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i was randomly checking my masterlist and started reading this, idk what possessed me and i wrote this 😭😭😭 like i dont feel it's me who wrote this 😭😭😭

he cheated //

Taeyong one shot

Lee Taeyong x female reader || sad, angst, anger, revenge, friendship

warnings: Swear words are used here due to anger issues, mention of scratching fingertips, bleeding, blood

|| word count: 3.2K

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[8:30 am]

After pulling off all night I wanted to meet Taeyong, hoping that Taeyong will be home, I tried calling him since yesterday but he didn’t even pick up. He’s partially avoiding me four to five months. He rarely asks for a meet up. Who will say we are together and it already three years? I thought to meet him directly and ask him what’s going on. I didn’t want to doubt him but when my bestfriend Daniel said he saw Taeyong with a girl in the bar frequently, they drink and get wasted. I was ignoring it by thinking it must be any colleague I will definitely believe my bestfriend over Taeyong. We are bestfriend for 12 years already. If Taeyong had a problem, he should come over and say.

I unlocked his door, and I entered. I saw his shoes and-

 Another pair of heels.

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Oh god wrote Jun angst for the first time and idk how was it, but I hope it's worth reading. I wrote on shot almost after one or two month 😭😭😭😭😭

hi, nihyun - i'm your cwc secret santa!! just sending a message now to say hi hehe though i'm mainly a fluff writer, my roots are in angst as well! my first question to you is: who's the easiest/hardest for you to write for? - 🎁 anon (if that's not taken yet!)

Hellooo anon (my secret santa)

Hope you’re doing well and thankyou for this message!! I smiled when I got this message ^^ and

Since you asked, let me tell you, I think Seungcheol is the easiest member to write for me, because I feel I just get lost while writing, and at the same time I think he is the hardest member to write because I can get lost (in day dreaming to be specific xD) so sometimes I tend to get lost and take a lot of time, so in that case yes, Seungcheol is both for me OR else I will pick Vernon as the heardest to write, it’s probably because I tried writing about him (it’s solely in drafts) but didn’t give the vibe to me? but yesss here it issss your answers uwu.

Looking forward for more interaction omg! I am excited and I am way too much excited since you’re more of a fluff writer aaaahhhh!! I am excited uwu

Hope you had a nice day today!! 💌❣️

seungcheol is sooo dreamy - i'm not surprised at all LOL he has such a versatile personality. even though vernon is technically my bias, i agree that he's super hard to write for. he has such a...multi-faceted personality that's hard to portray. hmm, my next question for you is: what's your favorite season? :o - 🎁 anon

Ikrrr, way toooo dreamy. And yes I agree with you, feels like Vernon would fit everything automatically, but then you just sometimes need to feel that way while writing.

And my favorite season is autumn 🍂

I love this season way too much, standing under the tree and leaves falling down, can't be more beautiful. Everything looks sooo prettyyy, what's yours? And hope you had a nice day todayyy, and almost forget to ask you, who's easiest to write for you? And hardest member? hehe i lowkey wanna know 😆

- Nihyun 🍒

my favorite season is probably late spring!! i looove flowers, even though i'm allergic to pollen. it's also just a feel good vibe with all the sunshine. easiest and hardest to write...i think easiest to write would be seungcheol, seokmin, wonwoo, or jihoon? again, i write a lot of fluff, and something about these four are just doting in a way that resonates with my style. the hardest are probably soonyoung, junhui, seungkwan. they're very affectionate as well, but there's something about them that i can't write in the same way as the others! - 🎁 anon

Omg spring, flowers 🥹🥹 i love flowers a lot, like if someone can lit up a smile when I'm in my worst mood, other than song, flowers put me in a better mood always. And Seungkwan yes, I haven't tried writing about him yet, you're right, it's something about them, i can't write as I write about others, i think its a very natural thing hehe. Also how was your day today, hope you had a nice dayy, and your messages cheer me up a lot, maybe because the feeling of making a new friend excites me hehe <3

- Nihyun 🍒

hi again, nihyun! my day's been okay — just starting my job search now. hard to believe it's time to start my career haha my next question for you is, how did you get into seventeen? and why is seungcheol your bias? - 🎁 anon

Omg 🥹🥹 that's great to hear! I am proud of you, and I hope you'll find a job you like, sending you supports from here!! And Seventeen, so it's a long story; so I found a carat friend in my dorm when I went to study for my undergrad. We were friends (we still are hehe) and I used to give her all the updates about svt because I was very active on twt, and slowly I knew I started being more than just a casual listener to svt. Then I saw homerun live and called her up talking how amazing they were and asked about scoups, well..... I asked how's that guy in turtle neck (if you remember that one yello outfit; HE LOOKED FINE AF), that's how it started I guess then finally on 25th December 2020 I started stanning them. Before that I remembered checking out seungcheol, when I got into kpop, because he was a character when I was reading a fanfic and then I happened to know Woozi and Vernon, after I watched don't wanna cry. I think that's how I got into seventeen.

