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Sincerity
Time and time again over the years, I've contemplated shutting the rest of the world out. Bury my feelings so deeply, I wouldn't even be able to tell they're there. Put on a charade of personality to prevent people from noticing, keep them happy, compliant and uncritical. It'd be safer there. Never again would I have to feel pain.
The resolve never lasts. I can't stop feeling things, and while I may try to express them less, I'm also honest to a fault. When I'm riled up by something, the genius manipulator I dreamt of being shatters in an instant and I either go quiet or wretchedly express myself. I can't lie to people. I can't be something I'm not.
Despite being so expressive, it doesn't apply the same on social media. I didn't care that much what my classmates were up to, and I didn't get much joy out of publishing myself. To this day, the same old song and dance gives me nothing... So I thought this blog would go unused. Clearly, time is proving me wrong - Because recently, I tried shutting myself down again, and I finally realized that no matter how much I wanted to be more on guard from now on, nearly everything I say is still sincere. I'm just sharing less, and the feelings need to come out in some other place. Even now, I can't help but think about if it's unfair of me, to hold on to my bad experience, and it's breaking my resolve further. I'm so guilty that I can't even trust the love of my life to treat me kindly. But I don't want to be dismissed anymore, so I guess venting on Tumblr it is!
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Amendment: As I'm writing this, I've found out I'm not in trouble for missing a couple exercises in college, hit it off a bit with a work mate on a group project, and recieved their contact. I'm... In a lovely mood!! I suppose even if it isn't perfect, this must be one of the benefits of living in sincerity :)
“Excellence is never an accident. It is always the result of high intention, sincere effort, and intelligent execution; it represents the wise choice of many alternatives - choice, not chance, determines your destiny.”
—Aristotle
(from "Social Animals")
What's the most depressing is
To hear hopeful words
From their feigned concern;
If they don't see with their own eyes
They never believe or even
Imagine something in you
And if you hurry to dance
To their tune to shut their mouths
They eventually fail to contain
Their sincerity, just burst into a laugh.
So, people will hate me if i say Making Fiends is my 1th best Nickelodeon show, while the 1th worst Nickelodeon is the Loud (Loudlicon) House. Sorry not sorry.
From what i've noticed, Proshippers are obsessed with criticism or criticism of why such a relationship is problematic, they say they are harassed, even though they have the same habit of harassing those who criticize them.
So, if the Proshippers really care about protecting children, so, don't post some humanshit whining about people making criticism, or being a such hypocrites. Anything who involves themes such as nazism, rape, Incest, zoophilia, necrophilia and pedophilia aren't fiction, is realism put on cartoons. I really care about protecting real children, i just doesn't understand the hypocrisy in these arguments.
From what i've noticed, Proshippers are obsessed with criticism or criticism of why such a relationship is problematic, they say they are harassed, even though they have the same habit of harassing those who criticize them.
I'm tired of "Lesbian/Yuri being represented like GL/Sex pervert who fucks womans and is proud of it" shit, treat Lesbian characters like a normal straight character.