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From @ domesticblisters I *adore* her cleaning content it's so friendly for cleaning trauma
I looked up how to recycle aluminum cans to see if I could do similar with recycled materials and maybe jacket spikes or other metal up cycled
This is such good inspiration that gets so many mental gears turning
Cymbals - armour - battle jacket
Because M E T A L
I feel so much growth in noticing red flags
There’s this girl at work who’s a walking red flags but the type who’s friends/friendly with nearly everyone “drama follows her everywhere she goes and she hates drama” and now I see how she interacts and I see the walking red flag
Coworker B was dribbling an invisible air basketball having fun goofing off and That girl coworker A goes “ohh my god your so fuckin weirddddd… I’m sorry you know I’m just joking and would never mean it…” girl B continues having fun and girl A goes “ohhhh my goddddd you make it so hard for me to not say it look at you look at your actionsssss you twist my arm and I bite my tounge but ahhh look at youuuuu- I- … YOUR SO WEIRD HAhaaaa!” And we’re all 18-25 so it’s nothing super abnormal but
“You make me act how I do”
“Your joy is laughable and bad”
And other messages pop up OFTEN with her
The other day I was writing goals on a clipboard and she goes “whatcha doin” me:”writing goals” her”what’s your biggest goal” me”I don’t know yet it’s just feelings and experiences I want long term so far I’m gonna refine it down” I continue writing and not giving her info and she goes “why are you writing it on a clipboard and not a notebook” me:” I carry it in my backpack and any paper I put in there gets crumpled and so I’ve got a folder on a clipboard so I can set up my pages how I want them” *continues writing* her: “well *I* think it’s because you think your smarter and better than everyone else! *smiles knowingly/cocky*” I look up at her like “what the fuck?” And with body language of leave me alone why would you say that and she goes “ohhhh you know I’m just teasing! Haha I love to joke! It means we’ll be friends!”
And most of my life anyone who says they want to be my friend my guard was down for but I see how much the contrast is
Every massively traumatic person I’ve been around closely has “joked” about things that aren’t funny and hid behind it as tho I’m sensitive and not that they completely mean the rude things they say
And I’m proud of myself not letting her milk info out of me in attempts to stay “friendly”
08/20/23
Restless. Brainstorm. Journal. 08/21/23
Im so happy and so restless in life right now
I feel the stability to push off and do great things I’ve wanted for so long and so ready to move
But my body and brain don’t realize the damage that is lingering in all the bad that’s happened
So I’m so tired and accidentally inducing symptoms again
And I know it’s not all or nothing but I don’t know what are sustainable good changes to make right now
I’m
gettin new (to me) furniture
opening up a high yield savings account
setting up hang outs
Tryin to make and sustain friendships
Vollenteering
Changing my home
And am still restless but have therapy on the 25th so hopefully I’ll be able to comb my brain out a bit more and I’ve been journaling more
I love my new job I love my friends I love my therapist I love my partner I love my cat I love my medical team I love my plans i love my hobbies I love my body i love my gender I love that I outgrew so many things I’m so grateful
I’m so happy with how life is heading and that I think we’re really getting answers for my partners chronic illnesses which will never be easy but I think all the diagnostics currently point at within the next two years they will be able to leave the house at least twice a week again they may never be healthy but thank all gods that I feel safe in the concept they won’t die realizing it very well may be Crohn’s disease has given me so much peace for their health I was lacking it being crohns won’t be easy but I also will still be able to have a full life with them and knowing their brain is okay after the mri is such a fuckin relief I was terrified of something deadly in there too it seems it’s related to their low blood pressure which makes perfect sense given every time they’ve had a seizure it’s been with movement within less than a minute of standing usually and honestly that can still have bad outcomes but it’s most likely the more common outcomes like low blood pressure related but I feel confident that it’s not deadly after realizing it’s likely crohns it feels like it’s no longer a sign their body is shutting down trying to expel itself as a toxin and they’re gonna die
The question marks are starting to fall into place without fun answers but thank all gods that the answers can still easily leave room for a fun life even if not a fun diagnosis
Gods my life is good
I’ve got so much philosophy on my mind but
It’s almost midnight so I’m gonna go beddy bie
One of the best parts of working in medicine is seeing the good in people who have no expectations of them to b good
dads stepping up effortlessly in front of of 3 elevators “I bet this one will open which one do you think will?” The little girl steps in front of another and it opens and he exclaims “oh! You win!!!” He hurries scooping her up in a flurry of giggles and hurries onto the elevator
A sweet older chronically I’ll woman who spends her days in her hospital bed making beautiful beaded bracelets the nurses rave about endlessly and is known when she inevitably checks in again you’ll have a sweet heart on your hands
A man in the icu unable to move nearly at all eyes and head swaying ever so slightly to metálica
Some days you’ll question humanity seeing a nurse be angry but the next day of your willing to see it there’s so much beauty
Kids hopscotching the tiles of hospital corridors
Old metal heads who it definitely wasn’t a phase for
50 year old People with cancer cracking jokes and pranking people with spunky fun in ways many lose the desire for at half their age
Families bringing Christmas lights and hanging them up in their loved ones room up an unused IV pole
Grandparents hearing their 20 something granddaughter wasn’t eating in her hospital stay and saying “now that your encouraged to eat let’s get you your favorite fried chicken and chipotle which one is for lunch and which is for dinner!”. So she rolls over bundling up in her blankets grumpily telling them she just wants to go back to bed. While your the only one in the room that can see the smile being covered by blankets.
