercely, his hands on my back to hold me better, my own hands going around his neck. Our mouths move perfectly in sync, putting all those feelings we held back into the kiss.

He puts his hand on my cheek as I pull away from the kiss. Our breaths heavy as we stare at one another. I hold back my tears as I smiled sadly.

“Goodbye, Anthony” I walk away

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I enter the room where Edwina is waiting for me. She did not turn to look at me as I entered, I sighed sadly.

“Edwina, you must know, I never intended to wound you. I know I should have told you everything, about how I felt” She finally looked at me “Yes, yes, I do have feelings for the Viscount. But they were no match for the love I had, and continue to have, for you. And you must know I will do everything in my power to ensure your happiness”

“Including going back to India with Kate? That is your solution, is it not?”

“I wish to make things right. My feelings for Anth- Lord Bridgerton do not matter anymore” I sniffled

“What is to be of the Viscount?”

“I have told him I cannot be with him”

“Why would you do that? You love him” She questioned

“But I love you more, and I cannot be with him knowing that you liked him, I have hurt you and I will not hurt you anymore, so I will give him up, it does not matter, as long as you are happy” She smiled sadly

“I loathe that you cannot be selfish for once, I am pretty sure the Viscount already told you, I thought about this all night. You told me the very first day you saw him, that you saw him first. You helped me with him, helped him pursue me, and you never once told me you wanted him for yourself.” She said

“Why are you putting everyone’s happiness before your own? Be selfish, for once, go after what you want, what you so very desire, him. I forgive you, didi. But I will need time, to heal, to prepare myself just in case you ever do agree to be with him” She admitted “Think about what I said, yeah?” She gave me a small smile and left.

A new plan

Summary: Both families have brewed a new plan, now let's just hope it works out well.

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 1.3k

Warnings: unedited, bad grammar, more arguments, lingering looks, I think that's all

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“Straight into the fire, a favorite pastime of mine. Now, remember, it was a mutual understanding about a private matter between Miss Edwina and the Viscount. That is all we are to say on the subject” Lady Danbury reminds us as we promenade.

Lady Danbury and Lady Bridgerton, decided to have a promenade together, as if to say that Edwina and Anthony, broke off the engagement on friendly terms.

They announced the end of Anthony and Edwina’s engagement a few days ago, with the reasoning, that they did not share common interests and after some time, decided they would be better breaking off the engagement. Although they were still on very good terms.

The ton has been making snide remarks to us since, although a broken engagement is not unheard of, it is rare, and most of the times, it is always the lady's fault, maybe she was ruined, maybe something was wrong with her, etcetera

“is this truly our plan? Simply to pretend nothing has happened?” Edwina remarks

“We are not pretending nothing has happened, we are choosing to deal with it in private, in our own time. Scandals may cast aspersions, but they do not obligate us to answer to anyone.” Mama answers

“Besides, the ton has a remarkably short memory, with any luck, by this time next week, there will be a bigger story for them to sink their rapacious teeth into. We may find you a husband still, this season, Miss Edwina” Lady Danbury assures

“Miss Y/n” the Duke of Fairfield approaches us, greeting the rest after.

“Miss Edwina, I was sorry to hear about your broken engagement with the Viscount, you both made a beautiful couple” Louis says

“Yes, well, I am not too sure about that” Edwina gave him a tight-lipped smile, Louis hummed.

“May I promenade with you all?” He questions

“Of course, your grace, you are most welcomed” Lady Danbury accepted

Louis smiled and walked by my side. “Lovely day, is it not?”

“I suppose it is” I answer smiling

“I do not really get the people of the ton, someone breaks an engagement and suddenly, it is the worst thing they could have done and they should not talk to those people” Louis scoffs

“I am afraid that is the people of the ton” Kate mused

I sighed and looked around, I stopped once I saw the Bridgerton’s a few feet away from us, already staring at us. Anthony’s stare switched between Louis and I before his jaw clenched. I ignored him and looked away.

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“After everything that happened with his scullery maid last season, and Lord Cho cuts me?” Lady Danbury exclaims pacing around the drawing room before sitting down. We are all seated, Lady Bridgerton, Anthony, mama, my sisters and I.

“We know what we are to deal with, at least” Lady Bridgerton mused

“We shall not remove ourselves from this fight. All will be lost if we run now” I can see Edwina stare at Anthony and I.

“I should like to remove myself from this room.” Edwina stood up to get more tea as I sighed

“Every day that goes by without our altering the ton shared sentiment will harden it”

“Perhaps we need another story as to why things ended” Mama suggested, giving us a look

“We have already started to tell one. We cannot change course now”

“Well, if we cannot speak about the reasons, might we at least act as though they are of no consequence to us?”

“A ball”

“Yes, together. We prove to the ton that our story is true. It was indeed a mutual decision between all interested parties, and there is no scandal or ill will between our families at all” Edwina huffed

“A ball would give Edwina another chance to find a suitor”

“Another ball?” I questioned “So that the ton might inspect this wreckage with an even closer eye?”

“Yes, I think the same thing” Anthony agreed quickly, I looked at him with raised eyebrows, he only stared back at me.

“A ball may very well work” Edwina cuts in, breaking our stare “After all the Viscount and my sister have been so good at hiding their true feelings from everyone in public this far. It should not trouble them to do the same a little longer”

“Edwina-“ I start to say but Newton entering the room cuts me off

“Kate,” I call out as Newton makes his way to Anthony, putting his paws on Anthony’s knees “Newton, off!, Kate, your dog!” I stand up

“Newton, out!” I say and shooed Newton away, Anthony also standing up

After Newton was out of the room, I looked back at Anthony who was already staring at me. I stare back before I looked away, feeling awkward with everyone in the room staring at us.

“Was I truly that blind?” Edwina said shocked “Were they always this obvious?”

“If this plan is to work..”

“I suggest the two of you stay on opposite sides of the room at all times” Lady Danbury separates us with her walking stick.

“I assure you, that will not be a problem, Lady Danbury “ I assure them, I give Anthony one last lingering stare before going to sit next to Kate instead.

“All we need would be for someone to witness something untoward-”

“I beg your pardon, Lady Danbury” Anthony cuts her off “ I do not know what you mean to say”

“What she means to say, Anthony, is that those of us in this room at present are the only ones who know the full truth of the matter, and we would prefer to keep it that way” Lady Bridgerton explains

“If there is so much as a passing look between the two of you, then this plan of ours will be for nothing. Are we all in agreement?” We nod

“Quite, Lady Danbury” Anthony says before he walks away, Lady Bridgerton following soon.

We stay silent, no one daring to talk first “What will you do after, sister?” I look at Edwina confused “After the scandal dies down, will you marry the Viscount or did you just break off our engagement for the fun of it” I look at her in disbelief

“Edwina, why would you say such thing?” Kate says

“I am only asking, so tell me sister, what is it?” Edwina huffs

“You know I did not break your engagement nor did I do anything to sabotage it” I murmured

“Then? Because you said you did not plan to start anything with Lord Bridgerton, so then what did you accomplish with this?”

“Edwina, stop it” mama pleads

“Edwina, I know you are hurt, but that is no excuse for you to act the way you do” I snapped, angry tears brimming my eyes “I did not ask for any of this! And for you to even insinuate it, is just plain cruel”

“You know I have done nothing but want the best for you, all I wanted was for you to be happy, and I did everything so you could be it, even if it meant watching you almost marry the man I had grown to love, so do not. Do not, accuse me of sabotaging your engagement because I did no such thing!” I scoff “You said you have forgiven me and only needed time, I have given you what you asked for, space and time. Thank you so much for being so understanding and forgiving, sister” I march away angrily

Another Scandal

Summary: Maybe Lady Bridgerton and Lady Danbury's plan won't work, after all, it was only a matter of time when a new scandal would rise concerning them

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.1k

Warnings: angst, more arguments *sigh*, at least one happy moment in so long

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“Everything will be alright, bon” Kate assures me as we step out of the carriage. “Just breath and you will be alright” I gave her a thankful smile, holding on to her arm.

“Lady Danbury” Anthony and Lady Bridgerton approaches us, different types of bouquets of flowers on the Viscount’s hands.

“Lady Mary, Miss Sharma” He gave mama and Kate a bouquet, and then moved on to me.

“Miss Y/n..” He handed me a bouquet of lilacs, holding my stare, his hand lingering on mine before he turned to Edwina

My heart warmed at the gesture, thinking back to the night were I told Anthony that, lilacs, were my favorites. He made sure to remember that.

“Miss Edwina, i-“ Edwina handed the bouquet to the footman, I gave her a look making her sent me a glare back

“How thoughtful of you, Lord Bridgerton” Lady Danbury mused

“Now, remember, before we are to sent out our invitations, we must appear to be enjoying each other's company” Lady Bridgerton said as she looked at Edwina “Shall we?” she gestured to the entrance of the museum.

Edwina walked in first, followed by Lady Bridgerton, mama and Kate. I gave my flowers to the footman, before I walked in, sparing no glance to Anthony.

I walked along with Lady Bridgerton and Edwina, paying no heed to the murmurs that followed us as we walked.

“Do not be deterred. If we can put the wedding behind us, so can they” Lady Bridgerton said before we all parted, Kate and I, headed off to see what the museum offers.

“I am grateful for you, deedee” I admit as we stared up at the sculpture of a man and woman “ for your support, all this time, since I’ve told you of my feelings, you have been nothing but understanding and supportive, you have not once judged me for what I did, nor shut me out, and I am grateful to call, and have you as, my sister” Kate smiled

“I know you would have done the same, were I, in your place” Kate stared at me happily “And you have, when everything happened with the Sheffield’s inheritance, you let me explain myself and did not hold any ill feelings towards me. Just like I know that you will be when I tell you that, indeed, I met a man back in India” I looked at her shocked

“I will tell you all about it some other time, for now, there is too much ears around” Kate laughed while I nodded

“It seems both Miss Cowper and Miss Goring are swallowing the story about the engagement being halted due to a mutual decision” Edwina murmured as she approached us

“That is good” Kate says

“Well, I appear to be a very good liar” Edwina turned to look at me “Something else you and the Viscount have taught me, perhaps”

“Edwina” I huffed “What will it take for you to forgive me? Because honestly, I am getting tired of all your snide remarks everything the Viscount and I are in the same place. But you are my sister, and if I must apologize every day for the rest of my life, I will”

“But you cannot say you forgive me and then continue making this type of comments, with the excuse of being hurt. Your happiness is all that has mattered to me, Bon, to us” I gestured to Kate and I “and believe me, I am reaping the consequences of destroying it every second and day that passes” Edwina stayed silent

“ I remember the books you used to read to me from Appa’s library.” Edwina tells Kate “The stories of true love and happy endings against all odds. Now I question if either of those things are true. Do you, yourself, truly believe them?”

