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OH!! how the Siren calls.
Lately I have been taking more in to account of how I behave. I see how people respond to me. I can say this is a good and bad thing. I'm usually on the extreme ends of the pendulum. Ether too good or not good enough.
This falls in the relm of me advising people. Being the Reader that I am. I have to choose very carefully how I say things, when I need to advise people. Because they actually do listen to me. One of the people I'm talking about is my dearest sister witch! The Enchantress. The Enchantress and I have been friends for a while. We first met in Harlem. When I starting to phase out of 20's in to my more mature adult phase of my life. She and I, like in the movies met at a coffee house. Sparked conversations over how I was feeling that day. Having felt stuck at a job that did not appreciate me. I could not quit because at that time I was just finishing up my associates. It would have been more challenging to quit while I was focused on my school work.
I nicked named her the Enchantress, because all who meet her are so spell bound by her beauty and her softness. It's something you just have to experience. Words cannot justify the feeling you get when being around her. How as an individual, she radiates more than a group of 10 people. It's just a delight to be around her. I can say I lost my breath by her friendship by how she's influenced my life. To give a better understanding of what she''s about. She's a young woman in her early 30's late 20's that has a career in construction as a safety coordinator. Among the city of New York, she walks all through the city. Strutting her petite curves and her sister locks. Enchanting all who lay eyes on her.
The Enchantress is what I like to call a desire. A love witch. SHE does glamours and love spells. Not that she needs to. But! these are the areas of expertise. It's just what she like to work with. Me! I like to know shit before hand. I don't like to know things last min. You know, things will fall apart and others will make you look like a joke!
When Muggles can tell. That you're different from them, they'll treat you bad. And that's been the case for me. Like Sofia said in the color purple. " All my life I had to fight." " A fem child is not safe in a house full of mens" I mean hey I paraphrased the last part. But! it still holds weight. I'm writing about her because I would like for you all to know of her before. I tell you things about what I experience with her. that also effect me too. This is a story that needs to be told.
.................To be continued!!
My Official Military Christmas.
First and for most. Happy holidays to all of those who reads this and who practice a difference faith than I do. I also have to say I'm not a Christian but! A Santero and spiritualist.
In these spaces I occupy, I have to take whats familiar to me. And well Christmas is witchy in nature. With all that being said. I have to say that my experience with this group of men are so different from what I am use to. That leadership does make a whole difference as to how you live in these environments and grow as a soldier.
The idea of putting up of the Christmas tree was one of the Air men's idea. Which I thought was pretty cool and very sweet. It did build moral as he knew that it would. When I saw it, It made me think of the pleasant times I had with my own family and the joys associated with Christmas.
It's ghetto as it'll ever be! But I have to say that I really do like it's creative nature. Since I work in the kitchen someone asked me to save the disposable table clothes. They're going to cut them up and make ribbons or bow ties out of them and add it to the tree dressed with Ripit energy drinks.
Now, myself, I don’t drink these. But the other guys do, and a lot. And they love them. I'll stick to my NewyoRican ways of drinking coffee and dying of dehydration because that's all I'll choose to put into my body. lol And yes, I'm joking!!!!!! Here I cannot do that. I think I would literally die! It's sooo dame hot here! I know Africa is suppose to be hot. But! I have to say, the thought of something. being in your head. Vers the experience is something else and actually doing it. man! I have to say I need to live a lot more than I have.
I'm just happy to see the tree. people are doing secret santa. my platoon isn’t doing it. and I'm not too sure how we can anyway.I mean were here! and we don't go any where and there are no stores. I'm just happy because well my family home will be happy. I also now that I'm not missing anything. We video chat quite often. I'm going to do my best to get the most out of this deployment. But the tree has definitely sparked some feelings in me I thought I have forgotten about. Which I have to say is a very good thing. I like when these good feelings and memories come back. Flooding my heart and head.
Over all, I know I made the decision thats best for me. I questioned myself about being a soldier. about being a military member. These question arise because my contract is coming to an end. And it's about that time to renew it. Or! Leave. I have thought bout leaving. Because of the horrendous leadership. People who are out for themselves and do not care about the people who follow them. But! thats another Blog post to be made.
However, I have to say that I titled this my first official Christmas because. The fist time I had one. The world around me way dying. It was 2020 and Covid was at an all time high. Christmas was jot on my mind although it was on everyone else’s. This year I’m I’m good spirits and have another ancestors to add to my alter. My first deployment was my uncle billy and now it’s my aunt Carolyn. I’m using this moral booster to cover up my pain. I’m not ready to be this exposed. Especially with a good group that I’m with.