And Seungcheol... how do I say, he's lovely. He is someone with whom I relate a lot, like hell lot. Everything about him fascinates me, he makes me feel better and makes me realize that's I'm not the only one suffering. After making him my bias, I realized how similar we are, our habits, our love language, how sulky we get when someone calls out our full name, our zodiac, almost everything is similar. He's my comfort. After watching Hit the road (his episode) I realized the things I feel because of anxiety (I had the same thought as him, I used to feel bad) wasn't only me, I could just feel him, from where he was coming from, that episode made me cry a lot, but weirdly gave me courage and gave me comfort, I can never thank him enough for that. He deserves the whole world. He puts me into peace always. I hope these things can sum up why he is my bias I guess 😭😭

I THINK I SOUND LIKE I AM DOWN BAD FOR HIM 😭😭😭 oh god, this became a very long storyyyyyy 😭😭😭

How's your story of seventeen and vernon?

- nihyun 🍒

that's a really sweet story :) we always find svt when we need them most, so im glad svt and seungcheol became a comfort to you. ive been with svt since pre-debut and something abt vernon's energy and name caught my eye. im extremely ot13, so i feel a lot of affection for all of them. in fact, seokmin is probably comforting to me, but something abt vernon... — 🎁 anon

They feel like home. And oh my god, pre debut 🥺🥺 and yes ot13, all of them comfort in their own way, and '95 liners for me, Jeonghan and shua... it's something about them you know and i have the softest spot for mingyu and dokyeom like there's something, I feel like babying them, literal sunshine 🥺🥺 also how was your weekend, also wanted to tell you, I kind of.... missed you? I can't wait till the Christmas event so that after this, we can interact more!! Hope you had a nice weekend 💕

- Nihyun 🍒

hi nihyun! i don't know if you got my ask talking about my weekend? i think i asked about your favorite AUs and why you like them haha

in case that one didn't go through, i'm sending a follow up! since i just had a big breakfast/lunch, what do you think the perfect morning is like? - 🎁 anon

Heyyyyy,

Yes I got them!! And apologies because I was a bit busy with my uni work ;_; I forgot to check tumblr and since my notifs are on, I couldn't check early ;_; and hope you're doing well!!

And perfect morning, well I am not an early bird, but I think having a nice breakfast and coffee and of course enough sleep is a perfect morning, what about you?

Also, how's the weather there? Is it cold? Here, it's a bit cold not chilling cold, it's around 16°C here, in case it's cold, stay warm <3

Have a nice dayyyy and take careee

-Nihyun 🍒

my favorite aus to read used to be huge fantasy things, but honestly, i'm super content now to just see something soft and menial. like co-workers in an office or a university or a school. there's something comforting in reading a romance that mimics my (soon to be) working life, i guess haha personally, i always wake up at a certain time (...for video game dailies), but i'm the type to laze in bed forever on my phone if i can. i like eating a lot, though, so if i have food plans, i'll definitely hop out of bed! and yeah it's been cold here haha it hit -1C the other night and my car couldn't warm up fast enough. hmm, my question for you today is: what's your favorite part of writing? why are you a writer? - 🎁 anon

DON'T TELL ME YOU PLAY GENSHIN IMPACT BECAUSE SAME??????

soooo, I like reading about university or school. something about royal aus make me go awe, and sometimes the forbidden ones as well. I love them all, really, and yes reading romance and just setting high standards are just like a daily thing for me now haha.

and SAME, I'm the type to laze in bed forever with my laptop and books. and food >>>>>>>>>

and -1??? KEEP YOURSELF WARM OH MY GOD AND TAKE CARE!!!

So, that's a tough question anon, because I think at times, the fighting-intense scene is easy or angsty scenes or mafia-related scenes are easy to write but then everything depends on my mood. and about being a writer, I don't know yet hehe, maybe because writing helps me and makes me feel better. Sometimes when I can't find a particular thing (which I want to read) I just start writing, more like I enjoy writing. There's no right answer yet but I think is what I got.

