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Inappropriate Encounters
Summary: 2 more encounters that lead down to a more dangerous path
Paring: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader
Word count: 2.6k
Warnings: unedited, probably bad grammar, Bee stings, Anthony panicking, Angry Y/n and bewildered Anthony, encounters that Y/n and Anthony should stop before it gets out of hand
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I was walking around the garden meanwhile Kate was riding on a horse around somewhere. I breathed in the air, it hitting my face softly.
I got to the entrance, where I saw Anthony looking down at the flowers.
“Anthony” I called out
“Y/n” he turned to me “Is your sister..” he trailed off
“She is in her room,” I approached him “Not feeling her best today, it seems”
“What happened?” I asked “You told me you were going to propose to her, and yesterday was the perfect time to do it”
“I did not mean to disappoint her last night when I did not declare myself” He murmured “But she should not be disappointed for long, rest assured I will still propose to her”
“Well you should tell her that, not me” I huffed
“Last night wasn’t the right time, with my brother acting strange, and everyone staring at me, I panicked, my feelings would not allow me to speak ” He tells me as we walked back to the house
“So your feelings are too strong for you now?” I said incredulously
“Y/n-“
“No, no” I cut him off “ You did not see Edwina yesterday night, you toyed with her emotions, she was destroyed, she thought she was not good enough to be Viscountess and that she should have been better, you are my friend Anthony but if you keep on playing with her, I will never forgive you” I snapped
“Without offense y/n, but Miss Edwina seems perfectly capable of forming her own impressions-“
“So now you claim to know my sister better than me?” I said angrily
“I know she wishes to be happy-“
"Precisely" I exclaimed making him look at me annoyed
“That is all I want for her, I know you are a good man, you have been so good to me and with her,” he looked down at my chest, his face paling “but how is she going to be happy if you only delude her and when she is at the peak of excitement , you disappoint -“
“Do not move” he pleaded
“Do not interrupt me, I am g-“ I shook with anger
“No, No, stand still, damn it” he grabbed my hand exasperated
I stayed quiet and looked at him carefully, he was breathing heavily, looking down at my chest scared. I looked down and saw a bee, realization showing on my face. I moved to shove it off.
“No, do not do that!” Anthony exclaimed, I did it anyway, waving the bee off
“It will be fast and it will not- ow-“ I exclaimed in pain as the bee stung me. Anthony started breathing more heavily, panic in his eyes.
“Are you hurt?” He asked
“What?” with the pain I felt, I did not pay attention to what he was saying
“Can you breath?!”
“Anthony, I am fine, I have gotten stung before” I tell him
“Are you certain?!”
“Of course I am certain, Anthony-“
“No, No do not-“
“Anthony!” I looked all over his face, trying to think of something to do to help him with his panic attack
“I am unharmed” I shook my head trying to reassure him
“I am unharmed” I thought for a minute before grabbing his hand and putting it on top of my chest, on top of my heart.
“Anthony” I stepped closer, grabbing his other hand and, intertwined with mine and put it, this time on top of his heart.
“I am fine” I look at him sadly “Listen to me, I am fine” he nodded looking intensely into my eyes, trying to calm down
“Feel my heartbeat” I urged him, he rested his forehead next to mine, concentrating on my heart “Breath” he looked back into my eyes, his face getting closer to mine.
We jumped apart when we heard horses nearby and people talking. Anthony assessed me one more time before he walked away. I sighed, closing my eyes, thinking back to a few moments ago and that if we did not hear the horses, we could have possibly k-
I cannot possibly fall in love with Anthony, it is absurd, we are just friends, he is my sister’s suitor, no, just no.
I picked up my gloves, that seem to have fallen, from the floor, before running quickly to the nearest wall.
But I cannot ignore the way my heart raced as our faces neared each other.
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I stare out the window, deep in my thoughts.
“Deedee? Is it the sting” Edwina said, I turned my head quickly towards her
“What?” I panicked thinking that she found out about what happened between Anthony and I “Whatever do you mean?”
“Is it still bothering you?” She clarified “seems ever since the awful creature stung you, you’ve been keeping to yourself” I shook my head
“No, not at all, bon” I tell her standing up
“Are you sure? You have been very pensive lately” Kate comments “Did something happened that you did not tell us about?”
“No, nothing happened, why?, should something have happened?” I rambled “Anyway, how are you Edwina, are you still feeling upset about Anthony’s lack of action”
“His mind also seems elsewhere lately, I thought I’d be announcing an engagement at tomorrow night’s ball” Edwina sighed
“We return to Mayfair in a few days, where there will be many other suitors” Kate said cheerfully
“Suitors will only suspect that there is something lacking in me when they discover the Viscount is no longer interested” Edwina snapped
“Bon,-“ I huffed smiling, going to hold her hand in reassurance
“He is the one I want, Y/n” My smile faded as she pushed my hand away “The Viscount, his family, this home, the life he offers me” Kate and I stayed quiet
“I’ve been thinking and, I am now quite certain I know why he has not made his declaration” I looked up at her “It’s because of you both”
“Kate, you hate one another and Y/n, he has seen how hostile you’ve been towards this past day and has regrets his decision on proposing to me” I sighed in relief
“I am sure that is not why” I assured her “ Anthony knows I am still his friend, and even if I am hostile towards him for 1 day, it would not change his mind”
“And hate probably too strong a word” Kate adds
“It is clear from your exchanges with the Viscount, that he shares your feelings” Edwina says “All this time I though I needed your help getting him to fall in love with me-”
“You know how Anthony feels about love, bon” I remind her, she only gives me a look
“Maybe it is something I can change” Edwina wonders making me laugh
“I love you Bon, but nothing and no one will change his mind, not even you, I know him and he told me so” I murmured
“That is why, you, are going to help me win over his heart” Edwina smiles, I looked at her shocked
“I beg your pardon?”
“You, will spend more time with the Viscount, tell him nice things about me, and subtly convince him to propose”
“Edwina I can-“ I start
“Please” She begs “I really want to become his wife” I looked at Kate asking for help, she only shrugged.
“fine” I agreed, she squealed in delight and hugged me tightly.
What have I gotten myself in to?
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“Y/n!” Edwina calls out to me when she sees me
I smile and head over to where she is sat at, Anthony seated to the side of her.
“It has been a wonderful evening” i laugh “Little Auggie is the sweetest baby ever, he definitely gets that from his mother, although I have not met his father, the Duke, so I cannot be completely sure” I said sitting down opposite of Anthony, nodding at him in acknowledgement
“Did you tell the Viscount about your bee sting?” Edwina said
I sighed amusedly “ I got stung”
“Ah” Anthony said as if he did not know, I nodded
“I am well” I looked at Edwina
“Ah” He said once again, looking at me
“Y/n was telling me how eager she was to see more of the grounds of this magnificent estate” She informs him
“I was?” Edwina kicked my foot under the table, giving me a look “Yes, I was, you know I like to explore all kind of magnificent places” he nodded
“Might you give her a tour today while I spend time with the ladies” Edwina insinuates
“Uh i-“
“I am certain Lord Bridgerton is occupied with other guests” I said chuckling
“Shooting, in fact, with the other gentlemen” He said “the party is to leave quite soon, I am afraid”
“Did you know, Y/n, is an excellent shot, Kate taught her, after all” Edwina smiled
“I am sure she is” I raised an eyebrow
“Are you all set for the hunt brother?” Benedict approached us, patting Anthony’s shoulders
“Y/n! Tell him how you used to shoot all the time with Kate” Edwina urged me
“Miss Edwina” Anthony chuckled
“She is just being modest”
“Do you not think it true?” I asked getting angry, seems like ever since a few days , our friendship has gotten closer and closer to being non-existent. Why? Who knows
“Perhaps your sister aims straight in a field” Anthony started “but surely she would have some trouble managing-“
“Why would you assume I would have any trouble at all?” I raised an eyebrow
“I only mean to say-“
“Because I am a women, is that it?”
“No, no y/n, just only meant that-“ I could hear Benedict chuckling at his brother's expense
“What did you mean exactly?”
“You could get hurt, that is why ladies do not hunt”
“Do not, or are not allowed to”
“I am certain, Lady Danbury can spare a maid to act as a chaperone” Edwina cuts in
“No, there is no need Bon, I would not be able to endure being around egotistical, prideful men who think they are superior to women in every way” I stood up from my seat angrily “ If you excuse me, I am going to talk with the better Bridgerton’s, no offense Mr. Benedict” I marched away huffing, leaving Anthony to stare at me bewildered
“She has grown rather infuriating these past days” I hear Anthony say behind me, I stop in my steps
“Oh, I'll show you infuriating” I start to march back to him, Kate grabbed my hand, stopping me.
"Sister" Kate laughs nervously "Let us go calm down, yeah?" She led me inside the house while I muttered angry things about the Viscount
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I lay in my bed, late at night, rain pouring down. I stared at the ceiling. Once thunder sounded again, I stood up carefully.
“Bon?” I hear Kate whisper
“I’ll just be going outside for a little, I won’t be long” I whispered back
I walk down the corridor, until I found the library, opening the door and entering after, leaving the door slightly shut so as not to wake anyone up with the noise it would make. I neared the bookshelf’s and grabbed a book. The door opening behind me full once I did so.
“Anthony” I turned around and looked at who entered
“I did not mean to startle you” He said “I saw a light and thought I let a candle lit” he explained
“No, only me” I stepped down from the stool
“Could you not sleep?” He asked, I stayed silent “If your lodgings are not comfortable-“
“No, it is the storm” I tell him “I’ve always found them unsettling”
“I was 12 when apa died, but I remember he used to read to my sisters and I during monsoons, now the rain makes me think of him” I approached him, he grabbed the book I was holding, grabbing it carefully
“This was my father’s library, these books were some of his most treasured possessions “ I stayed quiet
“I apologize for this afternoon, I did not mean to offend you in anyway,” he apologizes “it just is not appropriate for a lady to hunt around a bunch of me, that is not how the rules work” and there he goes again
“Ugh you and your rules” I scoffed, he started to get frustrated, I looked out the window
“Perhaps if you’ve not been out once again the other morning, we might not have been put in such a difficult situation” I looked at him once again
“Exactly which difficult situation are you referring too?” I scoffed
“Your-“ he stopped himself, I raised an eyebrow “The other morning” he nodded as if that made everything clearer
“When I was stung?”
“After which you put my hand to your bosoms”
“To show you I was unharmed, you were overcome, and I did not put your hand on top of my bosoms, it was my chest!”
“I was not!”
“You were the one who then looked at me”
“You looked at me!”
“Not in the way that you did”
“How did I look at you?” I stayed silent, us looking at one another, breathing heavily
“Alright” Anthony sighed “ Let us not fight, let us just forget about that accident and not speak about it anymore” I nodded agreeing
After a moment, he spoke up once again “I will need help proposing to your sister”
“I don’t really know how Edwina wants to be proposed to” I mused, he hummed
“How would you like to be proposed to?”
“Edwina and I are very different, I am not sure what I want is what she wants”
“Just answer my question”
I thought for a minute “I would like it to not be a big thing, the moment being private between us both or at least with just our families present. It does not matter if he gives me flowers or not, but it would be nice, Lilacs, especially, my favorite, symbolic of first love ” He nodded
“Although I am not sure if I would be able to marry, I would like to , yes, but I am not sure how” I admit
“What do you mean?”
“There is the matter of my dowry” I answer “ It is just mama, my sisters and I, we do not have any title or money, and no one will want to marry me without a dowry-”
“I would” I looked at him surprised “ I mean I would marry your sister regardless if she has a dowry or not, I have enough money as it is, I do not need more”
“Edwina is very fortunate” I smiled slightly
“And you need not worry” he assures me “ When I marry your sister, I myself, will provide you with a dowry”
“Are you serious?” I gasped
He nodded “Of course, we will be family and besides that, you are my friend” I laughed happily and hugged him, he gasped surprised, while I muttered thank you’s
“Once again, my sister is very fortunate that you are pursuing her” I pulled back from the hug and smiled at him as he stared at me.
My smiled faded as he continues to stare at me intensely. My eyes trail all over his face, before they stop on his lips for a second. I can feel him getting closer, his breath fanning my face as my heart starts to race. I look back up to his eyes, he leans in before a thunder interrupts the moment.
“Oh” I gasped pulling back “ This is not appro-“
“No, it is ok-“
“I should bid you goodnight” I say and bowed
I march out of the room and into my bedchambers, trying not wake my sisters up. I lean against the door, trying to calm my racing heart.
I am heading down a dangerous path, and I should stop before it gets out of hand.
Unacceptable Feelings
Summary: the last day of the country visit, will it turn out how Edwina wants in the end?
Paring: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader
Word count: 2.2k
Warnings: unedited , angst, more inappropriate encounters, more angst, btw, not that anyone was asking, I was listening to The Last Time by Taylor Swift while writing the first part, so if you're in the mood to cry, listen to that while reading, it really made me cry when writing it, so it either made it hurt more or I'm just that sensitive.
Also, if anyone has any opinions, feel free to express them, I really want to know what you think.
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“Hey Bon” Kate greets me as she joins me in the garden, sitting down at the bench with me, I smile at her
“You have been very pensive lately” She mused
“I do not think I am going to marry this season, deedee” I say quietly
“What are you talking about?” I stayed silent
“You know you can tell me” She lays her head on my shoulder “You are my sister who I love more than anything, I will never judge you, on anything”
“There is no one, who captures my attention enough to marry, and there is the matter of my dowry, and-“ I swallow as tears stung my eyes “I fear I have done something entirely wrong, Kate” she stayed quiet, letting me continue
“I have feelings for someone, someone I should not feel anything for” I admit, blinking my eyes furiously “But I cannot help it” a tear dropped from my eye
“ I cannot marry anyone while I have feelings for this person, it is wrong for me to do it, and I wish I did not feel how I feel, but every time we spent time together, and I got to know him more and more, I got to know the kind of person that he is, and with the way my heart started to race every time he touched me, I knew i fell” I sniffled “And it hurts” I cry out, sobs escaping me.
“I have been thinking since this morning, and I figured out how I felt. I know I can never be with him, not in a million years, especially since he is going to ask someone else to marry him. Something I know is going to break me when the time comes and it is all my fault. I knew from the start that he was not interested in me, but I ignored it and now, now I am going to pay the price” She lifted her head up from my shoulder and stared at me sadly
“I am breaking, deedee” I sob loudly and hugged her tightly “I hate this, I hate this feeling, I hate him for making me feel this, I wish I never met him and got to know him!”
“Bon,” Kate pulled away from our hug “He does not deserve your tears” I nodded, trying to stop crying, but I was not able to
“No one does, especially not Anthony Bridgerton” I went to speak up “Do you think I have not seen how you look at him” She smiled sadly
“Even before you figured out your feelings for him, I knew how you felt. You did after all say you wanted to marry him since the first day you met him” She wiped away my tears as I calmed down, sniffling “How about this,”
“What if, after Edwina is married, you leave to India with me, I was after all going to leave immediately after either of you married” She offers “You come with me, the less you see him, the more your feelings for him will subside, and you get to visit our home, once the season starts again, you come back for your second season, after all, there is no rush to get married, you are one and twenty and on your first season, you still have a few seasons to go before you are considered a spinster” I nodded
“Yes ” I smiled feeling better
“Yeah?” Kate smiled happily
“I would like that very much” I nodded
“Great!” Kate stood up “Now, let us go take a walk around the garden, no need to think about that hideous man anymore” I laugh along with her as she pulled me up from the bench to start our walk
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It is the night of the ball. I was walking down the staircase along with my family and Lady Danbury. I look down to the dance floor. Couples dancing all over and families stood over to the side.
“Miss Edwina, might I have your first dance?” I looked down a few steps, Anthony’s face gracing my sight. He looked at me for a second before turning back to Edwina.
“Certainly, my lord” She accepted and walked off with him leaving me to stare after them.
I looked back at my family, smiling at Kate who smiled back reassuringly, and then she walked down with Mama. Only Lady Danbury and I left. I approached Lady Danbury.
“Have you been enjoying your time alone with the Viscount” my face paled as I looked at her “You are friends and there are times you both are nowhere to be seen, like yesterday morning, in fact, I assume you both went for a walk, chaperoned of course, right?”
“Oh yes, he is a marvelous person” I smiled lightly, she smiled back humming and walked down. My smile faded as I sighed tiredly
I walked down to the refreshments table and walked away after I grabbed a glass . I looked out to the dance floor, where Anthony and Edwina were dancing, as I sip on my drink. Edwina approached me once the dance was finished.
“Lord Bridgerton has gone to get me a glass of lemonade” She tells me cheerfully, I hummed “We’ve just finished our second dance, I am certain he would have not asked me for two, if he did not have intentions for the evening”
“I am pleased to hear that” I smiled at her
“I need you to dance with him” She demands
“What?” my smile faded
“I need to know if he is going to declare himself by the end of the ball, as I hope, and you are the only one who can find out” she explains as I look over to Anthony, who is staring back at us.
“This may very well be my last chance” Edwina pleads, I stare at her conflicted
“Miss Edwina” Anthony called out, handing her a glass of lemonade
“Lord Bridgerton” Edwina said giddily “ My sister wishes to take to the floor”
“Ah” he hummed staring at me, I stared back emotionlessly
“With you” Edwina clarified smiling, grabbing his glass of lemonade from his hands.
“Miss Y/n, may I have this dance?” he held out his hand, I looked at Edwina, who nodded encouragingly.
I am only doing this for you Bon, only for you.
“You may, my lord” I grab his hand and he leads me to the floor
Music starts as we get into position and we commenced dancing. We looked into each others eyes as we danced, us being a little bit closer than we needed to. Which was not helping with my feelings.
I could see my family and his watching us from the sides. As I catches Edwina’s figure, I was reminded of why I was dancing with him in the first place.
“Are you going to propose to my sister by the end of the evening?” I asked, looking forwards
“Will it make you happy if I did?” I furrowed my eyebrows. Why did it matter how it made me feel?
“I want my sister to be happy” I ignored his question
“Do you think I can make her happy?”
“That is a question for you” I say “Can you make her happy?”
“If your silence is an indication you are considering your declaration-“
“Is that what you want? For me to reconsider?” He cuts me off
“Of course not, that is not what I want” I exclaim “It would break Edwina’s heart if you did not propose”
“Is that really what you want?” I decide not to answer and instead change the conversation
“I am to return with Kate to India” I inform him, his face goes pale “The moment Edwina is married”
“You will abandon her?” Anthony says angrily
“Far from it, Anthony, she will be married, she will not need me and for personal reasons, it would be better for me to leave and return once it is time for the next season to start, or maybe not at all” we stopped dancing as he stares at me with wide eyes
“It is better that way” I bowed as the dance finishes, he swallows and marches off. I look at him as he walks further away.
“Where is the Viscount going?” Edwina approached me
“I, I do not know” I answer
“Well what did you say?” I breath heavily
“i- I shall find him” I say to reassure her “Give me a moment” I walk off in search of Anthony.
I see him walk off into a study and follow after him quickly. I close the door after him.
“Why are you so distressed?” I questioned as he paces angrily.
“When will you leave?” He ignores my question “immediately, once your sister is married?”
“That is what Kate and I agreed on, yes” he looks all over the room
“And you will not concern yourself with finding a match of your own?”
“I said I will return for my second season, then am I going to find a husband”
“Is this an excuse to keep me away from your sister? Did Miss Sharma put you up to this, so I would not marry Miss Edwina, that is it, is it not?”
“No, of course not!” I exclaimed getting frustrated “Why does it matter if I leave or not? You want to marry Edwina, not me”
“Then tell me why you are planning to leave” he walked closer to me “Have I done something wrong?” He said exasperated
“No!”
“Why, are you leaving then!” he exclaimed, I huff.
“Pardon me, Anthony, but it does not concern you, you really are starting to vex me with all your demands!” he huffs frustrated
“And what is it, do you think you do to me?”
“What do I do to you?” I exclaimed
We stared at each other, us both breathing heavily. He got closer to me, making my heart start to race.
“You anger me” he murmured
“Well, you anger me too” I whispered nodding my head. His eyes roamed all over my face.
“I am a gentleman” he got even closer to me, I could feel my heart getting ready to burst out of my chest.
“And your heart” I whisper staring into his eyes “is with my sister”
“And my heart” he looks down at my lips “Is with your sister”
His nose brushed mine “What are you doing” I question quietly
“Say you do not feel anything for me” he whispered into my ear, giving me goosebumps “tell me you feel nothing and I will walk away” I closed my eyes
“I feel..” I start to say “ I feel..” he leaned in, his lips brushing over mine.
The door opened making us jump apart quickly, as if our bodies suddenly caught fire.
“Oh” Daphne said shocked “ I am so sorry” She apologized and left quickly.
“Daphne” Anthony said and hurried after her, looking at me one last time and closing the door after him.
I breathed out, blinked my eyes rapidly as tears started to brim my eyes. I closed my eyes after, rubbing my head angrily. A tear escaping my closed eyes.
It will really be better that I leave.
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Dearest gentle reader, while much occurred at the Bridgerton country visit.
This author feels not all is fit to print, especially when so much is already known by far too many members, but if you thought that we would reach the end of this journey without this trusted author finding a truly delectable marcel of gossip, rhen you are solely mistaken.
While Prudence Featherington secured her match, it was not the only appearance of note.
The next morning, we walked down the stairs after bidding everyone a goodbye, giving a hug especially to the Bridgerton family, Daphne stared at me knowingly when I hugged her. We were leaving today for Mayfair.
“I am sorry things did not go as planned Bon” I tell Edwina who walked along sadly, Kate on the other side of her.
