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WORM!! WORM!!!

Dirty Talk or Degradation? [Vaguely awkward first thing to send in, but hello!]

Let’s Play A Game of This Or That? (NSFW Edition)

“Dirty talk. Few things entertain me more than bringing my partner down a peg or three by reminding them of their place but sometimes I get carried away. I can get a little too mean to handle...” Roman sighs. Dirty talk was putting it lightly; Roman Sionis had a filthy tongue and was proud of it, whispering all sorts of sinful words into his lover’s ears. He’d say them out loud too, uncaring of anybody who overheard what was going on. “Degrading’s a lot more fun but it’s hard unless you’re with the sort of person who won’t take it so personally. Unless you straight up don’t give a shit, then good luck getting them back into bed again anytime soon but I prefer it when everybody’s happy so I’ll play nice when I have to. I won’t be so nice if anybody thinks they can get away with doing that to me though.”

I think one of the reasons I'm more on the dominant side, despite clearly leaning towards being more submissive, is the fact I've been hurt too much in my life.

I want to be weak and vulnerable to someone, but I've had to put walls up, reinforce them. And I got kind of good at shouldering stuff. My own burdens, and others, and solving them. To the point I find myself saying "don't worry, I'll take care of it" when someone is struggling. It's not out of a desire to be helpful, to take away someones troubles. It's that for some reason, if you're in my vicinity, I've unconsciously decided no one else can suffer but me. People have taken advantage of that, and it's only reinforced the notion. No matter the problem: I can take it. I've failed before, but now I know how to recover from it. To work any failure into a success.

Friends and family see that, and they rely on me. I can handle what they can't.

Anxiety at seeing strangers at the door? Don't worry. Go hide. I got it. It doesn't matter that I hate my body, my voice, and I don't want to be seen or heard because I was just starting transition. Only one persons life has to suck, it might as well be mine. I'm used to it. Go be relieved, go be happy.

Phone call from the parents that hate me that you don't want to answer? Yeah, I'll answer it. I'll say you're busy. Go be happy. I'll take care of it.

Talking to a store worker because you can't find the item is too scary? Yeah, I got it. No worries. Let me do the talking in a voice I hate.

Object too awkward or heavy to carry? No worries, I got it. I'll be strong.

Restaurant messed up your order? I'll talk to them. I'll be extroverted.

I don't want to, but if it's between me and you, I'll choose me to make someone else smile. I get called strong, capable ... but if I'm not it feels like the world would break. And at this point, I can't break the habit.

I'm not "the dominant one" because I like it. The switch is just broken and it's stuck on and I'm too scared to fix it. Sometimes I entertain the idea, but when it comes time to act ... I'm too scared to let go. To used to no one being there to catch me. I'll always end up stepping up. I'm sorry. It's how I was trained. It's not nature, I've just survived worse.

omg i share a birthday with arturo too-

Another post bc I have drdt on the brain. I will never forget the day of my birthday. I woke up, said hi to my friends, and you know what they told me?

That I share a birthday with THIS MAN.

Worst birthday gift of my LIFE./silly

Let me also add. This is the FIRST EVER CHARACTER I encountered that shares a birthday with me. And it’s ARTURO..!!

(I have nothing against him in all seriousness, I just think it’s really funny)

I’m curious, who in drdt has the closest birthday to you guys? If you’re comfortable sharing, ofc!!

First Mutual Appreciation Post

Reblog to give a slightly grainy serving of rotating fries to your first/oldest mutual, whoever they may be.