“Of course I believe in true love, and happy endings. How could I not?” I answered

“You saw appa and mama, how happy they once were-” Kate added

“What I saw is how even that ended in tragedy. Happy endings do not exist, sisters. At least not in real life. Even if I do forgive you with time, y/n, I am never going to forget, you be sure of that” I blinked away my tears as Edwina walked away from us. Kate rubbing my shoulder comfortingly

“Give her more time-“

“How much time am I suppose to give her? It has been a week and she still is as hurt as when she found out. I do not understand why she is acting as though it is the end of love. Anthony is the first man she has even remotely liked, and has not even bothered to look at any other man, and I daresay, she only liked him because he was the first man to pursue her, and because of his title. I know it is cruel for me to say this, but it is true. She does not love him, if Edwina really loved Anthony as much as she acts like she does, she would only desire to see him happy, no matter who it is with” I scoffed

“She is just seventeen, she has more time to become a wife, or fall in love, so why I’d she acting like love is not real”

“I am not sure” Kate pursued her lips “With time she will forget about it, I am sure, she will fall in love again with another man and we will all go back to how we were before everything happened”

“I really hope so, deedee, I really do” I mumbled

“Now, I will go speak to mama and Lady Danbury” I nodded before she left

And then there was one, one who was seriously rethinking everything she has done since coming to London.

Were those moments I shared with Anthony, really worth it? Was he worth it? Losing my sister’s trust and love over my feelings for the Viscount. Something which I know I will never get back, no matter how much Kate says I will.

I will never be as close to Edwina as I was before coming London. Edwina herself has said it, she may forgive me, but she will never forget, and I know that she will always be reminded of pain I inflicted when she sees me or spends time with me.

I never asked for it, any of it. And if I could take it back, I would. No man is worth losing family over, at least the family that has always loved and supported you.

“Miss Y/n” Anthony snapped me out of my thoughts, I looked at him behind the sculpture. “I’ve been wishing for a moment to be alone with you. To speak”

“There is nothing to speak about, Viscount Bridgerton” I murmured

“We kissed-“

“We did no such thing. Nothing happened between us, how could it?. You were my sister’s intended, there is no world in which we could kiss”

He rounded the sculpture, looking at me in disbelief “Are you quite serious?”

“We, I, did a terrible thing” I stare at him as he walked closer “We should be ashamed of what we did. It was a mistake, it should not have happened at all” he furrowed his eyebrows

“And there is no way it is ever going to happen again” I march off, leaving him behind staring as, this time, it is me walking away from him

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We walk through the Bridgerton house, all decorated for tonight’s ball.

Edwina still could not bare to look at me, and has not done so at all this past few days, unless necessary. To say I was hurt, angry and confused with everything going on was a understatement.

“Well, this is unexpected” Lady Bridgerton mused as we walk through the doors, the place was completely deserted, not a single soul that was not us, present.

“It is still quite early, I suppose” mama assured

“Would you still like us to play, my lady?” a man approached Lady Bridgerton

“That will not be necessary”

“If there’s no need for my presence, I’ll head to my studio” Benedict said, patting his eldest brother’s shoulder “I do not wish to be around such misery all evening”

“Wait!” Anthony called out

“I know of your opinions brother-“

“You will stay for a dance” Anthony pats his cheek “There shall be dancing, a new perspective, yes?” we all looked at each other confused before he turned back to the staircase

“Hyacinth!”

“Yes, brother?”

Anthony puts out his hands “Come down here and do me the honor” I smile as Hyacinth comes down the staircase happily, Gregory following behind.

“Come! Show this dowager the benefit of all these lessons I heat you’ve been taking, Mr. Bridgerton” Lady Danbury says as she puts her walking stick away

“He is much better than me, I’ll say” Eloise mused

“Something lively. A country dance, perhaps” Anthony said as we all grabbed hands, forming a circle. I felt Anthony’s stare at me as the music started, I stared back at him, smiling admiringly.

We separated into pairs, bowing as we started to dance. We laughed as the men walked into the middle of the circle before choosing a pair. I got stuck with Kate and Colin, not that I am complaining.

Now it was our turn to walk into the circle, after, I was still with Colin while Kate was now with Lady Bridgerton. We twirled happily, our moods now brightening. We formed a circle, the men’s turn to walk in. This time, Anthony walked towards me before anyone else could.

I laughed as he smiled smugly, twirling me around, holding me softly, a lot closer than we needed to, as we stared at each other’s eyes. But this was our time to be close without anyone saying anything.

He twirled me around one last time before the dance ended. Us still holding each other’s hands as we breathed heavily. He pulled me closer when everyone was not paying attention, giving my cheek a kiss. I playfully shoved him away, smiling, before I stepped away from him.

“Perhaps a quadrille” Hyacinth suggested cheerfully

“Perhaps, we should start eating some of that food” Colin said

We headed off towards the tables, Kate and I chatting happily as we grabbed some food. I extended my hand to grab a glass of lemonade, instead I crashed into another’s grabbing the same thing. I laughed as I looked up, Anthony’s smiled greeting me. He gestured for me to grab the glass and I did, thanking him

“It was just delivered ma’am” we looked at them to see Mrs. Wilson handing Lady Bridgerton a piece of paper.

“Is that Lady Whistledown?” Eloise asked as she approached them “Has she published, mama?”

“Indeed she has, now we may know why we are the only ones here” Lady Bridgerton answered as she read. We crowded around them as they looked up shocked.

Eloise looked crestfallen as she finished, we looked at each other worriedly as she ran up to her bedchambers. With the mood now ruined, we did not know what to do.

“Should we return home now, bon” Kate asked Edwina as we approached her.

“As if you cared what I would like to do” Edwina answered angrily

“Edwina, this is cruelty-“ Kate huffed

“Do not dare… try to make me out to be the cruel one. I may not know who I truly am, but at least I know I am kind hearted than you” Edwina looked at me

“Have you not been listening to anything I have told you, Edwina, i-“ I looked at her hurt

“Enough, Y/n, you have done more than enough” She walked towards mama

“Y/n, do not list-“ I ignore Kate’s words and walk off outside, frustrated tears falling down my face.

A New Step

Summary: indeed, no one showed up, but, that will not be the end of the night rest assured.

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader

Word count: 2.0k

Warnings: SMUT!!, if you do not feel comfortable reading, there will be this 》♧♧♧♡♡◇◇《 so you can skip it if you want to, no point in saying 18+ cause let's be honest, you're going to read it anyway even if it says 18+. Arguments 😮‍💨😤, a new step for Y/n and Anthony.

Also, this will be the first time I have written smut so, don't judge or make fun. Enjoy!!

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I am so tired of everything, when will I get a break. From everything, Edwina’s cruel remarks, society scrutinizing our every move, trying and failing to repress my feelings towards Anthony. I cannot bottle everything away for so long.

I head off towards the garden’s, everything I bottled up for so long, breaking through. I covered my face with my hands, sitting down on a chair, trying to calm myself down.

“What are you doing out here?”

“My apologies” I say to Anthony as I stand up

“No, no, please, stay” He begs, I sighed, not in the mood to argue

I nod as I sit down once again, he sat down next to me “I am tired, Anthony” I rest my head on his shoulder “With everything going on, I never thought it all would get so hard. Edwina is hurt, makes cruel comments directed at us, and will not speak to me unless mama, Kate or Lady Danbury tells her to. The ton and their gossip…and, we should not be here, alone, unchaperoned” I come to my senses, standing up once again

“Nobody will see us, just sit down ”

“No, you cannot assure that, you already know what will happen if someone sees us here, I will be ruined, and you will get out unscathed, like me always do” I argue

“Must you do this? We were getting along well before you started with your arguments, why are you so complicated all the time, I cannot keep up with you, and you never listen to what I say or ask you to do” He huffs

“Well, I can certainly understand why that would be so troubling for a man like you” I narrow my eyes at him

“A man like me?” He rolls his eyes “Pray tell me, what do you mean by a man like me?” He scoffs

“A man used to always getting his way, a man always used to giving orders-” I explain

“I do not give orders” Anthony scowls

“You tell me something and expect me to listen, I do not and will not do it-“

“Perhaps you should”

“I’ll never listen to you! Or to anyone I wholeheartedly disagree with!” I snap angrily “ The fact it has taken you this long to cone to terms with that, to accept that fact”

“You wish to know why?”

“Because you yourself are complicated, refusing to accept anything that does not benefit you. I am uncertain you even know why” I huff

“I know why”

“Enthrall me with your self knowledge and awareness, oh so mighty, Viscount Bridgerton” I scowl

“It is because I have never met anyone like you” he shakes his head as he admits, I stay silent “ You are one of the nicest, supportive people I have ever met, and yet, you can be quite competitive and challenging”

“It is maddening, how much you consume my very being” he breathes out “My family is on the brink of ruin. I am nearly certain every last one of my brothers and sisters secretly despise me, my own mother, at that. Despite the fact that I have lived the better part of my life for them. And yet still, all I find myself thinking about, all I find myself being able to breath for, is you” I hold his stare

“Do you think that I want to be in this position?” I shake my head, understanding him “ Contending with these thoughts of wanting to be nowhere except with you. Wanting to run away with you. Of acting on the most impure, forbidden desires, no matter how much I must remind myself” He walks closer to me

“I am gentleman, and you are a lady, of that, that scent” he breaths in, his nose brushing my neck making me gasp out “It has remained imprinted on my mind ever since the night of my mother’s ball on the library. Lilies” he whispers out, I stare down at his lips before i look back into his eyes

“You have to stop” he says, I chuckle

“I have to stop?” I whisper humorously

“There is no other course of action to be concluded. You must stop!”

“It has been you” I admit, walking to the other side “It has been you this entire time, spinning my world off its axis, making me hate myself over and over again for having feelings for you when, Edwina was gaining feelings for you as you kept pursuing her.”

“Do you know how hard it was? Pretending to feel nothing for you except friendship, that I felt nothing whenever you touched me, or smiled at me, that I did not feel the desire to kiss you whenever you were in the room. And all for Edwina to be happy” I shake my head “You are the one who must stop, before-“

“Before what? Before we finally give in to our desires? Before we stop caring for whatever everyone else may feel and only care for how we feel?” We stare at each other intensely

He clenched his jaw, breathing out “Please go inside” I furrowed my eyebrows shaking my head “Go. Inside.”

“What did I tell you about you and your orders?” I scowl

He stares at me, shakes his head and approaches me quickly, and slams his lips to mine. I kiss back gasping as he groans.

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He puts his hands on my waist, one of his hands wandering down before pulling my dress up and disappearing under it.

I stop the kiss, I gasp before moaning out as he touches the place no one has ever before, grasping onto his shoulder tightly. He groans, letting go of me and putting his hands up in surrender.

“I will stop”

“No, do not stop” I shake my head, kissing him fiercely.

He kissed me back before turning me back around, kissing down my shoulder, unlacing my dress, letting it fall down once it was unbuttoned. I turn back around, kissing him once again as he takes off his coat. I take off my gloves, helping him unbutton his shirt once I am done, all while still kissing him.

