Jaehyun Blurbs - Tumblr Posts

[1:28am]

assassin!jaehyun presses his hand to your rifle, stepping between you and your target. you’d known he would try to stop you when he found out your assigned target was his civilian brother - but you didn’t think the pleading look in your partner’s eyes would hurt as much.

“move, jaehyun,” you tell him sternly, your voice cracking ever so slightly as you speak his name.

“you can’t do this,” he says, completely covering your line of fire by pressing his chest to the tip of your rifle. his eyes beg with you as you push him with the weapon. “(y/n), just for old time’s sake, please.”

you had previously knocked the target out for a quick death due to your guilt when jaehyun stepped in. your eyes flickered to his trembling hands that had set his brother more comfortably on the floor while you were frozen in shock from his sudden appearance.

“you know i have to, jae,” you shove him with the tip of your rifle again. “we both know what happens to my family if i don’t. move, or i’ll shoot.” it’s a blatant lie, and your voice shakes as you tell it.

jaehyun’s eyes harden. “no.”

you tear up at the prospect of having to fight and possibly kill your best friend, partner, and long-time love. “jaehyun, please.” it was you begging now. “i don’t want to hurt you, but i will.” if you shot through jaehyun’s heart, he would surely die - especially since you were firing from so close.

“he’s my only family, (y/n),” jaehyun says, taking a step closer as your rifle presses into his chest. he takes a deep breath. “you can shoot me. tell them i stopped you and he got away. it’ll be convincing if i die.”

“i can’t do that,” you breathe, tears in your eyes. it was so unlike you to be emotional during a mission, but it was different when jaehyun was involved.

“please,” jaehyun says. his eyes have that flame of determination that you glimpse whenever he finishes off a target - except this time, the target is himself. “please. for me. let dohyun escape, maybe hide him.”

this won’t end the way either of you want it to, and you know it.

you throw your rifle to the floor. “fight me,” you tell him.

jaehyun is only the slightest bit surprised. he’s probably anticipated this, observing your thought process as your partner for several years.

the both of you kick, swing, and punch each other with impossible agility, jaehyun careful to block you from his brother every time you get too close. you land multiple punches on his jawbone as he kicks you in the stomach.

but you can feel that neither jaehyun nor you are fighting with full power.

“i won’t hold back anymore,” you say, slightly out of breath.

“neither will i,” jaehyun smiles slightly, and slides under you as you whip around, anticipating a sudden attack.

you hadn’t thought he would grab your rifle and shoot his own heart.

“jaehyun!” you scream, and rush to his side as he coughs out blood. your fingers tremble as you press the wound in futile hopes that it would magically seal.

he tries to lean on the wall, but to avail - he slides back down in pain, a smear of blood left on the wall.

you cup his face in your bloody hands, lip trembling as you speak. “i hate you so much.”

he looks like he would laugh if it wasn’t too painful. “is that all you have to say?”

you let out a deep sigh while looking into his eyes. they look happier than you’d ever seen them after a flame. “i have too much to say.”

“i do, too,” jaehyun breathes, and coughs out some more blood as you wipe it from his mouth with worried eyes. both of you know his wound is too severe - you’ve both taken several medical classes and witnessed several deaths and know when a wound is absolutely fatal. he smiles, his dimples bloody. “you know, i love you.”

your eyes widen.

“this probably isn’t the best place,” jaehyun jokes, then winces as he forces a laugh back down his throat, “or time. but i don’t think i could die without telling you. you know? i don’t want a respons-”

“i love you too,” you blurt, and jaehyun’s eyes widen in surprise. you press your forehead against his. “i just... wish we had more time.”

jaehyun wonders if it would be disgusting to kiss you when he’d just coughed out blood, but you beat him to it, the taste of death lingering between breaths.

his eyes flutter closed as he presses one last kiss to your lips, murmurs a last plea to help his brother, and whispers a last breath proclaiming “i love you.”

[10:32 pm]

husband!jaehyun listens intently as you explain why you don’t want children. it’s a conversation you knew had to happen sooner or later, but it still stings to see something in jaehyun’s eyes flicker out. you apologize, feeling slightly guilty. jaehyun shakes his head and tells you you shouldn’t be sorry; it’s your body and he supports whatever you choose to do with it. he kisses your forehead with a smile that carves dimples into his cheeks.

you were wrong when you thought you couldn’t love him any more than you already did.

