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I've see people say "Hyper empathy is so difficult to cope" and "Selective empathy is very difficult to have" And similar things, but what about the two cases? I hope I'm not the only one who's both hyper and selective empathy

My selective empathy makes it hard to live because it's pretty difficult for me to empathize with real human people, I mostly empathize with fictional characters, objects and animals, sometimes with real human people when I get attached to them

But when I do empathize I feel so overwhelmed by that, it's painful and it makes me sorrow a lot...

It's kinda hard because people tend to tell me I don't feel empathy at all just because it's selective empathy, but when I do feel empathy in a way I can't even cope myself for how hard it hits me now I'm a horrible selfish person?... I don't get it

Tell I'm not the only selective hyper empathy person, I feel so alone and misunderstood by everyone at this point regarding my style and way of feeling and being empathic TT