He took of my tights and bottoms as he pulls me down to lay on a makeshift bed, getting on top of me. He kissed down my body, I gasped out as his head moved lower and lower, his hand staying on top of my bosoms. I moaned as his mouth got to that one part where I needed him the most, he opened his hand, giving me something to hold on, I grabbed it, holding onto it tightly as he pleasures me, my other hand going to grab the pillow where I was laying my head on.

I buried my head into the pillow, moaning out loudly. Anthony got on top of me once more, settling between my legs. I held onto his head, my breaths coming out fast and shallow. I kissed him once more, my hands going around his neck to pull him even closer.

He stopped the kiss and started to take off his belt and pants, once he was done, he parted my legs even more, settling at my entrance, I breath out heavily as I knew what was to come.

“This may hurt for a moment” he caressed my cheeks lovingly “I am so sorry, my love” He plunged forward.

“Oh,” I gasped. “Oh, god.” He groaned, burying his head into my neck as his body began to move in an ancient rhythm.

His mouth smashed over mine as one of his hands snaked up to caress my face lovingly. I rose my hips hips to meet his, moving tentatively at first, then with a vigor that matched the desire and passion that was rising with each move of Anthony.

“Oh, God, Y/n,” he moaned, his ability to form flowery sentences completely lost in the primitive heat of the moment. “You’re so good. So good.”

I moaned along with him, closing my eyes, wrapping my legs around his waist, bringing him even closer, him hitting places that he was not before, bringing me much more pleasure

My breath was coming faster and faster, my moans more frequent with every passing moment. Anthony turned my head and kissed me to quiet me down, groaning into my mouth.

With a ragged groan, he forced himself to stop thrusting and catch his breath. “Y/n?” he said hoarsely

My eyes, which I had closed as the pleasure was too much, snapped open. “Don’t stop,” I pleaded , “please don’t stop. I’m so close to something…I don’t know what. God, Anthony please”

“Oh, God,” he groaned, plunging back in to the hilt, throwing his head back as his spine arched. “You’re so beautiful, so unbelievably perfect”

“All mine, just mine” he murmured as he thrust in and out quickly, I dug my nails into his back, moaning.

“Probably could have done this faster if you only paid attention to me before and did not start courting my sister instead, which is now making me doubt if your intentions are pure, now that I think about it” I gasped out teasingly, he stopped moving, looking at me amused

“Really? You want to speak about your sister right now?” He raised a eyebrow, I chuckle “You better stop, or I’m going to have to tie you up and have my way with you a hundred different ways, until you finally get it through your silly skull that you are the most beautiful and desirable woman in England, and if everyone else doesn’t see that, then they’re all bloody fools.” My mouth fell open

One of his brows arched into what had to be the most arrogant expression ever to grace his face. “Is that understood?” I nodded, not being able to form a sentence

“Good,” he grunted, and then, before I could catch my breath, his lips were devouring mine in a kiss so fierce, I was clutching the bed just to keep from screaming.

His hips ground into mine, frenzied in their power, thrusting, rotating, stroking until i was certain I could not take anymore. I moaned out, little screams escaping me.

I clutched at him tightly “I cannot take anymore Anthony, it is too muc- oh!” I gasped, certain I would break any given moment. My muscles were stiff, tense, and it was getting hard to breathe. But if he heard me, he didn’t care. His face was a harsh mask of concentration, sweat beading on his brow.

“Anthony,” I said, breathing heavily “I can—”

One of his hands slipped between us and touched me, I screamed, his mouth covering mine, muffling my screams. He slammed forward one last time, and everything simply fell apart.

I went stiff, then my body shaked, I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. I could not breathe, could not even gasp. My head fell back as her my hands switched between grabbing at the mattress or Anthony, with a ferocity I never have believed I possessed.

Anthony went utterly still above me after he pulled out, his mouth open in a silent scream, and then he collapsed, the weight of him pressing me farther into the mattress.

“Oh, my God,” he groaned, his body now shaking. “Never…it’s never…so good…it’s never been so good.” He kissed me again, lovingly this time, his hands caressing all over my body.

He laid down on my other side, pulling me into him, my head laying on his chest as he wrapped his hands around me. I calmed my breath as he gave my forehead a kiss.

“It is alright, darling, sleep, I will be here in the morning” he murmured sweetly.

I nodded, kissing his cheek before settling my head into his neck and closing my eyes exhaustedly, falling into a deep sleep.

New Beginnings

Summary: A relationship was now mended, cheers to new beginnings

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader

Word count: 1.6k

Warnings: angst, unedited, siblings once again happy, a mother comforting her child

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I opened my eyes, light greeting me. I gasped, sitting up in realization, bringing the blankets up to my chest. I looked down at Anthony who was sleeping peacefully, observing his form.

I was consumed with thoughts, everything we did, everything I allowed him to do, coming back to me. I huffed frustrated, picking up my clothed and putting them back on.

Tears stung my eyes as i realized what I had to do. I could not be with him, I cannot hurt Edwina more, and break what little of affection she still has for me. I cannot completely ruin my family, or let Anthony ruin his by being with me, the ton would create even more scandals concerning both families.

Not to mention that I gave myself to him. I cannot be with him, and any other gentleman will not want me when they come to know I am not pure. I am doing this all for love.

I bent down to where Anthony was laying, kissing his lips softly “I am deeply sorry, my love” I whispered, sparing him one last glance before leaving back to Lady Danbury’s home.

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I entered my bedchamber quietly after changing into my sleepwear. I successfully got to the house carefully, no one saw me entering the house or in the streets. I am certain they think I got home not too long from them last night.

I laid down on my bed, tears falling from my face as I cried quietly. I don’t know how long I spent like that, but a knock on my door snapped me out of my thoughts.

I sat up, wiping away my tears as the door opened. Anthony walking in and shutting the door. We stared at one another silently, observing.

“I want to apologize” He spoke up, breaking the silence “You deserve so much more than that” I stayed quiet, letting him speak

“I took liberties. I.. I did not want it to happen like that, so.. I came to apologize-“

“Yes you already said that-“ I nodded

“And to ask you to marry me.” I looked at him shocked “Y/n, I’m here, and I’m asking-” He took out a ring box from his pocket and opened it, I shook my head quickly

“I do not need you to ask me anything at all!”

“Y/n, i-“

“I cannot marry you, Anthony” I cut him off sadly, my eyes filling up with tears once again, he stared at me confused “I…I wish nothing more than to be yours, truly, but it is not possible”

“Why not?” He said desperately “It does not matter what everyone else thinks, as long as we lo- care for each other”

“I care about what my family thinks. What my sisters think. I care about whether or not I am harming your family’s reputation, or my own families, making Edwina not desirable for another gentleman because of the scandal” I sniffle

“And what about you?” Anthony hummed “ What about what you want? What about your happiness? Is your happiness not important?”

“It does not matter what I want, my family comes above everything, even myself, and I will do everything I can so they will not get ruined…” I looked down at my lap “Even giving up my own happiness for them, so please, do not insist any longer” I swallowed down my tears

Anthony closed the ring box, looking down with a clenched jaw. He scoffed and opened the door, walking off angrily. I finally let my tears fall once he was gone, falling down to my bed.

My heart felt like it was breaking in pieces, pain in my chest but I ignored it. I had to do what had to be done.

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I approached Edwina’s bedchambers, knocking on the door.

“Come in” Edwina called out

I opened the door, Edwina was seated near the window, reading a book. I approached hesitantly, wondering whether I should even try one last time.

“Y/n, wish I could say I am surprised, but I am not”

“Edwina, I know earning your trust again will not be simple” I start “But I am willing to continue to try, however long it might take” Edwina looked down at the floor before sighing

“ I have been cruel…and you did not deserve that as I know you have also been hurt with everything going on just as much as i” Edwina said “so I will, I promise I will, try my best to listen and put this all behind us… I do miss my sister after all. Although, I do have questions” I nodded, gesturing for her to go on

“Was there always something between you and the Viscount?” Edwina asked “Were you lying to me all along?”

“I was not lying to you, only to myself” I answered walking closer to her “Perhaps, there was something between us since the start, but, I did not want to accept it, I refused to”

“But once you were sure of your feelings towards him, why did you not tell me?” Edwina urged “Why wait for me to find out on my own by seeing you both like that, in that room?”

“I was scared. You were gaining feelings for him every day, how was I supposed to tell you I was falling in love with your intended?” I sighed

“It was easy, I have always wanted the best for Kate and you, just as you both do for me. I know I would have not been that happy with you, but I would have tried to be supportive and stopped the Viscount from pursuing me before it got out of hand” Edwina sighed “I feel like we have not been as close as we should even be, ever. I do not know you as well as I should, nor do you know me.”

“Y/n, I am done playing a part. I want to know myself truly, and to know who you are too. Because I am unsure I like the young ladies we have both been playing.”

I nodded happily, feeling a weight being lifted from my chest at this new chance and beginning we are going to try.

“Are we going to bring our new selves, to the ball the Featherington's are hosting tonight? ”Edwina asked, I nodded “I promise I will be more supportive with everything, including about the Viscount and you. Whatever action you now wish to take, I only hope it is because you are thinking of, and being truthful to yourself, not because of anyone else” I nodded pulling her into a hug

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“Dearest?” mama said, I turned to look at her, smiling slightly “ I see you are not yet dressed for the ball”

“I am unsure whether to attend or not…” I answer as she sits down next to me on my bed

“Y/n, I hope you do are unsure to attend because you are not feeling up to a part and not because you want to escape seeing certain people there” mama said, I looked at her, tears filling my eyes “Oh, I hate seeing you like this”

“I really should stop crying all the time, seems like it is the only thing I do” I chuckled amused before it faded “It is my fault, mama, everything that has happened”

“Edwina forgives you. I forgive you, you should stop being so hard on yourself”

“There is a part of me that will never forgive myself.” I sniffled “ I was supposed to help her win over the Viscount, that was going to help our family, and instead I fall in love with her intended and mess everything up”

“You cannot hate yourself for that, it is not something you can choose to feel, and yes, maybe it made everything complicated but as I said, we forgive you, you should forgive yourself and let yourself love him. Because you also deserve all of the love in the world, and to be happy with the man you love” I breathed out as mama wiped away my tears

“He asked me to marry him, Anthony” I murmured “And I could not allow it, mama ” mama looked shocked

“He and I can not be together, and I am pretty sure he was asking it out of mere obligation, because the two of us-“ I stopped myself after I realized I said too much, but mama caught on to what I was going to say.

She nodded, not even judging me, or yelling, nothing, she was just supportive “He does not love me, mama” I whispered

“If he could not love Edwina, who is the sweetest, most kindest person in the world, what chance do I have. And I am certain what he feels right now is just mere infatuation, something that will pass with time” I rested my head on her shoulder “I cannot marry him because he does not love me, although i- I love him”

Mama hugged me closer, rubbing my back comfortingly as I cried into her chest.

“Everything will be alright, dearest, everything will turn out how you want it, be sure of it”

Make Him Chase

Summary: 3 times you rejected him

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader

Word count: 1.3k

Warnings: unedited, fluff, kisses, Anthony being a simp.