[the hunger games - with jaehyun]

“feels like... feels like christmas,” district eleven!jaehyun murmurs, his eyelids fluttering heavily. “you, me. the snow. red blood, green trees. feels cozy.” he lets out a strange choke that seems to have been the beginning of a chuckle too painful to finish.

you would laugh at jaehyun’s joke if he wasn’t on the ground bleeding out from a hole through his heart. you’re kneeling in the snow next to him, sobbing uncontrollably as the snow around the both of you gradually stains red with jaehyun’s blood.

“hey, hey,” jaehyun mutters, trying to get your attention. his gentle fingers wrap around yours, and he smiles that dimpled smile you’d come to love. “i’m alright. i’ll be okay. this is what happens here in the games.”

you shake your head insistently, still sobbing as jaehyun’s thumb draws small circles on the back of your hand, trying to make you relax.

“this isn’t going to make it any easier for either of us, love,” he says weakly. you press jaehyun’s hand to your cheek, his cold fingers against your warm skin wet with tears. “you know, i-i didn’t know dying would feel like this.”

“w-what is it like, jae?”

“peaceful,” he breathes, a giant cloud of smoke evaporating from his bloody lips. “like christmas... like the christmas last year i spent with my family, like that warm loaf of bread the five of us shared. it was... the first meal we’d had in days.” he meets your eyes wistfully. “i wish you’d been there. my family would have loved you.”

“i wish i’d met you sooner, somewhere else,” you tell him softly, but you know it‘s impossible; you’re from district twelve and jaehyun is from district eleven. you would never have crossed paths, much less fallen in love. “i wish we could spend christmas together.”

“i love you,” says jaehyun, as if he knows he doesn’t have much time. “i love you, (y/n).” his fingers reach to wipe the tears from your eyes. jaehyun doesn’t have the strength to cry right now, and wishes you wouldn’t, either.

“i love you, jae,” you sob, one hand cupping his cheek and the other clasped above his hand on your cheek. “i love you so much.”

“listen,” jaehyun says, more weakly than before, “you’re going to take my stuff. i have a waterbottle, some food, medicine, and a knife in my bag. take my stuff and run north, opposite from districts 1 and 2. whatever you do, don’t eat anything you haven’t seen an animal eat before. i’ve seen so many poisonous fruits in this area that i can’t even identify some of them. climb a tree and do whatever you need to and please, please win for me.” he smiles softly, then doubles over in pain as he violently coughs blood.

“jaehyun!” your eyes flicker from his eyes to his bloody lips in concern.

he shakes his head. “i’m fine.” he looks into your eyes. “can you do that for me, (y/n)? win for me. go back home for me, tell my parents i love them.”

“i-i will, jaehyun,” you breathe shakily. “i’ll win for you.”

jaehyun smiles one last time. his hand goes limp in your grasp, and you place your hand over his eyes to close his blank, glossy eyes.

“i’ll win for you.”

[12:27 am]

"are you okay?” those are the first words that leave best friend!jaehyun’s mouth as soon as he sees you.

your lip quivers. you thought you’d done a decent job of a poker face, even in front of your best friend. “y-yeah, i’m fine.”

his eyes are filled with concern as he sits down on the couch next to you. “you’re definitely not. come on, spill.”

you bite your lip as it quivers even more, threatening to start a flood of tears. “j-jaehyun, you know, nothing’s wrong. i don’t want to burden you on your only day off in two weeks.”

“you’re not burdening me at all,” he says, and overlaps your hand with his. he stares into your eyes, and you can see your reflection from his pretty brown irises. gosh, do you really look that sad? “i want to know if something’s bothering you because i love you.”

that does it. a tear falls from your eyes without your consent - then another and another and another. you’re crying uncontrollably at once, and jaehyun silently pulls you in for a hug.

you cry into his shoulder, and he rubs your back soothingly. you can’t calm down, and muffle your crying with his shoulder. “i-i,” you say, hiccuping and heaving your breaths.

“shh,” jaehyun says, rubbing your back. “it’s okay. you don’t have to talk right now if you’d rather cry.”

he knows you so well. you silently sob into his shoulder, your arms wrapped around his neck. jaehyun pats your back soothingly, murmuring “it’s okay” and “i love you” into your hair for as long as you need him to. he just wants you to feel better whenever you’re ready to.