How Do People Make Friends As Adults?? Like, I Havent Been Able To Make A Single Long Lasting Friend

how do people make friends as adults?? like, i haven’t been able to make a single long lasting friend (either irl or online) since i was like 15. i feel like i’ve screwed myself by not being apart of a clique when i was teen. like most of all the people i went to school with stuck around with their cliques and i feel like i’m just here. existing. i just feel lonely

𝐈 𝐀𝐌 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐖𝐄𝐀𝐊

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

you called me weak.

helpless.

hopeless.

you told me no one would believe

the likes of me against the likes of you.

yet here i am,

knocking down your door,

setting fire to your floorboards,

and shattering your glass castle.

and there's not a goddamn thing

you can do to stop me.

you wanna know why?

because the likes of you

stands no chance

against the likes of me.

i am a force to be reckoned with.

i will no longer hide it.

i will no longer be ashamed of it.

i will no longer apologize for it.

you called me weak,

yet here i am,

capable of your worldly destruction.

and i'm just getting started.

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

© moodyhaaze | 07•10•23 — do not repost, modify, plagiarize, or translate my writings. likes + reblogs appreciated.

nobody:

not a single person:

not one soul in any of the three realms:

me: forcing chat gpt to write me fanfic about Lucifer holding me to curb my touch starved ass :)

❛ when you run into your ex… ❜ pt2 — younger bros

synopsis. it’s been years since you’ve seen your ex. but on an excursion to your hometown in the human world with your boy, you run into them…

tags. headcanon | slightly NSFW | gn!mc

< part 1 - older bros | part 3 - dateables >

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

— 𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐀𝐍

I think would be pretty stoic about it because he knows you’re his. Doesn’t feel the need to even spare a glance at your ex… Until they do something stupid like approach you and place a hand on your arm. Then Satan is stood between the two of you telling them to fuck off. He gets pretty mad pretty quickly, saying things like “Touch them again and you’re dead!” while his horns begin to peak through his hair. It takes all of your strength and persuasive abilities to convince Satan to leave with you, but you’re finally able to get out of there with no bloodshed. Once you’re home Satan drags you to his room, pressing you against his bookshelves smothering you with kisses. “I won’t let them touch you again. Only I’m allowed to touch you. Tell me, tell me only I’m allowed to touch you…” Proceeds to plow you until you’re numb and can only think of him.

— 𝐀𝐒𝐌𝐎

just laughs. He keeps looking them up and down and can’t help but laugh. “This—” he says, pointing his finger at them, “This is your ex? Look at them, absolutely horrendous!” Asmo’s really playing it up, though, only because he’s actually incredibly pissed and doesn’t want to show it. He knows it’s a waste of time to get into an altercation because there’s better things to do with his time, but the longer he looks at them, the angrier he gets. “I can’t believe they had their filthy hands all over my precious darling. How disgusting,” He mumbles through gritted teeth. It’s rare to see Asmo worked up like this, but it’s oh so hot when he is. But to spare the bloodshed, you grab his hand and pull him the opposite direction. The look on his face is still pretty serious as you’re walking away, so you ask him if he’s okay. “Oh, of course I’m fine!” At least it seems he’s back to his normal bubbly self, “But I want us to stop by the shops and pick out a new lipstick for me. I want the prettiest shade we can find! Because tonight I’m going to be marking what’s mine.” His last few words spill with a certain venom that make a heat grow between your thighs. Asmo’s not letting you out of his sight today.

— 𝐁𝐄𝐄𝐋

couldn’t care less. Honestly. He is yours and you are is, he knows this and that’s enough for him. I think the only problem that could arise is if your ex tried to touch you. Then, all hell breaks loose. Other than that, he’s chill, though he really doesn’t want you talking to them nor does he want to. Beel won’t admit this, but what bothers him the most is the thought of somebody else having previously been intimate with you. But that just means he needs to make sure you never want to be with anyone else ever again. “Babe, I’m hungry,” Beel says, grabbing hold of your hand and pulling you the opposite direction the two of you were walking. You insist on continuing the way you were already headed, mentioning the countless restaurants and food stands on the way. “No, I said I’m hungry.” Get ready to have your legs shaking and mind go numb for the next few hours.