Nurses dressing up for Halloween.
Service dogs wondering around who are slightly too friendly so they get distracted by hearing “awww cute puppy” in the halls
There’s so much bad but also so much good
You can only hate the boogie man from a distance.
This is exactly why people are afraid of pride. It’s not the children or religion or “family values”. If you’ve never met a queer person it’s so much easier to agree they’re the monsters from the story books.
You have no one to reference. You can’t go “yeah my neighbor joes trans. He would never force surgery on someone. That’s ridiculous and only is said by people who’ve never met a trans person”. If you see us Hugging in the street your horror stories colapse.
Your a person who cries with joy too.
You have a queer loved one too.
Maybe that queer loved one shares a body with you. Maybe they just share a timeline with you.
It’s so hard to insist a death sentence if you have to look them in the eyes. If you have no proof of the “hurt they caused by existing”
This is the beauty queer people always could be and have been. It just only survived in private before.
I have almost a sense of nostalgia for happy pride. That one day we’ll be in the story books for good reasons too.
I haven't seen this circulating here on Tumblr, so I decided to make my own post.
last saturday, in Porto, there was a pride parade going down the street and this old man was standing there, by his front door, waving the portuguese flag. most people on the parade probably thought the same: old person waving the national flag? he's probably protesting against the parade, he's a nationalist of some sort.
then the old man called for that person to come near him. the whole parade stopped. everyone just.. stopped moving. they didn't know what to expect, and most expected the worst. and that person decided to give him the benefit of the doubt and approached the old man. and then... they traded flags, he hugged the person and then he waved the pride flag happily. everyone cheered him.
such a wholesome moment. 🥹❤️🌈
Shout out to the ones who were scary and aggressive. The inpatient visits that were filled with tears and attempts because you didn’t know how to handle it .
Shout out to autistic people who therapy speak doesn’t apply to. Who when the therapist says “they’re not thinking about you that’s social anxiety” you can list 20 real life examples and don’t need it sugar coated.
Shout out to those Who get horrified responses to their stories but can’t even figure out which part is upsetting. Who’ve been the content of clinical study. Who were the kids horror movies warn will kill someone. Who therapists and psychologists didn’t know what to do when adults said “fix it”.
Shout out to those who aren’t relationship material. Who won’t have a “normal” life. Who don’t want sex. Who will never have sex. Who’s autistic traits are deal breakers.
Who were told they’re gifted and we’re at one point but now the gift doesn’t apply. Who are left picking up the shattered pieces from a pedastool assigned at birth.
Who aren’t smart and it’s not cute or a joke. Who can’t hide the developmental delays. Who the greatness at one thing highlights the disabilities overall.
Autistic isn’t fun all the time. We can live good lives but there’s a painful and steep learning curve to overcome if you want to get a fulfilling life. That learning curve causes trauma even for those of us who have good lives now.
shoutout to offputting autistic people
Empathy, compassion, and magic✨💜✨
Always, good things!🧚🏽♀️💜😌
Plan your dreams, read fairytales, live in your imagination😌🌟🪐
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🎪 Introducing... Puffy & Fluffy!
Created by me in 2019, they are a duo of rockstar clowns. They sing and dance at the Great Jolly Circus (Gran Circo da Alegria). Puffy is the shorter, buck-toothed clown – dressed in white (detail for Bozo the Clown’s pictures in his suit, it's his idol), he is the silliest of the duo. While his partner, Fluffy, is the taller clown – smart and 💅🏼✨ diva, kind of Bochum Elektra’s personality (in fact, he was drawn over actor Adam Lake, who played Elektra in 2019). Fun fact: They were inspired by a very famous Brazilian clown duo from the 80s, Atchim & Espirro (A-choo & Sneezy, in free translation). Listen to their theme song here!
Well, I hope you all enjoyed it and if you want to know more OCs, be sure to follow my blog! 🤡❤️