Mini Rant Warning - Tumblr Posts

I want to be vulnerable and open and willing but I’m scared im so scared a lot of the time what I want feels so out of reach it’s laughable what do you mean the fear of loss is keeping me from love how is that fair all I want is what seems to come so naturally to other people love without fear is that even possible? I want to shed my skin and merge my soul with someone someday but am I even meant for that kind of devotion I’m not sure if I was even made to be loved or to love and yet I feel so much of it mini rant warning starryeyes i need to sleep

im tired of this shit why is this week worse than my period like as soon as I get my period??? everything’s fine but that week and a half before??? category five extinction event for my mental health and I’m so tired and drained and so angry all the damn time tired of this anyway we ball i am in tears the best part is when you go to the doctors and they’re just like oh well are you eating? sleeping? you’re a student so you’re probably stressed about exams so you should be fine there’s nothing really wrong …thanks doc yeah it’s so normal for me to imagine a world where I don’t exist it’s so normal for me to lie awake thinking about what would happen if I just peaced out of this mortal plane haha but yeah I guess I’m stressed about exams!! :P but ANYWAY I’m fine. I’m okay. don’t worry. just needed a rant because whew it’s been a day mini rant warning vent post ramblingeyes