-Nihyun 🍒

i can finally say this, now. I am really glad you liked it, sending you loveeeeee and hugs

Tum se hi

“Jeonghan one shot”

Pairing: Yoon Jeonghan x female reader

Genre: fluff [desi setting]

Warnings: no warnings

Word count: 1.1 K

Author’s Note: I am back with another husband Jeonghan imagine, this was actually quite impulsive, and I wrote this at 1 am. I have no idea if this whole imagine made sense or not, but i hope you enjoy reading this small fluff. And i was writing while reading this song, somewhere I felt like this described how much Jeonghan loved her. AND IT’S NOT PROOFREAD

happy reading :)

I walked out of the bathroom and saw, Noor getting ready, more like wearing the red saree. Somewhere I was lost, inside her when she was fixing her saree, and her hair was done with a pretty bun, with her curtains bangs out and making her look so beautiful, as if I was smitten by her beauty. She was literally glowing.

The way her fingers were trying to fix her saree slowly; it reminded me of the day I first saw her in a saree, and she wore a red saree at that time as well. It wasn’t at our wedding, but it was at peheli rasoi. Considering we saw each other in marriage, and the look on her face, made me realize that there was some missing part in my life that I was searching for and I found it right infront of me. The way she looked at me through the flower curtain before signing and saying ‘qubool hai’ three times, was the first time I heard her voice and my heart told me how I would be hearing it for the rest of my life, how I would be waking up to this voice and ending my day with it.

I was still when she moved her hands to fix her pallu, I was still lost in her. She was trying to pin her pallu, but it wasn’t working. I walked towards her, when she looked so focused in her saree.

I held the pallu and she looked at me through the mirror, she looked taken aback, her eyes told me she didn’t expect me to be here. She was about to say something, “let me” and she nodded.

Once her pallu was pinned and she looked at the mirror, my heart almost skipped beat when our fingers touched, she was looking so breathtaking. How does she pull off to look this pretty every time. “and ho gaya yeh” (and it’s done)

“thank you”

“aapke liye kuch bhi” (anything for you) and the smile when she is flustered on her face was something that meant a lot to me. I saw her move her hands to pick up the chain, but I was fast to pick it up. How could I let her do everything when she looked so fine and pretty but mine?

I held her shoulder, and she looked so flustered when I put the chain around her neck, I could say she couldn’t say a single thing because she was very flustered. This was probably the first time I was helping her to get ready, it’s always her who gets ready even before I can admire her in the morning and sometimes I am so thankful for some events or festivals when I see her getting ready in the morning wearing saree or kurti-patiyala or sharara. I love the way she takes my breath away.

“aaj kya ho gaya, you’re helping me today?” (what happened to you today, you're helping me?) she smiled at me, I won’t lie when I say she looks the prettiest when she smiles.

“chain pehena raha hun aapko” I took a pause and told her what my heart wanted to say “Aur itni sundar jo lag rahi hain, thore hi aapko sab karne de sakta hun. Mujhe bhi thori aapki khubsurati ko niharne ka mauka den” she was flustered again. I picked her earrings which were on the dressing table, I helped her with them. Earrings just added lives to my life. If only words could help me describe how much she looked like mine.

I saw the kamarband and picked it up, she was surprised, “Yeh aap kya- I cut her off pulling her waist and then putting the kamarband around her waist. I was too focused on her.

Once I was done, it reminded me how she loved wearing payal and I would definitely want her to wear payal today, afterall she looked so beautiful and I could take my eyes off her “Stay here and give me a second” she nodded. I went to open the wardrobe where I kept the new payal I bought for her. I was waiting for the right time and I won’t get a better time than this.

I went to her and showed her the payal, she almost gasped, “Aapke liye laya tha” (bought this for you)

“Thank you” and her smile was worthless, even millions of diamonds wouldn’t be able to buy her smile, probably because her smile was worth my life.

I bent down and gestured her to keep her foot on my thigh, so that I could put the payal on her. Jab bhi woh payal pehen k chalti thi, mujhe lagta tha meri zindagi chal rahi hai aur mai apni zindagi k samne jhukne k liye bhi taiyaar hun

Once she gave me her feet and I put the payal around her, I got up and looked at her. Admiration was the first thing I could do and it felt surreal that she was mine. Then came love, and she was the perfect definition of love. It felt like my life got meaning ever since she came into my life, her presence was the reason why I was standing here and falling in love with her every second.