“It is not your fault deedee” She tells me “We both did everything we could have done, the Viscount’s feelings are clearly not there for me” I looked down at the floor
“Perhaps they are elsewhere” She said as we approached the carriage, I looked at her, debating on whether to tell her the truth, Kate nodded at me comfortingly from beside her.
“Edwina” I start “There is something I must tell you-“
“Wait!” We turned to the our left side, Anthony approaching us rapidly.
“Anthony” I murmured
“I need to speak to you” I look at him confused “Miss Edwina” he added once he saw I was looking at him
“My lord?” Edwina questioned, when he got closer to her, he knelt down on one knee, my heart started to race quickly.
“Miss Edwina Sharma,” he opened up a ring box, tears started to brim my eyes “Will you marry me?”
I tried to hide the pain I felt from my face, but based on the concerned look Kate gave me, I was not successful.
“Yes, yes” Edwina exclaimed happily, handing me her gloves “yes, I shall be your Viscountess, I shall marry you” Anthony smiled and put the ring on her finger
Anthony Bridgerton is now betrothed to Miss Edwina Sharma.
Victory indeed.
A tear dropped from my eye, I wiped it away quickly, making sure nobody saw me. But everybody was focused on the now betrothed couple, happiness displayed on their faces.
But I, I could feel my heart breaking inside.
A Swim In The Lake
Summary: uh oh, a new suitor has come for Y/n, a Duke to be precise, how does Anthony feel about this? Guess we'll find out, you know you love me, xoxo imalexaalonso1
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader
Word count: 1.9k
Warnings: unedited, a wet Anthony 😗😉, a little, sprinkle, dust, of angst, also, a new suitor that will change things between y/n and Anthony
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The frenzy competition, the thrilling delight of hassling your all, I am referring no to the lure of London luxurious gaming halls, but to a gamble of far higher stakes.
Matrimony.
For, once that particular wager is placed, it cannot easily be undone, a fact of which I am sure, is met with both, regret and sheer relief .
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My chest heaves up and down rapidly, I flutter my brise fan, trying calm down.
“Calm down, bon” Kate says from beside me
The doors open in front of us, Anthony stepping through them. He walks closer to us, holding my stare as he does so. My heart races quickly.
“Miss Sharma” he greets Kate, making me look down.
I let out a sigh and walk into the room after him, Kate following behind. Everyone was already sitting. I sit down on an armchair, Kate next to me.
“Now, tell me of your wedding plans” The queen urges them, I look at Edwina and Anthony “There is no talk of a special license, I would hope” they chuckle nervously
“Of course not, your majesty” Mama assures her
“I believe a modest family affair would be fitting” Anthony adds “Perhaps back at the country, at Aubrey Hall”
“In the country” the queen raises an eyebrow “No, that would not do, you must have it here, in town, in fact, I should host the nuptials, myself” Edwina laughs cheerfully. I wipe my hands on my dress, smiling slightly.
“That is most generous, ma’am”
“Most generous”
“But not at all necessary-“
“nonsense” the queen cut Anthony off “ She is my diamond, after all, it is only right I give you both a wedding of that title” I grab a cup of tea to distract myself, swirling the spoon.
“Besides, one could almost credit me, myself, with bringing about this illustrious match” I stare at them as thoughts consume me, thinking back to a few nights before. Anthony looks back at me, sensing my stare.
“Can you believe it sisters” Edwina asks Kate and I “It is like a fairytale come true”
“You deserve nothing less, bon” I smile at her, Kate nodding agreeing
“Nothing less, for a true love match” the cup shakes my in hand, almost falling off.
“My apologies, your majesty” I say
“It is alright, my dear” the queen waves me off “Miss Y/n, now that you are here, there is someone I want you to meet.” I look at her questioningly
“A family friend” She explains “The Duke of Fairfield, I would rather think you both would make a marvelous match” I could feel Anthony’s stare on my face
“I would be most honored, indeed, your majesty” I say making her smile
“Perfect!” She exclaims “He will be there to see you in a few hours, the earlier you get to know him, the better”
“And we may just have two weddings done by the end of this season” my smile dimmed as I looked down at my tea cup.
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“I do wonder about the trim” Edwina said as she tried on a wedding dress “Is it too much?”
“No” mama laughed “ Nothing is too much now that the queen is hosting”
“Let me show you the French tulle” Madame Delacroix offers
“Did I tell you both we will be married by the archbishop himself?” Edwina questioned, I turned my head towards her.
“Several times” Kate mused
“We must find you a dress too”
“Oh, we have plenty of dresses”
“This one must be special” She urged “and y/n, don’t you want to impress the Duke, I’ve seen you both get closer” a smile came onto my face.
Ah yes, the Duke of Fairfield, Louis Matthews. He is a young, handsome man of seven and twenty, he is kind, has a good sense of humor and very attentive. We share a lot of interests and I am sure I would have fallen in love with him, If only I met him first. Unfortunately, I didn’t.
“the Duke will not care what I wear, bon” I mused
“Besides, this wedding is very much your triumph as it is mine” She smiled at me “after all, whatever you said to the Viscount back at Aubrey Hall, clearly swayed him to declare himself” of course.
“I cannot claim credit”
“I shall bestow it all the same, it will be so exciting living in London, the Viscount said there might be snow this winter, won’t that be exciting”
“ May you recall that Y/n and I are returning back to India once you are married” Kate tells her
“But what about the Duke?” She frowns
“I may not even marry him, Edwina, it is not certain” I shook my head, sighing “ And even if I did, the Duke lives in Birmingham”
“But you both will return to visit, of course”
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“Thank you, Clara, that will be all” I smiled at the maid and climbed up the stairs.
I walk past the drawing room before stopping and entering. “Lord Bridgerton?”
“Miss Y/n”
“Lord Bridgerton and his guest are waiting!” A footman stumbles in quickly, growing sheepish once he noticed us all staring at him.
“I see that, thank you” I sighed taking off my gloves
“This is the jeweler” Anthony nods to the man next to him “ We are to have Miss Edwina’s betrothal ring altered to fit”
“I am afraid my sister and my mother have not yet returned home” I smiled
“Of course, we should trouble you no further” he made to leave before the jeweler stopped him
“Is that cake?” He pointed to the table
“It is, indeed”
“lemon? I fancy a good lemon” he chuckles, I sighed frustrated
“Might I offer you some refreshments, Mr…”
“Brooks, only if you insist” he started to serve himself, I sighed and went to sit down on a chair
I looked at the Viscount who paced desperately. He turned his head towards me.
“It is a fine weather we are having Miss Y/n, I s it not?” I raised an eyebrow, humming
“You wish to speak to me about the weather?” I scoffed
“Is there another topic of conversation that would be more appropriate?” I stood up and walked closer to him
“There is nothing appropriate about what you are doing, proceeding with this engagement” I whispered furiously, insinuating about what happened, or what almost happened, between us.
“On the contrary, I believe it is the most proper outcome for all”
“Oh” I say “And what of everything that passed between us at Aubrey Hall?” I whispered
“Nothing passes between us, I am a gentleman, that was something that should not have happened and never will” I felt a sting in my chest
“Is that so?” I scoff to hide my pain “ might I remind you sir, if anyone other than your sister discovered us in that library, that night, then we too, would be obliged to wed”
“Nothing happened in that library, and even if someone else did discover us, they would think nothing of it, I was pursuing your sister, why would I change my mind from Miss Edwina to you?”
I looked at him with hurt plastered on my face, tears sting my eyes. I stepped further way from him, smiling sadly. “Of course”
“No, wait-“ panic filled his face “ I did not me-“
“Miss Y/n-“ Mr. Brooks started
“If that would be all gentlemen, you can wait for my mother and sister if you like, I must bid my farewell” I left the room, ignoring Anthony’s calls, wiping away my tears.
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I breath in the fresh air of the park. The Duke walking by my side. We were currently promenading, Anthony and Edwina in front of us, Kate and Lady Danbury behind us.
“Are you okay? ”Louis asks “You seem a little down” I look up at him, before looking in front towards Edwina and Anthony, and back at him again.
“I” I sighed “ I am so sorry, my mind seems to he elsewhere ” I apologize, he chuckles
“You are in love with the Viscount” he affirms, I look at him with wide eyes
“What? Of course not!” I exclaim
“It is obvious” he chuckles, I sighed
“I am so sorry, your grace, I promise I was not leading you on or anything” I explain
“You do not need to explain anything” he says “ Although, I’ll just say, I do not care that you love him” I look at him confused
“You are a wonderful woman, and to be honest, I wish to marry you” I gape at him “I will try my best to woo you, if only you give me a chance, I cannot make you forget about your feelings for him, but maybe with time you will” I smile happily
“Alright” I laugh “Courtship first, your grace, although I do not promise anything”
“That is more than enough, and you may call me Louis, none of that, your grace, nonsense” he laughs “now, accompany me on a turn around the lake”
“ I would be delighted”
We walk towards the boats, walking past Anthony, Edwina and Lady Bridgerton, nodding in greeting and continuing our path.
“There is something I must admit” Louis says chuckling as we board the boats “I am afraid of riding on a boat”
“Why would you ask me to ride one then?” I smiled confused
“Well I wanted to do something sweet” he complains “ this seemed the perfect thing to do” I laugh
After a few minutes of laughter, jokes and talking. We return back to the port, Louis trying to tie the rope while we talk.
“I see you are smiling, deedee” Edwina approaches us, Anthony behind her. “See the amusements London has to offer?”
“indeed I have, maybe something, or someone, will change my mind, after all” I smile making Louis laugh, I pay no attention to Anthony’s figure behind Edwina.
“I hope I am that reason, Miss Y/n” Louis teases
“ just Y/n, please” I say
“That knot will never hold” Anthony says sourly and goes to help Louis
“It is perfectly adequate”
“Then I must question your skills, your grace” Anthony looks over at me while I roll my eyes “Allow me” Louis huffs and steps out of the boat, holding his hand out to me.
“Pardon me” Anthony says and holds his hand out also, Louis, once again, huffs and withdraws his hand
“the Duke was going to help me” I raise an eyebrow
“Just accept my hand” he sighs “please” I accept it and he pulls me out of the boat.
He holds my hand for a minute too long before I withdraw it harshly, making him stumble back and trip on Newton, who was laying down behind him. Taking Louis down into the lake with him. We all gasp, before I start laughing.
“Your grace, are you hurt?” I ask Louis who is laughing
“I am fine, thank you for asking” Anthony says angrily, taking off his cravat, his white shirt sticking to his body.
“Your grace” I hold my hand out towards Louis “You may catch a cold” he accepts my hand and steps up into the port, I hold his hand and walk away along with him.
“Oh yes, thank you for worrying about me also, Miss Y/n, what a caring future sister in law, you are” Anthony scoffs sarcastically, I ignore him.
I turn my head back and saw Anthony watching us walk away with an unreadable look on his face. I shook my head and turn back around
He is not my problem to worry about.
Revelations
Summary: Dinner with the Sheffield’s may bring secrets forth
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader
Word count: 2.1k
Warnings:
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“You seem distracted, deedee” Edwina tells Kate
“It’s, uh, just a headache” Kate says and walks over to Edwina after the maid was done dressing her.
I look at Kate worriedly, the ladies maid doing the finishing touched to my hair.
“From, uh, all the excitement these days”
“Is that all that ails you? I have seen how ill at ease you are with the Viscount” I see Kate’s eyes flick over to me “ I was hoping we had put all that behind us now that, Anthony is to be my husband” She smiled giddily
“He has asked you to call him by his given name?” Kate said shocked
“No, not yet” Edwina frowned “It is weird, he gave Y/n the privilege before me, and I, am the one who is going to be his wife” I ignore their talk
“But it sounds fine, does it not?”
“Do you think the Sheffield’s, will like us?” I ask them, changing the conversation “ My stomach is in a knot, wondering what they will think of me, considering I am one and twenty, not married yet, even if it is my first season, and that Edwina was chosen as the Incomparable being younger than me”
“Sisters, before you go, there is something I must tell you both” Kate started, we look at her expectantly
“Our guests have arrived” Lady Danbury interrupts her, Edwina and I looked at each other and smiled, we held hands and walked to the dining room together.
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“Ah, Lord and Lady Sheffield, it has been too long, may I present, Miss Sharma and Miss Y/n and Edwina Sharma” we bowed in greeting
“Oh my dears, look at you” Lady Sheffield smiled “Aren’t they as lovely as the reports say” She looked at me
“Although we were kind of shocked that your younger sister, got to be the incomparable, instead of you” She laughed “Imagine being overthrown by your younger sister, she is the Incomparable and marrying a Viscount ” my smile dimmed at her insult
I looked back at Mama and Kate, they smiled at me reassuringly, I turned back around and got a glimpse of Anthony’s expression from behind the Sheffield’s, his jaw tightened in annoyance.
“We are so happy to make your acquaintance” I said instead, Lady Sheffield gave me a tight smile
“Yes, I am sure” She turned back to Edwina, giving her all her attention “I wish to know everything about you, do enjoy dancing, music”
“You must accompany us to the opera” Lord Sheffield added
I looked between them three before turning and walking back next to Kate, my cheerful mood now gone.
“We have a box that is gathering dust”
“Indeed it has been too long since we’ve seen you both in town, Lord and Lady Sheffield” Lady Bridgerton said
“Yes, indeed it has” Lady Sheffield snarled, looking at mama
“Mother, father” mama greeted
“I do enjoy the opera, My sister, Kate, was the one who introduced Y/n and I, into it” The Sheffield’s said nothing
“Oh, shall we go through to dinner” Lady Danbury cuts through the silence
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We ate dinner, The Sheffield’s speaking only to Edwina, which was a disappointment seeing as I was excited to meet them. But what could I expect from the people that disowned my mother for finding true love.
“Of course, you shall be our guests at the Sheffield Manor, It is nothing compared to the estates of Aubrey Hall to be sure, but I think it a most pretty part of Hertfordshire”
“Do you shoot? We have a fine stock of birds and you are welcome”
“Thank you for the invitation, I do enjoy shooting”
“So does Kate and Y/n, Kate is the one who taught Y/n, and she does enjoy it much” Edwina gestures to us
“How unusual” Lady Sheffield looks at us “ Do they teach young ladies to shoot in India”
“Only the fortunate ones” Kate answers
“Lord and Lady Sheffield, how long do you plan to remain in town?” I ask them
“Well, we will stay for the wedding” Lady Sheffield answers “Imagine, the queen herself overseeing my granddaughter’s nuptials, we should spend more time together, and you tell us all about what you are planning for the wedding”
“May I be able to join you all?” I ask smiling, Lady Sheffield pursued her lips
“You are not the one marrying the Viscount, are you?” I stayed quiet “I thought so”
“Her majesty is so forgiving, after everything that happened”
“Now, now, we are all family” Lord Sheffield said to his wife, who laughed humorously
“Of course we are” she looked at mama “even after our daughter so callously rejected the match we had found for her”
“My dear, we agreed-“
“-Ah and no less, with twelve thousand acres, any other young lady would have fallen to her knees in gratitude that her parents were showing such care” I looked at her annoyed
“This was delicious Lady Danbury, you must have your cook give mine the recipe” Lady Bridgerton interjected
“it is the gooseberry, I believe” Lady Danbury laughs “Lady Sheffield, you’ve got quite the sweet tooth, I do recall?”
“And all for what? A mere clerk, was he? And with a child from a previous marriage to God knows who”
“She did it for love!” I exclaimed, everyone looked at me shocked
“Y/n-“ Mama started to say but I ignored her
“Something which I am sure you know nothing about since you disowned your only daughter because she fell in love? What kind of parents are you?” they gasped incredulously
“How dare-“
“And my sisters mother has a name”
“We could not show our faces in society for years, not that she should care” she ignored everything I just said
“She simply sailed away from all of us with that man, robbing us of our grandchild”
“Grandchildren” mama said “I have three daughters with whom you have had every opportunity to form a connection. But the choice to shun us was yours alone”
“I beg your pardon-“
“Do not think I took it lightly, being cast out by the only family I had ever known. I was heartbroken, indeed. But in time, I came to see, that in your cruelty, you did us all a great service”
“I hardly think this is a proper dinner conversation”
“I completely agree, please collect-“
“When you cast me out, what you did was set me free. Free to raise my daughters far from your constant judgment and craven demands that they should chase wealth and titles above all else!”
“I see where Y/n gets her character from, talking back to her seniors, where is her manners” Lady Sheffield chuckles “You are a fine one to talk. You speak of scoring riches, and yet you have come crawling back to snatch at our fortune”
“Lady Danbury is right-“Kate interrupts
“Believe me, I want nothing from you”
“Oh, you may not, but your daughters certainly does” She points at Edwina and i, we all look at her confused
“mama?” Edwina said confused
“The trust funds we have set up for her, the condition of which clearly states that she must marry a man of good English breeding to inherit. You did not think we would allow another generation to pollute the Sheffield name, did you?”
“What nonsense are you sayi-“ I say angrily
“Oh shut up child, you are the least person to talk seeing as it does not concern you, you are not marrying anyone of English nobility” I furrowed my eyebrows
“Deedee, what are they talking about?” Edwina asks Kate
“What have you done?” Mama snaps
“Anthony, did you know about this?” Lady Bridgerton questions
“I shall explain everything” Kate tells us
“I see this one has inherited your penchant for avoiding the truth, honestly dear, are you even raising your daughters right? Seems Edwina is the only pride of the family. The eldest one, I am not even going to bother saying anything. The second? Has the character of the first, a disappointment, does not even have one single proposal from a gentleman, and was not named the incomparable, which I can see why as Edwina is more prett-“
“That is enough!” Anthony exclaims furiously, Lady Sheffield quiets down “I can only think you’ve been exiled from good society because of your deficient manners rather than any other sin. Since the moment you arrived, you have failed to show the proper respect for the Sharma family, and I will not stand for it.”
“I declare-“
“I will not stand for it!” Anthony repeats “Lady Mary has done admirably in raising her daughters. They are intelligent, kind, loyal women and a credit to both their parents” He stares at me
“And since you clearly do not wish to jeopardize your social standing by associating with such company, I suggest you do not. You may leave at once!” he throws his napkin at the table and stands up
“You cannot be serious!”
“Please be kind to send for Lord and Lady Sheffield’s carriage, they can wait outside, and do not trouble yourselves for an invitation for the wedding, for you shall not receive one”
“This is beyond the pale, and if you think you shall inherit a single sovereign now, you are solely mistaken” Lord Sheffield says as he takes his leave
Leaving us all confused and betrayed by Kate’s actions at the table
“Lord and Lady Bridgerton, I must apologize-“
“We should take our leave” Anthony interrupts mama
“Thank you for the evening, Lady Danbury, it was quite enlightening ”
“My lord-“ Edwina stands up
“Good evening” he walks away
“Y/n, do something” Edwina begs me “Anything, he will listen to you” I look at her unsure before I go after the Viscount
“Lord Bridgerton!” I call out desperate “Lord Bridgerton, I beg a word!” he stops
“We must be going”
“please”
“Mother, I shall meet you at the house” Lady Bridgerton nodded and walked off
I looked around and walked into a room, Anthony following behind.
“You must know, neither Edwina or I knew about what Kate did, coming to England, finding ourselves a match, we had no idea, you cannot be angry at her” I plead
“I am not, I take it both of you were in the dark about your sisters schemes”
“I am sure Kate did not mean any harm, she is not like that, she only wishes the best for us” I cut in
“I take it there’ll be no dowry now that the Sheffield’s have withdrawn their support” I scoff
“You care about the dowry? I am quite certain it is because of what you just did, that the Sheffield’s withdrew it”
“It is regrettable, to be sure, but clearly Miss Edwina and I have both been misled, and it is best to call off this doomed engagement before it is the cause of any more strife”
“Of course, I would never besmirch, my mother and Lady Danbury will make a plan-“
“Anthony!” I looked at him as if he had gone crazy “What is wrong with you?”
“Why are you even suggesting this?” I ask “ Were you not the one who has been set on marrying Edwina, and now you intend to cast her?” He nodded his head angrily
“And do not say because of the dowry, you told me yourself that you had enough money of your own and did not care for something like a dowry” I scoff “So, tell me, what has she done?”
“She has done nothing, it is you. You have made this match impossible” he admits
“Me?! I have done nothing but he supportive of you both” I exclaim
“Supportive?” He huffs “Of course, you were being supportive when you put my hand on your bosoms, you were most definitely being supportive in that library when we almost-“
“I am leaving with Kate for India”
“And it is not far enough!” he stuns me into silence “Do you think that there is a corner of this earth that you could travel to far away enough to free me from this torment?”
“I am a gentleman, my father raised me to act with honor, but that honor is hanging by a thread that grows more precarious with every moment that I spend in your presence” my heart starts to race rapidly
“You are the bane of my existence, and the object of all my desires, night and day, I dream of you,” he walks closer to me “and what i- do you even know all the ways a lady can be seduced? The things I could teach you” his breath hits my face, his lips brushing mine
“Anthony” I whispered looking down at his lips “I did not ask for this, to have this feelings, for you. Hiding them from Edwina. Being driven to distraction every time you enter the room” he puts his hand on my cheek
“Then you agree, it is insupportable.”
“Impossible” his lips meet mine for a second before he pulls away, shaking his head. Tears start brimming in my eyes.
“If I wed your sister, it will bind me and you together for eternity and I will spend every day of my marriage wanting you, dreaming of you, dreading the day when my last thread of honor finally snaps.” He murmurs
“Is that the future that you want for us? For your sister? Because I do not,” he gets closer to me once again “So it is better that we call the engagement off, so as to not hurt her, and maybe, after some time, I can-“
“What is going on?!”
