Levi X Y/n - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
So, maybe you don't even remember me anymore, but after a few months I want to start writing again, soooo I'm opening requests for you.
You can ask me for anyone you imagine from:
NARUTO
JUJUTSU KAISEN
BOKU NO HERO
AOT
TOKYO REVENGERS
SK8
Among other babies, use your imagination, and let's go!
"Get on my back" | Eren Jaeger
Prompt's: 26 - "Without you, I wouldn't even be here anymore" and 27 - "Get on my back"
Pairing: Eren Jaeger X Reader
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Eren smiles and runs as soon as he sees Y/n sitting on the grass.
"Hey I was looking for you." Eren says sitting next to Y/n.
"I'm just here…thinking." Y/n says pulling the grasses out of the ground.
"In what?" Eren says leaning his shoulder against Y/n's.
"just...how are you?" Y/n says and turns around looking worriedly at Eren.
He looks at her almost in shock, and smiles fondly.
"Is that what's bothering you? I'm fine." Eren smiles at she.
He had noticed how much Y/n had been worried about she, since she had seen Squad Leader Hanje experimenting on him, she knew that it had scared she.
"I just...wanted to do more for you." Y/n says lowering her head.
Eren looks at her, and smiles in disbelief.
"Maybe you don't know anymore... Without you, I wouldn't even be here anymore" Eren says and feels his cheeks heat up.
"I don't even do anything..." Y/n says and Eren pushes her lightly.
"You do everything, even though I don't deserve half of it...
"hey Y/n."
"What's up Eren?"
"If one day I change, or I'm cruel to you... know that I still love you, okay? That will never change no matter what happens." Eren says scratching the back of his head.
"I love you too, Eren." Y/n smiles shyly.
Eren looks into Y/n's eyes, and leans down giving Y/n a tender peck on the lips.
Yes, that had been their first kiss.
"Brats, come both of you, I need to talk to everyone." Captain Levi shouts from afar.
The two shyly separate.
"Well, we better go." Eren says getting up, and extending his hand to Y/n pulling her off the ground.
"Get on my back, I'll take you." Eren says and Y/n smiles, jumping on Eren's back, grabbing her neck.
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When your bestfriend and her bf adopts you and there overprotective:
You not giving a shit bc you have someone who finally whats you: la la la la <3
Walking down the streets with Levi.
Levi's mind: Ugh, no, she's too close to the road. What if a cart crashes? I will move her to the other side. But first, let's check... Yeah, okay, there's no citizen in the windows who might throw buckets. She's safe there. Damn, we're 10 minutes behind if we go this way, but the other route is too crowded, and she brought that purse—there may be pickpockets. Who are those people looking at her? I will stare back. Great, they moved. They know what's good for them. Ugh, what time is it? 12:10? We should hurry up; she gets hungry at 1:00 PM, and if she doesn't eat, she gets migraines. Let's switch to the other street; the next one has cobblestones, and she's wearing heels.
Y/n's mind: 💕🎶🎶 la la la la 🎶🎶💕
𝕷𝖊𝖛𝖎 𝖝 𝕽𝖊𝖆𝖉𝖊𝖗 (one-shot)
𝕭𝖊𝖜𝖆𝖗𝖊: 𝚄𝚗𝚛𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎, 𝙴𝚛𝚎𝚗 𝚡 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛
That should be him, he thought.
As his dark grey eyes landed on you and your fiancé slow dancing in the wedding hall, Levi couldn't clear the envious feeling that has been suffocating him for a while now. He, the one who has been your best friend, he, the one who has supported you through thick and thin, he the one who dried your tears whenever your lover would cancel your dates for work...Levi has always been the one who stood next to you through the hardest and difficult times.......only to be met with utter disappointment at the end... Was it worth it? Was fighting for your love all this time worth the tremendous pain he was inflicted with? Because at the end of the day, you would never be his to love. But all Levi ever wanted was for you to be happy; he only hoped to see you smile every day until the day you die. Even if your smiles and 'i love yous' were not meant for him, Levi wished you the best.