I was looking at her eyes and it felt like I was lost in her eyes, her eyes were telling me something with love, we don’t need words to confess or tell that we are falling in love, actions speak louder than words. “aapko payal pasand toh ai na?” she nodded and smiled, “thank you so much” I took a step closer to her and tugged her hair strands and couldn’t resist myself from saying “kitni sundar lag rahi hain aap” She looked at me and gave me a smile.

Oh my gosh. One look at her right now and I realized how much I love her, can she even tell how much I already love her?

God forbid me from falling this hard for her.

I gave her my smile subconsciously while I had her thoughts about how I fell in love with her the moment I saw her behind the flower curtains during our nikah. And how everything she does makes me fall in love with her over again

And in a blink I felt her lips on mine briefly. She ran away even before I could react, my fingers went to touch my lips where she kissed me; I was just standing there processing that she just kissed me like that and ran away even before I could kiss her back.

I ran out of the room, in the hope I would catch her before she could go downstairs, I noticed she was near the staircase and pulled her by her arm, “Where are you running away?” I leaned towards her and kissed her before she could say a single word. I pulled her closer by her waist, she couldn’t just steal my first kiss like that.

Once I let her go, I looked at her, she was way too flustered to speak a single word, so I decided to speak up “I know itni sundar hoke jaa rahi hain, par meri hi hoke wapas aana, meri jaan” and I kissed her once again.

Nothing could describe how much I love her.

OKAY, SO, THERE ARE FEW THINGS I WANNA SAY FIRST.

FIRST. FFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUU CHOI SEUNGCHEOL

SECOND. YOU JUST DID NOTTTTTTT AND BLACK KURTA???? ARE YOU SICK

THIRD. see. there are few imagines i wrote (few are in my draft and one is posted) for cheol and they are desi, so YOU DID NOT HELP ME AT ALL. IM THROWING UP

forth, I am wrtiting a desi arranged marriage cheol ff and THIS DID NOT HELP ME I WILL GO JUMP OFF RIGHT NOW.

FIFTH, I AM NOT OKAY

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I-

Am speechless 😭😭😭😭

And this was purely after 12 am thoughts 😭😭😭 can't believe it, you like this one shot sm 😭😭😭 makes me so happy

Tum se hi

“Jeonghan one shot”

Pairing: Yoon Jeonghan x female reader

Genre: fluff [desi setting]

Warnings: no warnings

Word count: 1.1 K

Author’s Note: I am back with another husband Jeonghan imagine, this was actually quite impulsive, and I wrote this at 1 am. I have no idea if this whole imagine made sense or not, but i hope you enjoy reading this small fluff. And i was writing while reading this song, somewhere I felt like this described how much Jeonghan loved her. AND IT’S NOT PROOFREAD

happy reading :)

I walked out of the bathroom and saw, Noor getting ready, more like wearing the red saree. Somewhere I was lost, inside her when she was fixing her saree, and her hair was done with a pretty bun, with her curtains bangs out and making her look so beautiful, as if I was smitten by her beauty. She was literally glowing.

The way her fingers were trying to fix her saree slowly; it reminded me of the day I first saw her in a saree, and she wore a red saree at that time as well. It wasn’t at our wedding, but it was at peheli rasoi. Considering we saw each other in marriage, and the look on her face, made me realize that there was some missing part in my life that I was searching for and I found it right infront of me. The way she looked at me through the flower curtain before signing and saying ‘qubool hai’ three times, was the first time I heard her voice and my heart told me how I would be hearing it for the rest of my life, how I would be waking up to this voice and ending my day with it.

I was still when she moved her hands to fix her pallu, I was still lost in her. She was trying to pin her pallu, but it wasn’t working. I walked towards her, when she looked so focused in her saree.

I held the pallu and she looked at me through the mirror, she looked taken aback, her eyes told me she didn’t expect me to be here. She was about to say something, “let me” and she nodded.

Once her pallu was pinned and she looked at the mirror, my heart almost skipped beat when our fingers touched, she was looking so breathtaking. How does she pull off to look this pretty every time. “and ho gaya yeh” (and it’s done)

“thank you”

“aapke liye kuch bhi” (anything for you) and the smile when she is flustered on her face was something that meant a lot to me. I saw her move her hands to pick up the chain, but I was fast to pick it up. How could I let her do everything when she looked so fine and pretty but mine?

I held her shoulder, and she looked so flustered when I put the chain around her neck, I could say she couldn’t say a single thing because she was very flustered. This was probably the first time I was helping her to get ready, it’s always her who gets ready even before I can admire her in the morning and sometimes I am so thankful for some events or festivals when I see her getting ready in the morning wearing saree or kurti-patiyala or sharara. I love the way she takes my breath away.