She knows
Summary: Arguments and farewells
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader
Word count: 1.3k
Warnings: unedited, angst, a moment you were maybe waiting for, arguments between sisters, and goodbyes
*Also, i skipped the wedding and instead made Edwina find out about Anthony and Y/n’s feelings that very night, as I couldn’t do that to my Bon. I can’t write what is supposed to be Edwina’s happiest day of her life and make it her worst. So it’s better for her to find out sooner than when she is already at the altar. Although, this doesn’t mean there will be a happy ever after that quickly, no sir/ma’am, there will still be more parts and obstacles to overcome*
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Edwina walked into the room as we jumped away from each other. “I asked what is going on!”
“Nothing is going on, bon, we were just talking-“ I say as she looks at me betrayed
“Just talking, I saw you both close enough to kiss, why would-“ realization crossed her face as tears filled her eyes
“I get it now, all those times you both would disappear alone, you both would be very pensive and distracted, you call him by his given name!” Edwina exclaims
“Miss Edwina-“
“Lord Bridgerton, if you could leave, I would be most grateful”
“But Miss-“
“Now please!” I looked at him and nodded. When he left, Edwina continued.
“I want the truth!” She exclaimed loudly, footsteps could be heard approaching the room. Mama entering soon after.
“What is going on?”
“Oh, suddenly your words fail you, sister?” She scoffs
“Edwina, Y/n, I am not sure what is going on”
“I shall tell you what is going on mama,” Edwina says “ after a time of ‘helping me’ win over the Viscount, all those talks I’ve had with her and Kate, of great, gallant notions and looks between lovers-“
“Edwina-“ I shake my head panicked
“You have feelings for him!” Edwina cries out, mama looks between us shocked “All this time, you wanted him for yourself”
“No, that is not true” I denied
“Oh, you cannot deny it now, Y/n!” She yelled “How could I have been such a fool? You made a fool out of me, again and again! You told me, you told me nice things about the Viscount, made me like him more each, and every single time!” tears drop from my eyes
“I fooled myself into believing you and only the purest of intentions, that your only desire was for me to be happy”
“And you are no one's fool. That is the truth” I plead with her, she walked closer to me.
“Do you love him?” my face paled “You told me it did not matter that he was pursuing me, that you were happy for us, but I saw you, every time, the pain in your eyes but I ignored it, your happy smile… your feelings were strong. Do you love him?” I stayed quiet
“That is enough!” Mama exclaimed “Let us all take a moment to calm ourselves, shall we?”
“Now, the Viscount does not wish to marry me any longer and it is all your fault, I am certain, this has not been the first time you have been in such circumstances, has it?” I nodded slowly, she deserves the truth after all. Edwina sobbed.
“You know, you were supposed to be the one to stop me from getting hurt, instead, you are the person who has inflicted the most pain in me, your betrayal hurts worse than Kate’s” She stormed out of the room, mama going after her.
I breath out, looking around the room before I fall down to the floor, crying.
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I was taking a walk around the garden, thinking everything over. I sit down on a bench, looking at the fountain in the middle of the garden. I sniffle as tears stung my eyes, for what seems like the million time since the country visit to Aubrey Hall.
“Y/n” I turn around wiping my eyes, Anthony behind me.
“You cannot be he-“
“I have just spoken to Miss Edwina, we thought it better to end this engagement” I stayed silent “ She certainly was harsher than I thought her to be, you know she gave me a lecture, said she thought everything over in the night and has come to a conclusion”
“She is braver and wiser than us both, she had the courage to act on what she sensed between us, and here we are, standing perfectly still, having felt it for months, and not even acting on it” I looked down at the floor
“I suffered all this time” I admitted sadly “watching you pursuing my sister, those moments that passed between us and you saying it was a mistake, and something that should have not happened, you proposing to my sister and saying that no one would suspect anything happening between us because of you had the diamond, why would you pursue a piece of coal”
“So forgive me, if it is now my wish, to suspend time, to not start something that I know is inevitable, to distance ourselves, and this time, make you wait”
I walk closer to him and put my hand on his cheek. My eyes roaming all over his face before I leaned in and kissed him.
He kissed me back fiercely, his hands on my back to hold me better, my own hands going around his neck. Our mouths move perfectly in sync, putting all those feelings we held back into the kiss.
He puts his hand on my cheek as I pull away from the kiss. Our breaths heavy as we stare at one another. I hold back my tears as I smiled sadly.
“Goodbye, Anthony” I walk away
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I enter the room where Edwina is waiting for me. She did not turn to look at me as I entered, I sighed sadly.
“Edwina, you must know, I never intended to wound you. I know I should have told you everything, about how I felt” She finally looked at me “Yes, yes, I do have feelings for the Viscount. But they were no match for the love I had, and continue to have, for you. And you must know I will do everything in my power to ensure your happiness”
“Including going back to India with Kate? That is your solution, is it not?”
“I wish to make things right. My feelings for Anth- Lord Bridgerton do not matter anymore” I sniffled
“What is to be of the Viscount?”
“I have told him I cannot be with him”
“Why would you do that? You love him” She questioned
“But I love you more, and I cannot be with him knowing that you liked him, I have hurt you and I will not hurt you anymore, so I will give him up, it does not matter, as long as you are happy” She smiled sadly
“I loathe that you cannot be selfish for once, I am pretty sure the Viscount already told you, I thought about this all night. You told me the very first day you saw him, that you saw him first. You helped me with him, helped him pursue me, and you never once told me you wanted him for yourself.” She said
“Why are you putting everyone’s happiness before your own? Be selfish, for once, go after what you want, what you so very desire, him. I forgive you, didi. But I will need time, to heal, to prepare myself just in case you ever do agree to be with him” She admitted “Think about what I said, yeah?” She gave me a small smile and left.
A new plan
Summary: Both families have brewed a new plan, now let's just hope it works out well.
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader
Word count: 1.3k
Warnings: unedited, bad grammar, more arguments, lingering looks, I think that's all
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“Straight into the fire, a favorite pastime of mine. Now, remember, it was a mutual understanding about a private matter between Miss Edwina and the Viscount. That is all we are to say on the subject” Lady Danbury reminds us as we promenade.
Lady Danbury and Lady Bridgerton, decided to have a promenade together, as if to say that Edwina and Anthony, broke off the engagement on friendly terms.
They announced the end of Anthony and Edwina’s engagement a few days ago, with the reasoning, that they did not share common interests and after some time, decided they would be better breaking off the engagement. Although they were still on very good terms.
The ton has been making snide remarks to us since, although a broken engagement is not unheard of, it is rare, and most of the times, it is always the lady's fault, maybe she was ruined, maybe something was wrong with her, etcetera
“is this truly our plan? Simply to pretend nothing has happened?” Edwina remarks
“We are not pretending nothing has happened, we are choosing to deal with it in private, in our own time. Scandals may cast aspersions, but they do not obligate us to answer to anyone.” Mama answers
“Besides, the ton has a remarkably short memory, with any luck, by this time next week, there will be a bigger story for them to sink their rapacious teeth into. We may find you a husband still, this season, Miss Edwina” Lady Danbury assures
“Miss Y/n” the Duke of Fairfield approaches us, greeting the rest after.
“Miss Edwina, I was sorry to hear about your broken engagement with the Viscount, you both made a beautiful couple” Louis says
“Yes, well, I am not too sure about that” Edwina gave him a tight-lipped smile, Louis hummed.
“May I promenade with you all?” He questions
“Of course, your grace, you are most welcomed” Lady Danbury accepted
Louis smiled and walked by my side. “Lovely day, is it not?”
“I suppose it is” I answer smiling
“I do not really get the people of the ton, someone breaks an engagement and suddenly, it is the worst thing they could have done and they should not talk to those people” Louis scoffs
“I am afraid that is the people of the ton” Kate mused
I sighed and looked around, I stopped once I saw the Bridgerton’s a few feet away from us, already staring at us. Anthony’s stare switched between Louis and I before his jaw clenched. I ignored him and looked away.
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“After everything that happened with his scullery maid last season, and Lord Cho cuts me?” Lady Danbury exclaims pacing around the drawing room before sitting down. We are all seated, Lady Bridgerton, Anthony, mama, my sisters and I.
“We know what we are to deal with, at least” Lady Bridgerton mused
“We shall not remove ourselves from this fight. All will be lost if we run now” I can see Edwina stare at Anthony and I.
“I should like to remove myself from this room.” Edwina stood up to get more tea as I sighed
“Every day that goes by without our altering the ton shared sentiment will harden it”
“Perhaps we need another story as to why things ended” Mama suggested, giving us a look
“We have already started to tell one. We cannot change course now”
“Well, if we cannot speak about the reasons, might we at least act as though they are of no consequence to us?”
“A ball”
“Yes, together. We prove to the ton that our story is true. It was indeed a mutual decision between all interested parties, and there is no scandal or ill will between our families at all” Edwina huffed
“A ball would give Edwina another chance to find a suitor”
“Another ball?” I questioned “So that the ton might inspect this wreckage with an even closer eye?”
“Yes, I think the same thing” Anthony agreed quickly, I looked at him with raised eyebrows, he only stared back at me.
“A ball may very well work” Edwina cuts in, breaking our stare “After all the Viscount and my sister have been so good at hiding their true feelings from everyone in public this far. It should not trouble them to do the same a little longer”
“Edwina-“ I start to say but Newton entering the room cuts me off
“Kate,” I call out as Newton makes his way to Anthony, putting his paws on Anthony’s knees “Newton, off!, Kate, your dog!” I stand up
“Newton, out!” I say and shooed Newton away, Anthony also standing up
After Newton was out of the room, I looked back at Anthony who was already staring at me. I stare back before I looked away, feeling awkward with everyone in the room staring at us.
“Was I truly that blind?” Edwina said shocked “Were they always this obvious?”
“If this plan is to work..”
“I suggest the two of you stay on opposite sides of the room at all times” Lady Danbury separates us with her walking stick.
“I assure you, that will not be a problem, Lady Danbury “ I assure them, I give Anthony one last lingering stare before going to sit next to Kate instead.
“All we need would be for someone to witness something untoward-”
“I beg your pardon, Lady Danbury” Anthony cuts her off “ I do not know what you mean to say”
“What she means to say, Anthony, is that those of us in this room at present are the only ones who know the full truth of the matter, and we would prefer to keep it that way” Lady Bridgerton explains
“If there is so much as a passing look between the two of you, then this plan of ours will be for nothing. Are we all in agreement?” We nod
“Quite, Lady Danbury” Anthony says before he walks away, Lady Bridgerton following soon.
We stay silent, no one daring to talk first “What will you do after, sister?” I look at Edwina confused “After the scandal dies down, will you marry the Viscount or did you just break off our engagement for the fun of it” I look at her in disbelief
“Edwina, why would you say such thing?” Kate says
“I am only asking, so tell me sister, what is it?” Edwina huffs
“You know I did not break your engagement nor did I do anything to sabotage it” I murmured
“Then? Because you said you did not plan to start anything with Lord Bridgerton, so then what did you accomplish with this?”
“Edwina, stop it” mama pleads
“Edwina, I know you are hurt, but that is no excuse for you to act the way you do” I snapped, angry tears brimming my eyes “I did not ask for any of this! And for you to even insinuate it, is just plain cruel”
“You know I have done nothing but want the best for you, all I wanted was for you to be happy, and I did everything so you could be it, even if it meant watching you almost marry the man I had grown to love, so do not. Do not, accuse me of sabotaging your engagement because I did no such thing!” I scoff “You said you have forgiven me and only needed time, I have given you what you asked for, space and time. Thank you so much for being so understanding and forgiving, sister” I march away angrily
A New Step
Summary: indeed, no one showed up, but, that will not be the end of the night rest assured.
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister!reader
Word count: 2.0k
Warnings: SMUT!!, if you do not feel comfortable reading, there will be this 》♧♧♧♡♡◇◇《 so you can skip it if you want to, no point in saying 18+ cause let's be honest, you're going to read it anyway even if it says 18+. Arguments 😮💨😤, a new step for Y/n and Anthony.
Also, this will be the first time I have written smut so, don't judge or make fun. Enjoy!!
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I am so tired of everything, when will I get a break. From everything, Edwina’s cruel remarks, society scrutinizing our every move, trying and failing to repress my feelings towards Anthony. I cannot bottle everything away for so long.
I head off towards the garden’s, everything I bottled up for so long, breaking through. I covered my face with my hands, sitting down on a chair, trying to calm myself down.
“What are you doing out here?”
“My apologies” I say to Anthony as I stand up
“No, no, please, stay” He begs, I sighed, not in the mood to argue
I nod as I sit down once again, he sat down next to me “I am tired, Anthony” I rest my head on his shoulder “With everything going on, I never thought it all would get so hard. Edwina is hurt, makes cruel comments directed at us, and will not speak to me unless mama, Kate or Lady Danbury tells her to. The ton and their gossip…and, we should not be here, alone, unchaperoned” I come to my senses, standing up once again
“Nobody will see us, just sit down ”
“No, you cannot assure that, you already know what will happen if someone sees us here, I will be ruined, and you will get out unscathed, like me always do” I argue
“Must you do this? We were getting along well before you started with your arguments, why are you so complicated all the time, I cannot keep up with you, and you never listen to what I say or ask you to do” He huffs
“Well, I can certainly understand why that would be so troubling for a man like you” I narrow my eyes at him
“A man like me?” He rolls his eyes “Pray tell me, what do you mean by a man like me?” He scoffs
“A man used to always getting his way, a man always used to giving orders-” I explain
“I do not give orders” Anthony scowls
“You tell me something and expect me to listen, I do not and will not do it-“
“Perhaps you should”
“I’ll never listen to you! Or to anyone I wholeheartedly disagree with!” I snap angrily “ The fact it has taken you this long to cone to terms with that, to accept that fact”
“You wish to know why?”
“Because you yourself are complicated, refusing to accept anything that does not benefit you. I am uncertain you even know why” I huff
“I know why”
“Enthrall me with your self knowledge and awareness, oh so mighty, Viscount Bridgerton” I scowl
“It is because I have never met anyone like you” he shakes his head as he admits, I stay silent “ You are one of the nicest, supportive people I have ever met, and yet, you can be quite competitive and challenging”
“It is maddening, how much you consume my very being” he breathes out “My family is on the brink of ruin. I am nearly certain every last one of my brothers and sisters secretly despise me, my own mother, at that. Despite the fact that I have lived the better part of my life for them. And yet still, all I find myself thinking about, all I find myself being able to breath for, is you” I hold his stare
“Do you think that I want to be in this position?” I shake my head, understanding him “ Contending with these thoughts of wanting to be nowhere except with you. Wanting to run away with you. Of acting on the most impure, forbidden desires, no matter how much I must remind myself” He walks closer to me
“I am gentleman, and you are a lady, of that, that scent” he breaths in, his nose brushing my neck making me gasp out “It has remained imprinted on my mind ever since the night of my mother’s ball on the library. Lilies” he whispers out, I stare down at his lips before i look back into his eyes
“You have to stop” he says, I chuckle
“I have to stop?” I whisper humorously
“There is no other course of action to be concluded. You must stop!”
“It has been you” I admit, walking to the other side “It has been you this entire time, spinning my world off its axis, making me hate myself over and over again for having feelings for you when, Edwina was gaining feelings for you as you kept pursuing her.”
“Do you know how hard it was? Pretending to feel nothing for you except friendship, that I felt nothing whenever you touched me, or smiled at me, that I did not feel the desire to kiss you whenever you were in the room. And all for Edwina to be happy” I shake my head “You are the one who must stop, before-“
“Before what? Before we finally give in to our desires? Before we stop caring for whatever everyone else may feel and only care for how we feel?” We stare at each other intensely
He clenched his jaw, breathing out “Please go inside” I furrowed my eyebrows shaking my head “Go. Inside.”
“What did I tell you about you and your orders?” I scowl
He stares at me, shakes his head and approaches me quickly, and slams his lips to mine. I kiss back gasping as he groans.
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He puts his hands on my waist, one of his hands wandering down before pulling my dress up and disappearing under it.
I stop the kiss, I gasp before moaning out as he touches the place no one has ever before, grasping onto his shoulder tightly. He groans, letting go of me and putting his hands up in surrender.
“I will stop”
“No, do not stop” I shake my head, kissing him fiercely.
He kissed me back before turning me back around, kissing down my shoulder, unlacing my dress, letting it fall down once it was unbuttoned. I turn back around, kissing him once again as he takes off his coat. I take off my gloves, helping him unbutton his shirt once I am done, all while still kissing him.
He took of my tights and bottoms as he pulls me down to lay on a makeshift bed, getting on top of me. He kissed down my body, I gasped out as his head moved lower and lower, his hand staying on top of my bosoms. I moaned as his mouth got to that one part where I needed him the most, he opened his hand, giving me something to hold on, I grabbed it, holding onto it tightly as he pleasures me, my other hand going to grab the pillow where I was laying my head on.
I buried my head into the pillow, moaning out loudly. Anthony got on top of me once more, settling between my legs. I held onto his head, my breaths coming out fast and shallow. I kissed him once more, my hands going around his neck to pull him even closer.
He stopped the kiss and started to take off his belt and pants, once he was done, he parted my legs even more, settling at my entrance, I breath out heavily as I knew what was to come.
“This may hurt for a moment” he caressed my cheeks lovingly “I am so sorry, my love” He plunged forward.
“Oh,” I gasped. “Oh, god.” He groaned, burying his head into my neck as his body began to move in an ancient rhythm.
His mouth smashed over mine as one of his hands snaked up to caress my face lovingly. I rose my hips hips to meet his, moving tentatively at first, then with a vigor that matched the desire and passion that was rising with each move of Anthony.
“Oh, God, Y/n,” he moaned, his ability to form flowery sentences completely lost in the primitive heat of the moment. “You’re so good. So good.”
I moaned along with him, closing my eyes, wrapping my legs around his waist, bringing him even closer, him hitting places that he was not before, bringing me much more pleasure
My breath was coming faster and faster, my moans more frequent with every passing moment. Anthony turned my head and kissed me to quiet me down, groaning into my mouth.
With a ragged groan, he forced himself to stop thrusting and catch his breath. “Y/n?” he said hoarsely
My eyes, which I had closed as the pleasure was too much, snapped open. “Don’t stop,” I pleaded , “please don’t stop. I’m so close to something…I don’t know what. God, Anthony please”
“Oh, God,” he groaned, plunging back in to the hilt, throwing his head back as his spine arched. “You’re so beautiful, so unbelievably perfect”
“All mine, just mine” he murmured as he thrust in and out quickly, I dug my nails into his back, moaning.
“Probably could have done this faster if you only paid attention to me before and did not start courting my sister instead, which is now making me doubt if your intentions are pure, now that I think about it” I gasped out teasingly, he stopped moving, looking at me amused
“Really? You want to speak about your sister right now?” He raised a eyebrow, I chuckle “You better stop, or I’m going to have to tie you up and have my way with you a hundred different ways, until you finally get it through your silly skull that you are the most beautiful and desirable woman in England, and if everyone else doesn’t see that, then they’re all bloody fools.” My mouth fell open
One of his brows arched into what had to be the most arrogant expression ever to grace his face. “Is that understood?” I nodded, not being able to form a sentence
“Good,” he grunted, and then, before I could catch my breath, his lips were devouring mine in a kiss so fierce, I was clutching the bed just to keep from screaming.
His hips ground into mine, frenzied in their power, thrusting, rotating, stroking until i was certain I could not take anymore. I moaned out, little screams escaping me.
I clutched at him tightly “I cannot take anymore Anthony, it is too muc- oh!” I gasped, certain I would break any given moment. My muscles were stiff, tense, and it was getting hard to breathe. But if he heard me, he didn’t care. His face was a harsh mask of concentration, sweat beading on his brow.
“Anthony,” I said, breathing heavily “I can—”
One of his hands slipped between us and touched me, I screamed, his mouth covering mine, muffling my screams. He slammed forward one last time, and everything simply fell apart.
I went stiff, then my body shaked, I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. I could not breathe, could not even gasp. My head fell back as her my hands switched between grabbing at the mattress or Anthony, with a ferocity I never have believed I possessed.
Anthony went utterly still above me after he pulled out, his mouth open in a silent scream, and then he collapsed, the weight of him pressing me farther into the mattress.
“Oh, my God,” he groaned, his body now shaking. “Never…it’s never…so good…it’s never been so good.” He kissed me again, lovingly this time, his hands caressing all over my body.
He laid down on my other side, pulling me into him, my head laying on his chest as he wrapped his hands around me. I calmed my breath as he gave my forehead a kiss.
“It is alright, darling, sleep, I will be here in the morning” he murmured sweetly.
I nodded, kissing his cheek before settling my head into his neck and closing my eyes exhaustedly, falling into a deep sleep.
New Beginnings
Summary: A relationship was now mended, cheers to new beginnings
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader
Word count: 1.6k
Warnings: angst, unedited, siblings once again happy, a mother comforting her child
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I opened my eyes, light greeting me. I gasped, sitting up in realization, bringing the blankets up to my chest. I looked down at Anthony who was sleeping peacefully, observing his form.
I was consumed with thoughts, everything we did, everything I allowed him to do, coming back to me. I huffed frustrated, picking up my clothed and putting them back on.
Tears stung my eyes as i realized what I had to do. I could not be with him, I cannot hurt Edwina more, and break what little of affection she still has for me. I cannot completely ruin my family, or let Anthony ruin his by being with me, the ton would create even more scandals concerning both families.