After finishing his glass of wine, he stood up, and with one final glance at you and Eren, he left. Loving you was a losing game that he was addicted to. A game that he was willing to bet all his fortune on even if the outcome would still be a failure. But Levi was sure of one thing: you were a choice with no regret.
Journal
This did not at all go where I thought it would, but it’s here. This is my first X Reader I’ve done so if you have some input, it would be greatly appreciated-
includes: Levi, Y/N
warnings: Mentions of dark thoughts
length: 2,535 words
"Cadet!"
You were quick to glance over your shoulder, wondering how you've messed up this time. You were just about to leave the mess hall, so you were probably going to be scolded for being the last one out, or for not eating again. Levi always snapped about how he needs you at your best.
"You forgot this," the captain said, his stoney blue eyes narrowing as yours widened, "Or did you leave it on purpose?"
It was your journal, the one you were always buried in whenever you could be. You did leave it on purpose, hoping someone would find it and save you from yourself. Hoping that someone would notice all of the changes in your behavior, hoping someone would hear your silent screams. Yet, seeing that it was Levi fucking Ackerman who returned the journal? You wished you had kept suffering alone.
"And it has so many…" Levi hesitated, almost like he was trying to find the right words to string together. "So many horrific thoughts written inside of it."
You could practically feel how serious he was while he gripped your prized possession just a bit tighter. You couldn't handle the growing silence, so you broke it.
"I should know. It's mine, after all." He didn't find your joke very funny.
Levi opened his mouth, picking his next words carefully, "What's going on with you? You haven't been yourself recently."
You mentally swore, fingers twitching at your side. Levi didn't fail to notice, making his abnormal concern grow.
"What do you mean, Captain? I'm perfectly fine." As much as you wished the forced chuckle in your voice would change his way of thinking, it didn't.
"I'm more than certain something is happening with you," his voice grew more pointed as he stared at you, "There's no point in trying to hide it. Just spit it out."
"Why would you even bother asking?" Your muttered question left your lips before you could stop it.
"I want to know because I care about you. That's something a lot of people can't say, so don't go off wasting my support," Levi's tone didn't change and you sucked in a much needed breath.
You wearily watched him place the journal on one of the long tables in the room, the soft thud reminding you of how many hours have gone into fruitless attempts of venting out your pain.
"Stop being stubborn and tell me what's going on, cadet." He inched closer, and you stepped back in response, eyes darting to the table.
"Once again, Jean and Eren left their spots disgusting. Do you want me to clean up, or would you rather chew them out yourself?" You gave a tight smile, forcing yourself to look back at him.
"Don't change the subject," he growled, a strange blaze flaring up in his eyes. Levi noticed how you tensed and he sighed to calm himself. "The things that you wrote in that book," he started, never once looking away from you, "Those were some seriously dark thoughts, and if you honestly do feel that way, you need to talk about it. So, stop trying to be the coldhearted badass and let me know what's running through your mind."
He sounded like a parent trying to convince a child to admit they broke something. It was a bit frightening in all honesty.
You didn't say anything, teeth digging painfully into your tongue so you would keep quiet. You had just now noticed you'd been staring at the wooden floorboards this whole time, and yet you didn't stop.
Levi noticed that you weren't going to contribute, so he did it himself.
"What are you afraid of? Do you think I'm going to be mad at you?"
You could've kicked yourself when your panicked chuckle wormed its way into the one-sided conversation.
"Look at me," he demanded. You didn't listen, a thick gulp being your only reaction. "Cadet, look at me." This time it came out as a snarl, and you obeyed out of pure fear.
Levi shut his eyes for just a moment, a heavy sigh leaving him as he tried to compose himself again. You both knew that he wasn't great with feelings, but he was trying.
"I'm not mad at you. You can tell me whatever you're going through and I'll listen. Don't ever be afraid to let someone know how you feel, that is the only way someone can understand you." You had to clench your jaw to keep a snarky remark from making the situation worse. "Stop hiding from people, stop holding on to these emotions, and thinking that by some miracle things are going to work out by keeping silent. Things don't ever work out that way, and it only prolongs the pain. It only gives time for shit to get worse. So, stop being an idiot and just tell me what's going on already."
