Social Isolation - Tumblr Posts
stay home, stay safe, and wash your hands
playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6y09U4yALnEE3hjvdrxNyb
me: *cuffing the elastic band at the bottom of the sweatpants i’ve beenwearing for 3 days straight* it’s called fashion karen look it up
lol yeah, my dad was crazy and limited our contact with the outside world in order to further his control over us. Too bad the moron didn't think about NPR on the radio or all the history books he gave me.
Every day I see people get on this website and am retroactively grateful that my parents limited screen time and didn't get us any video game consoles. Sure my 90s kid memories are mostly of the weird mini games in Encarta and of PBS rather than Mario and Nickelodeon and this was hell on me socially, but by God I don't have to rest on gifted kid who doesn't know anything laurels
Yes and people are completely isolated from each other. The idea of being in a confined space with someone you didn’t choose is terrifying. It’s true that people DO talk to you on public transportation but usually it’s to ask if you need help with the super high bike rack thingy or to ask you if we already passed a stop. Americans (in my experience) have such atrophied basic human interaction skills that these interactions seem frightening. The good news is if you take public transportation those skills form and you reap the rewards of reading a book on your way to work instead of muttering to yourself in traffic.
People who have never taken public transit before seem to be under the impression that everyone on a bus is ready to stab you meanwhile I have never had that problem and I get to read while I’m stuck in traffic and they don’t.
Also I don’t get stuck in traffic much anyways because the drivers keep going on the freeway even though it gets clogged up with traffic and it’s literally faster to drive on the surface streets where the busses go but whatever I don’t need to pay for a gym membership because I walk to the bus and meanwhile what are you spending your money on? Oil changes so you can keep getting stuck in traffic?
I don’t care that you think I’m ugly Mason, the lesbians that I fantasize about to cope with my loneliness and fear of rejection happen to think I’m adorable.
Relationships
I find it easy to look down on people, for being stupid yet somehow conceited, for being deviants, for being rude, for a lot of reasons really. I can't deal with people I look down on, they're not worth my time.
On the other side I can't deal with kind people, genuine good people. They don't deserve someone like me, they deserve a real person, another kind person, not this hollow facade of a person.
There is no middle, no sweet-spot where I feel like I belong.
Y'know, the thing I hate about socializing is that there is no in-between. It's either "you're not trying hard enough, take opportunities", or "you're trying too hard, dont come off so strong". Like how the fuck am I supposed to tell someone I really want to be their friend but don't know how because I haven't had a friend since I was 9 and the most socializing I get day to day is from my parents? Like okay I'll just start leaving the bodies of my kills during a night of hunt on their doorstep, that should get the point across subtly but not as forward as a text asking if they want to join my howling on a full moon.