Not to mention that I gave myself to him. I cannot be with him, and any other gentleman will not want me when they come to know I am not pure. I am doing this all for love.
I bent down to where Anthony was laying, kissing his lips softly “I am deeply sorry, my love” I whispered, sparing him one last glance before leaving back to Lady Danbury’s home.
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I entered my bedchamber quietly after changing into my sleepwear. I successfully got to the house carefully, no one saw me entering the house or in the streets. I am certain they think I got home not too long from them last night.
I laid down on my bed, tears falling from my face as I cried quietly. I don’t know how long I spent like that, but a knock on my door snapped me out of my thoughts.
I sat up, wiping away my tears as the door opened. Anthony walking in and shutting the door. We stared at one another silently, observing.
“I want to apologize” He spoke up, breaking the silence “You deserve so much more than that” I stayed quiet, letting him speak
“I took liberties. I.. I did not want it to happen like that, so.. I came to apologize-“
“Yes you already said that-“ I nodded
“And to ask you to marry me.” I looked at him shocked “Y/n, I’m here, and I’m asking-” He took out a ring box from his pocket and opened it, I shook my head quickly
“I do not need you to ask me anything at all!”
“Y/n, i-“
“I cannot marry you, Anthony” I cut him off sadly, my eyes filling up with tears once again, he stared at me confused “I…I wish nothing more than to be yours, truly, but it is not possible”
“Why not?” He said desperately “It does not matter what everyone else thinks, as long as we lo- care for each other”
“I care about what my family thinks. What my sisters think. I care about whether or not I am harming your family’s reputation, or my own families, making Edwina not desirable for another gentleman because of the scandal” I sniffle
“And what about you?” Anthony hummed “ What about what you want? What about your happiness? Is your happiness not important?”
“It does not matter what I want, my family comes above everything, even myself, and I will do everything I can so they will not get ruined…” I looked down at my lap “Even giving up my own happiness for them, so please, do not insist any longer” I swallowed down my tears
Anthony closed the ring box, looking down with a clenched jaw. He scoffed and opened the door, walking off angrily. I finally let my tears fall once he was gone, falling down to my bed.
My heart felt like it was breaking in pieces, pain in my chest but I ignored it. I had to do what had to be done.
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I approached Edwina’s bedchambers, knocking on the door.
“Come in” Edwina called out
I opened the door, Edwina was seated near the window, reading a book. I approached hesitantly, wondering whether I should even try one last time.
“Y/n, wish I could say I am surprised, but I am not”
“Edwina, I know earning your trust again will not be simple” I start “But I am willing to continue to try, however long it might take” Edwina looked down at the floor before sighing
“ I have been cruel…and you did not deserve that as I know you have also been hurt with everything going on just as much as i” Edwina said “so I will, I promise I will, try my best to listen and put this all behind us… I do miss my sister after all. Although, I do have questions” I nodded, gesturing for her to go on
“Was there always something between you and the Viscount?” Edwina asked “Were you lying to me all along?”
“I was not lying to you, only to myself” I answered walking closer to her “Perhaps, there was something between us since the start, but, I did not want to accept it, I refused to”
“But once you were sure of your feelings towards him, why did you not tell me?” Edwina urged “Why wait for me to find out on my own by seeing you both like that, in that room?”
“I was scared. You were gaining feelings for him every day, how was I supposed to tell you I was falling in love with your intended?” I sighed
“It was easy, I have always wanted the best for Kate and you, just as you both do for me. I know I would have not been that happy with you, but I would have tried to be supportive and stopped the Viscount from pursuing me before it got out of hand” Edwina sighed “I feel like we have not been as close as we should even be, ever. I do not know you as well as I should, nor do you know me.”
“Y/n, I am done playing a part. I want to know myself truly, and to know who you are too. Because I am unsure I like the young ladies we have both been playing.”
I nodded happily, feeling a weight being lifted from my chest at this new chance and beginning we are going to try.
“Are we going to bring our new selves, to the ball the Featherington's are hosting tonight? ”Edwina asked, I nodded “I promise I will be more supportive with everything, including about the Viscount and you. Whatever action you now wish to take, I only hope it is because you are thinking of, and being truthful to yourself, not because of anyone else” I nodded pulling her into a hug
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“Dearest?” mama said, I turned to look at her, smiling slightly “ I see you are not yet dressed for the ball”
“I am unsure whether to attend or not…” I answer as she sits down next to me on my bed
“Y/n, I hope you do are unsure to attend because you are not feeling up to a part and not because you want to escape seeing certain people there” mama said, I looked at her, tears filling my eyes “Oh, I hate seeing you like this”
“I really should stop crying all the time, seems like it is the only thing I do” I chuckled amused before it faded “It is my fault, mama, everything that has happened”
“Edwina forgives you. I forgive you, you should stop being so hard on yourself”
“There is a part of me that will never forgive myself.” I sniffled “ I was supposed to help her win over the Viscount, that was going to help our family, and instead I fall in love with her intended and mess everything up”
“You cannot hate yourself for that, it is not something you can choose to feel, and yes, maybe it made everything complicated but as I said, we forgive you, you should forgive yourself and let yourself love him. Because you also deserve all of the love in the world, and to be happy with the man you love” I breathed out as mama wiped away my tears
“He asked me to marry him, Anthony” I murmured “And I could not allow it, mama ” mama looked shocked
“He and I can not be together, and I am pretty sure he was asking it out of mere obligation, because the two of us-“ I stopped myself after I realized I said too much, but mama caught on to what I was going to say.
She nodded, not even judging me, or yelling, nothing, she was just supportive “He does not love me, mama” I whispered
“If he could not love Edwina, who is the sweetest, most kindest person in the world, what chance do I have. And I am certain what he feels right now is just mere infatuation, something that will pass with time” I rested my head on her shoulder “I cannot marry him because he does not love me, although i- I love him”
Mama hugged me closer, rubbing my back comfortingly as I cried into her chest.
“Everything will be alright, dearest, everything will turn out how you want it, be sure of it”
Make Him Chase
Summary: 3 times you rejected him
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader
Word count: 1.3k
Warnings: unedited, fluff, kisses, Anthony being a simp.
1 more chapter + the epilogue, and we're done!
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“Come on, Y/n, cheer up, it does not matter if the Viscount is here or not, you can still have fun” Edwina said, smiling reassuringly as we entered the ball
“You cannot blame me, Bon, along with everyone in the ton staring at us, it is making me nervous” I sighed, holding on to her arm
“What do you say?” Edwina smiled “Shall we take to the floor?”
I turned to look at Kate who shrugged before turning back to Edwina “With whom?”
“Ourselves, they cannot possibly say anything about us that we have not heard before. And should your brush with death not be our best social capital yet?” Edwina pulled me to the floor as Kate laughed standing where we left her.
We danced, I laughing along with her, redness creeping on my face from embarrassment of every staring at us, but I kept dancing still.
I looked to the side, seeing Anthony staring at us. He smiled once he saw I was looking back at him. Edwina followed my stare.
“Do not mind him, just have fun” Edwina chuckled, I looked back at her and laughed as we twirled around
We walked to the refreshments table once the dance was finished, laughing as we talked, that dance brightening my mood. My eyes roamed around the room, Edwina chuckled
“Say what you want, but your eyes always search for the Viscount when you are together in a room, don’t they, deedee” She teased, I shook my head quickly “You will not be able to avoid him all night, and you should not attempt to. At least, not on my behalf. I already told you I am over him, not really sure if I ever did like him honestly and I will be happy for you with whatever decision you make. Be the sister I know that you are, be funny, brave and feeling”
“Be unafraid to follow your heart after doing the exact opposite all this time. No matter what everyone thinks, do what you desire, it is time for you to shine all on your own” Edwina smiled
“Why is everyone telling me the same thing all the time?” We both laughed
“Maybe it is a sign for you to do it” She said before walking away
I turned around, coming face to face with Anthony “Lord Bridgerton”
“Miss Y/n” he bowed his head “I was just on my way outside” I hummed
“I- I should give you, your space, everyone will tall in light of-“
“Perhaps you should not” I interrupted him “perhaps everyone will think that I was in the mood for a dance and since no gentleman is currently approaching us, you so kindly offered since you are a friend of our family still, after all” Anthony smiled, narrowing his eyes before putting up 3 fingers
“How many?” He stared at me adoring
I gave him a look, smiling amused “three” I looked into his eyes, he turned his hand around, putting up one more finger making a face.
We stared at one another before I spoke up “Are you going to ask me to dance?”
“Will you accept?” I held out my hand towards him, he grabbed my hand, pulling me to the dance floor
We started to waltz, the ton looking at us murmuring. The few couples that were on the floor, walking off to not be near us
“Do you want to stop?” I said worriedly
“Just keep looking at me” he twirled me “No one else matters” he stared into my eyes
I looked down at his lips as we danced, my hands around his shoulders while his were around my waist
“Marry me, y/n”
“Anthony…” I sighed
“You know I will not be the worst of husbands, of course I may annoy you sometimes and we may not agree on much, although you may regret your decision once you see the chaos that is my family” I laughed making him smile
“Anthony, you know I cannot” I shook my head
“What is stopping you-“
“Let us not talk of this any longer” I plead
“Alright” he pulled me closer as the music started to go more slowly
He held my hand on top, our faces getting closer as our hands went down, my eyebrows furrowed sadly before I closed my eyes, our noses brushing each other’s before we parted as the dance finished
“Everyone, outside. I have a surprise for you all” Lady Featherington said as she walked into the room. Anthony and I continued to stare at each other, our hands still holding on as everyone passed us to go outside.
The queen stopped in front of us, smiling knowingly, we bowed before her “I may have the wedding I wanted after all, Miss Y/n” She left leaving me to stare after her shocked . Anthony chuckled, I hit his chest
“Do not laugh” I walked outside with the rest, Anthony’s chuckles still sounding behind me, I smiled after I was out of his view. Okay, I must admit I like his insistence, it is no crime to make a man chase after you is there? Makes you feel more important.
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I walked through the garden as everyone walked further on. A hand burst through the shrubbery and pulled me into another path where nobody was able to see.
“Marry me”
“Anthony” I laughed as he pulled me closer to his chest
“Why do you keep on denying my proposal? Your sisters and mother already gave me their blessing-“
“When did you even ask them?” I chuckled in disbelief
“A few moments ago, but that does not matter” he huffs “marry me, stop with all your worrisome thoughts and just accept. I will be the best husband you will ever have-“
“I can only have one husband” I mused chuckling
“Exactly!” He nodded his head “I will be the best husband you will ever have had that you will not even think of having another man as your husband”
“You know, this days I am just seeing a new side to you that I did not even know you possessed”
“Yes, I did not even know I could be like this” Anthony chuckled “ You know what, I do not even care that you keep on rejecting my proposals, you know why?” I hummed
“Because I am going to keep on insisting and insisting until you give in. I am going to pursue you, bring you flowers and properly court you. I will even get on my knees if you want. I will make a fool out myself in front of everyone. Because you are worth it”
I smile before wrapping my arms around his shoulders and pulling him into a kiss. He pulled me even closer, not even letting go when I went to pull back. I pulled away, smiling mischievously.
“Then go ahead, Viscount Bridgerton. I will be waiting. Let us see if you do manage to make me accept your proposal”
I give him one last kiss before walking away.
It is never a crime to make a man chase after you.
hii would you ever write angst about the reader’s accident and how anthony found her?
also keep up the good work!! im loving this series <3
Yes!! It actually has not yet happened, It was supposed to happen after they slept together - *oh my god i suddenly just got the idea of what to put to make it more angsty* anyway , i instead decided to put it in the last part, which is coming out tomorrow, especially because of how in the series, Kate’s accident made Anthony realize how much he actually loved her, and since in my story, they still haven't said I love you, nor has Y/n accepted Anthony's marriage proposal, I wanted to make it more romantic with Anthony confessing how he felt about the accident and all making Y/n accept, honestly, it's just what happened in the gardens at the Featherington ball, just different setting and more heart to heart talk. And I'm glad you're loving the series!!♡♡ Thank you for your support♡♡
Idea for Anthony and Y/N Storyline continued….
- Wedding in Detail (Maybe Anthony trying and failing to see y/n before their nuptials and getting shutdown many a time.
- Wedding Night (wink wink, nudge nudge).
- Pregnancy and Birth of First Born and how they start to see one another in a new light due to parenthood.
- Different Arguments that are almost dumb to have but show that they really do love one another.
- Trying to focus on tasks but they distract each other due to still being in their Honeymoon phase.
Hope this gives some ideas and inspiration!
Yes!!! I absolutely love your ideas and would be more than happy to write them♡
Last and final chapter before the epilogue, coming in a hour or less as I still have some final things to add.
Finally
Summary: the one time she accepted
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader
Word count: 3.6k
Warnings: unedited, angst, arguments, fluff, happy endings.
Series masterlist
sorry for the delay, I got distracted watching the TV 😅😅
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“Miss Y/n, How nice to see you” the Duke of Fairfield said as I entered the drawing room, followed by Edwina, who came to chaperone, he handed me a bouquet of roses
“Your grace” I bowed “Thank you for the flowers”
“What did I say about formalities?” I smiled sheepishly “So, there is a reason I have come here”
I nodded “I figured”
“Have you thought about what I said while I was gone?”
“Uh, I know I said I will give you a chance but…” I trailed off
“I get it, I cannot go away for a few weeks and not expect that nothing has changed” he smiled reassuringly “He proposed, then?”
“I am so sorry, the truth was that honestly, I did not even know if I was going to be able to allow you to court me, and it was wrong for me to agree when I was in love with the Viscount, you deserve a lady that puts her whole heart into your courtship. I could not do that” I explained “He has proposed, but I have not accepted”
“Something that we are very annoyed with, might I add” Edwina interjected making the Duke laugh “He has not stopped coming over everyday bringing flowers, we do not even know where to put them anymore. And I am certain he spends more time here than he does at his own home”
“Oh, do not be dramatic, bon” I scoff amused
“We love it, It shows he is genuine”
“Well, I got the answer I came for, so I must take my leave, I am having Lunch with her majesty, the queen, and she does not like to be kept waiting” Louis said as he went to walk away. I looked at Edwina, who was staring at the Duke and smiled.
“Your grace,” He stopped as I walked closer to him “ It may have not worked with me but… Edwina is a sweet, young lady, it will not hurt to try, will it” I smiled giddily
Louis looked at Edwina, observing her before he smiled and nodded his head, , Anthony walked in as Louis gave me a last smile before he walked out.
“Y/n, Miss Edwina” He greeted as he handed me a bouquet of lilacs
“Lord Bridgerton” Edwina greeted “ We do not have any more free vases, where are we supposed to put this one?” Edwina grumbled as she walked away, leaving us.
“Tell Lady Danbury and Mama, that Anthony and I are going for a ride and will be back soon” I called out to her, I heard her say something in agreement “Are you ready for a ride?” I smiled but his face stayed unreadable
“What is wrong?” I asked
“What was the Duke doing here?” I furrowed my eyebrows at his tone
“He was just passing by, wanting to greet me, a friend”
“Yes, because friends give other friends flowers” he gestured to the roses
“ I did not ask him to buy me flowers, he just brought them to me” I furrowed my eyebrows “he is my friend” I sighed
“You do not even spend time together, how can you be friends?” He remarks, clenching his jaw
“Why are you so mad? We do not have to spend every single moment together to be friends, it was just a friendly gesture, the flowers” I added
“Yes, well if I was the one to call on another young lady, and gifted her flowers, you would have something to say, would you not?” Anthony snapped
“No, because I cannot say anything about who you are friends with, Just like you do not get to choose who I have as friends!” I insisted angrily
“Men do not want to be your friends!” He argued “I know men, I am one myself, I know how they think, and what they want. When they look at you, they do not think of being your friend”
“Why can you not trust me?!” I said
“I do trust you, it is them I do not trust!” We look at each other angrily “Is he why?”
“Why what?” I scoffed
“Why you do not want to accept my proposal-“
“Anthony-“
“No! You keep on rejecting me over and over again, I thought it was just because you wanted me to pursue you, but it has been a week, and you have not given in. But this is just it, is it not? You are just waiting for the duke to make his own proposal, being Viscountess is not enough for you, so what is better than being a duchess? And of course, it certainly helps that he is richer” I looked at him in disbelief
“Do you not know me?” I scoff “You know neither does a title or money matter to me. Why are you even saying this, have you not gotten to know me all this months we have spent together?”
“Yes, well I am not sure if I even know you anymore” Anthony grumbled “Perhaps you never were the person you acted like, and now I got to know your true colors, you are nothing more than the same as the rest of ladies in the ton, all interested in titles and money, and nothing else”
Tears prickled in my eyes “Well I am glad I finally got to know what it is you think about me. You finally found out, what you think I am really like, before It was too late, did it not?”
“And to think I was finally going to agree to be your wife today, thought I made you wait too long, seems like it was the right decision to reject you from the start, after all” I walked away from him, opening the door and going outside
“Wait,” He called out but I ignored him “Y/n, wait”
I ran off towards the stables, and with just my luck, the sky was now cloudy, rain pouring down. I continued down my path, opening up the stables and grabbing a horse.
It did not matter whether it was prepared to be ridden for or not, I wanted to get away from the house, and Anthony, as quickly as possible. I climbed on and nudged the horse to start running.
“Y/n, wait!” Anthony called out opening the door and running after me “It is too dangerous, you can get hurt!”
Rain continued pouring, my body and clothes now wet, and blurring my vision. We trudged through the fields, I making the horse turn to the side, trying to loose Anthony who was now behind me, he had grabbed a horse and rode after me.
“Y/n!” I heard Anthony get closer
I looked around everywhere, trying to decipher where I could go to loose him. I saw a space between some trees, unfortunately, rocks and shrubbery blocked the path. I breathed in, trying to let go of my fear. I urged the horse to go faster, so I could be be able to jump over it.
“No, no!” Anthony yelled frightened “Do not do it!”
The horse stood up on its hind legs, the force of gravity and my fingers slipping off the reigns, made me fall off.
“Y/n!”
I hit my head on a rock, the impact making black spots cloud my eyes before everything darkened.
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ANTHONY‘S POV (3RD PERSON)
Anthony stared at Y/n’s body in shock, his blood went frozen cold, horror racking all over his body as he urged the horse to ride faster towards her. He did not even wait for the horse to stop before he jumped off, running quickly to Y/n.
He kneeled next to her, taking off his coat and covering her with it. “Stay with me. Come on, now” he went to pick her up, his hand touching her head, he stopped himself once he felt something coating his hand. He turned it around and saw blood, his face turned even more pale.
“Stay with me” Anthony pleaded, wrapping her hand around his neck and picking her up
He saw a carriage getting closer to them and walked towards it quickly.
He stumbled through the door of Lady Danbury’s house, Y/n on his arms. “Make room!” he yelled once everyone started to crowd around them
Hearing the commotion, Lady Mary, Lady Danbury, Kate and Edwina Sharma, walked down the stairs quickly, they gasped horrified once they saw Y/n unconscious
“Call the surgeon at once!” Anthony ordered carrying Y/n up stairs
He marched towards her bedchambers, laying her down on her bed, as maids, the surgeon, and her family crowded around the room.
“She has a cut on the back of her head” Anthony informed them “I kept pressure on it, but it need stitching”
“Miss Sharma? Can you hear me?” Anthony stood around the bed as the surgeon tended to Y/n, grabbing anything so he could occupy himself
“She needs more blankets. She is still shivering!” Anthony yelled exasperated
“Allow me to get to work” The surgeon pleaded to him
Anthony stepped back allowing the surgeon his space, his eyes on Y/n’s figure, desperation obvious in his face
“What happened?” Benedict Bridgerton entered the room “My valet saw you carrying Miss Sharma inside, is she alright?”
“I do not know” Anthony answers an unreadable look in his face
“Are you all right?” Benedict asked his brother, looking at him worriedly
Anthony looked away from Y/n’s body, and to the Sharma’s on the other side of the bed, crying and praying for Y/n’s safety and recovery. His eyes filled with tears, a lump forming in his throat as his he felt a weight on his chest.
“It is my fault” his lips trembled “It is all my fault” he felt it harder to breath, his chest heaves up and down quickly, trying to fill his lungs with air.
“Anthony?” Benedict called but Anthony did not hear him and stumbled out of the room, ignoring his brothers calls behind him, his emotions weighing him down, he could even hear his heart beating faster
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“No one cared to inform me that we have lost three staff in the last month?” Anthony Bridgerton said angrily as he walked into the drawing room of the Bridgerton house “These are precisely the things I must know about” his siblings looked up at him startled
“We are not the only ones affected by our ill reputation of late, Anthony” Lady Bridgerton mused
“Colin, would you care to inform me about anything?” Anthony said
“I do not take note of staff changes, brother” Colin answered confused
“What about our accounts?” Anthony raised his eyebrows “Apparently you do not take note of them either since I spent the last two days balancing our books, only to discover that you have taken out a rather large sum, whatever for?” Everyone looked at Colin intrigued
Colin swallowed under their stares “If you must know, I was exploring an investment with Lord Featherington”
“This is just what makes the difficulties in this household. No one gives any thought as to how it must be managed” the Viscount snapped
“He is one and twenty, brother” Benedict defended Colin
“Is no one in this family allowed to make their own decisions?” Eloise added
“You, keep your doodling” Anthony told Benedict “And do not ask me to speak of your activities, I would not know where to begin” he looked at Eloise scowling
Eloise looked at her brother angrily “May I be excused?” She stood up and left without another word
“I must go too” Colin said packing up his things “But do not worry, brother, I shall send you notice of every step I take today”
“Yes, doodling awaits, I suppose”
“I do have too much to breath”
“I have my Latin”
And now, there was only Lady Bridgerton and Anthony left in the drawing room. He sighed and pinched his nose in frustration.