1 more chapter + the epilogue, and we're done!

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“Come on, Y/n, cheer up, it does not matter if the Viscount is here or not, you can still have fun” Edwina said, smiling reassuringly as we entered the ball

“You cannot blame me, Bon, along with everyone in the ton staring at us, it is making me nervous” I sighed, holding on to her arm

“What do you say?” Edwina smiled “Shall we take to the floor?”

I turned to look at Kate who shrugged before turning back to Edwina “With whom?”

“Ourselves, they cannot possibly say anything about us that we have not heard before. And should your brush with death not be our best social capital yet?” Edwina pulled me to the floor as Kate laughed standing where we left her.

We danced, I laughing along with her, redness creeping on my face from embarrassment of every staring at us, but I kept dancing still.

I looked to the side, seeing Anthony staring at us. He smiled once he saw I was looking back at him. Edwina followed my stare.

“Do not mind him, just have fun” Edwina chuckled, I looked back at her and laughed as we twirled around

We walked to the refreshments table once the dance was finished, laughing as we talked, that dance brightening my mood. My eyes roamed around the room, Edwina chuckled

“Say what you want, but your eyes always search for the Viscount when you are together in a room, don’t they, deedee” She teased, I shook my head quickly “You will not be able to avoid him all night, and you should not attempt to. At least, not on my behalf. I already told you I am over him, not really sure if I ever did like him honestly and I will be happy for you with whatever decision you make. Be the sister I know that you are, be funny, brave and feeling”

“Be unafraid to follow your heart after doing the exact opposite all this time. No matter what everyone thinks, do what you desire, it is time for you to shine all on your own” Edwina smiled

“Why is everyone telling me the same thing all the time?” We both laughed

“Maybe it is a sign for you to do it” She said before walking away

I turned around, coming face to face with Anthony “Lord Bridgerton”

“Miss Y/n” he bowed his head “I was just on my way outside” I hummed

“I- I should give you, your space, everyone will tall in light of-“

“Perhaps you should not” I interrupted him “perhaps everyone will think that I was in the mood for a dance and since no gentleman is currently approaching us, you so kindly offered since you are a friend of our family still, after all” Anthony smiled, narrowing his eyes before putting up 3 fingers

“How many?” He stared at me adoring

I gave him a look, smiling amused “three” I looked into his eyes, he turned his hand around, putting up one more finger making a face.

We stared at one another before I spoke up “Are you going to ask me to dance?”

“Will you accept?” I held out my hand towards him, he grabbed my hand, pulling me to the dance floor

We started to waltz, the ton looking at us murmuring. The few couples that were on the floor, walking off to not be near us

“Do you want to stop?” I said worriedly

“Just keep looking at me” he twirled me “No one else matters” he stared into my eyes

I looked down at his lips as we danced, my hands around his shoulders while his were around my waist

“Marry me, y/n”

“Anthony…” I sighed

“You know I will not be the worst of husbands, of course I may annoy you sometimes and we may not agree on much, although you may regret your decision once you see the chaos that is my family” I laughed making him smile

“Anthony, you know I cannot” I shook my head

“What is stopping you-“

“Let us not talk of this any longer” I plead

“Alright” he pulled me closer as the music started to go more slowly

He held my hand on top, our faces getting closer as our hands went down, my eyebrows furrowed sadly before I closed my eyes, our noses brushing each other’s before we parted as the dance finished

“Everyone, outside. I have a surprise for you all” Lady Featherington said as she walked into the room. Anthony and I continued to stare at each other, our hands still holding on as everyone passed us to go outside.

The queen stopped in front of us, smiling knowingly, we bowed before her “I may have the wedding I wanted after all, Miss Y/n” She left leaving me to stare after her shocked . Anthony chuckled, I hit his chest

“Do not laugh” I walked outside with the rest, Anthony’s chuckles still sounding behind me, I smiled after I was out of his view. Okay, I must admit I like his insistence, it is no crime to make a man chase after you is there? Makes you feel more important.

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I walked through the garden as everyone walked further on. A hand burst through the shrubbery and pulled me into another path where nobody was able to see.

“Marry me”

“Anthony” I laughed as he pulled me closer to his chest

“Why do you keep on denying my proposal? Your sisters and mother already gave me their blessing-“

“When did you even ask them?” I chuckled in disbelief

“A few moments ago, but that does not matter” he huffs “marry me, stop with all your worrisome thoughts and just accept. I will be the best husband you will ever have-“

“I can only have one husband” I mused chuckling

“Exactly!” He nodded his head “I will be the best husband you will ever have had that you will not even think of having another man as your husband”

“You know, this days I am just seeing a new side to you that I did not even know you possessed”

“Yes, I did not even know I could be like this” Anthony chuckled “ You know what, I do not even care that you keep on rejecting my proposals, you know why?” I hummed

“Because I am going to keep on insisting and insisting until you give in. I am going to pursue you, bring you flowers and properly court you. I will even get on my knees if you want. I will make a fool out myself in front of everyone. Because you are worth it”

I smile before wrapping my arms around his shoulders and pulling him into a kiss. He pulled me even closer, not even letting go when I went to pull back. I pulled away, smiling mischievously.

“Then go ahead, Viscount Bridgerton. I will be waiting. Let us see if you do manage to make me accept your proposal”

I give him one last kiss before walking away.

It is never a crime to make a man chase after you.

hii would you ever write angst about the reader’s accident and how anthony found her?

also keep up the good work!! im loving this series <3

Yes!! It actually has not yet happened, It was supposed to happen after they slept together - *oh my god i suddenly just got the idea of what to put to make it more angsty* anyway , i instead decided to put it in the last part, which is coming out tomorrow, especially because of how in the series, Kate’s accident made Anthony realize how much he actually loved her, and since in my story, they still haven't said I love you, nor has Y/n accepted Anthony's marriage proposal, I wanted to make it more romantic with Anthony confessing how he felt about the accident and all making Y/n accept, honestly, it's just what happened in the gardens at the Featherington ball, just different setting and more heart to heart talk. And I'm glad you're loving the series!!♡♡ Thank you for your support♡♡

Idea for Anthony and Y/N Storyline continued….

- Wedding in Detail (Maybe Anthony trying and failing to see y/n before their nuptials and getting shutdown many a time.

- Wedding Night (wink wink, nudge nudge).

- Pregnancy and Birth of First Born and how they start to see one another in a new light due to parenthood.

- Different Arguments that are almost dumb to have but show that they really do love one another.

- Trying to focus on tasks but they distract each other due to still being in their Honeymoon phase.

Hope this gives some ideas and inspiration!

Yes!!! I absolutely love your ideas and would be more than happy to write them♡

Last and final chapter before the epilogue, coming in a hour or less as I still have some final things to add.

Finally

Summary: the one time she accepted

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader

Word count: 3.6k

Warnings: unedited, angst, arguments, fluff, happy endings.

Series masterlist

sorry for the delay, I got distracted watching the TV 😅😅

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“Miss Y/n, How nice to see you” the Duke of Fairfield said as I entered the drawing room, followed by Edwina, who came to chaperone, he handed me a bouquet of roses

“Your grace” I bowed “Thank you for the flowers”

“What did I say about formalities?” I smiled sheepishly “So, there is a reason I have come here”

I nodded “I figured”

“Have you thought about what I said while I was gone?”

“Uh, I know I said I will give you a chance but…” I trailed off

“I get it, I cannot go away for a few weeks and not expect that nothing has changed” he smiled reassuringly “He proposed, then?”

“I am so sorry, the truth was that honestly, I did not even know if I was going to be able to allow you to court me, and it was wrong for me to agree when I was in love with the Viscount, you deserve a lady that puts her whole heart into your courtship. I could not do that” I explained “He has proposed, but I have not accepted”

“Something that we are very annoyed with, might I add” Edwina interjected making the Duke laugh “He has not stopped coming over everyday bringing flowers, we do not even know where to put them anymore. And I am certain he spends more time here than he does at his own home”

“Oh, do not be dramatic, bon” I scoff amused

“We love it, It shows he is genuine”

“Well, I got the answer I came for, so I must take my leave, I am having Lunch with her majesty, the queen, and she does not like to be kept waiting” Louis said as he went to walk away. I looked at Edwina, who was staring at the Duke and smiled.

“Your grace,” He stopped as I walked closer to him “ It may have not worked with me but… Edwina is a sweet, young lady, it will not hurt to try, will it” I smiled giddily

Louis looked at Edwina, observing her before he smiled and nodded his head, , Anthony walked in as Louis gave me a last smile before he walked out.

“Y/n, Miss Edwina” He greeted as he handed me a bouquet of lilacs

“Lord Bridgerton” Edwina greeted “ We do not have any more free vases, where are we supposed to put this one?” Edwina grumbled as she walked away, leaving us.

“Tell Lady Danbury and Mama, that Anthony and I are going for a ride and will be back soon” I called out to her, I heard her say something in agreement “Are you ready for a ride?” I smiled but his face stayed unreadable

“What is wrong?” I asked

“What was the Duke doing here?” I furrowed my eyebrows at his tone

“He was just passing by, wanting to greet me, a friend”

“Yes, because friends give other friends flowers” he gestured to the roses

“ I did not ask him to buy me flowers, he just brought them to me” I furrowed my eyebrows “he is my friend” I sighed

“You do not even spend time together, how can you be friends?” He remarks, clenching his jaw

“Why are you so mad? We do not have to spend every single moment together to be friends, it was just a friendly gesture, the flowers” I added

“Yes, well if I was the one to call on another young lady, and gifted her flowers, you would have something to say, would you not?” Anthony snapped

“No, because I cannot say anything about who you are friends with, Just like you do not get to choose who I have as friends!” I insisted angrily

“Men do not want to be your friends!” He argued “I know men, I am one myself, I know how they think, and what they want. When they look at you, they do not think of being your friend”

“Why can you not trust me?!” I said

“I do trust you, it is them I do not trust!” We look at each other angrily “Is he why?”

“Why what?” I scoffed

“Why you do not want to accept my proposal-“

“Anthony-“

“No! You keep on rejecting me over and over again, I thought it was just because you wanted me to pursue you, but it has been a week, and you have not given in. But this is just it, is it not? You are just waiting for the duke to make his own proposal, being Viscountess is not enough for you, so what is better than being a duchess? And of course, it certainly helps that he is richer” I looked at him in disbelief

“Do you not know me?” I scoff “You know neither does a title or money matter to me. Why are you even saying this, have you not gotten to know me all this months we have spent together?”

“Yes, well I am not sure if I even know you anymore” Anthony grumbled “Perhaps you never were the person you acted like, and now I got to know your true colors, you are nothing more than the same as the rest of ladies in the ton, all interested in titles and money, and nothing else”

Tears prickled in my eyes “Well I am glad I finally got to know what it is you think about me. You finally found out, what you think I am really like, before It was too late, did it not?”

