Moody Speaks - Tumblr Posts
how do people make friends as adults?? like, i haven’t been able to make a single long lasting friend (either irl or online) since i was like 15. i feel like i’ve screwed myself by not being apart of a clique when i was teen. like most of all the people i went to school with stuck around with their cliques and i feel like i’m just here. existing. i just feel lonely
i didn’t come to tumblr from twitter or reddit. i’ve been a lurker here on tumblr since like 2014 but never really posted much. but the little bit that i’ve posted here on tumblr in the past little bit has received more engagement then anything i’ve ever tweeted or posted to reddit. that’s fuckin’ crazy
edit: i’m also getting followers a hell of a lot quicker on here than i ever did on twitter ?? this is insane. i feel like. a celebrity. i must not let this new found fame and fortune corrupt me
well it’s officially my birthday today and i’ll be spending it thinking about how badly i want an irl version of this cake and how i specifically want lucifer to give it to me
that’s it. that’s the post
so i’m going back to work today and i’m literally ill at the thought. i’ve been off for the past 10 days and i honestly haven’t felt so relaxed and at ease or been so well rested in probably the past couple of years. i’ve been able to post more and write more and read and enjoy these hobbies i haven’t been able to enjoy in forever. it makes me realize now just how much how little time i get outside of work and how much i dislike my job and how poorly it’s affecting my mental health. i’ve been looking here and there for a new job, but now i think i’m going to commit and really look for something better for me. i need a better wage and a different schedule and less stress. i want a place of my own so i can live how i want. i want to live long enough to have that.
gonna start calling smut fics cliterature
cant believe 100 of you are willing to put up with me ??? wild
can’t believe 50 of you are willing to put up with me. wild
i desperately miss color guard. i miss the feeling of being on the football fields and the crowds. i miss the feeling of nailing a new toss and finally committing to memory a new routine. i miss the bus rides and the traveling.
i practice with my equipment and learn routines just to perform them to a captive audience of cats and that’s as far as it goes. i mean, i still love practicing but i wish i could do more with what i’ve taught myself since leaving high school.
i wish so badly that there was an independent guard close enough to me that i could join.
genuinely curious about what post interactions mean the most to you all.
i genuinely love reblogs w/ tags. some of the tags you all add are so funny to me. tiny slivers of your alls insanity now forever attached to my headcanons, fics, and posts. i love how it adds extra flavor
anyway,
i wanna know what your alls top 5 favorite fictional men are so let me know. i’m trying to test something here
my all time favorite fictional men are as follows (in no particular order, except luci is ofc #1) ;
om! lucifer (obey me)
miguel o’hara (across the spiderverse)
jason todd (dc comics)
sebastian michaelis (black butler)
jumin han (mystic messenger)
it appears that big men with equally big ole titties and broad ass shoulders are my favorite
brooo i can’t believe 150 of you are willing to put up with me. wild
can’t believe 50 of you are willing to put up with me. wild
i wanna say a merry christmas, happy hanukkah, merry yule & happy solstice, and happy holidays to everyone today. especially my moots that have made being on tumblr so great: @cosmicstarlatte @alexhababa @akimbo628 @alexhababa @mylovescara @jeschalynn i love seeing you all in my feed. ❤︎ giving you all warm cookies and kisses on your foreheads rn 🫣 hopefully this coming year i can stop being so awkward and interact more instead of just spam liking posts occasionally LOL
i’m thinking so hard about doing an OG canon rewrite with Briar … lucifer of course would be end game, but my girl is still getting her reverse harem.
i wanna write the demons as demons, yk? in the games they feel like just over exaggerated, one dimensional people. they aren’t scary or even remotely demonic outside of S1 of OG. I want Briar fearing for her life. I want the boys’ shadows to play tricks. I want Asmo acting sweet and innocent, doting and petting on Briar, only for his charm to pull Briar into a sadistic trap. I want Belphegor’s lethargic aura to pull her into idleness, her trying desperately to resist knowing complacency will be her downfall. I want the paintings in the halls of the house to watch her, every one of Lucifer’s eyeing her with disdain, whispers that mock her every move reverberating off the walls.
I want them to be demons. i want them to be as evil as they are. but then i want them to learn humanity in a genuine way. i’m not saying it’s bad that they soften up later in the story, i actually like that they do. i just think it’s such a misstep to not capitalize on that fact that they are DEMONS. they can love their human and still be demonic.