“How is she?” Anthony looked at his mother
“Still not awake from the last I heard four days ago” he answered
“Have you not gone to see her? What if-“
“Have I not made it clear, I’ve been busy?” Anthony snaps at her
Lady Bridgerton sighed and walked closer to her son “I would be lying if I said I was not worries about you, Anthony” She told her son
The Viscount looked at her emotionlessly “I do not have time for this” he murmured
“Well..” Lady Danbury still looked at her son with care, giving him a small smile “ You might wish to make time" She then left
Anthony blinked his tears away, sighing sadly
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(Y/N’S BEDCHAMBERS IN LADY DANBURY’S HOUSEHOLD)
Y/n opened her eyes, the sun’s light hitting her eyes. She looked around the room and saw her sisters sitter on a chair near the bed
“Kate, Edwina?” She called out. Both sisters turned to look at her, happy tears instantly filling their eyes.
“Mama! Lady Danbury! Make haste!” Edwina yelled as they crowded around Y/n
Footsteps could be heard rushing to the room, Lady Mary and Lady Danbury entering the room soon after.
“Dearest?” Lady Mary questioned
“She's awake!” Kate said happily
“Oh!”
“Thank heavens. Send for the doctor!”
“Y/n” Lady Mary grins “Do you remember?”
“I remember the argument, and me riding in the park. And the fall” Y/n looked at her family sadly “I am so sorry”
“You must rest, bon, do not strain yourself” Kate smiled
Y/n smiled at them, before it faded, thoughts consuming her “Did Anthony come to see me?”
They all looked at each other doubtful before Lady Danbury spoke up “He rescued you in the park, gallantly, in fact. He brought you back here several days ago. Would not leave your bedside for a second” She smiled “Although, he stopped coming four days ago” Y/n nodded smiling sadly
“It is alright” She sighed “Well, tell me what I missed” they laughed
“A fall never takes off your love for gossip does it?” Y/n laughed at Kate's words
“Never” They all laughed once again
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(BACK AT THE BRIDGERTON HOME)
Anthony Bridgerton stood in his study, reading over papers that required his attention.
“I will join the family in the drawing room momentarily” He spoke up once he heard footsteps heading his way, one hundred percent sure it was his mother
“Anthony” Lady Bridgerton said, happiness evident in her tone
Anthony looked up from the papers, his heart starting to beat rapidly in his chest. He took one look at his mother and he knew. “She’s awake”
“Mrs. Wilson heard from one of the maids” She smiled
Anthony nodded, relief flooded through his body as he looked back at the papers. His lips trembled, his eyes filling with tears as he covered his face with both hands, crying silently.
His mother frowned sadly as she looked at him, sitting next to him on the davenport. Her own eyes filled with tears as she heard his heavy breathing, and the way he tried to control his cries.
“It is… unthinkable" Violet started “Finding someone like that. Someone you love.” Anthony uncovered his face, wiping away his tears
“I am so sorry” Violet sniffled “ I am so sorry that it was you who was with your father that day. And I am.. sorry for everything that happened in the days that followed. If I could go back and change thing… you have no idea how much I wish I could change everything”
“It is what I think about every night before I close my eyes, and then again every morning before I open them. It will never go away.” She cried
“I do not think that I can see her” Anthony whispered once they calmed down
“Losing Edmund was the most difficult time in my life, and the pain that I felt… beyond description. But there is one thing that has given me at least some modicum of solace. It is knowing that I would still choose the life I lead with him, each and every time.” Tears fell down their faces again “And I would undoubtedly feel the same pain I felt over again if I had to because real, true love, is worth it. No matter what.”
“Now, go be with her” Anthony nodded, composing himself before walking away determinedly, to go win back his woman.
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“ Lord Bridgerton” Y/n said once she saw Anthony walk into her room
“I am glad to see you are awake” Anthony handed her a bouquet of lilacs
“I hear it was you who found me and brought me home safe” Y/n grabbed the flowers
“I suppose I should be grateful for that first race I had with Miss Sharma and you, if it were not for that fateful moment, I do not know what would have happened” Y/n stares at him, the unreadable look on her face making him nervous
“Although, I was also told you have not come to see me since four days ago” She huffed
Anthony sat down on a chair near the bed “Yes, I am sorry for that, I was here the first days, never leaving your side in case you had woken up and you needed me there, but it had been a week and you had not woken up yet and-“ he sighed shakily, rubbing his face before looking back up at her, tears noticeable in his eyes “I was fearful of losing you, it was why I could not visit you anymore, I could not bring myself to after I remembered why it even happen in the first place” he sniffled, she sadly looked into his face as he explained himself.
“ Y/n, I am so sorry” he cried out, tears filling Y/n’s eyes as she saw him break down “ I am so sorry for what I said, I did not mean it, those cruel words I said, I know you are not like that, but I was jealous after I saw the Duke, thought he had taken you away from me, I also know that is no excuse to have acted like that, that is why I am going to spend the rest of my life making up for that, if you allow me”
“I love you” She looked at him shocked “ I’ve loved you from that moment I first saw you in the park, I’ve loved you in every dance, on every walk, every time we have been together and every time we have been apart, you do not have to accept, embrace it or allow it, but you must know it in your heart, and I am certain you feel the same way” tears streamed down both of their faces
“I love everything about you, your kindness, the way you smile and your eyes crinkled in the corner, how when you laugh, you try to hide your beautiful laugh behind your hands because your are insecure about it, but I assure it, it is the most beautiful sound I have ever heard in my life. I love how you bite your lip when you are nervous, or how your eyebrows furrow when you are sad. I love how you tried to help me win over your sister when it was so clearly breaking you inside, that just shows how supportive you are, and how you put everyone’s happiness above your own. Or how when we slept together and I felt your skin next to mine, they way your lips tasted, I felt like everything I have ever dreamed of became true. Because there is no where in this damn world I’d rather be than with you, and you are my heaven” Y/n rested her forehead on top of his
“I forgive you, Anthony” Y/n whispered pulling away, wiping away her tears “You do not even have to prove yourself because I forgave you the moment I left, I was hurt, yes, but I needed time.”
“And… I love you too” She smiled, Anthony smiled back happily
“I want a life that suits us both. I know I am imperfect, but I will humble myself before you because I cannot imagine my life without you, and that is why I wish to marry you, so what do you say? Will you marry me?”
She looked at him “You do know I will find every way I can to annoy you, and I will still boast about how I was right about Nectar and High Flyer, even if it was months ago” Anthony laughed, looking at her adoringly
“And I will not even complain, just to make you happy” He smiled
“Then yes, I will marry you!” Anthony cheered
Y/n laughed as Anthony picked her up from the bed, twirling her around in circles before putting her down and pulling her into a kiss. She laughed into the kiss, wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling him even closer.
They did not even pay attention to her family who was, not so secretly spying from the door, nor to their grumbles and playfully gags they made once Y/n and Anthony kissed. Although they could not deny how happy they were for them and how in loved they are.
They will finally have the happy ending they longed for.
This is it folks, we are done with Tales Of A Heart, but don't worry, there will be an epilogue + a few more bonus chapters.
Another thing, I want to thank all of you for the support and love you have given my story, when I first posted the first part, I didn't think anyone would like it, but one person like it and then more and more. I am grateful for each and everyone of you, I love you all♡♡♡♡
Epilogue
Summary: a happy ending
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader
Word count: 1k
Warnings: unedited, fluff, Anthony being a simp
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“Oh god Anthony” I moaned out loudly I reached my climax, Anthony thrust in and out faster and faster, trying to reach his own peak
“Oh” Anthony groaned as he gave one last thrust
We breathed heavily as we stared at each other, I still on top of him. We laughed as I pulled him into a kiss, he kissed back as he pulled me down onto our bed, getting on top of me.
“mmm” Anthony moaned “Viscountess” I moaned in respond
“Husband” I smile biting my lip
“You seem to have outdone yourself today” I hummed as he kissed down my neck
“Yes, well, my duties are particularly important to me, and of course, I cannot deny my husband what he desires, can I?” I laughed
“Perhaps you would like to go again” he suggested “Seeing as you are so very dutiful” he kissed down my body, to my stomach where he stopped
“I am pretty sure little baby Bridgerton will not mind” He smiled happily looking up at me "and you are looking absolutely beautiful" I laughed
Yes, I am currently with child, four months to be exact, Anthony was delighted when I told him, even cried, which he always denies that he did not but we all know the truth
“I am sure baby Bridgerton will not” I pull him up to kiss him “ But, it would be dutiful to meet your family outside before they realize we are ignoring them”
He groaned kissing me again “They will not mind, we are recently married”
“Yes, of course, recently married only like 5 months ag- oh!” I gasped when he surged forward once again, burying himself to the hilt inside of me “Maybe they can wait a little more” I moved my hips along with his
“That is just what I thought, my love” He laughed into my mouth as I started to moan loudly with each thrust, holding tightly onto his hand.
“Oh!” I gasped once he pulled me on top of him before laughing
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“Yes! Look at you, you’re walking!” is what we heard as we stepped outside 15 minutes later
I gasped excitedly as I saw baby Auggie walking towards his mother and surged forward towards them “Oh baby Auggie!” I said in awe
“Careful, love, you might hurt yourself” I ignored Anthony’s overprotective self and approached Daphne, who already held baby Auggie out towards me.
Yes, it has also become a custom to whenever I see Daphne’s son, I take him away from whoever is holding him, and they do not even complain, knowing how emotional I can be if I do not hold him. The mood changes comes with the pregnancy, I guess.
I hold Auggie in my arms, careful not to put him over my bump, I coo at him as Anthony approaches me and puts his arm over my shoulder
“Finally!” Eloise huffs “Thought you would never come down, do not worry, we only waited like six hours”
“Six is nothing when you are a newlywed” Daphne smiles
“Might we begin playing?” Colin suggests
“Dear, your are positively glowing” Violet remarks happily as I hand Auggie over to her.
“It is the pregnancy” I smile putting a hand over my bump, caressing, Violet nods smiling
“Beautiful, nonetheless” a blush comes onto my cheeks at her words making her chuckle
“Right, we’ve all picked but left the mallet of death” I heard Eloise say behind me
“For me!” Anthony yelled rushing over and grabbing the mallet of death.
I turned around and huffed “Not fair, I was not even paying attention”
“Tough luck, my love, should have paid attention” Anthony shrugged
I pouted at him, as everyone watched with amusement, already knowing what was the outcome of this. Anthony stared at my face as tears filled my eyes, before he huffed.
“Alright, here, please do not cry” Anthony pleaded handing me the mallet, I grinned, tears now gone as I walked away from him
“Thank you, husband dearest” Anthony stared back at me shocked as everyone laughed
“What did jus- you know what, I will not even ask, I have learned not to” Anthony grumbled
“Probably keep to pink, Anthony” Daphne said amused “I rather think it will match the shade of your embarrassment when you use it, now let us begin” We all move towards the field, Anthony coming up behind me, wrapping his arms around me.
“You know, I am not sure I like those little tricks you use” Anthony murmured into my ears
“Well tough luck, my love” I mocked his words making him chuckle “You will always give in”
“Hmm,” he kissed my cheek “I am certain it will not work for long,”
“Of course it will, have you not heard the saying ‘happy wife, happy life’?” I turned my head to look at him
“yes, well, I do not like tears coming down that beautiful face” he pulls me into a kiss "You are beautiful"
“You sap” I tease , he laughs and brings me into a kiss once again, I wrap my hands around his neck as he pulls me closer, careful not to squish me into him
“Now, let us go, I have a husband to defeat” I say smiling mischievously
“Oh really?”
“Yes really”
“Well, game on, wife of mine”
Bonus Chapter 1
Summary: Here comes the bride...
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x Sharma Sister! Reader
Word count: 3.3k
Warnings: Smut!! (Do not read if you are not comfortable, although you can skip it as it is only in the second half, divided by this ●●●●●) fluff, unedited, Anthony not being patient and wanting to see his future bride, simp Anthony
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“Come on, y/n, we still have to do your hair and dress you!” Edwina complained as I took a bath to calm my nerves
“Oh leave her be, Edwina, it is completely normal to be nervous before the wedding, take your time, dearest” Mama called our
“Mama, we do not have time! The wedding is in two hours-”
“Edwina” I groaned “You are more demanding than me, and I am the bride” I stood up from the bath tub, a maid holding out a towel for me
I approached them, Edwina gesturing for me to sit down on the nearest chair once I stepped into my chemise “Now sit here, and let them do your hair, Lord knows if we will be able to finish in time, we have to dress you still, and get to the chapel” Edwina gasped horrified “The queen will be there if that is not enough pressure already, the whole ton also. No, there will not be enough-“
“Edwina” Kate cut her off laughing “calm yourself” Edwina huffed before nodding
An hour later, the ladies maid was done with my hair, putting the finishing touches, when we heard a knock on the door. We looked at each other confused before Kate went and slightly opened the door
“What are you doing here?!” Kate exclaimed “You cannot see her before the wedding, it is bad luck”
“Oh come on,” I heard Anthony huff, I stood up and walked closer to the door, still wearing my chemise “What wrong could happen? Just let me see her for a moment”
“No, now go, we still have a lot to do” Kate denied closing the door
“Kate, it is fine” I assured her, waving her off “Let me talk to him” Kate pursued her lips, nodding
“Just do not let him see you”
“Hey” I murmured once i opened the door slightly, enough for me to see his figure
“Hey” I could hear the smile in his voice “How are you feeling?”
“Nervous” I chuckle sheepishly
“Yes, I imagine so” he laughed “I am too, but it goes away when I remember that I will marry the woman I love wholeheartedly” I smile resting my forehead against the door, still hiding behind it
“I actually came to give you something, on behalf of my mother, she said she was going to give you it, and obviously, I could not pass the opportunity to see you, or well, hear you since I am not allowed too” I laughed “Give me your hand”
I put my hand out between the free space of the door towards him, I felt him grab my hand, caressing it gently before putting something on my palm.
“It was my mother’s, she wore it on her wedding with my father, and thought it would look good with your wedding dress. Said it was a tradition to give it to the bride to be of the first born, my grandma gave it to her, and now she is passing it down to you” I brought my hand back inside and saw the most beautiful necklace ever “Not sure why a necklace is so important for the wedding but, oh well, women stuff I guess” he chuckled
“It is beautiful” i said in awe
“And it will be even more beautiful on you. Now I will go, I can feel your family’s annoyance through the door”
“Alright” I hummed still concentrated on the necklace
He stood silent, I was even convinced he was already gone before he spoke up “I love you” I bit my lip smiling
“I love you too” I murmured
“Y/n, come on, we have less than a hour and a half” Kate urged, I sighed and turned around, looking at them annoyed “ Do not look at us like that, you will have plenty of time to see him after you are wed” that brightened me mood once again.
In no time, I was fully ready and just waiting for the time to walk through those doors.
“Now,” mama started “ I am sure you do not need to have the talk about your wedding night, seeing as you already…. Based on what you confessed” a blush formed on my face, she smiled as Kate and Edwina entered first, being my bridesmaids
“You look beautiful” Mama teared up “Who ever thought you would be the first to get married… My daughter will be the best Viscountess there will ever be”
“I doubt it” I denied “I am certain no one can surpass Lady Bridgerton”
She shook her head “ You will try your best, now, Let us go get you married” mama smiled
We walked down the aisle, I held onto mama’s arms tightly, my heart beating rapidly in my chest as everyone stood up watching us, happy smiles on their faces.
I looked at each and everyone before turning to look at the one face that only mattered to me, Anthony’s. He stared at me, a grin on his face as I walked closer and closer to him.
He held out his hand towards me once I approached him, I grabbed it, stepping onto the podium, he dropped my hand as we stared forward at the archbishop.
“Dearly beloved, we are gathered here to join together this man and this woman, in holy matrimony,” The archbishop started “ It is said that, marriage hath in it less of beauty, and more of safety than the single life-“ I breathed out shakily, tuning out the archbishop’s voice, Anthony intertwining his pinky finger with mine
Tears came onto my eyes as I swallowed, thinking back to everything we had to go through to get where we were right now. All the pain I suffered, the heartbreak, all the tears I cried over him, overpowered by all the smiles he gave me, the million times he made me laugh, the way he confides in me in a way he could never with anyone else, the little things about me he always pays attention to, it is the little things that matter. It was all worth it, just to get to be his wife , and I would gladly do it all over again if I was asked to.
Because Anthony is my soul mate, and I cannot think of a world where I lived without him. He is the air that I breathed, everything I could have asked for in a man and so much more.
We faced each other, I smiled tearfully at him, a tear falling down my eye. “You are going to make me cry” He whispered, his own eyes filling with tears, I chuckled sniffling
He took of my glove carefully, putting my wedding band on my ring finger, looking into my eyes.
“In the name of the Father, of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost, amen. I now pronounce you, man and wife”
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THIRD PERSON POV
And now they were in a carriage, traveling the short distance between Bridgerton House, where the reception had been held, and Anthony’s private residence, which she supposed could no longer be referred to as “bachelor’s lodgings.”
Y/n nibbled on her lip, looking down at her lap, wringing her hands as she thought about what was to come after the honeymoon days were over. Anthony followed the line of her gaze and placed one of his large hands over both of hers. She went still instantly at his comforting touch.
“Are you nervous?” he inquired.
“Did you think I wouldn’t be?” she replied chuckling nervously
He smiled in response. “There is nothing to fear.” He then laughed “Nothing we have not done before”
Y/n burst in laughter “yes, of course” her laughter faded, “but that is not what I am nervous about. It is about what is to come after we leave, I have not the slightest clue on how to be a Viscountess or manage a household, there is much to be nervous about”
His smile broadened. “Touché, my dear wife.” He caressed her hand “But I am sure you will marvelously, and my mother will be there to help you if you desire so”
Y/n swallowed convulsively. It was strange to be someone’s wife, although exciting to be Anthony’s wife “That is a relief” she countered. “Are you nervous? Of the things marriage will bring? Or that you never know how it might turn out”
He leaned in toward her, his dark eyes hot and heavy with the promise of things to come. “Oh, desperately,” he murmured. He closed the rest of the distance between them, his lips finding the sensitive hollow of her ear. “My heart is pounding,” he whispered.
“We should wait” Y/n moaned as Anthony kissed down her neck
He nibbled on her neck. “Wait for what?”
“To get to the lodgings”
The carriage rolled to a halt when a liveried footman rushed forward and attempted to open the door, Anthony yanked it back shut, never once taking his eyes off of her face.
“Or we could stay here, makes things much more exciting, does it not? The prospect that anyone could open the door at any given moment” Anthony suggested
“Open the door ”Y/n chuckled amusedly, he let go of the door handle, and the door swung open, revealing the faces of two footmen who were obviously trying very hard not to look curious. Y/n remained silent as Anthony helped her down and led her into the house.
His household staff was assembled in the small entry hall, and Y/n murmured her greetings as each member was introduced to her by the butler and housekeeper. The staff wasn’t very extensive, as the house was small by ton standards, but the introductions took a good twenty minutes.
He led her upstairs into his bedchambers, he did not even wait until she was fully settled as he closed the door shut and slammed her into the nearest wall, covering her mouth with his.
Y/n kissed back with just as much passion, wrapping her arms around Anthony’s neck, pulling him even closer. Anthony pulls away, gesturing towards the bed.
She goes and kneels upon the king-sized bed with love in her eyes, a passion reflected as he drinks in the sight of her, his lawful wedded wife. He stares in adoration at her eyes filled with joy, at her curls cascading, at her heart-shaped face smiling. Cleavage bared above the white corset. Like every bride on her wedding day, she's beautiful.
“You look so beautiful, I am a lucky man” Anthony remarks, love evident on his face
A warm summer breeze blows through the open window, where outside the sun tips down below the horizon. The movement of the curtains, the noise of the wind through them, is the only thing to break the silence.
Then he goes to her.
Anthony takes her hand, and their ringed fingers entwine as his other arm, he loops around her, drawing her towards him. Their kiss is passionate, yet gentle.
Her husband peels each item off her as if unwrapping a present, even as she unbuckles his belt and draws down his trousers. They kiss one another as they do it, sometimes gentle, sometimes fierce. Soon she is revealed. Her breasts bounce with the deep breaths of her excitement, Anthony can feel her pulse racing as he caresses them.
Sweet moans part the silence as he runs his fingers across her nipples, then slides one into his hungry mouth. Her back arches with pleasure as he smiles around her breast at the taste of her. Now his hands are free to roam, to explore the curve of her behind. Heart-shaped like her face, firm and bouncy, and all of it for him. His fingers sink into her buttocks as he squeezes them making Y/n moan.
“God, Anthony” Her heart pounds as his hungry mouth swaps to the other breast, as his hands roam all over her, her own fingers entwine themselves
She wraps her legs around him, squeezing tight, urging him on. His treatment of her nipples becomes more intense, almost verges on pain, and she loves every second. But there are other places that need his mouth's attention, so she guides his head up and out of her bountiful cleavage towards her face. His kisses run up her breasts and beyond, then their lips meet once again.
Their tongues dance together. They take turns dominating, breathless in their passion. As they go on, he settles her down onto the bed, pressing down atop of her. Their lips part again and they gulp down air, staring into one another's eyes. He is poised above her, every inch of him tense with desire, whilst she lies below invitingly with her soft hair spread out over plump white pillows.
Time seems to hang still.