“And to think I was finally going to agree to be your wife today, thought I made you wait too long, seems like it was the right decision to reject you from the start, after all” I walked away from him, opening the door and going outside

“Wait,” He called out but I ignored him “Y/n, wait”

I ran off towards the stables, and with just my luck, the sky was now cloudy, rain pouring down. I continued down my path, opening up the stables and grabbing a horse.

It did not matter whether it was prepared to be ridden for or not, I wanted to get away from the house, and Anthony, as quickly as possible. I climbed on and nudged the horse to start running.

“Y/n, wait!” Anthony called out opening the door and running after me “It is too dangerous, you can get hurt!”

Rain continued pouring, my body and clothes now wet, and blurring my vision. We trudged through the fields, I making the horse turn to the side, trying to loose Anthony who was now behind me, he had grabbed a horse and rode after me.

“Y/n!” I heard Anthony get closer

I looked around everywhere, trying to decipher where I could go to loose him. I saw a space between some trees, unfortunately, rocks and shrubbery blocked the path. I breathed in, trying to let go of my fear. I urged the horse to go faster, so I could be be able to jump over it.

“No, no!” Anthony yelled frightened “Do not do it!”

The horse stood up on its hind legs, the force of gravity and my fingers slipping off the reigns, made me fall off.

“Y/n!”

I hit my head on a rock, the impact making black spots cloud my eyes before everything darkened.

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ANTHONY‘S POV (3RD PERSON)

Anthony stared at Y/n’s body in shock, his blood went frozen cold, horror racking all over his body as he urged the horse to ride faster towards her. He did not even wait for the horse to stop before he jumped off, running quickly to Y/n.

He kneeled next to her, taking off his coat and covering her with it. “Stay with me. Come on, now” he went to pick her up, his hand touching her head, he stopped himself once he felt something coating his hand. He turned it around and saw blood, his face turned even more pale.

“Stay with me” Anthony pleaded, wrapping her hand around his neck and picking her up

He saw a carriage getting closer to them and walked towards it quickly.

He stumbled through the door of Lady Danbury’s house, Y/n on his arms. “Make room!” he yelled once everyone started to crowd around them

Hearing the commotion, Lady Mary, Lady Danbury, Kate and Edwina Sharma, walked down the stairs quickly, they gasped horrified once they saw Y/n unconscious

“Call the surgeon at once!” Anthony ordered carrying Y/n up stairs

He marched towards her bedchambers, laying her down on her bed, as maids, the surgeon, and her family crowded around the room.

“She has a cut on the back of her head” Anthony informed them “I kept pressure on it, but it need stitching”

“Miss Sharma? Can you hear me?” Anthony stood around the bed as the surgeon tended to Y/n, grabbing anything so he could occupy himself

“She needs more blankets. She is still shivering!” Anthony yelled exasperated

“Allow me to get to work” The surgeon pleaded to him

Anthony stepped back allowing the surgeon his space, his eyes on Y/n’s figure, desperation obvious in his face

“What happened?” Benedict Bridgerton entered the room “My valet saw you carrying Miss Sharma inside, is she alright?”

“I do not know” Anthony answers an unreadable look in his face

“Are you all right?” Benedict asked his brother, looking at him worriedly

Anthony looked away from Y/n’s body, and to the Sharma’s on the other side of the bed, crying and praying for Y/n’s safety and recovery. His eyes filled with tears, a lump forming in his throat as his he felt a weight on his chest.

“It is my fault” his lips trembled “It is all my fault” he felt it harder to breath, his chest heaves up and down quickly, trying to fill his lungs with air.

“Anthony?” Benedict called but Anthony did not hear him and stumbled out of the room, ignoring his brothers calls behind him, his emotions weighing him down, he could even hear his heart beating faster

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“No one cared to inform me that we have lost three staff in the last month?” Anthony Bridgerton said angrily as he walked into the drawing room of the Bridgerton house “These are precisely the things I must know about” his siblings looked up at him startled

“We are not the only ones affected by our ill reputation of late, Anthony” Lady Bridgerton mused

“Colin, would you care to inform me about anything?” Anthony said

“I do not take note of staff changes, brother” Colin answered confused

“What about our accounts?” Anthony raised his eyebrows “Apparently you do not take note of them either since I spent the last two days balancing our books, only to discover that you have taken out a rather large sum, whatever for?” Everyone looked at Colin intrigued

Colin swallowed under their stares “If you must know, I was exploring an investment with Lord Featherington”

“This is just what makes the difficulties in this household. No one gives any thought as to how it must be managed” the Viscount snapped

“He is one and twenty, brother” Benedict defended Colin

“Is no one in this family allowed to make their own decisions?” Eloise added

“You, keep your doodling” Anthony told Benedict “And do not ask me to speak of your activities, I would not know where to begin” he looked at Eloise scowling

Eloise looked at her brother angrily “May I be excused?” She stood up and left without another word

“I must go too” Colin said packing up his things “But do not worry, brother, I shall send you notice of every step I take today”

“Yes, doodling awaits, I suppose”

“I do have too much to breath”

“I have my Latin”

And now, there was only Lady Bridgerton and Anthony left in the drawing room. He sighed and pinched his nose in frustration.

“How is she?” Anthony looked at his mother

“Still not awake from the last I heard four days ago” he answered

“Have you not gone to see her? What if-“

“Have I not made it clear, I’ve been busy?” Anthony snaps at her

Lady Bridgerton sighed and walked closer to her son “I would be lying if I said I was not worries about you, Anthony” She told her son

The Viscount looked at her emotionlessly “I do not have time for this” he murmured

“Well..” Lady Danbury still looked at her son with care, giving him a small smile “ You might wish to make time" She then left

Anthony blinked his tears away, sighing sadly

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(Y/N’S BEDCHAMBERS IN LADY DANBURY’S HOUSEHOLD)

Y/n opened her eyes, the sun’s light hitting her eyes. She looked around the room and saw her sisters sitter on a chair near the bed

“Kate, Edwina?” She called out. Both sisters turned to look at her, happy tears instantly filling their eyes.

“Mama! Lady Danbury! Make haste!” Edwina yelled as they crowded around Y/n

Footsteps could be heard rushing to the room, Lady Mary and Lady Danbury entering the room soon after.

“Dearest?” Lady Mary questioned

“She's awake!” Kate said happily

“Oh!”

“Thank heavens. Send for the doctor!”

“Y/n” Lady Mary grins “Do you remember?”

“I remember the argument, and me riding in the park. And the fall” Y/n looked at her family sadly “I am so sorry”

“You must rest, bon, do not strain yourself” Kate smiled

Y/n smiled at them, before it faded, thoughts consuming her “Did Anthony come to see me?”

They all looked at each other doubtful before Lady Danbury spoke up “He rescued you in the park, gallantly, in fact. He brought you back here several days ago. Would not leave your bedside for a second” She smiled “Although, he stopped coming four days ago” Y/n nodded smiling sadly

“It is alright” She sighed “Well, tell me what I missed” they laughed

“A fall never takes off your love for gossip does it?” Y/n laughed at Kate's words

“Never” They all laughed once again

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(BACK AT THE BRIDGERTON HOME)

Anthony Bridgerton stood in his study, reading over papers that required his attention.

“I will join the family in the drawing room momentarily” He spoke up once he heard footsteps heading his way, one hundred percent sure it was his mother

“Anthony” Lady Bridgerton said, happiness evident in her tone

Anthony looked up from the papers, his heart starting to beat rapidly in his chest. He took one look at his mother and he knew. “She’s awake”

“Mrs. Wilson heard from one of the maids” She smiled

Anthony nodded, relief flooded through his body as he looked back at the papers. His lips trembled, his eyes filling with tears as he covered his face with both hands, crying silently.

His mother frowned sadly as she looked at him, sitting next to him on the davenport. Her own eyes filled with tears as she heard his heavy breathing, and the way he tried to control his cries.

“It is… unthinkable" Violet started “Finding someone like that. Someone you love.” Anthony uncovered his face, wiping away his tears

“I am so sorry” Violet sniffled “ I am so sorry that it was you who was with your father that day. And I am.. sorry for everything that happened in the days that followed. If I could go back and change thing… you have no idea how much I wish I could change everything”

“It is what I think about every night before I close my eyes, and then again every morning before I open them. It will never go away.” She cried

“I do not think that I can see her” Anthony whispered once they calmed down

“Losing Edmund was the most difficult time in my life, and the pain that I felt… beyond description. But there is one thing that has given me at least some modicum of solace. It is knowing that I would still choose the life I lead with him, each and every time.” Tears fell down their faces again “And I would undoubtedly feel the same pain I felt over again if I had to because real, true love, is worth it. No matter what.”

“Now, go be with her” Anthony nodded, composing himself before walking away determinedly, to go win back his woman.

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“ Lord Bridgerton” Y/n said once she saw Anthony walk into her room

“I am glad to see you are awake” Anthony handed her a bouquet of lilacs

“I hear it was you who found me and brought me home safe” Y/n grabbed the flowers

“I suppose I should be grateful for that first race I had with Miss Sharma and you, if it were not for that fateful moment, I do not know what would have happened” Y/n stares at him, the unreadable look on her face making him nervous

“Although, I was also told you have not come to see me since four days ago” She huffed

Anthony sat down on a chair near the bed “Yes, I am sorry for that, I was here the first days, never leaving your side in case you had woken up and you needed me there, but it had been a week and you had not woken up yet and-“ he sighed shakily, rubbing his face before looking back up at her, tears noticeable in his eyes “I was fearful of losing you, it was why I could not visit you anymore, I could not bring myself to after I remembered why it even happen in the first place” he sniffled, she sadly looked into his face as he explained himself.

“ Y/n, I am so sorry” he cried out, tears filling Y/n’s eyes as she saw him break down “ I am so sorry for what I said, I did not mean it, those cruel words I said, I know you are not like that, but I was jealous after I saw the Duke, thought he had taken you away from me, I also know that is no excuse to have acted like that, that is why I am going to spend the rest of my life making up for that, if you allow me”

“I love you” She looked at him shocked “ I’ve loved you from that moment I first saw you in the park, I’ve loved you in every dance, on every walk, every time we have been together and every time we have been apart, you do not have to accept, embrace it or allow it, but you must know it in your heart, and I am certain you feel the same way” tears streamed down both of their faces

“I love everything about you, your kindness, the way you smile and your eyes crinkled in the corner, how when you laugh, you try to hide your beautiful laugh behind your hands because your are insecure about it, but I assure it, it is the most beautiful sound I have ever heard in my life. I love how you bite your lip when you are nervous, or how your eyebrows furrow when you are sad. I love how you tried to help me win over your sister when it was so clearly breaking you inside, that just shows how supportive you are, and how you put everyone’s happiness above your own. Or how when we slept together and I felt your skin next to mine, they way your lips tasted, I felt like everything I have ever dreamed of became true. Because there is no where in this damn world I’d rather be than with you, and you are my heaven” Y/n rested her forehead on top of his

“I forgive you, Anthony” Y/n whispered pulling away, wiping away her tears “You do not even have to prove yourself because I forgave you the moment I left, I was hurt, yes, but I needed time.”

