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(i’ll probably reblog this post once every two weeks just for relevancy i apologize if it gets annoying)

hi y’all, this post might be long and a bit of a downer but i’m unsure of what else to do.

i won’t explain everything just because i personally feel uncomfortable sharing that amount of personal information on the internet.

i currently live in an abusive household. (don’t worry, i don’t live with my partner, he and i have a very healthy relationship). in a little over a month i am planning on leaving my abusive household to go live with my boyfriend.

the people i am currently living with are withholding my personal identification from me, including my birth certificate, driver’s license, passport, and my social security card and i am unable to get them back at the moment for reasons i dont feel comfortable explaining.

i currently make $12.50 an hour and am unable to work over 25 hours a week due to how the company i work for runs.

long story short, i need help.

i genuinely hate asking for help, i feel so much guilt and shame for doing this quite honestly. and i hate asking for money even more but i honestly have no idea what else to do. my boyfriend is unable to help me financially because he has his own obligations at the moment. he encouraged me to make a gofundme because tumblr can be a nice place where people help.

the main thing i need help with is being able to afford my medication for my various mental health conditions, money for testosterone because i would love to start it as i cannot start it while i’m in the environment i’m currently in, and being able to change my legal name and acquire new legal documents with my preferred name, as well as being able to afford the proper medications and food for my chronic intestinal disease

i would like to add that forest is not my legal name nor is it the name that i prefer. it’s an online name as i am uncomfortable putting my name on the internet at this current place in time.

i’ve never set up a gofundme and honestly i’m unsure of exactly how much everything will cost so i don’t know if im asking for too much or too little.

i’d the gofundme doesn’t work that’s okay, thank you anyway for wanting to help <3

thank you for reading my spiel, i genuinely appreciate all of the support that everyone has given me on this blog

anything helps and everything is appreciated <3

https://gofund.me/31bf5952

i need him in my mouth right now, need him to grab my hair and shove me deeper into his cunt

i have a suspicious little tickle in my brain that some of you have my post notifications on and for that, you are all getting a platonically loving kiss on the forehead

(and one of you is my boyfriend and for you i will give a romantical sloppy wet kiss on the mouth)

i fucking wish i lived with my boyfriend. i’ve had a shit day at work and all i want to do is is fuck my anger out and i can’t

trimming my bush because he’s a gardener, NOT a jungle explorer ❌🙅🏻‍♂️ i won’t subject him to the horrors of the untamed wilderness

ughhhh need some power dynamics right nowwww, need him to yank and pull my hair and make me suck him off til he cums in my mouth and be his good dog

then i wanna make him cum again directly after and not stop til he admits he’s my bitch

been in a certain kinda mood lately and the urge to mouth off to him is so strong :P need him to remind me where i belong and show me a better thing i could use my mouth for

i want his attention. send tumble

don’t wanna think don’t wanna make decisions i just want him to put me in my place and be mean to me and talk down to me and and and mfdfjfjggbb

this isn’t a horny post just a personal rant so ignore if you don’t wanna read this downer :P

i have this awful feeling that i’m literally never going to be able to start testosterone. i get so insanely jealous whenever i see people on here do their injections or talk about the changes they’ve experienced on t and i. want that so fucking bad.

but i’m in a place where i cannot start t safely because of where i live and who i live with. even though im planning on moving out i won’t have health insurance so i honestly don’t even think i’ll be able to start it once i move out and i. don’t know how much longer i can go without it because my dysphoria is genuinely getting so awful.

i feel like i pass okay sometimes now but then people call me miss or her and it just fucking kills me and i can’t anymore. i want to start testosterone so fucking bad and i don’t want to wait for things to start because im so fucking tired of waiting for things to happen.

it’s the same way with getting top surgery. i genuinely don’t feel like i’ll ever be able to get it even though i want it more than anything and most of that is because i can’t afford it. i can’t pay for it and i can’t afford the time off of work that it would take because my job requires lifting a lot of heavy shit and physical activity.

long story short i’m jealous. i’m jealous of other trans guys who’ve been able to start t as teenagers or who are on t now because im not. i hate being jealous bc i know all those other trans guys had to wait for it too.

but i feel like im never going to be able to start it and i cannot stand myself and this body

(i started taking zoloft recently so the icky feelings are kinda heightened right now bc im getting used to the meds)

Nobody follows you to hear you bitch about your dysphoria, stick to the NSFT

then get the fuck off of my page. unfollow me. this is MY blog, it is about ME. i get to choose what i post and if i want to post about my dysphoria in between nsft posting, i can do as i fucking please.

you don’t like it?

unfollow me.

begged him for attention and i got what i wanted but at what cost 😓 he made me overstim myself for an hour and a half. came 5 times and squirted twice 😳

my boyfriend likes to give me one of his blankets whenever we’ll be apart for a while. i love it, i can tell if he’s gotten off on the blanket because some spots smell exactly like his cunt and it gets me so soaked whenever i smell it

becoming mutuals with someone i’ve been following for a while makes me so excited like bruh my tail is wagging so hard rn we’re friends omg

wanna get a collar and a leash, make my boy hold it while i fuck him to tears and if he lets go i stop moving

bratted a little too hard and now i’m in trouble but ohhhhh i love when he’s mean it gets me so soaked

been absolutely dripping all day and i don’t know whyyyy

need my boy to play with my cunt nd make me feel good :(( want his tongue on my dick so bad

i NEED to suck him off :(( i’m craving the way his cunt tastes and the way his thighs clench around my head 0_O

‘puter show me my boyfriend’s cunt pls

oohoohoo how i yearn to be on my knees between his legs just being his dog. sucking on his fingers or his strap or his tdick just to have my mouth full and my brain empty, his hands in my hair telling me what a good slut i am for him O_o