“You are just so perfect”
It is then that his hand slips down to her inside thigh, and draws the bottoms she wears aside. He slides it over her womanly hips, her firm thighs, her slender legs, and lets it fall to the bed like everything else. Then he leans over her again and kisses her once more, whilst his finger finds her entrance and neatly slips inside.
“Oh!” Y/n gasps into his mouth
She bucks her hips against his hand, only for his lips to claim hers with redoubled intensity. His finger pumps back and forth, the pleasure making her writhe and squeal, but she knows this is only the beginning. She feels giddy just thinking about it.
She can hardly wait.
She slides one of her hands down his body, grabbing onto his manhood, Anthony hisses into her mouth once he feels her hand grab onto him, Y/n giggles at the response. It feels good to make him gasp, to make him feel some of the pleasure he's giving her.
The thought makes her lust spike, puts a needy edge on her kisses, and just as she's getting impatient the man of her dreams changes tack. Withdrawing his now soaking finger, he runs it over her neat little folds, searching for something, seeking out the seat of her desire.
She pushes his head away from her then, breaking their kiss. His finger teases her clitoris as she stares into his eyes, her need blazing behind her gaze.
With her cheeks flushed, breasts heaving, she spreads her legs and says one word, expressing a thousand pages of lust in one whispered syllable
"I need you now, Anthony."
He slams forward into her, buried to the tilt, making her gasp in surprise before it turns into moans as he continues slamming back and forwards. They moan together in ecstasy, both shaking, joined at last after all the teasing.
"I love you." Anthony groans, looking intensely into her eyes
“I love you” Y/n replied pulling him into a passionate kiss
She's the most soft, snug and deliciously tight thing in the universe. He's a huge, throbbing, steely-hard fulfilment with every thrust. The pair of them are in heaven. They hold hands, wedding rings glinting as he begins to move even more harshly inside of her, two bodies becoming one in the night.
The two of them quickly find a rhythm, it's like they were made for one other. His thrusts become steady, meeting her rolling hips with every downward stroke, and soon they're fucking as if they've been doing it all their lives.
Her pleasure is building steadily, excitement quickening as she rises, soars high, trusting in the ultimate fulfilment. “Oh God! Oh God!, Anthony!” She screams out loudly “Yes, just like that, God I love you!” moving her hips even faster.
Anthony grabs onto her hand, holding it tightly while he drives quickly into her, groans and moans filling the previously quiet place. He stands up from the bed, still intertwined with her and slams her into the nearest wall, continuing with his ongoing rhythm from before.
Y/n gasps at the new position, wrapping her legs tightly around his waist, burrowing her face into his neck as she felt the bumps of the wall digging onto her back, scratching onto her skin with every thrust, making her moan loudly. It all making it more euphoric.
“Oh god!” the sound was muffled by Anthony’s neck
The sound of the joy he gives her, the smell of her scent and her warm, sweet skin, the feel of her wrapped around him as he fucks her for the second time, is overwhelming.
But it is the pure pleasure on her face that he is starting to adore seeing. He feels detached from the world and engulfed in her beauty all at once, as if she's put him in a trance.
She's so close. She's almost there. One last act, one more little push will take her higher than the clouds and over the edge into ecstasy. She arches her back and stares needily aat Anthony then guides his hand back to her clit. A few touches. A few more strokes.
“I am so close! Yes, just like that! Anthony!”
And then she's there. She screams, throwing back her head, thrashing and trembling against Anthony’s arms. Her wedding night orgasm is upon her and it is even better than the first time Anthony and her slept together, it puts tears in her eyes from the sheer glorious bliss of it all.
It's almost too much for the Viscount to take but he makes it, stays steadfast, fucks her through her orgasm until the tremors of pleasure subside. It's his duty to make this night the best he possibly can for her.
And when she is done, she grabs him and pulls him into a kiss, wrapping her legs around him as tightly as she can, and whispers her love into his ear. He turns around and walks back to bed, falling down into it, careful not to crush her as he moves above her.
His thrusts become frantic, lose their rhythm, speed up until he's a bucking, thrashing mess of a man, until finally, his voice rings out loud and desperate in the night.
“Y/n, God, so good, so so good” he groans out, with one last throb, he erupts into her, losing every drop he has, pressing her down into the soft mattress and striving frantically to get as far inside her, as close to her as he possibly can. He roars as he reaches his peak, losing a groaning shout as his new wife drains his heavy balls.
When it's done he slumps down, spent, gasping for breath as hard as she is. They lie beside one another, gulping in heavy breaths, and then the reality of it hits them.
They've consummated their marriage.
"I love you." They both whisper at once, laughing as their words crash into one another. There are happy tears in their eyes. The beautiful wife settles into her husband's arms, snuggling up against him.
“To a new life, with you by my side, my beautiful Y/n” Anthony murmurs, kissing her forehead before closing his eyes.
And slowly, happily, they fall asleep.
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This is kind off how I pictured the dress and necklace to be like, but you can picture it however you like
Happy Marriage
Summary: Is marriage really what you thought it is?
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x fem!reader
Word count: 2.8k
Warnings: angst, arguments, unhappy marriage, Anthony is a dick, unedited
A/n: Here is a little one shot to occupy yourself while I finish the next bonus chapter of Tales Of A Heart, enjoy!!
Inspired by The Crown
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Marriage was the best thing that could happen to you.
Your husband was very attentive, he paid attention to every little thing about you, brought you flowers everyday, even if you didn’t ask for it. He spent time with you when he was done with his Viscount duties, he was also very funny, and the most important, he loves you.
On weekends, you would spend time together on the gardens, having picnics, looking up at the sky, your hands intertwined. You would speak about the future, about your Viscountess duties, about future children and how you would raise them to be the best person they could be.
And at nights, you would sleep tangled up in your bed, your head on his bare chest, hearing his heart beating while he had his arms wrapped around you tightly, scared that at any given moment, you would disappear and it would all be dream, that he never really got marry you, that he would wake up on the desk of the study he used to spend hours and hours working to death.
He would kiss your head, thanking the gods above that you fell in love with him and accepted his proposal. Anthony would then turn your face up towards him and kiss you. That same kiss starting a long, passionate night like many nights before, leaving you barely being able to function from the tiredness next morning.
Life was wonderful.
Or at least that’s what you thought marriage would be like before you married Anthony Bridgerton.
The image of the perfect marriage engraved in your mind, was shattered the moment after your wedding night, when Anthony wanted nothing to do with you.
After a night of hot sex, he was gone. The perfect gentleman you knew while he was courting you was gone, and instead was replaced by a man who was cold, unfeeling and who would belittle you anytime you talked to him. But what did you expect?
From the start, you knew he was in love with Sienna Rosso, a penniless opera singer without any title. But you had foolishly thought that after a while of getting to know you, he would get over her and finally love you.
At least that is what your mama and Lady Bridgerton assured you when you voiced your worries. And you believed them. After all, who could know better than your mama, who had gone through a similar situation with your father, both who are very in love still to this day. And Lady Bridgerton, Anthony was her son, she knew him better than anyone else.
Lady Bridgerton encouraged Anthony to start courting you, telling him all about how such a nice girl you were, how you were very intelligent and how beautiful you are. You would make the perfect viscountess.
The viscount, sick of her comments and demands, accepted and spent one evening with you, unfortunately for him, that evening turned into several evenings, and suddenly, you were on a chapel getting married.
Anthony was angry, he loved Sienna, he wanted to marry her although he knew it was impossible.
He liked Y/n at the start, thought she was a nice girl, but as time passed on, and with both the Bridgerton’s and Y/l/n’s already planning their wedding, he started to dislike her, maybe even hate her as he knew that she was taking the place which he always thought was Sienna’s.
Again, impossible, but that is what he thought.
Y/n was earning her families affection with every moment she spent with them, the servants at the Bridgerton household adored her, and let's not speak about the ton. She was the perfect viscountess. And he hated it.
He would still speak with Sienna despite courting Y/n, and he would never stop. He would tell Sienna all about Y/n, How pathetic she was, how he could not stand her and how everyone liked her, and how he hated having to pretend to love her in front of everyone.
Sienna would comfort him, telling Anthony how it does not matter, they could still be together even while being married to Y/n. She would then kiss him to distract him from his thoughts and pull him into what she does best, sex, thus starting the secret affair once again.
After Y/n and Anthony got married, it only turned worse. In the day, he always seemed to be busy whenever Y/n wanted to spend time with him, and at nights, he would leave to be with Sienna.
When Y/n found out about his affair with her, arguments started, and it all turned into even more chaos. They slept in separate rooms, even if Anthony still denied the affair at the start.
Who knew that the way she thought marriage would be was far from it. It was a living nightmare.
Being together at balls, pretending to be very in love in front of the ton, and when everyone asked when a new Bridgerton addition was happening, they would laugh and simply say they wanted more time alone.
And at home? Still more arguments.
Thankfully, it was late at night and his family were already in their rooms asleep, when a new argument started in his study.
“Can you stop with your whining?” Anthony exclaimed rubbing his forehead harshly “ God, there is not a moment of peace in this house whenever you are around, not to mention that you cannot be the wife everyone said you would be, you do not even perform your wife duties you should to your husband-“
“Is that why you keep on going back to her?” You cut him off and at his confused look you said, “I am not even going to say her name. You already know who I am talking about, seeing as you always seem to want to go to the opera, Only god knows why”
“What does she have to do with this?” Anthony said looking away
“That is what I keep on asking myself, but obviously she has a lot to do with everything because you cannot seem to leave her alone!” You snapped, angry tears forming in her eyes
“She is a friend, has been for a very long time, long before you were even in the picture." Anthony sighed "She is just that, a friend” Anthony lied
You scoffed “Oh please, you visit her all the time, gift her flowers whenever you do-“
“A friendly gesture-“ Anthony tried to speak
“On our wedding night, you came late at night before we consummated our marriage, you said you had somewhere important to go before you came to me, I can now suspect where you had been.” Anthony sighs walking away and to his bedchambers, You follow after him, still talking.
“I saw you gift her a necklace one evening at the opera, I saw how you looked at her while you put it on her, later on, in your study I found some letters you exchanged with her," You held on to his arm, wanting him to listen to you "Letter after letter, filled with sweet things and words made out of a passion I am not getting” You cried out enraged
They exchanged more cruel words before Y/n left him, heading to her own bedchambers, were she cried the whole night, cursing her luck where she had to be stuck in a loveless marriage.
“I was just helping some kids” You exclaimed as Anthony tugged her into the carriage “What is wrong with that?” you asked
“Everyone was watching! What will the ton think now, they were kids from the streets-“ Anthony said angrily
You looked at him in disbelief “They needed help! Was I supposed to just watch while men scared them?-“
“ The only kids you should be looking out for are your own” Anthony cut you off
“Yeah, kids we do not have” You sighed frustrated “I never thought you would manage but you are really succeeding now!”
“succeeding in what exactly?” Anthony scoffs
“I am really starting to loathe you!” You exclaimed tears brimming in your eyes, tears which you held back
“And what is taking you so long?” He exclaimed, “ I have loathed you since the moment everyone started to like you, I have loathed you since the moment everyone wanted me to marry you, I have loathed you since the moment in which you were taking away the place which was meant to be Sienna’s!”
“She can never be with you! You know why? Because she has no title, she is only just a penniless opera singer, one you can never be with without the ton looking down at you and exiling you from society!” You snarled as the carriage came to a stop, informing them that they were home.
You got down from the carriage angrily, Anthony still stayed inside, fuming from your previous words. You turned around when you saw that Anthony was not following you.
“I am heading to my private lodgings for the night, I cannot manage being in the same place with you any longer” Anthony said looking to the other side
“Of course,” You scoffed “Do not bother lying to me, I know where you really are going. I am sure she will know exactly how to make you happy” You slammed the carriage door shut and marched off inside the house
It had been a few months into the marriage when Lady Bridgerton and your mama saw that your marriage was not as perfect as you both made it out to be.
They were worried, they thought everything had been going alright but one night after you had gone crying to your mama, it made them realize it was quite the opposite
It happened on an evening where a few married lady friends and you, were at the opera. A night where a certain opera singer was going to be performing.
Anthony could not come, he was busy looking over a few papers that required his attention. And even if he could, his mother would not have let him, after all, it was a ladies night.
Sienna was 2 booths over, speaking to a few gentlemen, but you could see she was looking over at you, paying attention to the conversation you were having.
“He is the best husband I could have asked for, he spends quite a lot of time with me, and he is amazing at everything, if you know what I mean” your friends laughed teasingly, making comments at how lucky you were, you could see Sienna feeling unsettled over what you said. “Yes, and the other night he said how happy he was that he married me,”
“How could he not? He has the perfect wife right here, the perfect Viscountess, good thing he did not marry the one he was previously rumored to be with” one of your friends said
“Thank god, he did not. Imagine, a Viscount and an opera singer? The horror” another friend mentioned, all of them started to laugh as they looked at Sienna.
You could see Sienna walking away from embarrassment, you laughed along with your friends, but you could not help and feel horrible about their comments on Sienna. No matter how much Anthony and her have been hurting you, you were not the kind of person to speak incredibly ill about someone, much less in front of her.
Once the opera had finished, you had returned back to the Bridgerton household and walked into your bedchambers. You changed into your bed wear and slept.
The next morning, you awoke and stayed in your bed, grabbing a book from the nightstand next to the bed, and immersing yourself in it.
You spent a few hours on it, it was after all, the only release you had, the only way to shift to a world where you can escape yours.
You were startled when your door slammed open, Anthony entering the room, calm, but you were able to tell he was enraged from the way his jaw and hands were clenched.
“What a surprise” You hummed, reverting back to your book “What brings you to my bedchambers, husband?”
“I was out” He snarled
“I do not seem to remember asking,” You huffed pursuing your lips“Why do you think it is such a good idea to inform me of your whereabouts now?”
“Your exquisite selfishness,” He starts, you look up at him confused “your motives, the calculated, vulgarity of your antics-“
“Pray tell me what you are on about now” You murmured
“It is all over Lady Whistledown, what you and your friends said at the opera last night, all that you said about Sienna, how do you think this makes us look?”
“I did not say anything about her, they were the ones that said those harsh things, not me” You defended yourself
“It is all the same, you said it or not, that scandal is going to harm us anyway, all because of your selfish actions” He argued
“Once again, I did not say anything about her, all I said was how ‘good of a husband’ you were, so they would not suspect anything” You stood up from your bed “I did you a favor honestly, god knows you are anything but a husband, you never show affection in front of anyone, not even a single hug”
“I hug who I want to, I hug who I love” He snapped “Especially when they are affected by the selfish mistakes of others and need cheering up”
“What is this really on about?” You questioned
“Sienna”
You scoffed angrily “Why would I care about her?”
“Because I care about her!” Anthony yelled “Morning, noon, and night, I care about her, and your stupid words hurt her” your eyes filled with tears
“I did not say any-“ You tried to explain yourself
He shook his head angrily and paced down my bedchambers “ Sienna is who I love, who I desire, and she is my priority , and I will not, I repeat, I will not, let you hurt her, that is where my loyalty lies”
“And not the woman you married!” You yelled, tears stung your eyes
“I did not ask to marry you!” He yelled back “I did not even like you, I was forced into this, so do not ask me to feel anything for you because I will not. I would loathe my life the day I start to”
“Any fairytale you had concerning our marriage, the hope you had that your husband would love and care for you, that you would live a happy life alongside him, I suggest you rethink that, because I am not it. And I would never be” he left the room, slamming the door harshly behind him.
You looked around the room before dressing up yourself and walking down the stairs, hailing a carriage to go to your mama’s home.
You stared numbly at the houses as they passed by, before the carriage stopped at her house, you stepped out, thanking the footman and telling him you would spend the night.
You entered your former home and walked to the drawing room, the one where you knew your mother would be, just as she always was doing her favorite thing, painting.
As you walked the halls of the Y/l/n household, your chest started to sting, remembering everything you passed in this very house, all the happy memories you made alongside your parents and siblings.
How you wished to go back to those times.
You opened the drawing room doors and entered, your mama looked up from her painting and smiled at your figure, it faded once she saw your face.
“Darling? What is wrong?” You stayed silent at her question, walking closer to her “You know you can tell me anything, I will always be here for you” That is all it took before you broke down crying, falling to the floor
Your mom rushed to you, hugging you close to her body, her face contorting in pain as she saw you crying, completely broken.
You could not help it, everything you bottled up since the start of your marriage came crashing down. All the pain you feel whenever Anthony says harsh things, or when you see him coming home late at night from where you knew was Sienna’s house.
The pain from your husband not loving you as you wished for him to do, your perfect marriage not existing, one where you thought you would be happy in, where by now, you would have a child on the way, your husband there for whatever you need.
It hurt.
It hurt to know that you would never feel the love which your parents shared, the one which you knew Violet Bridgerton had with the late Viscount.
It hurt even more entering this house, the one where you experienced love since you were born, where every single corner was filled with laughter and was very homely and cozy.
The opposite of what the Bridgerton household was, of course, the rest of the Bridgertons were there, but they all had things to do. Laughter was not heard all over the place, nor was it filled with happy memories.
Your sobs turned even louder when you remembered the argument with your husband.
Happy marriage, indeed.
Regrets
Happy Marriage part 2
Summary: a new start
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x fem!reader
Word count: 4k (longest one yet!)
Warnings: unedited, a little bit of angst, Anthony coming to his senses, Y/n falling Ill,
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Their marriage was unrepairable.
Everyone from both families knew it. There was nothing they could do anymore. Anthony hated Y/n, and Y/n was not willing to try anymore.
She finally realized that it was doomed from the start. Anthony was always, and will probably always be, in love with Sienna, and nothing could change that, unless he himself tried to forget her. Which is doubtful considering he keeps on seeing her, each and every night.
So Y/n, came up with another solution. Not to try anymore, Anthony was not worth the pain. They could still stay married, after all divorce was not normal, but she would leave him alone, let him be in peace with Sienna as much as he pleases, and Y/n would just live her life happily as if she was single.
She does not need a man, she had her family and the Bridgertons, both families who loved her wholeheartedly, what else could she ask for?
She would spend the mornings and evenings at her parents house. She would be with her mama in the drawing room reading a book, and playing with her nieces whenever her brother came to visit, anything to distract herself.
Although everyone could tell she was not the same happy y/n from before, and no one blamed her, they were just happy she did not shut them out, at least not completely, and they hoped she would go back to how she was before she gave up.
Whenever she was not doing something, you would find her in her bedchambers, staring out the window thoughtfully, or laying on her bed looking up at the ceiling. She would barely talk when she was spoken to, or eat. She became a shell of herself, seems like Anthony did after break her.
Anthony, on the other hand, was delighted. He would come home and there was no one there to start arguments with him about where he always was. He could go be with Sienna whenever he wants. Y/n would not even bother him in those rare moments he was home, nor urge him to do something with her.
In short words, he was finally happy.
That is not to say everything was going great in the Bridgerton household, oh no, not at all. They would give him the cold shoulder, even Hyacinth and Gregory, who do not really know the full details of what happened, they just know that he hurt Y/n, based on what they heard while eavesdropping on their older siblings.
How could their brother, who they thought was one of the most honest, loyal, caring people, hurt someone that much, someone who was the sweetest person ever, someone who was his wife, who he was supposed to love and care and cherish. That was certainly disheartening.
“Y/n, dear, please eat a little more” Y/n’s mother pleaded watching her daughter play with the food on her plate
“I am full already, mama” Y/n murmured taking a sip from her wine before she stood up “If I may be excused, I must get home before it gets much later, thank you for the dinner, I will see you tomorrow ”
She left without another word and stepped onto the carriage already waiting for her outside. She sighed as the carriage started its journey to the house.
When did she become this person? One who was so affected by a man that she no longer recognized herself. A man who did not even deserve the tears she cried over him. I mean, did she even know him that well after all.
Anthony, over their whole courting period, was so distant, she just never saw it, he always put her in arms length, never really told her anything about him nor made any indication that he wished to marry her.
She was so blinded by this picture perfect marriage she had in mind, she thought that he was the one that she did not see the truth so clearly in front of her.
He was handsome, came from a good family, not to mention his and her family were close friends, he seemed like a caring person and cared deeply for his family. She started to like him, and that only heightened by how he acted while courting her, he was respectful, and he seemed slightly remotely interested by what she said, or that is what she thought.
Now that she thought about it, of course he would be like that, his family was always behind them, how could Anthony act like anything else in front of them? She never thought that he would be the opposite with her behind closed doors.
She stepped out and walked up the stairs once the carriage stopped in front of the house. She closed the door quietly, not wanting to wake anyone up
“What a surprise, you finally show your face” She heard behind her
She turned around sighing “Good evening, Lord Bridgerton” She looked at Anthony who was leaning against the entrance of the drawing room “It is also a surprise that you are here, I would have thought you were out” Y/n then walked past him and up the stairs to go to her bedchambers
“That is it?” Anthony hummed “No arguments this time?”
“You are not worth me wasting my voice” She answered before she stopped and turned back around to face him “ actually, I do have something to say” Anthony raised an eyebrow intrigued
“You hate me because supposedly, I am the cause that you cannot be with Sienna freely, or that I am ‘taking the place that was meant to be hers’…” She sighed tiredly “But have you stopped to think, that maybe it was never actually possible. You are a viscount, you are in the upper class, while she is a opera singer, in the bottom, Sienna is considered a scandalous woman of ill repute based on her profession. She would have never been accepted as your wife” the Viscount stayed silent
“If you married her, your family would have been exiled from society, you would have ruined their reputations. Would you have done that to them? To your sisters? They would not be able to marry because of you. Would you still have married Sienna?” She questioned “And even if you had not married me, you would still have had to marry a noble lady at some point, you are a viscount after all, would you have treated your wife the same as you do to me? Loathed her as you do to me? Well, that is exactly what happened with us, just way earlier than what you would have liked”
“I think you have hated the wrong person the whole time. If you want to hate something, hate society and their rules” Y/n walked up the rest of the stairs, leaving him alone with his thoughts
Anthony stared after her, before he went to his study. He sat down on his chair, resting his chin on his palm as he stared at the fireplace in thought. He shook his head and started looking through his papers.