“And… I love you too” She smiled, Anthony smiled back happily

“I want a life that suits us both. I know I am imperfect, but I will humble myself before you because I cannot imagine my life without you, and that is why I wish to marry you, so what do you say? Will you marry me?”

She looked at him “You do know I will find every way I can to annoy you, and I will still boast about how I was right about Nectar and High Flyer, even if it was months ago” Anthony laughed, looking at her adoringly

“And I will not even complain, just to make you happy” He smiled

“Then yes, I will marry you!” Anthony cheered

Y/n laughed as Anthony picked her up from the bed, twirling her around in circles before putting her down and pulling her into a kiss. She laughed into the kiss, wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling him even closer.

They did not even pay attention to her family who was, not so secretly spying from the door, nor to their grumbles and playfully gags they made once Y/n and Anthony kissed. Although they could not deny how happy they were for them and how in loved they are.

They will finally have the happy ending they longed for.

This is it folks, we are done with Tales Of A Heart, but don't worry, there will be an epilogue + a few more bonus chapters.

Another thing, I want to thank all of you for the support and love you have given my story, when I first posted the first part, I didn't think anyone would like it, but one person like it and then more and more. I am grateful for each and everyone of you, I love you all♡♡♡♡

Epilogue

Summary: a happy ending

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader

Word count: 1k

Warnings: unedited, fluff, Anthony being a simp

Series Masterlist

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“Oh god Anthony” I moaned out loudly I reached my climax, Anthony thrust in and out faster and faster, trying to reach his own peak

“Oh” Anthony groaned as he gave one last thrust

We breathed heavily as we stared at each other, I still on top of him. We laughed as I pulled him into a kiss, he kissed back as he pulled me down onto our bed, getting on top of me.

“mmm” Anthony moaned “Viscountess” I moaned in respond

“Husband” I smile biting my lip

“You seem to have outdone yourself today” I hummed as he kissed down my neck

“Yes, well, my duties are particularly important to me, and of course, I cannot deny my husband what he desires, can I?” I laughed

“Perhaps you would like to go again” he suggested “Seeing as you are so very dutiful” he kissed down my body, to my stomach where he stopped

“I am pretty sure little baby Bridgerton will not mind” He smiled happily looking up at me "and you are looking absolutely beautiful" I laughed

Yes, I am currently with child, four months to be exact, Anthony was delighted when I told him, even cried, which he always denies that he did not but we all know the truth

“I am sure baby Bridgerton will not” I pull him up to kiss him “ But, it would be dutiful to meet your family outside before they realize we are ignoring them”

He groaned kissing me again “They will not mind, we are recently married”

“Yes, of course, recently married only like 5 months ag- oh!” I gasped when he surged forward once again, burying himself to the hilt inside of me “Maybe they can wait a little more” I moved my hips along with his

“That is just what I thought, my love” He laughed into my mouth as I started to moan loudly with each thrust, holding tightly onto his hand.

“Oh!” I gasped once he pulled me on top of him before laughing

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“Yes! Look at you, you’re walking!” is what we heard as we stepped outside 15 minutes later

I gasped excitedly as I saw baby Auggie walking towards his mother and surged forward towards them “Oh baby Auggie!” I said in awe

“Careful, love, you might hurt yourself” I ignored Anthony’s overprotective self and approached Daphne, who already held baby Auggie out towards me.

Yes, it has also become a custom to whenever I see Daphne’s son, I take him away from whoever is holding him, and they do not even complain, knowing how emotional I can be if I do not hold him. The mood changes comes with the pregnancy, I guess.

I hold Auggie in my arms, careful not to put him over my bump, I coo at him as Anthony approaches me and puts his arm over my shoulder

“Finally!” Eloise huffs “Thought you would never come down, do not worry, we only waited like six hours”

“Six is nothing when you are a newlywed” Daphne smiles

“Might we begin playing?” Colin suggests

“Dear, your are positively glowing” Violet remarks happily as I hand Auggie over to her.

“It is the pregnancy” I smile putting a hand over my bump, caressing, Violet nods smiling

“Beautiful, nonetheless” a blush comes onto my cheeks at her words making her chuckle

“Right, we’ve all picked but left the mallet of death” I heard Eloise say behind me

“For me!” Anthony yelled rushing over and grabbing the mallet of death.

I turned around and huffed “Not fair, I was not even paying attention”

“Tough luck, my love, should have paid attention” Anthony shrugged

I pouted at him, as everyone watched with amusement, already knowing what was the outcome of this. Anthony stared at my face as tears filled my eyes, before he huffed.

“Alright, here, please do not cry” Anthony pleaded handing me the mallet, I grinned, tears now gone as I walked away from him

“Thank you, husband dearest” Anthony stared back at me shocked as everyone laughed

“What did jus- you know what, I will not even ask, I have learned not to” Anthony grumbled

“Probably keep to pink, Anthony” Daphne said amused “I rather think it will match the shade of your embarrassment when you use it, now let us begin” We all move towards the field, Anthony coming up behind me, wrapping his arms around me.

“You know, I am not sure I like those little tricks you use” Anthony murmured into my ears

“Well tough luck, my love” I mocked his words making him chuckle “You will always give in”

“Hmm,” he kissed my cheek “I am certain it will not work for long,”

“Of course it will, have you not heard the saying ‘happy wife, happy life’?” I turned my head to look at him

“yes, well, I do not like tears coming down that beautiful face” he pulls me into a kiss "You are beautiful"

“You sap” I tease , he laughs and brings me into a kiss once again, I wrap my hands around his neck as he pulls me closer, careful not to squish me into him

“Now, let us go, I have a husband to defeat” I say smiling mischievously

“Oh really?”

“Yes really”

“Well, game on, wife of mine”

Bonus Chapter 1

Summary: Here comes the bride...

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader

Word count: 3.3k

Warnings: Smut!! (Do not read if you are not comfortable, although you can skip it as it is only in the second half, divided by this ●●●●●) fluff, unedited, Anthony not being patient and wanting to see his future bride, simp Anthony

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“Come on, y/n, we still have to do your hair and dress you!” Edwina complained as I took a bath to calm my nerves

“Oh leave her be, Edwina, it is completely normal to be nervous before the wedding, take your time, dearest” Mama called our

“Mama, we do not have time! The wedding is in two hours-”

“Edwina” I groaned “You are more demanding than me, and I am the bride” I stood up from the bath tub, a maid holding out a towel for me

I approached them, Edwina gesturing for me to sit down on the nearest chair once I stepped into my chemise “Now sit here, and let them do your hair, Lord knows if we will be able to finish in time, we have to dress you still, and get to the chapel” Edwina gasped horrified “The queen will be there if that is not enough pressure already, the whole ton also. No, there will not be enough-“

“Edwina” Kate cut her off laughing “calm yourself” Edwina huffed before nodding

An hour later, the ladies maid was done with my hair, putting the finishing touches, when we heard a knock on the door. We looked at each other confused before Kate went and slightly opened the door

“What are you doing here?!” Kate exclaimed “You cannot see her before the wedding, it is bad luck”

“Oh come on,” I heard Anthony huff, I stood up and walked closer to the door, still wearing my chemise “What wrong could happen? Just let me see her for a moment”

“No, now go, we still have a lot to do” Kate denied closing the door

“Kate, it is fine” I assured her, waving her off “Let me talk to him” Kate pursued her lips, nodding

“Just do not let him see you”

“Hey” I murmured once i opened the door slightly, enough for me to see his figure

“Hey” I could hear the smile in his voice “How are you feeling?”

“Nervous” I chuckle sheepishly

“Yes, I imagine so” he laughed “I am too, but it goes away when I remember that I will marry the woman I love wholeheartedly” I smile resting my forehead against the door, still hiding behind it

“I actually came to give you something, on behalf of my mother, she said she was going to give you it, and obviously, I could not pass the opportunity to see you, or well, hear you since I am not allowed too” I laughed “Give me your hand”

I put my hand out between the free space of the door towards him, I felt him grab my hand, caressing it gently before putting something on my palm.

“It was my mother’s, she wore it on her wedding with my father, and thought it would look good with your wedding dress. Said it was a tradition to give it to the bride to be of the first born, my grandma gave it to her, and now she is passing it down to you” I brought my hand back inside and saw the most beautiful necklace ever “Not sure why a necklace is so important for the wedding but, oh well, women stuff I guess” he chuckled

“It is beautiful” i said in awe

“And it will be even more beautiful on you. Now I will go, I can feel your family’s annoyance through the door”

“Alright” I hummed still concentrated on the necklace

He stood silent, I was even convinced he was already gone before he spoke up “I love you” I bit my lip smiling

“I love you too” I murmured

“Y/n, come on, we have less than a hour and a half” Kate urged, I sighed and turned around, looking at them annoyed “ Do not look at us like that, you will have plenty of time to see him after you are wed” that brightened me mood once again.

In no time, I was fully ready and just waiting for the time to walk through those doors.

“Now,” mama started “ I am sure you do not need to have the talk about your wedding night, seeing as you already…. Based on what you confessed” a blush formed on my face, she smiled as Kate and Edwina entered first, being my bridesmaids

“You look beautiful” Mama teared up “Who ever thought you would be the first to get married… My daughter will be the best Viscountess there will ever be”

“I doubt it” I denied “I am certain no one can surpass Lady Bridgerton”

She shook her head “ You will try your best, now, Let us go get you married” mama smiled

We walked down the aisle, I held onto mama’s arms tightly, my heart beating rapidly in my chest as everyone stood up watching us, happy smiles on their faces.

I looked at each and everyone before turning to look at the one face that only mattered to me, Anthony’s. He stared at me, a grin on his face as I walked closer and closer to him.

He held out his hand towards me once I approached him, I grabbed it, stepping onto the podium, he dropped my hand as we stared forward at the archbishop.

“Dearly beloved, we are gathered here to join together this man and this woman, in holy matrimony,” The archbishop started “ It is said that, marriage hath in it less of beauty, and more of safety than the single life-“ I breathed out shakily, tuning out the archbishop’s voice, Anthony intertwining his pinky finger with mine

Tears came onto my eyes as I swallowed, thinking back to everything we had to go through to get where we were right now. All the pain I suffered, the heartbreak, all the tears I cried over him, overpowered by all the smiles he gave me, the million times he made me laugh, the way he confides in me in a way he could never with anyone else, the little things about me he always pays attention to, it is the little things that matter. It was all worth it, just to get to be his wife , and I would gladly do it all over again if I was asked to.

Because Anthony is my soul mate, and I cannot think of a world where I lived without him. He is the air that I breathed, everything I could have asked for in a man and so much more.

We faced each other, I smiled tearfully at him, a tear falling down my eye. “You are going to make me cry” He whispered, his own eyes filling with tears, I chuckled sniffling

He took of my glove carefully, putting my wedding band on my ring finger, looking into my eyes.

