I Feel Ya - Tumblr Posts
clancy: no one tells me what to do!!
clancy: and i really wish they would because i have no idea what i’m doing!!
ok but is this just a me thing but i fr feel like i kinda Don’t Belong here or i’m kind of just a floating existing entity that’s just kind of out of place? 🏃♀️💨
adhd is so fucking stupid like. you have to be Obsessed with something or you will die. you literally cannot do anything productive without some sort of extra "distraction" helping you focus (like listening to music while you clean) and you will do almost anything to avoid doing something you don't like, including "nothing"
and like, being able to hyperfocus and spend all day working on something with no breaks is great and all but i really fucking wish my brain just worked normal and i could like. do the dishes without having to force myself
I feel this on a spiritual level.
staying up all night
being woken up early the next morning
Day eight of trying to get myself to write
god I want so badly to Write Thing but hhhh. writing. actuaply writing. hhhhhhhh
that anime trope where uwu the qUiRkY male protag “”””accidentally””””” trips and falls right into the milfs bazoongas well picture that except it’s me n black noir
my apple pen died im going to eat drywall
I am deep in my feelings about Follow the Leader today. It's almost six years old (will be turning six on 7/23) and it's been such a major part of my life that whole time. Technically longer since our first test recording (episode 0 if you will) was recorded on 5/25/2018.
It's something that's brought me closer to several of my friends, something that has really changed my life, and something that I'm deeply proud of. We're always improving, always striving to tell good stories in an engaging manner. I feel like we hit that goal almost all of the time.
I'm just a little sad because we've had some absolute banger recordings for season eight (which started Monday) and I worked really hard to make them cinematic and impactful, but we don't have much of an audience so not a lot of folks will hear them. Seriously, I feel like we've gotten some really great roleplaying out of all our players this season, and it just sucks that we don't have a wide reach. Like, I can't stop thinking about the recording we just did (for ep 88), or the one before that.
Idk, it's just a little discouraging. I'm not going to let it stop me from having fun with my friends, which is why I started the podcast in the first place. I still want to continue telling stories. It's just... no one out there is doing it like we do, and it makes me sad that because we're not playing D&D, people who might find our stories interesting won't give us the time of day.
Bleh. Oh well. The only thing to do is keep doing what we do and being who and what we are. Which we're not going to stop doing any time soon. Here's to six years and as many more as we can manage.
I want to draw...