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Green eyes?

A friend of mine has a baby. And i really want to feel connected to him.

But I don't.

It could be distance; they live halfway across the country and I know him primarily through pictures. He and I have met, and he is very cute and funny.

But I'm a little worried that I've put up an invisible wall that will prevent me from having a meaningful relationship.

I was the first of my close friends to get pregnant. They all had their children. I didn't have mine, and I worried that I'm jealous.

There is no regret in my decision; it was undoubtedly the right one. But many times I wish things had been different.

It could also just be a trauma response, and that would be completely reasonable.

But I can't help feeling guilty when my other friends gush over pictures and videos of him and I've already lost interest.

I feel like a monster.

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At some point, when you create yourself to make it, you're going to have to either let that creation go, and take a chance on being loved or hated for who you really are, or you're gonna have to kill who you really are and fall into your grave grasping onto a character that you never were. Anyway or another, I am doing things that are true to me. The only thing I have a problem with is being labeled. #artistsoninstagram #lokistyle #gentstyle #badassstyle #personalquote #passionateartist #philosopherspath #lokisarmy #lokilaufeyson #lokisilvertongue #hiddlesarmy #hiddlestoner #mood #coolattitude #writersofinstagram #winnersneverquitandquittersneverwin #lookatallthosefucksidontgive #smolderstyle #smoldertongue #smolderpoetry #chaosisinmynature #idontcareanymore #detached #beyondtheinvisible #talldarkandhandsome #tomhiddleston #thedevilsinthedetails https://www.instagram.com/p/Bhyd2xph2XE/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6c6cp9fd2seg