Prettier Twin - Tumblr Posts

I've been having a really hard time just not eating or restricting and its never worth it and I'm so mad and upset that I can't just be good at it anymore and I just wanna lose weight again😭 WHY can't I be normal or just have ate less as a fat ass kid so I could be happy and skinny now I have 3 months until summer break and I HAVE to be skinny by then, I cannot be fat for even just 1 more summer I want no need a cute and next skinny bikini body and I have potential to be pretty I feel like I just need to get rid of all of this fat and I'll finally be pretty enough so have a boyfriend or be friends with pretty people without feeling like they hate me or just are friends with me to make them look better and not think that they just pity me or like all of their other friends better because im too fat we could do fun things if I just looked good and I'm a twin and I just NEED to finally be the skinnier sister I need when people are buying clothes and there's only 2 sizes I get the smaller one. I remember a couple times when my mom or dad got clothes from friends or people and were like here you can have the small or medium one to my sister and I got the large or medium or smth and it hurts its burned a hole in my soul and I'm just done being the ugly one. I want to be the favorite so bad and I just can't do that now, if i fix my personality and looks then I can just be loved.

March 13th 2024 02:02