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I cannot stop

It feels I’m becoming worse every year.

So. I did lick my screen. 🙈

Am I a loser?

As I spend my time idle tugging to variations of humiliation, intox, addiction and corruption kink. The thought came to me: am I really a loser? Like, not only in my kink mind, but in my overall life? I’ve made some achievements, I studied a lot, have an okay job, a family, travelled a lot, and I know I am (or at least have been) highly intelligent. But even though I’m a (currently) sober alcoholic, I revert back time and time again to dreams of giving up everything I have for real on the altar of porn and alcohol, and I waste SO much time, mindlessly scrolling and obsessing over porn and alcohol, and I’m no where closer to my goals and ambitions now than 20 years ago. It’s also that. There was a time I perhaps was young and promising, now I’m past 40 and don’t see a lot of progress.

And somehow, contemplating this made my cock twitch.

Oh well.

Okay, so, em, about the whole "porn addiction is fake" thing.

Yes, people can enjoy pornography a lot without it being a problem. Just like they can enjoy alcohol a lot without it being a problem.

But pornography can absolutely fuck up your brain. It isn't just some fun, enjoyable thing when you're lying in your bed in the dark, for literal hours straight, as your attention goes down and down and down and down and DOWN until you can't even read the parts of the text that aren't sexually explicit anymore, so you go to stuff that are more and more extreme, to stuff that is genuinely degrading and horrible to the point where it bleeds into how you see your identity as a person, because now that's the only thing sharp and taboo enough to pierce through your sexual numbness and make you feel anything. Because yes, when your brain is like that, pornography really does make you... Sexually numb. Seriously, for the love of God, this isn't fun! Looking for more and more exaggerated behavior that isn't even human at this point when it just keeps LOWERING YOUR BRAIN'S STANDARDS for what it finds thrilling, while also sneaking into your brain more and more often until the constant soundtrack is pornstar moans intermingled with violence, and it makes you want to die not because you feel like a bad person, you're past having a sense of self worth, but just because real human emotions don't feel like anything anymore? Like, I've had phrases of thrill-seeking, but I'm not kidding when I'm saying that the points in my life where I was cutting myself to feel allowed a wider variety of human emotions than the empty carousel of violent sexual humiliation. I'm fucking serious. THIS ISN'T FUN. Please FOR THE LOVE OF GOD stop dismissing people who say they have a porn addiction.

So first of all, I just want to make it clear: that post is, objectively speaking, correct. Every sentence here is correct. Watching other people have sex will not inherently do any of those things to you, and it is not an act with an inherent moral value.

But. But but but but but.

Do NOT try and take that to say that consuming pornography can never cause damage to the consumer. And it can, also, given specific circumstances (especially with teenagers), do the specific things that OP was explaining are not intent risks of watching pornography. I can literally tell you from experience that every time I was spiraling and using porn as a cope, it WAS rotting my brain (as in, it became my go-to instinct whenever I was alone and wanted to feel less disassociated and dead inside, and then ended up feeling even more disassociated and dead inside every time it was over, and then repeat until I kicked myself out of that loop), and it WAS objectively addictive (as in, I kept going back to it even as it continued to make my mental state worse), and it DID ruin my view of sex (as in, it made me go and do sexual stuff with people I wasn't attracted to or actually interested in, just because I came to associate sex with the momentary distraction from how awful my life was feeling, so I came to put myself in situations that I found genuinely boring and disgusting and just... Assumed that the satisfaction from the status of "teen with a sexual history" and knowing you're breaking a rule was a normal thing to be the only thing you want from sex AND IT TOOK ME LITERAL YEARS TO REALIZE SEX COULD ACTUALLY BE FUN AND NICE), so, like... It is genuinely upsetting to see people trying to turn "the harms that can be caused by sexually explicit contents are overblown and essentialized" into "religious guilt is the only reason it could ever make you feel bad and you need to get over that". And again, I'm not saying that it's damaging in every single context, there definitely were times in my life in which I was consuming specific forms of sexually explicit content and it wasn't wrecking my brain, but I think that pornography can mainly be a risk to your mental health if, like... It makes you feel sexually disassociated and numb and still come back to it. That's mostly where I think it can hurt you. And the people trying to crash the nuance in this just annoy me so much.

Let's try again since radfems are stupid.

There is nothing about *looking* at sex that is any morally different to engaging in sex. Adding a camera does not affect morality either. It will not rot your brain or make you an addict or force you to change your views on sex or mess with your brain chemicals and bonds with people or any other bullshit that people come out with. Sex is ok to look at.

"Porn is healthy" *gets addicted to pornography at a young age* "porn never hurt anyone" *girls end up in sex trafficking* "it let's me express myself" *gets erectile dysfunction* "haha Its teaching me good sex" *has no girlfriend, ejaculates watery cum* "it makes me appreciate relationships more" *objectifies women*