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Kaz x Jesper x reader that doesn’t like being touched for long periods of time
Baby Steps
kaz x fem!reader x jesper
warnings: touch aversion, comfort?
a/n: i didn’t really know how to put this into a story so i decided to do headcannons, im sorry if this isn’t what you had in mind!
- There would be so much understanding from both of them in my opinion.
- Since Kaz himself has a strong aversion to touch he wouldn’t even be approaching you with touch anyway.
- Kaz would 100% be dumbfounded.
- He’d never encountered someone who shared his condition and he’d silently appreciate the fact that you’d never expect him to work on his aversion in order to be with you. That you’d never pressure him into anything or expect a lot in terms of physical intimacy.
- But you both shared the frustrations.
- When the other person is looking absolutely gorgeous beyond words and all you want to do is hug them, to play with their hair, kiss them etc. Having a hollow feeling inside when Jesper would be so overly affectionate when around everyone else but feel like he had to change how he acted when it came to the two of you.
- You never wanted him to change. Neither did Kaz. As much as he acts as if Jespers over the top self annoyed him, he more so envied him. Jesper never has to worry, he doesn’t need stupid gloves every day to keep him calm. He can drink and eat anything without feeling like the world is crushing down on him.
- He doesn’t look in the mirror and loathe.
- But what he hates most of all is that he can touch you. And Kaz can’t.
- You hadn’t had a traumatic background that had scarred you to the point of aversion and panic attacks.
- At times touch just became too much. Your senses would feel as if they were on fire. Like anything touching you felt as if bugs were crawling all over you. You could handle smaller things in smaller batches.
- It was nowhere near as intense as Kaz but it happened usually during the day. You’d be holding hands with Jesper and you’d suddenly drop his hand and walk with distance between the two of you.
- During the start of your relationship you hadn’t told either of them.
- So imagine Jespers surprise when you swatted his hand away whilst the three of you were in Kaz’s office.
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“What was that for!” Jesper yelled as he cradled his hand. You frowned, “I didn’t- I didn’t mean to, I’m sorry.” Jesper tilted his head, “Is this for eating your chicken last night? I am sorry you know, but it smelt, amazing.” He dragged out.
“No that’s- you ate my food? I blamed Matthias! Poor guy was as red as the blood on Kaz’s cane.”
Kaz glimpsed down at his cane, he cleaned it everyday, not a speck of blood, poor analogy.
“It’s just, sometimes when I’m being touched, I have to pull away. I don’t know how to explain it but I just, sometimes it’s too much and I can’t handle it. I’m sorry if that disappoints you-”
“Don’t apologise for it. I don’t.”
You smiled gratefully at Kaz as he made eye contact with you. Jesper rested his hand by yours on the desk, “You don’t have to force anything. If you feel like pulling away, pull away. Thank you for telling us, I promise you don’t have to. Not like Kaz makes any effort to touch me, it’s been a long time.”
“Say one more word and I’ll tell her about Milo.”
Jesper gasped as he brought his hand to his heart, “I’m proud of Milo. Whatever makes you think I wouldn’t tell anyone about my baby?”
“Who’s Milo?”
“Milo is Jes’s-”
Jesper shot up from his seat and pointed accusingly at Kaz.
“Don’t you dare!”
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As frustrating it was for Jesper to have not one, but two partners with aversions he wouldn’t trade it for the world.
He loved you both and you’d work on your barriers together,
Baby Steps.
Hello guys!
to whoever is currently reading this, I have been writing a Kaz Brekker story in Wattpad and not much is reading it and I have been spending hours to write a new chapter that only has 3 or 2 votes, so if you want you can check it out and please comment your opinion it will make my day!!
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I really hope you enjoy Fairytale and thank you so much<3
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Also you said oh sorry for the long comment and I said hold my beer. Haha sorry for filling the comments with my rambles and odd statements, you know I love everything you write and I'm so excited for this chapter no lie
Love story - Chapter 37
"What are you doing, K?" Jordan asked, his tone carrying both concern and curiosity.
Kiska didn’t even glance up. Her eyes were locked on the paper, her pencil darting around as if it had a life of its own. "A plan," she said firmly, as if the answer was self-evident.
"A plan for what?" Jordan pressed, leaning in closer to see what she was up to.
“To make Mom kiss Dad,” Kiska said with determination, as if it were the most natural thing in the world.