“In the name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, amen. I now pronounce you, man and wife”

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THIRD PERSON POV

And now they were in a carriage, traveling the short distance between Bridgerton House, where the reception had been held, and Anthony’s private residence, which she supposed could no longer be referred to as “bachelor’s lodgings.”

Y/n nibbled on her lip, looking down at her lap, wringing her hands as she thought about what was to come after the honeymoon days were over. Anthony followed the line of her gaze and placed one of his large hands over both of hers. She went still instantly at his comforting touch.

“Are you nervous?” he inquired.

“Did you think I wouldn’t be?” she replied chuckling nervously

He smiled in response. “There is nothing to fear.” He then laughed “Nothing we have not done before”

Y/n burst in laughter “yes, of course” her laughter faded, “but that is not what I am nervous about. It is about what is to come after we leave, I have not the slightest clue on how to be a Viscountess or manage a household, there is much to be nervous about”

His smile broadened. “Touché, my dear wife.” He caressed her hand “But I am sure you will marvelously, and my mother will be there to help you if you desire so”

Y/n swallowed convulsively. It was strange to be someone’s wife, although exciting to be Anthony’s wife “That is a relief” she countered. “Are you nervous? Of the things marriage will bring? Or that you never know how it might turn out”

He leaned in toward her, his dark eyes hot and heavy with the promise of things to come. “Oh, desperately,” he murmured. He closed the rest of the distance between them, his lips finding the sensitive hollow of her ear. “My heart is pounding,” he whispered.

“We should wait” Y/n moaned as Anthony kissed down her neck

He nibbled on her neck. “Wait for what?”

“To get to the lodgings”

The carriage rolled to a halt when a liveried footman rushed forward and attempted to open the door, Anthony yanked it back shut, never once taking his eyes off of her face.

“Or we could stay here, makes things much more exciting, does it not? The prospect that anyone could open the door at any given moment” Anthony suggested

“Open the door ”Y/n chuckled amusedly, he let go of the door handle, and the door swung open, revealing the faces of two footmen who were obviously trying very hard not to look curious. Y/n remained silent as Anthony helped her down and led her into the house.

His household staff was assembled in the small entry hall, and Y/n murmured her greetings as each member was introduced to her by the butler and housekeeper. The staff wasn’t very extensive, as the house was small by ton standards, but the introductions took a good twenty minutes.

He led her upstairs into his bedchambers, he did not even wait until she was fully settled as he closed the door shut and slammed her into the nearest wall, covering her mouth with his.

Y/n kissed back with just as much passion, wrapping her arms around Anthony’s neck, pulling him even closer. Anthony pulls away, gesturing towards the bed.

She goes and kneels upon the king-sized bed with love in her eyes, a passion reflected as he drinks in the sight of her, his lawful wedded wife. He stares in adoration at her eyes filled with joy, at her curls cascading, at her heart-shaped face smiling. Cleavage bared above the white corset. Like every bride on her wedding day, she's beautiful.

“You look so beautiful, I am a lucky man” Anthony remarks, love evident on his face

A warm summer breeze blows through the open window, where outside the sun tips down below the horizon. The movement of the curtains, the noise of the wind through them, is the only thing to break the silence.

Then he goes to her.

Anthony takes her hand, and their ringed fingers entwine as his other arm, he loops around her, drawing her towards him. Their kiss is passionate, yet gentle.

Her husband peels each item off her as if unwrapping a present, even as she unbuckles his belt and draws down his trousers. They kiss one another as they do it, sometimes gentle, sometimes fierce. Soon she is revealed. Her breasts bounce with the deep breaths of her excitement, Anthony can feel her pulse racing as he caresses them.

Sweet moans part the silence as he runs his fingers across her nipples, then slides one into his hungry mouth. Her back arches with pleasure as he smiles around her breast at the taste of her. Now his hands are free to roam, to explore the curve of her behind. Heart-shaped like her face, firm and bouncy, and all of it for him. His fingers sink into her buttocks as he squeezes them making Y/n moan.

“God, Anthony” Her heart pounds as his hungry mouth swaps to the other breast, as his hands roam all over her, her own fingers entwine themselves

She wraps her legs around him, squeezing tight, urging him on. His treatment of her nipples becomes more intense, almost verges on pain, and she loves every second. But there are other places that need his mouth's attention, so she guides his head up and out of her bountiful cleavage towards her face. His kisses run up her breasts and beyond, then their lips meet once again.

Their tongues dance together. They take turns dominating, breathless in their passion. As they go on, he settles her down onto the bed, pressing down atop of her. Their lips part again and they gulp down air, staring into one another's eyes. He is poised above her, every inch of him tense with desire, whilst she lies below invitingly with her soft hair spread out over plump white pillows.

Time seems to hang still.

“You are just so perfect”

It is then that his hand slips down to her inside thigh, and draws the bottoms she wears aside. He slides it over her womanly hips, her firm thighs, her slender legs, and lets it fall to the bed like everything else. Then he leans over her again and kisses her once more, whilst his finger finds her entrance and neatly slips inside.

“Oh!” Y/n gasps into his mouth

She bucks her hips against his hand, only for his lips to claim hers with redoubled intensity. His finger pumps back and forth, the pleasure making her writhe and squeal, but she knows this is only the beginning. She feels giddy just thinking about it.

She can hardly wait.

She slides one of her hands down his body, grabbing onto his manhood, Anthony hisses into her mouth once he feels her hand grab onto him, Y/n giggles at the response. It feels good to make him gasp, to make him feel some of the pleasure he's giving her.

The thought makes her lust spike, puts a needy edge on her kisses, and just as she's getting impatient the man of her dreams changes tack. Withdrawing his now soaking finger, he runs it over her neat little folds, searching for something, seeking out the seat of her desire.

She pushes his head away from her then, breaking their kiss. His finger teases her clitoris as she stares into his eyes, her need blazing behind her gaze.

With her cheeks flushed, breasts heaving, she spreads her legs and says one word, expressing a thousand pages of lust in one whispered syllable

"I need you now, Anthony."

He slams forward into her, buried to the tilt, making her gasp in surprise before it turns into moans as he continues slamming back and forwards. They moan together in ecstasy, both shaking, joined at last after all the teasing.

"I love you." Anthony groans, looking intensely into her eyes

“I love you” Y/n replied pulling him into a passionate kiss

She's the most soft, snug and deliciously tight thing in the universe. He's a huge, throbbing, steely-hard fulfilment with every thrust. The pair of them are in heaven. They hold hands, wedding rings glinting as he begins to move even more harshly inside of her, two bodies becoming one in the night.

The two of them quickly find a rhythm, it's like they were made for one other. His thrusts become steady, meeting her rolling hips with every downward stroke, and soon they're fucking as if they've been doing it all their lives.

Her pleasure is building steadily, excitement quickening as she rises, soars high, trusting in the ultimate fulfilment. “Oh God! Oh God!, Anthony!” She screams out loudly “Yes, just like that, God I love you!” moving her hips even faster.

Anthony grabs onto her hand, holding it tightly while he drives quickly into her, groans and moans filling the previously quiet place. He stands up from the bed, still intertwined with her and slams her into the nearest wall, continuing with his ongoing rhythm from before.

Y/n gasps at the new position, wrapping her legs tightly around his waist, burrowing her face into his neck as she felt the bumps of the wall digging onto her back, scratching onto her skin with every thrust, making her moan loudly. It all making it more euphoric.

“Oh god!” the sound was muffled by Anthony’s neck

The sound of the joy he gives her, the smell of her scent and her warm, sweet skin, the feel of her wrapped around him as he fucks her for the second time, is overwhelming.

But it is the pure pleasure on her face that he is starting to adore seeing. He feels detached from the world and engulfed in her beauty all at once, as if she's put him in a trance.

She's so close. She's almost there. One last act, one more little push will take her higher than the clouds and over the edge into ecstasy. She arches her back and stares needily aat Anthony then guides his hand back to her clit. A few touches. A few more strokes.

“I am so close! Yes, just like that! Anthony!”

And then she's there. She screams, throwing back her head, thrashing and trembling against Anthony’s arms. Her wedding night orgasm is upon her and it is even better than the first time Anthony and her slept together, it puts tears in her eyes from the sheer glorious bliss of it all.

It's almost too much for the Viscount to take but he makes it, stays steadfast, fucks her through her orgasm until the tremors of pleasure subside. It's his duty to make this night the best he possibly can for her.

And when she is done, she grabs him and pulls him into a kiss, wrapping her legs around him as tightly as she can, and whispers her love into his ear. He turns around and walks back to bed, falling down into it, careful not to crush her as he moves above her.

His thrusts become frantic, lose their rhythm, speed up until he's a bucking, thrashing mess of a man, until finally, his voice rings out loud and desperate in the night.

“Y/n, God, so good, so so good” he groans out, with one last throb, he erupts into her, losing every drop he has, pressing her down into the soft mattress and striving frantically to get as far inside her, as close to her as he possibly can. He roars as he reaches his peak, losing a groaning shout as his new wife drains his heavy balls.

When it's done he slumps down, spent, gasping for breath as hard as she is. They lie beside one another, gulping in heavy breaths, and then the reality of it hits them.

They've consummated their marriage.

"I love you." They both whisper at once, laughing as their words crash into one another. There are happy tears in their eyes. The beautiful wife settles into her husband's arms, snuggling up against him.

“To a new life, with you by my side, my beautiful Y/n” Anthony murmurs, kissing her forehead before closing his eyes.

And slowly, happily, they fall asleep.

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This is kind off how I pictured the dress and necklace to be like, but you can picture it however you like

Happy Marriage

Summary: Is marriage really what you thought it is?

Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x fem!reader

Word count: 2.8k

Warnings: angst, arguments, unhappy marriage, Anthony is a dick, unedited

A/n: Here is a little one shot to occupy yourself while I finish the next bonus chapter of Tales Of A Heart, enjoy!!

Inspired by The Crown

Masterlist

Marriage was the best thing that could happen to you.

Your husband was very attentive, he paid attention to every little thing about you, brought you flowers everyday, even if you didn’t ask for it. He spent time with you when he was done with his Viscount duties, he was also very funny, and the most important, he loves you.

On weekends, you would spend time together on the gardens, having picnics, looking up at the sky, your hands intertwined. You would speak about the future, about your Viscountess duties, about future children and how you would raise them to be the best person they could be.

And at nights, you would sleep tangled up in your bed, your head on his bare chest, hearing his heart beating while he had his arms wrapped around you tightly, scared that at any given moment, you would disappear and it would all be dream, that he never really got marry you, that he would wake up on the desk of the study he used to spend hours and hours working to death.

He would kiss your head, thanking the gods above that you fell in love with him and accepted his proposal. Anthony would then turn your face up towards him and kiss you. That same kiss starting a long, passionate night like many nights before, leaving you barely being able to function from the tiredness next morning.

Life was wonderful.

Or at least that’s what you thought marriage would be like before you married Anthony Bridgerton.

The image of the perfect marriage engraved in your mind, was shattered the moment after your wedding night, when Anthony wanted nothing to do with you.