— 𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐏𝐇𝐈𝐄

is possessive and isn’t afraid to show it. He’s too tired for theatrics like some of his brothers, so he keeps his hatred a little more low key. Like Beel, Belphie knows that you two belong together, so he has no fear of a past lover coming to sweep you away. So instead of wasting time with a brawl, an argument, or a grand show, Belphie simply grabs your arm and tugs you away as he shoots a deathly glare at your ex. You explain to him that it was rude to abruptly rip you away from your conversation, but Belphie shoots back, “So what? Why waste your time with them? We’re going home.” You try to argue but Belphie simply ignores you and continues to drag you back to the House. Once inside, your brought to the attic and guided towards the bed where Belphie barely gives you enough time to kick your shoes off before throwing himself over you for an impromptu nap. You shout at him to at least let you get comfortable, but he instead nuzzles into you, his arms snaked around your shoulders possessively. “You’re mine. You don’t get to waste our time together on your ex. We’re staying here in bed until I feel like you understand.” You figured that was the end of it, until you felt something hard against your thigh.

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© moodyhaaze | 07•10•23 — do not repost, modify, plagiarize, or translate my writings. likes + reblogs appreciated.

cross posted to ao3.

my obey me mc ! — briar

normal look and demon look (for nb only)

picrew is by baydews and can be found here.

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

!! 𝐁𝐀𝐒𝐈𝐂 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎

briar is a self insert mc with a few things made different! she is an afab woman and goes by she/her. in her mid-late twenties.

!! 𝐏𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐀𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐒

briar often utilizes the magic taught to her by solomon and the brothers but she finds that they often hinder her and limit the spells she’s ‘allowed’ to use. she’s taken it upon herself to learn the magic she wants to learn, not just what she’s ‘allowed’. and from her studies she’s unlocked magic that’s given her psionic abilities that are hard for her to control and can sometimes become all consuming. her new abilities are just a hitch in the road for her, though, because she’s determined to hone them enough to take on the likes of michael himself.

!! 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘

briar is a highly independent person, though she often annoys the brothers with how stubbornly independent she can be. she’s sarcastic, sharp-tongued, and unapologetic. she doesn’t like being told what she can and can’t do (see: powers and abilities section) and this can sometimes end with her in trouble — this can range from a lecture from lucifer to almost killing herself with her new psionic powers. briar has an interest in knitting (she loves to make clothes and matching plushies for the brothers), reading, cats (briar and satan bonding time, yay!), and she loves to play piano and sing.

!! 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐆𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃

briar doesn’t come from wealth or prosperity or anything good, really. she hails from a small town in the human world that she’s tried to get away from her for a long time after a ‘certain event.’ the exchange program was her one opportunity to make an escape and she didn’t hesitate to sign up. though, briar is only an exchange student for the simple fact that what she’s running from can’t follow her to the devildom.

!! 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄

briar has brown curly hair and a white money piece. her eyes are two different colors (left: green, right: blue). she was not born with her heterochromatic eyes having acquired them after a head injury, also resulting in multiple scars. (not pictured: scar on left cheek bone, left eyebrow, right side of mouth, right side of nose bridge, and right side of face on jaw). briar also has a smattering of freckles across her nose bridge and cheekbones with some sprinkled up towards her forehead. a beauty mark is next to her lips. she also has a baby face that the brothers relentlessly tease her about. briar is 5’7 and weighs 130 pounds. she has a pear body shape with an athletic build. her upper body is small and narrow with a small bust. her lower body is wider with a wide hips, thick thighs and bum.

!! 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐑𝐎𝐁𝐄

briar normally wears dark neutral colored shirts and pants (mostly black), adding a pop of color with her coats or a scarf. it’s rare you see briar showing skin as she always wears long sleeve turtlenecks, pants, and high socks. the most skin you see of her is the neck up and her hands. she loves gold jewelry and you’ll be hard pressed to find her without her many gold rings. she also frequently wears gold chokers and chains and gold huggies on her ears.

