System Doubt Cw - Tumblr Posts
Anyone else ever feel like you’re faking because of how many alters are in your system??? Blue and I feel like that a lot and then we look at each other and go:
“We’ve literally had full blown conversations with these people. We literally cannot control them.”
But like… we’re nearly 400 alters (that we’re aware of). We feel really… unnaturally big. Anyone else feel this way?? Because we know they’re all real and not imaginary. But like… it’s still weird. Y’know??
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Y’all, Y’know when you’re self-diagnosed, and then start questioning reality and your experiences so you just sit there wallowing in self-doubt about being a system, despite so much proof being there and the fact that your headmates are giving you a look of “bitch this is the third time this month (we love you tho)” and just… wanting an official diagnosis but scared because if you aren’t diagnosed then does all of that experience go away?? And if you are diagnosed, what then?? Will you be treated like you can’t take care of yourself? Will you have less rights than you do now?? But now you have a diagnosis. That’s literally the entire point right?? Like, just to be valid as a system and have some sort of outside opinion on the matter so you can justify this to yourself, right??
Anyway, yeah I’m fine. Doubting my experiences being part of a system is a thing I hate spiraling into sometimes.
Btw anyone got any advice to help with that in the future???
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