"You sound like you're speaking from experience," you muttered after letting his words sink in.
You didn't get a response, so you let your gaze lower, but not drop completely. Levi waited for you. The Levi Ackerman patiently waited for you to let go of some agony. So you did.
"Sometimes," it was difficult for you to refill your lungs with fresh air, "I get these recurring dreams that make me think about the things I'd kill to forget." A fly could be heard over your quiet voice, but you had spoken, and Levi found it a big step forward.
"I see," he spoke more to himself than anything. "So that's why…"
His words trailed off as he remembered walking past the cadet sleeping quarters in the ungodly hours of the morning and often hearing whimpers of fear and sleepy pleads for directions on what to do. His eyebrows furrowed slightly.
"You've been having those, too, haven't you?" He paused, knowing damn well that the night terrors weren't anything but a small piece to the puzzle. But it was progress. "It's not uncommon. Everyone gets those nightmares."
You resisted the urge to insist that's the reason why your problems weren't such a big deal.
"Having thoughts about the people that you've lost, the people that you'd cared about," Levi tightened his jaw, taking a deep breath through his nose and not saying anything for a heartbeat. He changed his wording, "You're allowed to feel. You're allowed to grieve and to be angry, to be hurt." It was like he was reading from the list of your emotional insecurities.
It was starting to get painfully tense, so you attempted to redirect the topic of choice.
"That's funny, considering who's speaking. You only seem slightly agitated whenever you hear about the trouble Eren is constantly causing. I'm surprised you don't have grey's, old man," you laughed in spite of yourself, the noise tense and borderline frantic.
"Writing these thoughts in this book," of course he wouldn't budge. The man's like a stone wall, despite his height. "It's probably your way of coping with what’s happened to you."
You swallowed, glancing away before sucking on your tongue to distract yourself.
"But, you have to be able to talk to someone as well, to be able to hear your problems leave you." Levi didn't say anything after that, quietly observing how you tilted your head up to stop your brimming tears from falling.
He surprised you by taking a seat on the table's bench, a good four or five feet from your journal. "Come here," he said gently, patting his legs, "You look like you need to be held. If you feel comfortable, that is."
"On your lap?" You asked, chest tightening. You knew all it was going to take was one hug- just one god damned hug- and you'd crumble.
"Yes, on my lap. Come on," Levi couldn't care less about your height or weight, none of it bothering him in the slightest.
You hesitated, the exit door seeming all too tempting. You didn't leave, though, and it wasn't because Levi would catch you if you were to run, nor that he would only confront you more forcefully in the future. You knew you needed this- that's the whole reason you had left your secrets behind. But, fuck, it was so hard to make yourself sit on his lap.
"There we go." His encouragement nearly ripped you to shreds.
"What are you? Santa Claus?" You mused, eyes burning holes into your lap with how determined you were to look anywhere but.
"Go on, let it out," Levi pushed you to speak again, this time far more effective.
"Let what out exactly? My Christmas list?" Your voice cracked, heart painfully throbbing.
"Come on, cadet," Levi breathed again, sickeningly gentle eyes looking at you.
"I wish for a cup of hot chocolate with cookies on the side," you forced a twisted smile on your face as burning hot tears started to slip down your cheek. "Maybe at least one good night's rest. O-Or a chance to go back in time."
You were breaking down, caving in on yourself as you choked on a sob.
"I've got you."
But you weren't alone. The captain was rubbing comforting shapes into your back.
You shook violently, tremors growing worse before you gave in completely. Harsh sobs thrashed your body as you buried your face into Levi's chest, letting every bit of your pain out.
"It's alright," Levi's voice warded off the ringing in your ears. "It's going to be okay. Do you hear me? You're going to be okay."
Promises of betterment and words of comfort soothed you as you soaked his uniform with tears. Tears that you've held in for far too long, tears that represented your suffering.