After a night of hot sex, he was gone. The perfect gentleman you knew while he was courting you was gone, and instead was replaced by a man who was cold, unfeeling and who would belittle you anytime you talked to him. But what did you expect?

From the start, you knew he was in love with Sienna Rosso, a penniless opera singer without any title. But you had foolishly thought that after a while of getting to know you, he would get over her and finally love you.

At least that is what your mama and Lady Bridgerton assured you when you voiced your worries. And you believed them. After all, who could know better than your mama, who had gone through a similar situation with your father, both who are very in love still to this day. And Lady Bridgerton, Anthony was her son, she knew him better than anyone else.

Lady Bridgerton encouraged Anthony to start courting you, telling him all about how such a nice girl you were, how you were very intelligent and how beautiful you are. You would make the perfect viscountess.

The viscount, sick of her comments and demands, accepted and spent one evening with you, unfortunately for him, that evening turned into several evenings, and suddenly, you were on a chapel getting married.

Anthony was angry, he loved Sienna, he wanted to marry her although he knew it was impossible.

He liked Y/n at the start, thought she was a nice girl, but as time passed on, and with both the Bridgerton’s and Y/l/n’s already planning their wedding, he started to dislike her, maybe even hate her as he knew that she was taking the place which he always thought was Sienna’s.

Again, impossible, but that is what he thought.

Y/n was earning her families affection with every moment she spent with them, the servants at the Bridgerton household adored her, and let's not speak about the ton. She was the perfect viscountess. And he hated it.

He would still speak with Sienna despite courting Y/n, and he would never stop. He would tell Sienna all about Y/n, How pathetic she was, how he could not stand her and how everyone liked her, and how he hated having to pretend to love her in front of everyone.

Sienna would comfort him, telling Anthony how it does not matter, they could still be together even while being married to Y/n. She would then kiss him to distract him from his thoughts and pull him into what she does best, sex, thus starting the secret affair once again.

After Y/n and Anthony got married, it only turned worse. In the day, he always seemed to be busy whenever Y/n wanted to spend time with him, and at nights, he would leave to be with Sienna.

When Y/n found out about his affair with her, arguments started, and it all turned into even more chaos. They slept in separate rooms, even if Anthony still denied the affair at the start.

Who knew that the way she thought marriage would be was far from it. It was a living nightmare.

Being together at balls, pretending to be very in love in front of the ton, and when everyone asked when a new Bridgerton addition was happening, they would laugh and simply say they wanted more time alone.

And at home? Still more arguments.

Thankfully, it was late at night and his family were already in their rooms asleep, when a new argument started in his study.

“Can you stop with your whining?” Anthony exclaimed rubbing his forehead harshly “ God, there is not a moment of peace in this house whenever you are around, not to mention that you cannot be the wife everyone said you would be, you do not even perform your wife duties you should to your husband-“

“Is that why you keep on going back to her?” You cut him off and at his confused look you said, “I am not even going to say her name. You already know who I am talking about, seeing as you always seem to want to go to the opera, Only god knows why”

“What does she have to do with this?” Anthony said looking away

“That is what I keep on asking myself, but obviously she has a lot to do with everything because you cannot seem to leave her alone!” You snapped, angry tears forming in her eyes

“She is a friend, has been for a very long time, long before you were even in the picture." Anthony sighed "She is just that, a friend” Anthony lied

You scoffed “Oh please, you visit her all the time, gift her flowers whenever you do-“

“A friendly gesture-“ Anthony tried to speak

“On our wedding night, you came late at night before we consummated our marriage, you said you had somewhere important to go before you came to me, I can now suspect where you had been.” Anthony sighs walking away and to his bedchambers, You follow after him, still talking.

“I saw you gift her a necklace one evening at the opera, I saw how you looked at her while you put it on her, later on, in your study I found some letters you exchanged with her," You held on to his arm, wanting him to listen to you "Letter after letter, filled with sweet things and words made out of a passion I am not getting” You cried out enraged

They exchanged more cruel words before Y/n left him, heading to her own bedchambers, were she cried the whole night, cursing her luck where she had to be stuck in a loveless marriage.

“I was just helping some kids” You exclaimed as Anthony tugged her into the carriage “What is wrong with that?” you asked

“Everyone was watching! What will the ton think now, they were kids from the streets-“ Anthony said angrily

You looked at him in disbelief “They needed help! Was I supposed to just watch while men scared them?-“

“ The only kids you should be looking out for are your own” Anthony cut you off

“Yeah, kids we do not have” You sighed frustrated “I never thought you would manage but you are really succeeding now!”

“succeeding in what exactly?” Anthony scoffs

“I am really starting to loathe you!” You exclaimed tears brimming in your eyes, tears which you held back

“And what is taking you so long?” He exclaimed, “ I have loathed you since the moment everyone started to like you, I have loathed you since the moment everyone wanted me to marry you, I have loathed you since the moment in which you were taking away the place which was meant to be Sienna’s!”

“She can never be with you! You know why? Because she has no title, she is only just a penniless opera singer, one you can never be with without the ton looking down at you and exiling you from society!” You snarled as the carriage came to a stop, informing them that they were home.

You got down from the carriage angrily, Anthony still stayed inside, fuming from your previous words. You turned around when you saw that Anthony was not following you.

“I am heading to my private lodgings for the night, I cannot manage being in the same place with you any longer” Anthony said looking to the other side

“Of course,” You scoffed “Do not bother lying to me, I know where you really are going. I am sure she will know exactly how to make you happy” You slammed the carriage door shut and marched off inside the house

It had been a few months into the marriage when Lady Bridgerton and your mama saw that your marriage was not as perfect as you both made it out to be.

They were worried, they thought everything had been going alright but one night after you had gone crying to your mama, it made them realize it was quite the opposite

It happened on an evening where a few married lady friends and you, were at the opera. A night where a certain opera singer was going to be performing.

Anthony could not come, he was busy looking over a few papers that required his attention. And even if he could, his mother would not have let him, after all, it was a ladies night.

Sienna was 2 booths over, speaking to a few gentlemen, but you could see she was looking over at you, paying attention to the conversation you were having.

“He is the best husband I could have asked for, he spends quite a lot of time with me, and he is amazing at everything, if you know what I mean” your friends laughed teasingly, making comments at how lucky you were, you could see Sienna feeling unsettled over what you said. “Yes, and the other night he said how happy he was that he married me,”

“How could he not? He has the perfect wife right here, the perfect Viscountess, good thing he did not marry the one he was previously rumored to be with” one of your friends said

“Thank god, he did not. Imagine, a Viscount and an opera singer? The horror” another friend mentioned, all of them started to laugh as they looked at Sienna.

You could see Sienna walking away from embarrassment, you laughed along with your friends, but you could not help and feel horrible about their comments on Sienna. No matter how much Anthony and her have been hurting you, you were not the kind of person to speak incredibly ill about someone, much less in front of her.

Once the opera had finished, you had returned back to the Bridgerton household and walked into your bedchambers. You changed into your bed wear and slept.

The next morning, you awoke and stayed in your bed, grabbing a book from the nightstand next to the bed, and immersing yourself in it.

You spent a few hours on it, it was after all, the only release you had, the only way to shift to a world where you can escape yours.

You were startled when your door slammed open, Anthony entering the room, calm, but you were able to tell he was enraged from the way his jaw and hands were clenched.

“What a surprise” You hummed, reverting back to your book “What brings you to my bedchambers, husband?”

“I was out” He snarled

“I do not seem to remember asking,” You huffed pursuing your lips“Why do you think it is such a good idea to inform me of your whereabouts now?”

“Your exquisite selfishness,” He starts, you look up at him confused “your motives, the calculated, vulgarity of your antics-“

“Pray tell me what you are on about now” You murmured

“It is all over Lady Whistledown, what you and your friends said at the opera last night, all that you said about Sienna, how do you think this makes us look?”

“I did not say anything about her, they were the ones that said those harsh things, not me” You defended yourself

“It is all the same, you said it or not, that scandal is going to harm us anyway, all because of your selfish actions” He argued

“Once again, I did not say anything about her, all I said was how ‘good of a husband’ you were, so they would not suspect anything” You stood up from your bed “I did you a favor honestly, god knows you are anything but a husband, you never show affection in front of anyone, not even a single hug”

“I hug who I want to, I hug who I love” He snapped “Especially when they are affected by the selfish mistakes of others and need cheering up”

“What is this really on about?” You questioned

“Sienna”

You scoffed angrily “Why would I care about her?”

“Because I care about her!” Anthony yelled “Morning, noon, and night, I care about her, and your stupid words hurt her” your eyes filled with tears

“I did not say any-“ You tried to explain yourself

He shook his head angrily and paced down my bedchambers “ Sienna is who I love, who I desire, and she is my priority , and I will not, I repeat, I will not, let you hurt her, that is where my loyalty lies”

“And not the woman you married!” You yelled, tears stung your eyes

“I did not ask to marry you!” He yelled back “I did not even like you, I was forced into this, so do not ask me to feel anything for you because I will not. I would loathe my life the day I start to”

“Any fairytale you had concerning our marriage, the hope you had that your husband would love and care for you, that you would live a happy life alongside him, I suggest you rethink that, because I am not it. And I would never be” he left the room, slamming the door harshly behind him.

You looked around the room before dressing up yourself and walking down the stairs, hailing a carriage to go to your mama’s home.

You stared numbly at the houses as they passed by, before the carriage stopped at her house, you stepped out, thanking the footman and telling him you would spend the night.

You entered your former home and walked to the drawing room, the one where you knew your mother would be, just as she always was doing her favorite thing, painting.

As you walked the halls of the Y/l/n household, your chest started to sting, remembering everything you passed in this very house, all the happy memories you made alongside your parents and siblings.

How you wished to go back to those times.

You opened the drawing room doors and entered, your mama looked up from her painting and smiled at your figure, it faded once she saw your face.

“Darling? What is wrong?” You stayed silent at her question, walking closer to her “You know you can tell me anything, I will always be here for you” That is all it took before you broke down crying, falling to the floor

Your mom rushed to you, hugging you close to her body, her face contorting in pain as she saw you crying, completely broken.

You could not help it, everything you bottled up since the start of your marriage came crashing down. All the pain you feel whenever Anthony says harsh things, or when you see him coming home late at night from where you knew was Sienna’s house.

The pain from your husband not loving you as you wished for him to do, your perfect marriage not existing, one where you thought you would be happy in, where by now, you would have a child on the way, your husband there for whatever you need.

It hurt.

It hurt to know that you would never feel the love which your parents shared, the one which you knew Violet Bridgerton had with the late Viscount.

It hurt even more entering this house, the one where you experienced love since you were born, where every single corner was filled with laughter and was very homely and cozy.

The opposite of what the Bridgerton household was, of course, the rest of the Bridgertons were there, but they all had things to do. Laughter was not heard all over the place, nor was it filled with happy memories.

Your sobs turned even louder when you remembered the argument with your husband.

Happy marriage, indeed.