Fuck 2020 - Tumblr Posts
🎉HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! 🎉
I personally call this improvement ☺️
Hello, there!
I am here to state that black lives fucking matter and if you think otherwise please leave my page.
Good day to you and your dog!
Kids born in 2020:
down with 2020 boys. it was never meant to be.
So fucking disappointed with the world ☹️
- Shane Dawson
- timothée chalamet
- my new government ( Ireland)
- COVID 19
- black lives matter( ppl getting killed)
- No equality for anyone!
People ask me why I don’t talk much. It’s because mom told me if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.
End of a convo in 2020.
“yeah, this is super long and I don't even know why I am typing this to a person that I've never met face-to-face online... but who cares, right? Like shit, I've been through shit and all of my friends, in real life and online, have been through some serious shit, and I've kind of been going along with it and try to help them and shit.... heh... like shit, this is a very long response, sorry for the wait...”
Myself in 2020
Flashback to 2020 (tw depressive rant)
So, I’m pretty tired with myself today…
I’m so fucking lonely here you know?
No one around to talk to, everyone doing their own things?
It’s stupid…
Why can’t I love someone like how I love myself?
Am I that fucking insane to do something like that?
I guess I am…
I’m so fucking lonely…
I don’t hang out with many people anymore because of COVID….
I miss my old friends so much that I forget I even exist…
I think about people all the time that I become a completely different person.
It’s stupid.
It’s dumb.
It’s crazy what you do for love.
I know you will all be reading this and think, “What the fuck is this shit?”
I don’t know what I am either…
I’m just the chaos and the calm…
The sun and the moon…
Forward and backwards….
I’m everything people want to be and don’t want to be…
I’m the person that could help you or hurt you….
I am the person that talks to everyone or stays in the shadows…
I am myself…
I am not myself…
I am something I’m not…
Something not human…
Something not myself…
What even am I?
Why am I here?
Why do I even exist?
I don’t need to exist… at all!
Fuck me! I don’t give a shit!
Leave me alone for once!!!
I hate myself so fucking much!!!
I’m worthless!
I’m nothing.
I’m nothing without her.
I’m nothing without him.
I’m nothing without them.
I’m nothing.
I am nothing to no one…
And now I'm done with this...
This mask of a smile I've worn for so long...
It's gone...
The mask of happiness for my friends and families to see...
For the happiness I've falsely felt for an enternity...
Slam my fist in the wall.
Throw some shit and give me a call.
I'll scream at you for however long I feel like.
How are you doing?
How are you doing?
Are you bleeding like me?
Are you hiding behind a mask like me?
A mask like mine?
Are you here?
Are you surrounded by your own peers?
Are you looked down on or looked up to?
Are you still trying to be the version of yourself everyone thought you were a year ago?
Are you still faking those smiles?
Are you burning the horrible memories, that made no one trust you anymore?
Are you lying to people that don't deserve it?
Can you stop, cause I am far too gone?!
I need to stop and listen.
I need to do this, evenly.
I am a giant wave crashing into the shore line.
I am myself.
I am not.
I am the calm and the chaos.
I need help, but no one ever listens because, they have their own issues.
They have no time for you, it's true.
Leave them behind and don't go running back to them or they will hurt you more....
Or maybe not...
Maybe they're something more.
Like a soulmate or friend....
Maybe I should reach out to them for help...
Can I reach out for help?
Myself in 2020, not in the right headspace.
I'll drink to that bro!
Happy New Year!!!
fuck off 2020!!