“Y/n, dear, do you want to join us?” Lady Bridgerton offered as she saw Y/n walk down the stairs
“Uh, I am actually headed to meet my mother” Y/n replied as she looked around the drawing room at everyone, her eyes caught Anthony’s figure seated on a chair, looking at her “ She is waiting for me so I must go, maybe next time, yes?” She left quickly
Violet sighed grabbing a newspaper and heading towards her eldest son, hitting him with it harshly.
“Hey!” Anthony complained looking at his mother in disbelief
“It is all your fault, I thought your father and I raised you better than how you have been acting, but now I am doubting myself” Violet pursed her lips
“Mother-“
“Not a single word, you know I am right. You should be lucky you found someone as wonderful as Y/n, she is everything a perfect viscountess should be and you do not even appreciate it” Anthony sighed, shaking his head, looking up at the door where Y/n exited from
That was only the start of it all.
Anthony really considered what Y/n said to him. Maybe she was right after all, it was not her fault he could not be with Sienna. Sienna and him unfortunately were born into two different social classes.
Society was the one preventing them from being together, not Y/n, but society. He was hating the wrong person all this time, someone who did not even deserve all his harsh words, she was after all only trying to fulfill her role as his wife.
He did not want to tarnish his family’s reputation. He has been trying to maintain their family’s respectable reputation ever since he became viscount. Was Sienna really worth letting down his family? The family he loves and would do anything for? No, she was not.
So he canceled their plans that day, and the day after, and the day after, and slowly, Anthony stopped seeing Sienna. He was finally letting her go.
And now, Y/n, he started to see her in a new light, although do not misunderstand , he still did not like her, far from it, but maybe, just maybe, he did not hate her and was willing to at least get to know her better.
But he knew it was going to be difficult, he did say harsh words and did horrible things, like cheat on her, he completely disregarded what he promised at the altar. He knew he messed up, and possibly shut out the one person he could have grown, to care for, and who may have cared for him.
And it certainly will be very difficult, not only because of that, but because Y/n does not want anything to do with him. She does not want to know about him, how he is, where he is, etc. Nothing.
And again, nobody blames her. Y/n’s family is the same. They could not believe the little boy they’ve known of since he was born, the respectable man they got to know when the Y/l/n family returned from France 2 years ago, was not what they thought. They still spoke to him, that is not to say they were not hostile, and the Bridgertons would only watch. They were sad, of course, they still loved Anthony, but they knew that is the consequences of his actions.
He would pace around his study , thinking of how to approach his wife. Which let me just say was hard as Y/n would always go the other way whenever she got back from her parents house, or in the mornings, she would make sure he was busy in his study before she left. She was never there when he searched for her.
It seems like she does not even live there.
“Y/n, are you sure you are fine” Her mother asks as Y/n coughs “You look very unwell” she looked at her daughter worriedly
“Mama, I am just feeling a little under the weather, I will be fine with just a little rest” Y/n sighed before coughing
“I think it is because you have not eaten well, or slept in so long” Her mother advised “See, I told you to eat and sleep more, and you did not listen to me and now you are ill”
“It is not that mama, I will be fine” Y/n murmured and coughed again before sniffling “ Just a little cold” Lady Y/l/n hummed before laying her hand on Y/n’s forehead
“Dear, you have a fever” Her mother frowned “We should call a doctor”
Y/n shook her head, before she started coughing severely, she covered her mouth with her hand, as her mother rubbed her back soothingly. Y/n uncovered her mouth as the coughing ceased, she paled once she saw blood on her palm.
“This is not normal, we are sending for the doctor” Her mama said pointedly
Her mother sent a maid for the doctor as she escorted Y/n to her bedchambers. She looked at her daughter worriedly as Y/n started coughing up more and more blood each time.
She feared for what is happening to her daughter. She rarely gets sick, even as a child, she never got sick, and when she did, it was something serious, like the scarlet fever when she was young.
She felt relieved when the doctor appeared in the room, she stood up, allowing him to check on Y/n, informing him of what she saw previously.
“Hmm, I see” the doctor said “I am afraid she has the whopping cough”
“The whooping cough?”
“Yes, it is a contagious disease that paralyzes parts of the respiratory cells, leading to inflammation in the respiratory tract, fortunately it is still in the early stages and it helps that she is an adult as her immune system is more developed” He informed “Unfortunately, there is still no known cure, so I am afraid there is no more I can do, although we have been told domestic remedies help. All we can do is pray that it will go away with time. She needs to rest, that is all she can do” The doctor left after packing up all his things.
“I will be fine mama, I just need to rest” Y/n’s hoarse voice muttered, she coughed again and covered her body with the blankets “ I am just going to sleep, I am tired.”
“My lady,” a maid came rushing into the drawing room, where all the Bridgertons were “Lady Y/l/n sent word” they all looked up at the maid intrigued
“Said something happened to Lady Bridgerton ” Anthony looked up from his newspaper as he heard the words coming out of the maid’s mouth
“What happened to her?” Violet Bridgerton questioned
“It seems Lady Bridgerton has the whooping cough and is severely ill”
“Alright, send word back, tell them we will be there in a few” Violet ordered, the maid nodded rushing back out, “Anthony, we will be back soo-“ She turned to her son
“I am coming” Anthony said
“Anthony, I am not sure they-“
“I am coming with” He cut her off
“Anthony” Violet sighed
“Mother, she is my wife” Anthony raised an eyebrow
“Yes, well, you have not really shown that, have you?” Anthony stayed silent “Alright, let us go now”
It has been 2 months and Y/n was still severely Ill, fortunately the coughing had lessened, she felt really weak and exhausted, she rarely slept, and always felt dehydrated. But slowly and slowly, the remedies were helping.
After the Bridgertons had been informed of Y/n’s condition, they had all come to visit her, including Anthony, although they did not stay long as she was still contagious.
They continued visiting, all except Anthony, as Y/n had expressed that she was not comfortable with his presence. Anthony respected her wishes and stopped visiting her, he did not like it but he was trying to get in her good graces , so whatever she desires.
Although that also did not stop Anthony from asking about her well being whenever his family came home from the Y/l/n Manor. The Bridgertons, also respecting Y/n’s wishes, did not tell him anything much to Anthony’s displeasure.
He would go out to the florist when he knew his family was getting ready to go out, he would return with purple hyacinths and give them to his mother to give to Y/n. Violet would reluctantly accept them, looking at her son knowingly.
Everyone could tell Anthony was trying to remedy his mistakes, although they knew he would not get anywhere, they admired the fact that he was willing to try. Maybe Anthony was not so bad after all. Maybe there was hope for him.
Y/n was still ill for one more month before she felt better, and could now walk around the house. She was in their drawing room, finishing some embroidery when Daphne, Benedict and Eloise, entered the room, already informed of her improved state.
“Hey, Y/n” Daphne greeted
Y/n turned to them and smiled “Hey, what are you doing here?”
“We heard you were better and decided to visit you” Benedict answered sitting down “How are you feeling?”
“Like you said, better, I still feel a little exhausted but nothing a little rest cannot fix” Y/n chuckled sitting next to Eloise
“We all miss you at home” Eloise said “You had been so distant before, we rarely saw you, and with your illness and it being contagious, the rare times turned into none”
“Yes, why do you not come back to the manor?” Benedict questioned
Y/n shook her head “I do not think it is such a good idea”
“Well, you cannot live here forever, the ton would soon start to question things. And we will all be there anyway, you do not have to worry about Anthony” Y/n pursed her lips “ Hyacinth and Gregory really wish to see you again” Daphne added
“Alright” You agreed “ I think I have been bothering my parents long enough” the three of them cheered, y/n shook her head in disbelief but chuckled after
And that is how Y/n returned back to the Bridgerton house.
Everyone was absolutely delighted, they missed having her around. Colin could finally have someone to tell about his travels, Benedict someone to paint who does not complain, Daphne someone who related to how she was feeling with her debut season, Eloise could tell someone about what she thought was not fair on women. All in all, they were happy.
Y/n was slowly healing by having wonderful people by her side. She never was truly alone, someone would always be by her side making her laugh, whether it was the youngest siblings or the eldest.
Oh, I forgot about Anthony. He respected her space, he would not intentionally seek her out but he certainly did not complain when he came across her.
He would sit in the drawing room when she was with one of his siblings, or his mother, and pretended to be paying attention to something else. He would watch her laugh and speak animatedly with them. He would pay attention whenever Y/n was discussing something she read or saw.
He liked how happy she got when she saw something wonderful, or the way she paid attention to Eloise when she was complaining about something. Or how she let Benedict paint her and not even move one second, not wanting him to make a mistake, or how interested she was about Colin’s travels.
Or how she helped Francesca with her pianoforte, and reassure Daphne when she was feeling nervous about the balls. How she played with Gregory, and braided Hyacinth’s hair after dinner. He was finally getting to know his wife, even if it was by watching from afar.
He would subconsciously smile when he heard Y/n laugh, or watch her figure walk further away when she left the room. He would turn back around, catching his mother’s eyes. He would furrow his eyebrows as Violet looked at him knowingly, a hint of a smile on her face.
“What?” He asked
“Maybe you do not hate her after all, do you Anthony?” Violet murmured turning back to her embroidery
“What are you talking about mother?” He huffed
“You do not fool me, Anthony, not one second” She shook her head “When she was ill, you would ask about her-“
“Is it a crime to ask about Y/n’s farewell? It is common courtesy”
“You sent her flowers”
“A nice gesture, I am pretty sure more people sent her flowers”
“Anthony” Violet huffed “You always walk into a room where you know she is in, you smile when she laughs, and your eyes follow her when she leaves, you stare at her with those eyes-”
“What eyes, mother? My eyes, well with who else’s eyes would I look?” Anthony answered sarcastically
“Do not try to be funny. I am speaking about the kind of eyes a man looks at a woman he is falling in love with” Violet said making him scoff
“Do not be ridiculous, I am not falling in love, least of all with her” Anthony grumbled and stood up to leave
“Say what you want Anthony, but you and I know the truth, I will just say that you will have to try hard if you want her to forgive you, and even harder if you want her to start to love you again ” Anthony ignored her and walked away
He almost entered his study when he stopped at the door, he huffed and turned around, climbing up the stairs. He stopped in front of her door doubtful before he sighed and knocked.
“Come in” he heard from inside
He entered the room, setting his eyes on Y/n seated at her bed. Y/n looked up before sighing
“I do not want to see you” She hummed
“Yes, yes, I know I am the last person you want to see, but I wanted to speak to you” Anthony said standing still on the entrance. He looked at Y/n who stayed quiet, looking at the opposite side of him
“I am sorry” Anthony murmured “You were right and I am so sorry” Y/n looked at him emotionlessly, Anthony sighed and went to sit down on a chair in front of her
“I cannot defend my actions, I was absolutely horrible to you and you did not deserve any of it and I am sincerely sorry. What you said did make me think everything over. Truth is, I always knew I could never marry Sienna, I just did not want to accept it.” He admitted “ I met her shortly after my father died, she , I guess you can say, comforted me, and I fell in love with her and thought I owed her something after she was there for me all those years, and that something could have been making her my viscountess ”
“And then you appeared, and you were the perfect viscountess, and everyone loved you, and then we married and I started ‘hating’ you because you were taking away the only thing I could have offered her. Which was never going to happen but I thought it could.” He looked down at his hands “I needed a wake up call, I was so blinded by my love for her that I did not really think things through. It was really a matter of time before things between Sienna and I ended, and it just happened earlier than I thought. Things were easy with her, she was someone that I was already used to, she was familiar. And you just appeared suddenly in my life, I was not prepared for it, you were someone new and i did not know what would come next, my perfectly organized life was not so organized. So I hated you instead.”
“Was?” Y/n spoke up, he looked at her confused “You said was, not is” she clarified
“I stopped seeing her months ago” Y/n hummed at his response
“I cannot just forgive you, Anthony, not even after what you just said” Y/n huffed “What you said those months ago, really hurt me. I never asked you to marry me, and neither did Violet or my mama, force you to do it. You asked on your own accord”
“I know, I am truly sorry Y/n, you do not know how truly sorry I am, I know simple words will not make you forgive me but I am willing to prove I am worth your forgiveness. We will after all, be spending the rest of our life’s together, I will spend it all making it up to you, so we can at least be friends, if you let me” He looked up at her hopefully
Anthony nodded, a small smile coming onto his face “However long it takes”
Y/n pursed her lips in thought “It will take a lot of time, I will not just forgive you in a fortnight”
Okay so, I have zero ideas on what to write next, that other people have not written before, and I'm really bored so I want to do something.
So if anyone has any requests on any of the Bridgerton men, I would gladly write them.
Affection
Summary: apparently Anthony doesn't like affection that much, or maybe he actually does
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x reader
Word count: 3.6k
Warnings: unedited, a little angst to fluff, (for some reasong I couldn't think of anything else to make it more angsty) Anthony being a little asshole for a minute, marriage of convenience, I think that is all
Requested: yes
Masterlist
Here it is, I'm very sorry for the delay but there was a few things I needed to do first and I couldn't write it yet.
At the start of the season of 1812, it was known that the Viscount Bridgerton was looking for a wife, thanks to his mother who not so subtly announced it at Lady Danbury’s soiree.
Plenty of debutantes and their mothers, ambushed him, in hopes of their daughters capturing the viscount's attention.
Unfortunately for them, Anthony Bridgerton had a list of requirements he looked for in a wife, most of which none of them fit, so, goodbye to their dreams of their daughter becoming a viscountess. One by one, the viscount discarded them until there was none left. That is until the queen named her diamond,
Y/n Y/l/n.
She caught his eye. Y/n came from a good family, her father was a marques, she was sweet, kind, intelligent. She had a good sense of humor, played several instruments, spoke a few modern languages, and was not afraid to speak her mind, she desired a big family and absolutely loved kids. And it certainly helped that she was beautiful, too. She was perfect. The perfect viscountess in his eyes.
Anthony did not waste time and pursued her after he got to know her. Although Y/n was not stupid, she demanded to know his true intentions and only then would she maybe accept being courted by him.
Anthony was honest, surprisingly, he told her of how he did not plan to marry for love and just wanted a wife that fit perfectly into what a viscountess should be, a partner/ friend. Y/n admired his honesty and agreed.
Her family was, after all, urging her to pick a suitor, wanting her to get married as soon as possible. Why? A good question since they do not need her to get married considering they already have more than enough money. But she was the diamond of the season, it is expected for her to marry that same season.
Y/n frustrated with their demands, decided to give them what they want. The viscount was a suitable gentleman, came from a good family, he was handsome, and from what she has seen, he was a good person.
She knew not anyone was lucky enough to have a love match, so if she could not have a marriage based on love, what would be better than to have one based on friendship. Certainly better than the ones the ton has made without love nor friendship.
Soon enough, their courtship began, both families were delighted, the Bridgertons thought Y/n was a lovely girl, absolutely adored her, and the Y/l/ns liked and admired Anthony for how dedicated he was to his family, among other things.
The courtship then turned into an engagement and soon they were already married by the end of the season. They spent their wedding night in Anthony’s private lodgings, and the day after they decided to skip the honeymoon.
Y/n wanted to stay back in London since her brother’s wife was soon to give birth, and she wanted to be there when the baby was born, Anthony agreed as he had to get everything ready for Daphne’s debut next season, which was slowly coming closer.
Their marriage was great, they gave the other their own space but still saw each other quite often considering they slept in the same bed, had breakfast and dinner with the whole family and would join them when they were out in the gardens.
Anthony thought he made the best decision choosing Y/n as his wife. His family loved her, especially Hyacinth and his mother. Y/n was very caring, she would help everyone in anything they asked, spend time with Violet when all of her kids were busy, and even worry about the servants when they were sick.
She would sometimes spend time with him in his study, sat on a chair nearby reading, or watching him work, trying to see if maybe she can learn how to do it too. Although she also knew when to leave him alone, and he respected that.
But as they say, there is always a thin lone between love and hate, or in this case, love and friendship.
She did not know how it happened, but as she got to know him, how he cared deeply for his family, how he always spent at least 10 minutes with her everyday so she is not bored when everyone is out, his good sense of humor.
That little line blurred and Y/n started to feel more than friendship for him. Which obviously sucked since Anthony made it clear since day one, he did not see love in their marriage.
For the moment, she decided to keep it to herself, although she did start to act a little more obvious and affectionate. Whether it was by bringing him breakfast or dinner when he had too much work and did not want to leave his study, or helping him with work when she got the hang of it, without him asking, or helping him with his clothes when he had some difficulty with his collar or shirt. Or being there for him and listening to his problems when he was stressed.
It goes without saying that Anthony was confused, and I mean a lot, but he appreciated it nonetheless, it felt nice to be taken care of, even if he will not admit it to anyone else.
He was always the one taking care of everyone else, making sure that they did not need something or that something bad happened to them. Fixing their problems when they needed him to. Anything that meant he was needed to do something for them basically.
So when the roles changed, and letting his family tell him their worries changed to him now burdening someone else with his problems, even if it was his wife, he definitely welcomed it with open arms. The perfect person to let his frustrations out.
Now, he enjoyed it ,yes, behind closed doors, but Y/n showing her affection in public, those were the times when he did not.
Anthony has never been someone who shows affection in public, rarely even does so behind closed door, so he did not like it when Y/n did and everyone from the ton was around.
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The first time Y/n showed affection in public. They were at the gardens having a picnic with the whole family, sat on top of a blanket on the grass while the rest of his family played with a new game they bought. Anthony decided to stay back as he had work to do still and Y/n, well she did not want to leave him alone.
“Anthony, you should eat something, it will do you no good to go on without eating” She looked at him seriously
“I’ll be fine” He hummed “ I need to finish this before the day is over”
Y/n huffed, looking around before snatching the papers out of his hands “Hey!” Anthony exclaimed
“You will not get these back until you eat” She said stubbornly
“Give them back” He tried to grab the papers from her but she stood up
“No, eat first then work” She pointed down at the food “ and I will personally help you finish your work before the day is over”
“Y/n” he groaned
“Anthony” Y/n pursed her lips “If you fall faint or something for not eating, your mama will blame me for not taking care of you properly, and will smother you all day long, every second, you do not want that, do you?”
“Yes, brother” Colin appeared beside them suddenly, startling them “ Listen to your wife, she always knows best” Colin gave Y/n a wink
“Fine” Anthony agreed and picked up a plate
“Good, now, you finish the food and I am going to go talk to your mother” Y/n says, giving him a kiss on the cheek before standing up and leaving, Anthony stared after her confused.
He then looked up at his brother who gave him a teasing look, Anthony’s cheeks became red as he blushed in embarrassment. He shook his head and began eating.
“Are you sure it is not a love match, brother? She certainly does look after you as if she was in love” Colin teased
“Shut up, stop talking nonsense” Anthony grumbled without looking up at him “ I am sure she did not mean to do it, maybe it was just a custom as she does it a lot with her family”
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Although that was not the only time it happened since then. That was only the start.
Y/n continued to do it in public whether it was holding his hand, that was not as surprising considering they did have to act as if they were in love in public but she did it on her own accord, that was surprising. Or randomly kissing him on the cheek when you were leaving, or hugging him spontaneously.
The ton did not care that much, they thought it was beautiful, two people in love showing their affections in public.
Anthony on the other hand, was embarrassed, the gentlemen he used to talk with would make fun of him. Nothing too grand but joke around that ‘where has the man that supposedly would never marry for love go’ among other teasing comments.
That was when Anthony grew annoyed at Y/n’s displays of affection. He kept quiet, not wanting to hurt her feelings knowing she did not mean anything ill, but that does not mean there was not a time where he did not snap.
Oh and did he snap.
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It was 1813, Daphne’s first debutante ball.
Half of the Bridgertons were there, those being Lady Violet Bridgerton, Daphne, Colin, Benedict, Anthony and Y/n. The others were back home.
Anthony was a little annoyed, he had a dispute with Daphne a few moments prior. He wanted to marry her off to Lord Berbrooke and when Daphne found out, she was angry.
Understandable because who wants to marry him?.
Anyway, the fought, Daphne marched away and Anthony was left where he was standing angry. Y/n, oh sweet Y/n, did not know of what had transpired and approached Anthony.
“Hey, I was looking for you” Y/n smiled at him, Anthony hummed in acknowledgement, looking all over the room for Daphne “Have you seen Colin? He seems quite taken with Miss Marina Thompson, just look at him” She pointed out to the floor where several couples were dancing, Colin and Marina being one of them.
“She is quite pretty and she seems like a nice girl. They make a good couple, do they not? Maybe we could be friends, we are not that apart in age after all. Daphne, Miss Marina and I could… ” Y/n said, Anthony tuned her out as she continued to ramble on. “ Hey, are you okay?” She asked once she saw Anthony was not paying attention, holding onto his arm
He nodded, looking around the room once again “ Oh, your collar is a bit undone, let me fix that for you” Y/n said as she started to fix it. Anthony caught a few gentleman watching them a few feet away, he clenched his jaw once he saw their teasing smiles and suggestive looks, remembering their comments from before, he started to get annoyed, that annoyance grew even more when Y/n leaned up and kissed his cheek.