!! 𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐓 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐒

briar’s pact marks appear like scars or a branding. lucifer’s pact is on the center of her chest; mammon is on her right shoulder and levi on the left; satan is just beneath the bend of her elbow on her right arm with asmo the same on her left; beel is on the palm of her right hand with belphie on the left. the pact marks have scar-like lines between them keeping them all connected. when in use, the pacts marks will glow the respective brothers’ color, but when more than one pact is in use they will glow white.

!! 𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐒

lucifer and briar have a lot of commonalities in their hobbies and interests. they bond over their shared love of classical music and art. lucifer thinks highly of briar and admires her tenacity but often finds himself annoyed by her. she may irk him but he trusts her deeply and enjoys watching her reign in his brothers. this is invaluable to him.

mammon is briar’s first and he’ll make sure you and everybody else knows it. these two are close, one rarely being found without the other. briar is mammon’s favorite person.

leviathan and briar get along well. they’re true friends after all ! briar is often staying over in levi’s room for all night gaming binges.

satan and briar get along in the same respect that her and lucifer do. briar and satan both share a love of reading and cats and can often be found together at a cat cafe or a library giggling between themselves. satan feels understood with briar and rarely feels his wrath pique. these two share a certain connection not found with his other brothers.

asmodeus and briar are bffs and have a nightly ritual of sheet masks before bed that they never miss. before asmo, briar had never felt so beautiful. they both go out of their way to tell each other how beautiful they are. they’re often found out and about together. since meeting briar, she’s almost appeared as many times on asmo’s devilgram as he has.

beelzebub loves snacking with briar and she loves the extensive snack hauls he’s constantly bringing to her room. these two are close, often confiding in each other things they don’t share with anyone else. beel and briar trust and love each other deeply.

belphegor is a complicated situation for briar. after a certain incident, an insistent crease in their relationship has formed. belphie tries hard and often to mend things but is always shut down and things remain awkward. briar understands belphie’s reasoning, but she can’t forgive him even though the brothers (lucifer) often pressure her to.

!! 𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄

my mc is meant to be like me but better! if that makes sense. i made her as a way to see the qualities i want to have come to life and also as a way to see the things i hate about myself as endearing and lovable qualities. i came up with briar as a type of coping mechanism, without going too much into detail. she is missing a few things in her appearance to make her fully ‘briar’ as i see her (see the appearance section), but when i find somebody to commission i’ll update the pictures so it’ll be more accurate.

!! 𝐄𝐗𝐓𝐑𝐀

i’m very happy to report that i was gifted some very beautiful art of briar with lucifer by anyssa! i can’t put into words just how happy i was to receive this and she did such an amazing job of drawing briar. i am forever grateful. (ಥ﹏ಥ)

here’s briar as a miss em! picrew is by fluffhead. click here to make your own!

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‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

i’ll update this with more info in the near future. - ✰ moody

!! 𝐎𝐌! 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 !! my full list of OM! writings.

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

!! 𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐒

✰ ❛ trial by fire ❜ — canon rewrite (WIP)

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

!! 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒

✰ ❛ when you run into your ex… ❜ pt 1 — older bros

✰ ❛ when you run into your ex… ❜ pt2 — younger bros

✰ ❛ when you run into your ex… ❜ pt3 — dateables

✰ ❛ pet names ❜ — demon brothers

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

!! 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒

✰ ❛ healing lucifer ❜ — NSFW | lucifer x f!reader (WIP)

✰ ❛ je te veux ❜ — lucifer x briar [my oc] (WIP)

✰ ❛ watch ❜ — NSFW | asmo x f!reader (WIP)

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!! 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐁𝐁𝐋𝐄𝐒

✰ virgin!lucifer — NSFW

‧˚₊꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷꒷꒦︶︶︶︶︶꒷꒦︶︶︶︶꒦꒷‧₊˚

!! 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓...

✰ lucifer with a size kink

✰ lucifer and him crumbling when held

✰ walking in on diavolo jerking off

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started ; july 10th 2023 | none of my works are beta read !