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I want to fall asleep while we are on a call.
He is still up and playing video games and I am slowly drifting off while listening to him.
Maybe I am in half sleep when he decides to also go to bed and tells me goodnight love and hangs up while I smile and fall completely asleep again.
I am so tired and I am so happy.
Thank you.
People, you won't belive it but I just woke up and it's 2 am and I still feel good.
Like, I dreamed about him staying over night and for some reason we were making cookies at night and he fell asleep on the dream.
I loved it. And yeah, I just woke up and am still happy. Hehe :)
I hope he got home safe and sleeps well
I'm crying how can he be so good? How can someone be so kind and loving towards me?
I don't get it? It feels so good.
He wants to come over even if I am sick and have to study?? What the fuck? I didn't know people could do that?
I'm actually crying, Noone ever did that for me. Noone ever cared like that??
What the actual fuck, I am feeling so much??
His hands are so warm and comforting and his smile is so sweet and his eyes so pretty and his voice so calming and his overall presence just everything and and-
I'm cold. It's so cold.
Why can't I be with him? Why can't I feel safe and warm? Why can't I kiss him? Why can't I fall asleep next to him?
My heart longs for him, my soul misses his touch.
Honestly, even when if he leaves me I'm still so grateful to have met him.
Like, he showed me new music, motivated me to start being creative again, helped me accept my scars, went to concerts with me and showed me what I can have.
I was so down when I met him, and I'm really doing better now. Thanks to his influence.
So even if he leaves me, I'll still have a friend and a life.
All I want is to be loved. To have him cradle me in his arms. To lay my head on his chest and listen go his heartbeat. To braid his hair and kiss his nose.
My heart breaks because I can't be with him.
The only thing I was looking forward to is seeing him. But I don't know when that will even be.
Maybe never again.
Maybe I'm just dramatic.
But it feels like we'll never be together again...
I want to be back in his arms. I want to be with him.
When he says he's not good but he literally teaches me how to play guitar, kisses my scars, makes cute little Keychains, has a stuffie, kisses my nose and wore his hoodie so it would smell like him when he gave it to me.
I'm still lost in the way his arms made me feel safe.
I wish he would hold me like that again and not let go this time.
Remembering doesn't bring comfort, it only brings confusion.
I actually didn't think about him today.
Which is funny and good I think.
But now that I do think about him again, I still miss him.
But it hurts less.
And I am less angry too.
It hurts.
It hurts so much.
I need someone, anyone, to love me.
Being unlovable hurts.
It's the pain of knowing that noone can ever love me the way I love them.
To love the way I do is to burn and scratch open my skin just to try and show you a part of me.
It's to always wait for something.
I try to fill the void he left with anything that could kill me.
I'll die before letting myself fall in love again.
chronically sleepy autistic bf x insomniac adhd bf
Let's have a sleepover?
So glad summer is ending and I can start wearing clothes again
Better pics on my twitter 💀✨️🖤
Ugh don't wanna get out of bed 😩