"You did all you could. Stop blaming yourself for whatever happened or you'll never be able to move forward. If all you keep doing is holding onto the past, you'll stay stuck in this shitty, painful cycle," Levi told you exactly what you needed to hear as he alternated between pats and rubs on your back.
He took a deep breath, and you heard his heart rate kick up as your crying quieted, though you didn't- couldn't- stop.
"I had two friends who died on the same damn day. People I considered my family- gone, just like that. People I'd just met, people I had just been acquainted with that morning, died later that day, too," he shared his pain, opening castrated wounds all for you. "Sons, daughters, sisters, brothers, fathers, mothers," he listed, voice wavering before he righted himself, holding you closer. "Dead. Gone. And who was in charge? I was." You felt his chest steeply rise and fall as you sniffled.
"There are things that you'll have to live with, situations you'll be placed in that you'll have to get through." His thumb and index finger captured your chin, forcing you to look at him. "I just want you to remember that you don't have to find a way on your own. You don't have to feel like you need to take all the burden, all the pain, by yourself."
The hand that was on your back navigated to the Scouts emblem on your jacket, gently thumbing at it.
"That's why you have us," there was a smile dancing in his voice, though it never quite reached his face. "We can support each other."
Your tears had calmed down to a few rogue leftovers, and you found yourself ready to slip off of his lap. Levi didn't seem to mind the massive wet stain that bled through his white button-up and onto his peck. Didn't seem to on the outside, but you knew he was a cleaning fanatic.
"My office, my doors, are always open," his tone turned sarcastically bitter, "Unless I have paperwork to fill in, or I'm cleaning up Jaeger's damn mess." He relished the small giggle that left your lips. "If neither of the two are happening, you can always come to me."
He narrowed his eyes at you, lightly flicking your forehead.
"You hear me? Always, cadet." He gently smiled at you. "Not only are my doors open, but my arms are open, too."
You glanced away to hide the sparkle in your eyes. Your attention returned to the captain, however, when a warm hand found itself on your shoulder.
"I know that feeling of thinking everything is your fault," he swallowed, casting his gaze down before looking back at you. "That feeling of being disappointed in yourself, down in the gutter, beating yourself up and wishing that it was you instead." There was a solemn look in his eyes before he spoke again, "I know that feeling, and I know how it eats you alive."
Levi pulled you in for another hug, resting his chin on your shoulder as he shuddered in another breath.
"I also know the feeling of being comforted. Of being reminded that there is a tomorrow, and that things can get better." He gave you a small squeeze before pulling away, both hands on your shoulders now. "That if you make it past today, you can make it past tomorrow, too."
He allowed you to sit back, and the words he spoke were more than welcomed.
"After everything that you've been through, there is no storm that comes your way that you're not strong enough to face," the proud gleam in his eyes spoke volumes. "And, if you feel like you can't handle it alone, you can face it with me by your side. I'll always be here to brace the storm with you."
Nothing could prepare you for what he said next.
"That is a promise, cadet."
Levi never made promises- not like this. The only thing he's ever promised was to dropkick Eren if he ever went so long without showering again.
"Now breathe," his voice reverted back to that gentle, but commanding tone. He took a deep breath with you, in and out before staring you dead in the eyes. "Everything is going to be okay. It might not be perfect, but we will make it through this. Every battle has an end. Don't go giving up until you find your ending." You felt the grip on your shoulder tighten, his Adam's apple bobbing as he continued, "Please... Hold on for me."
That left you picking your jaw off the floor before Levi mentioned it, not able to do anything but nod. You, a cadet, had gotten him to say please.
"There is so much to live for in this life," he noticed your doubt before you even said a word. "Let's start living for the people who don't get to, who don't have a choice."
A comforting silence settled into the atmosphere. Levi smiled before standing, mentally double-checking if you were okay. "Oh, and one more thing?" You perked up when he spoke.
"I'll break your fucking legs if you talk about me being soft, cadet."
Ah. There was the Levi you knew.
"Wouldn't dream of it, captain," you said gently, proudly saluting him as he walked towards the back exit.
You would never know, but an extremely proud smile graced his features as he watched you hesitate before throwing the journal away.