“Can you not!” He snapped, she looked at him shocked
“What?” She questioned confused, Anthony huffed before he grabbed her hand and tugged her to a more secluded space, away from prying eyes and ears of the ton.
“Stop with the affection!” He said “ It is embarrassing even more so when you do it in front of everyone.”
“But I just-“
“We are not in love! Stop acting like we are, I told you from the start it was only a marriage of convenience, so if you are starting to have some feelings, I suggest you get rid of them because there will never be love between us” Y/n looked at him hurt as he spoke “ I will never love you!” Anthony huffed disgusted
She swallowed down the hurt before saying “I was just keeping up with appearances”
“Oh really?!” Anthony hummed “ because as I see it, there was no need for it. The only thing you were accomplishing was making me embarrassed and annoyed”
“Yes, really” You huffed angrily “Why would you ever think I am starting to have feelings for you?”
He chuckled humorously “I do not know, maybe it is because you have been acting like it for more than one week, always holding my hand, or kissing my cheek, or hugging me, helping me with my work or my clothes, why would that be?”
“Maybe I was just trying to be nice, not everyone hides their emotions and affection inside, I was just trying to be a good friend but if it bothers you so much I will stop” Y/n then turned around to walk away “ There was no need to be a jerk about it” she walks off.
Anthony groaned, okay maybe he was being a little conceited, maybe Y/n was just being nice after all, that was her personality and he took it the wrong way. Anthony sighed before walking back to the ball.
Let us just hope he did not mess things up much and everything will go back to how it was.
“Marital problems?” a gentleman spoke once he saw Anthony “ I saw your wife storming off, seems like you will not be getting any tonight, will you Bridgerton?” Anthony only glared at him, clenching his jaw and marching away from the gentleman.
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Y/n was hurt, very hurt.
She knew she was being a little more affectionate than she should have to, but there was no need for Anthony to be rude about it. But she will respect his wishes, from now on, she will not ‘embarrass him’ in front of the ton with her affection, in fact, she will not even do anything to help him if it shows that she is ‘in love’ with him because she does not.
Love and like are two very different things.
Did she thought that maybe with how she was being, Anthony would come to like her just as she does him? Yes. But will she try to get him to love her now? Definitely not.
“I will never love you” Y/n murmured under her breath mocking Anthony’s words before scoffing “You know what, Viscount Bridgerton, I do not need your love, who would want for you to be in love with her? Certainly not me, at least not anymore”
“Are you alright, dear?” Y/n looked behind her, startled “ Oh no need to be startled, it is just me” Violet said
“ Sorry, you scared me” Y/n chuckled “ Yes, I am fine, thank you for your concern”
“Well come on, lunch is ready, we are just waiting for you” Violet pointed to the direction of the dining room. You nodded before walking along with her, making small talk along the way.
She smiled at the Bridgerton siblings before sitting down and starting to eat a long with the others.
“Are you not going to bring Anthony lunch to his study today?” Violet questioned after a few minutes when she saw Y/n was not getting up
“Um,” Y/n sighed “He said he will be very busy, I think i should not disturb him, he will come if he is hungry” Violet furrowed her eyebrows before nodding
Soon after they all finished eating and went their separate ways. Y/n was passing the study to go out to the gardens when she was called.
“Hey, is lunch ready yet?” Anthony asked as he approached the doorway
“It is over, we already ate” Y/n answered
He furrowed his eyebrows “You did not bring me any or come to tell me today”
“Yes well, I am not your maid, am I Anthony? Although I am sure if you are hungry, the cooks can prepare you something. Now if that is all, I must go, I have much other important things to do than speak to you” She walked away, not giving him any chance to speak
Anthony frowned at her retreating back, sighing and going back to his work. Seems like he did mess up a lot.
And that was not the only time she did something like that. She continued being cold to him for another few weeks.
Anthony was kind of ashamed to admit he did miss her affection. He went from getting a lot to none. Now he was eagerly seeking her out, I mean, desperate much, he missed her, a lot, even if they did live in the same house.
They were getting ready for another ball and Anthony was having some difficulty with the top of his shirt. Luckily for him, Y/n was on the other side, looking herself in the mirror as she finished putting on some earrings.
“Y/n, do you think you could help me, I cannot seem to fix this” He decided to ask, he cannot loose anything with asking, can he?
“I cannot, I have to go see if your mother needs help, or your sister. But I will tell the maid to come to help you” She says before leaving without even looking at him
He swallows down a lump in his throat, a little hurt at her coldness. He huffed out looking down.
“Do you need any help, my lord?” He looked up at the maid before nodding
“Uh yes, I cannot seem to put this right”
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They arrived at the ball, Daphne and Y/n immediately separated from the rest of them. Anthony watched them walk away before looking away when he felt his mother hold on to his arm.
“You have got to apologize” Violet tells him “ For whatever you did. Do not think I have not noticed how distant she has been towards you, and you looking like a lost puppy who has lost his owner when she does not pay you any attention”
“Mother-“ Violet tutted cutting him off
“I know what I am saying, now apologize” She then grabbed onto Benedict who groaned, tugging him along to a young debutante a few steps away
Anthony looked around the room before finally setting his eyes on his wife, who was, fortunately for him, alone, his sister nowhere to be seen and he walked towards her.
Once he approached her, he wrapped an arm around her, holding her closer to him giving her a kiss on her head.
“Can you not? It is embarrassing” Y/n huffed slowly trying to get out of his hold to not make a scene in front of everyone.
Anthony stared at her thoughtfully, then grabbed her hand and brought her to a more secluded space.
It would be a lie to say they did not feel any déjà vu.
“I am sorry, okay” Anthony apologized, Y/n raised an eyebrow
“I should not have been as rude as I was, and if I did not like how much affection you were showing, I should just have told you to tone it down without making a big deal out of it” He sighed “ I am really sorry. I just- well- I am not an affectionate person and it was big step when you were affectionate, especially in public I – the other gentleman were making fun of us and I got embarrassed and let it get into my head and said those rude things – and the truth is I am missing your affection, it was honestly nice”
Y/n stayed silent for a few moments “ What do you want me to say? Because you were a jerk” She spoke up
“I know”
“A real asshole”
“Yes”
“I mean, when did I even say or give you the impressions that I was in love with you? Okay ,maybe nobody does what I was doing without any intentions, but I was honestly just trying to be nice and a good friend” he let her ramble, it was good for her to get everything she wants to say out
“Yes I get that now”
“ ‘I will never love you’ you said, why would I even want you to love me, I do not desire your love”
He gave her a look
"Why would i even fall in love with you?" He furrowed his eyebrows at her comment
“I mean, you are very arrogant, not to mention not very fun and always so serious, do you even know how to have fun? I do not think so.” He stared at her intensely, his eyes sometimes flickering down to her lips “ But I guess you are not that bad, you do care for your family a lot, and very hard working, you are very competitive at Pall Mall but it is good if you want a worthy opponent, but me love you, ha, as if-“
He kissed her to shut her up, Y/n gasped into his mouth in surprise as he pulled her closer a few more moments before pulling away.
“ I really like you, those days without being in your presence and your cold attitude towards me were devastating and made me realize how much I really do like you, and I am so grateful for everything you do without me even asking, and for your affection, I am really sorry” he admitted looking into her eyes
She stared at him before pulling him into another kiss, wrapping her arms around his neck as he reciprocated the kiss, his own hands going down to her back.
“I like you too” Y/n mumbled into the kiss making him smile
“I really do”
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Energetic
Summary: Benedict’s other half
Pairing: Benedict Bridgerton x reader
Word count: 691
Warnings: unedited, fluff, probably a little cringy
Requested: yes
I think I made it a little different than how it was requested and it turned out as a little blurb because I didn't know what else to put but I hope you like it anyway ♡♡♡
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Y/n was a very energetic person.
That was something that Benedict had come to know since he started to court her. She was always very happy, had optimistic thoughts on even the worst incidents, and she seldom said no to try out new things, she just had a lot of energy for everything. And Benedict loved that about her.
Along with being a very energetic person, she was very loving and affectionate. She was not afraid to show how much she liked Benedict in public, always giving him hugs, even if it was not appropriate, or holding on to his hand. Just let me tell you, the ton was not a fan of it as they were not yet married but Benedict simply loved it, considering he was also a very open and playful person, not afraid to show his emotions in public, the opposite to his other brothers ,that is.
It was a bright, sunny day, when Benedict knew.
Y/n and her family were invited along with the Sharma family to the Bridgerton’s ancestral home, Aubrey Hall, a few days before the ton was to join them for Violet’s annual ball, making that be Y/n’s second time at Aubrey Hall.
She played Pall Mall with the siblings, plus the Sharma sisters. Getting really excited whenever she could hit the ball between the wickets, she would jump up and down happily, shaking Benedict’s arm furiously while he only stared at her in adoration, and giving her encouraging words when she could not.
When they finished the game, Y/n and Benedict separated from the rest to take a walk around the fields. Still in their family’s eyesight of course.
“Your home is very beautiful” Y/n remarked as she looked around “ and I know I already said it but your family is wonderful, truly.” Benedict smiled
“Yes well, we do have our moments” He chuckled
“You all are also very competitive while playing Pall Mall, I thought that at some point someone was going to get hurt considering you all tried anything to win the game” She chuckled as she thought back to the game “ But my siblings and I are the same”
“Of course you are” Benedict shook his head making Y/n stop walking and look at him seriously
“What is that supposed to mean?”
“I just- you are too sweet to be competitive” He shrugged his shoulders
Y/n furrowed her eyebrows “I am not sweet all the time, i can be mean if I want to”
Benedict laughed loudly “Love, you can be anything but mean”
She huffed before hitting him on his arm and walking away from him “Y/n” he laughed again “It is a good thing” She ignored him
“Alright, okay, you can be mean if you want to” She stopped and turned to face him “ Now will you forgive me?” He questioned
She hummed thoughtfully before speaking up“ I will, if you can catch me”
She ran away quickly from him, lifting her dress so as not to step on it. Benedict laughed chasing after her, he could catch her quickly if he wanted to, he did have longer legs than her but he decided to entertain her a little and ran slower than he could.
Y/n’s laughs could be heard as she ran all over the field, she looked back, seeing Benedict get closer and closer she tried to run even faster, but she accidently let go of one side of her dress which she stepped on and tripped.
She was about to hit the floor when Benedict quickly grabbed her, turning them over so she fell on top of him instead “Alright, I forgive you” Y/n laughed looking down at him
Benedict only smiled up at her “Marry me” he said brushing a strand of her hair out of her face “I do not have a ring right now, and I need to ask your father for permission, but will you marry me?”
She grinned happily “Yes, yes I will marry you” She nodded giddily, he smiled back in return.
Benedict knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with her.
Always and Forever
Summary: in which Anthony looses the love of his life
Pairing: Anthony Bridgerton x reader
Word count: 2.4k
Warnings: unedited, angst, mentions of miscarriages, more angst, angst, death, and just a lot of angst
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So I was in the mood to cry, and I wrote this and decided to make you all cry as well
Y/n was Anthony’s love of his life.
She always has been and always will be.
They met when he was 18 after he had just graduated from Oxford. He was taking a walk around the streets of London during the social season of 1802, when a young lady stepped out of a shop he was passing by, colliding with him.
Her name was Y/n, he thought she was the most beautiful girl he had seen so far. Y/n apologized profusely, Anthony just waved her off, reassuring her that no harm had come to him.
They started talking and meeting up, they became great friends, they had lots of things in common which only strengthen their friendship. His family completely adored Y/n, as did Y/n's family feel the same with Anthony. Soon both families became close friends.
But then tragedy hit them.
Edmund Bridgerton died.
The Bridgerton family changed overnight but Y/n still stood by Anthony’s side, not letting him be alone with his grief, she was his rock through those hard times.
Anthony appreciated that. He changed, as he had to because he became the viscount at 18 years old, he had to let go of everything of the past, childishness and laughter changed to seriousness and hard work. He could not be the same careless Anthony from before, he was a viscount now and as a viscount he had to work hard to support his family.
But Y/n was the only constant thing in his life, he could never discarded her away, not after how supportive she has been, not with the feelings he had for her.
He realized he was in love with her, so when she was twenty and he one and twenty, on her debut season, and when his family was more stable, he proposed to her, Y/n was delighted and accepted and soon after, they were married.
They had a grand wedding in front of the whole ton, everyone could tell they were completely remarkably in love with each other.
Their marriage was amazing, there was not a single moment were they were not happy with each other. They spent their honeymoon at Aubrey Hall. The maids would hear laughter around the house but of course, as it was Anthony and we all know how he is, soon that laughter would turn into moans, making the maids turn red when they heard. Bit they understood, they were after all newlyweds, still in their honeymoon phase.
They would have picnics outside in the garden, enjoying a bit of sun, morning rides on their horses, spending time together in the library or in his study before retreating back to their bed chambers, or sometimes they could not even wait and just do it wherever they were.
They were happy.
Until another tragedy struck. Or the first of many more to come that is.
Y/n realized she was pregnant after they came back from their honeymoon, not a surprise really, but for her it was. Anthony and her were delighted, it was a little early, yes, but they have always wanted a family and they were going to have one with each other sooner or later, it just came earlier than expected.
They had prepared everything, made a nice little nursery room, talked about what names they would name the baby when it was born. Edmund for a boy, in honor of Anthony’s father, and Astoria for a girl, Y/n has always loved that name, and it was a bonus that it started with the letter A, they could keep up with the Bridgerton tradition. They were so excited.
It was Y/n’s 4th month when something terrible happened. She had been feeling pains in her stomach for a few days, but she only ignored it, thinking that was only some symptoms of the pregnancy.
Oh how wrong she was.
She was looking out the window when she felt the pains growing stronger, she cried out in pain, holding onto her stomach as a maid quickly entered the room, hearing her.
“My lady, is everything alright” the maid questioned
Y/n held back her tears, her face twisting in pain. She knew what was happening “I am losing my child” She said.
“I am sure that is not- my lady, you are bleeding” the maid pointed at the bottom of her dress “I will go call the surgeon immediately”
A few hours later, everyone could hear the cries all over the Bridgerton home. The cries of a mother who lost her baby.
Anthony sat on the floor outside of their bed chambers, his face buried on his knees as he listened to his wife crying inside, his own tears falling down his face.
“Anthony” His mother called out, sitting down next to him. Violet looked at him sadly, tears brimming in her eyes before she pulled him into a hug. Anthony sobbed out once he felt his mother warm embrace. “Everything will be alright”
“It is not alright, mother, we lost our child," he scoffed "my wife is in there, completely destroyed, crying her eyes out and I have no clue on what to do” Anthony sniffled
“Just be there for her, that is all you can do, offer her your support and be there to comfort her” Violet answered
Anthony lifted his head, wiping his tears while he looked up at ceiling. He stood up and turned to their closed bedchambers, he grabbed the know shakily before opening the door and entering. Tears started filling his eyes again as he saw her huddled up between the blankets.
“Love” He whispered walking closer to her. He laid down next to her and hugged her close to his body. Y/n’s cries started getting louder
“I am so sorry, Anthony” She cried out turning around to face him “ it is all my fault, I am so sorry”
He shook his head “No, no, you do not have anything to apologize for” he cut her off when he saw her open her mouth to speak “It was not your fault, okay, it just was not our time yet, it was not your fault” She continued crying
“If you really want, we will keep on trying until we get the family we desire” he offered “I love you and I will always be here for you, always and forever, love” he kissed her head and brought her once again into his chest, hugging her closer, letting her vent all her sadness, his tears falling down.
Y/n became a shell of herself the next few months, she would barely eat or sleep, she would always be inside her bedchambers, laying down on her bed , staring up at the ceiling, lost on her thoughts. And as Anthony said, he was always there for her.
He would bring her food, staying until she at least ate a bit, and at nights, he would hold her close to his chest, rubbing her back comfortingly. And slowly, Y/n felt better with each day that passed, Anthony being by her side made everything better.
The next year, Y/n was back to how she was before. She was the same cheerful, happy, loving Y/n from before. Anthony and her started trying again for a baby.
And that was when more tragedy struck.
No matter how much they tried, each time Y/n got pregnant, it only would last for 4 months or less before she miscarried. But she still held hope, that the next time will not be the same, and each and every single time, she would be disappointed when it turned out the opposite. But they still kept trying.
Y/n was in their nursery, looking out the window as she held one of the baby’s blankets, deep in thought.
“Love?” Y/n turned around to see Anthony before turning back to look out the window
“Is there something wrong with me?” She mumbled, her bottom lip trembling
“No, of course not” Anthony frowned wrapping his arms around her waist
“Then why is it, that whenever I am with child, I always lose it” She blinked back her tears “ There must be something wrong with me, that is the most logical explanation” She turned around in his arms
“There is nothing more I want, than to give you a child, Anthony” She sniffled “And it destroys me that I cannot seem to do so. I am a failure, a disappointment” She looked down
“Hey, hey, listen to me” he lifted her head towards him “ You are not a failure nor a disappointment, you are everything to me, you are the love of my life, and maybe for some reason, we are just not meant to have children and that is alright”
“I am-“
“I can see how everything is taking a toll on you” He said “We do not even have to try anymore if it is breaking you, I am more than content just by having you” he hugged her tightly
“You are all I need”
But they still kept trying for the next few years, each time a failure, until finally the year 1811, Y/n was with child once again, but this time it seemed like it was the one, she surpassed the four months and was now six months.
Although, Anthony did not know how to feel, he was happy of course, but he could not help but feel worry. The physician told them during a visit when he came to check that everything was alright with the baby, that with the amount of miscarriages she had, he could 99% guarantee that the pregnancy will be complicated, the baby could either be a stillborn, or Y/n could die considering she was already really weak from a lot of miscarriages.
“No, it will be better if you do not go on with it” Anthony said firmly
Y/n gave him a look “Anthony-“
“No, you heard the doctor, you could die from childbirth, Y/n!” He exclaimed “No, I cannot lose you”
“Anthony-“
“You are the love of my life, how on earth will I function without you if you die? I cannot, and will not allow this, you hear me” Anthony shook his head furiously
“Anthony” She caressed his face “I want to go along with it”
“What, no! You will not-“
“Anthony” Y/n huffed “ I desire nothing more than to be a mother, to give you a child”
Anthony blinked away his tears “ I cannot lose you, Y/n, it will destroy me if I lose you” his voice broke as he spoke
“And you will not” She shook her head “But I will go on with this pregnancy, I want – I desire to go on, and you will not even try to change my mind, okay?”
He looked down “Alright”
The pregnancy had gone well, they had no complications and now Y/n was about to give birth to a new Bridgerton on a cold December evening.
Maids were huddled up around her, holding blankets and bowls with warm water, the surgeon was at the end of the bed where she lay, helping her and giving her instructions.
Meanwhile, Anthony was outside, along with both families, pacing around the corridor as he heard his wife’s screams inside the room. He decided to stop pacing as he was only growing more frustrated, and stood next to his mother who grabbed his hand comfortingly.
They were stood like that for the next hour, the younger siblings had gone to Anthony’s private lodgings as they were sure the commotion would not let them sleep, Colin had gone with them, and only Violet, Anthony, Benedict, Daphne and Y/n’s family remained.
Suddenly everything went silent, after a few minutes, Anthony looked up from the floor and to the door, he walked towards the door, a bad feeling blooming in his stomach. He was almost at the door when it opened, revealing the surgeon.
“My lord, the baby has successfully been born, he is very healthy” The surgeon said before he looked at Anthony solemnly. Anthony started to breath heavier as each moment passed, his vision blurring as he already knew what he was going to announce “Sadly, your wife did not make it, she died during childbirth”
Anthony stumbled back his lips trembling, shaking his head furiously, “No, no, no, she cannot, she-“ his voice broke as he fell to the floor “No, no, y/n, no, oh my love” he started sobbing loudly
Everyone watched the scene heart broken, tears falling down their faces foo. Anthony continued crying out “Y/n, no, no, why her, god why are you so cruel”
“Anthony-“ he ignored his mother
He stood up quickly and entered the room, his eyes set on Y/n’s figure laying down, her eyes closed, and she looked peaceful. He sobbed as he sat down next to her and brought her into his lap.
“You are the love of my life, I cannot live without you, Y/n, please wake up!” He looked up at the ceiling before he screamed out in pain, holding her closer to him as he cried onto her body
“Love, come on, wake up” He cried “You cannot do this to me, Y/n, you- you- you said everything will be fine, you cannot leave me” he shook his head, laying his forehead on top of hers, caressing her face
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It has been 2 years after Y/n’s death.
Anthony was a little better now, he still was not over it but he had to be strong, for little Eddie.
Although it was hard to be strong when every time he looked at Eddie, all he could see was Y/n. Edmund had his mother’s eyes, and her nose and smile, god her beautiful smile, oh how much Anthony loved her smile.
Eddie was his whole world now, and he will do anything to protect their baby boy with his whole life, to make him be the best man he can be when he grows up, just as his mother made his father the best man Anthony could be.
Anthony picked up little Eddie from his cot, he smiled warmly, looking at Eddie’s face smiling up at him, his little finger coming to rest on his face.
“dada” Eddie mumbled laying his head on Anthony’s shoulder
He stopped, his eyes resting lovingly on Y/n's face. He blinked back tears before smiling. “you will always be in my heart. Always and Forever, love”
“Well look who is awake, now come on, your nana Y/m/n has come with papa, granny Violet is already with them, they are just waiting for you, they have come with lots of sweets for you” Anthony hummed as he turned to walk out of his bedchambers, his eyes caught Y/n’s portrait near the door.
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