“aaj kya ho gaya, you’re helping me today?” (what happened to you today, you're helping me?) she smiled at me, I won’t lie when I say she looks the prettiest when she smiles.

“chain pehena raha hun aapko” I took a pause and told her what my heart wanted to say “Aur itni sundar jo lag rahi hain, thore hi aapko sab karne de sakta hun. Mujhe bhi thori aapki khubsurati ko niharne ka mauka den” she was flustered again. I picked her earrings which were on the dressing table, I helped her with them. Earrings just added lives to my life. If only words could help me describe how much she looked like mine.

I saw the kamarband and picked it up, she was surprised, “Yeh aap kya- I cut her off pulling her waist and then putting the kamarband around her waist. I was too focused on her.

Once I was done, it reminded me how she loved wearing payal and I would definitely want her to wear payal today, afterall she looked so beautiful and I could take my eyes off her “Stay here and give me a second” she nodded. I went to open the wardrobe where I kept the new payal I bought for her. I was waiting for the right time and I won’t get a better time than this.

I went to her and showed her the payal, she almost gasped, “Aapke liye laya tha” (bought this for you)

“Thank you” and her smile was worthless, even millions of diamonds wouldn’t be able to buy her smile, probably because her smile was worth my life.

I bent down and gestured her to keep her foot on my thigh, so that I could put the payal on her. Jab bhi woh payal pehen k chalti thi, mujhe lagta tha meri zindagi chal rahi hai aur mai apni zindagi k samne jhukne k liye bhi taiyaar hun

Once she gave me her feet and I put the payal around her, I got up and looked at her. Admiration was the first thing I could do and it felt surreal that she was mine. Then came love, and she was the perfect definition of love. It felt like my life got meaning ever since she came into my life, her presence was the reason why I was standing here and falling in love with her every second.

I was looking at her eyes and it felt like I was lost in her eyes, her eyes were telling me something with love, we don’t need words to confess or tell that we are falling in love, actions speak louder than words. “aapko payal pasand toh ai na?” she nodded and smiled, “thank you so much” I took a step closer to her and tugged her hair strands and couldn’t resist myself from saying “kitni sundar lag rahi hain aap” She looked at me and gave me a smile.

Oh my gosh. One look at her right now and I realized how much I love her, can she even tell how much I already love her?

God forbid me from falling this hard for her.

I gave her my smile subconsciously while I had her thoughts about how I fell in love with her the moment I saw her behind the flower curtains during our nikah. And how everything she does makes me fall in love with her over again

And in a blink I felt her lips on mine briefly. She ran away even before I could react, my fingers went to touch my lips where she kissed me; I was just standing there processing that she just kissed me like that and ran away even before I could kiss her back.

I ran out of the room, in the hope I would catch her before she could go downstairs, I noticed she was near the staircase and pulled her by her arm, “Where are you running away?” I leaned towards her and kissed her before she could say a single word. I pulled her closer by her waist, she couldn’t just steal my first kiss like that.

Once I let her go, I looked at her, she was way too flustered to speak a single word, so I decided to speak up “I know itni sundar hoke jaa rahi hain, par meri hi hoke wapas aana, meri jaan” and I kissed her once again.

Nothing could describe how much I love her.

Aaahhhh i am glad you liked my desi fics, (ALTHOUGH WHICH TUM HI HO CHEOL FF, THAT WEDDING ONE?)

And wish I could qct blind forever, BUT THIS EDIT IS LIKE SUDJDUEUEJ

You need to come out and meet me, I NEED TO ASK YOU ABOUT THIS EDIT BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN CRYING SHAKING THROWING UP

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Insanity OH MY GOD

Read @nihyunluvskookie 's tum se hi and i couldn't hold myself 😩😭

This is the one I perfectly did 😭 (I already redid the cheol one)

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Can't believe I found desi carats here 😭😭😭😭💗💗💗💗

Changed my layout after such a long time and I feel like a changed person shsnshqnsj

planning to write 'svt as angst tropes' but i am not sure when; lets seeee if i can jfsdf aaaah

https://www.tumblr.com/nihyunluvskookie/732492991155060736/seventeen-as-angst-tropes-coming-soon?source=share

HERE IT ISSS

planning to write 'svt as angst tropes' but i am not sure when; lets seeee if i can jfsdf aaaah

OMG YAYAYAYAY I AM SOOO HAPPPY

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