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Tried a self defense course tonight. Realized i am not ready to have people touch me.
Particularly not cishet white men. And particularly not around the throat.
It can difficult at times for me to regulate my emotions. They often come in these rushing, overwhelming surges that are impossible to guage.
So I have been in situations like today, where I'm waiting to see the dentist, and I am struggling to hold back tears because I'm feeling unworthy, incapable and unloved. There have been plenty of times where I have lost the battle and full out sobbed in public.
This is embarrassing, but it's not the worst thing that has ever happened. Occasionally my stress-and-agony-exhausted body decides to release tension in other ways.
Have you ever sort of lost it and had a full out uncontrollable evil-scientist laugh attack in public?
So, it’s the last day of 2022 huh? This year has been somewhat amazing and somewhat horrible. But also, this year went but so fucking fast like wtf. I still remember in the beginning of April, my sister and I were going somewhere and the wind was brutally attacking us. It was embarrassing but also funny. Also, I remember I went to an Arcade in February for my birthday so that was great.
I also remember in the end of September, my other friends decided to kick me out of their friend group but we don’t talk abt that 💀. I also remember in early December this year, my teacher died. r.i.p 🕊🕊🕊
But when I think abt it, for me, the pros outweigh the cons. I just pray that in 2023, everyone will be happier, healthier, and safer.
Happy new years eve?? If that’s even a thing ♥️
I was having lunch with workmates and some of us were drinking cola. I don't drink it that often, but I was like "eh, why not", so I took a few sips and my stomach started to gurgle somewhat loudly. I think or they heard that but didn't want to say anything or they really didn't hear it. Then I took another sip (like the smar**ss that I am) and my stomach gurgled again a bit quieter but still audibly. Oh my god :') and usually my stomach isn't that loud around people