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just saw a comment about colin and penelope's first kiss which said the first time that a kiss has awakened the prince instead of sleeping beauty and i'm openly weeping because yes.
Brenner’s death makes me emotional. But not for him.
When we see El for the first time she’s in a lab gown, barefoot, starving after she spent a night in the forest where she saw the outside world with her own eyes for the first time in 12 years.
we discover that growing up she was praised for doing morally wrong things, punished for doing morally right things.
when she was punished though, it was never Brenner. He always ordered other guards to hurt her. When it was time to praise her, there he was. He built this sick relationship where she sought approval of the only person that didn’t physically hurt her.
It’s twisted that Brenner actually believed that he was doing it for her. That he actually saw her as his daughter.
El wonders in the woods and there she finds Mike, that brings her home with him. At his house she is shown love in a way that she never thought it was possible. With kindness. With tenderness. She sees Nancy room, sees her baby pictures and El slowly realizes how much she missed. The childhood that was stolen away from her.
When Brenner and El reunite at the end of s1, he’s “worried” about her; but it’s too late, she already saw a world completely different from the lab, a way of treating her completely different from how she was treated there.
«I’m going to take you back home, where I can make you well again. Where we can make all of this better, so no one else gets hurt.»
«Bad. Bad. Mike. Mike.» she says when he picks her up.
Brenner is devastated, things will never go back to the way that they were. She knows that he’s the bad guy just like everyone else at the lab.
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Everything stays like this in El’s mind until she feels the weight of who she is. Yes, she hits Angela without her powers, but that reminds her that she did use them to kill people. That she could’ve used them for bad things. That she could be the monster. That papa could have been right in taking her away and keeping her locked up. She barely resist the police and doesn’t try to defend herself in the interrogation room because maybe she deserves to be locked up.
Then everything changes again. Papa is alive, she runs, he’s still bad in her mind so she hits him. She tries to run away one more time, but he’s the only one that knows how to help her discover if she’s really the monster, so she takes his extended hand, and they’re together once again.
He explains a lot to her, talking about her real self. But something isn’t right, and when she discovers what really happened to One, it’s too much to take.
He let her down once again, and this time there is no doubt in her mind. He’s not her papa, her dad, and all the bad things that happened in her life are because of him. Her mom, Benny, Barb, Bob, the gate, the mind flayer, 001. All the things that she felt guilt over, were never her fault.
She’s not the monster. He is.
When she tells him that, he cries. The tears are not manipulation. He really is sad. He really believes he’s doing the right thing. He doesn’t understand why she won’t understand.
The military comes to kill her so he picks her up in his arms and runs like he did many years before. He tries to protect her when the helicopter shoots them.
He’s dying on the ground when he tells her “I want you to know, I’m proud of you.”
Something that every kid wants to hear their parents say to them.
“You’re my family. My daughter.” He says. He bops her nose, like he always did. El cries and takes his hands.
With his dying breath he begs her to understand, just that. He doesn’t beg for forgiveness, just understanding.
Eleven turns her head away. In the direction of Will, Jonathan and Mike.
The little girl that was tortured throughout her childhood, never turned bad. The little girl that could have had every excuse to choose herself, always put the others first. Her moral compass never wavered. The little girl that jumped at every touch, at every sound, learned how to love and how to be loved. She saved Will and she saved the world. Because there was one thing that he never taught her.
“A friend is someone you do anything for.”
One good lesson that she valued infinite times more than the thousands bad things he taught her.
All of her pain originated from him, he doesn’t deserve her giving him peace in death.
She drops his hands.
«goodbye papa.»
You know what honestly I don't think we talk enough about Yuuji and Nobara's relationship, just how much they meant to each other
Nobara means so much to him, just seeing her resonance enough to give him strength. the parallel of yuuji in this fight for his life with Sukuna and Mahito and being so weighed down by everything that he has lost and everything he is still trying to save and then Kugasaki hits that resonance and Yuuji sees that he’s not alone and god something about it always being Nobara and her insanity breaking him from that sorrow and giving him that last push to fight like he's not alone. It's why it's her death that really unravels him that really makes him feel like he can't go on. It's only when Arata tells him that she's not dead yet that there's a minuscule chance she just might make it through (and a truly hype speech from the one and only Aoi Todo) that he's able to get up again and give it all he's got.
He loves her so much that even the thought that Angel might fill the space she left in their trio that she might somehow replace her is enough to deeply unsettle him and make him keep his distance. and god what.
And Nobara loves him right back, maybe it took a little longer but she got there. Nobara whose whole philosophy is keeping the best getting rid of the rest who looks at love like it's a scarce resource actually shed tears a boy that by her own admission she'd only known for 2 weeks. just god. It's yuuji she tells about her chair system, it's him (and the rest of those boys) that she let pull up his own chair in her heart by her own analogy she literally made extra space for him in what she viewed as a limited seating. God doesn't that just drive you insane?
He means so much to her that she entrusts her last words to him. She wants him to carry those words on to the people she loves. That she can look at him and smile and tell him to spread the word "it wasn't so bad" Life wasn't so bad and that he was a small part of that is just so ughhhhh.
God how do I go on
Melanie Lynskey/Sophie Nélisse as Shauna Shipman in S01 of YELLOWJACKETS
Jeon Yeo-bin as Hong Cha-young Vincenzo (2021) dir. by Kim Hee-won
Jeon Yeo-bin as Hong Cha-young Vincenzo (2021) dir. by Kim Hee-won
Jeon Yeo-bin as Hong Cha-young Vincenzo (2021) dir. by Kim Hee-won
IM HERE IF YOU NEED TO YELL INTO THE VOID 😭 stunning analysis!
okay so
to me songs 1-8 are a solid narrative of a shitty relationship, with knitting song and as good a reason both serving as different types of cap-offs to it. knitting song is about a warm love. as good a reason is about using your spite to poison men.
then we go on a little adventure through some songs with narratives of their own: triassic love song is about the two fossils of different species discovered entangled in a burrow together. escape pod is about being sent off earth as it ends, and survivor's guilt.
last woman on earth returns to previous themes of feminine rage and pain, but this time it feels to be directed at the public at large. it is also an entreaty to a specific person to dispose of her body in the way she wishes. bones on the beach follows on to this by exploring themes of longing for rest and peace, wondering if even in death a creature (a woman) can be left alone.
hunter is empathy with the hunting, starving beast. there's a lot of metaphor going on here. we'll get into that later
warmth feels like after this jaunt through stories (playing with how close we get to the previous themes and messages), the narrator is in a better place, trying to ground herself in the safety she's now found
and then yeti is the end. it's over. "we're nothing but myths now that neither of us believe in" this is the letting go, the release.
I actually think the songs are even more entangled than I wrote out in this but I need to relisten with more brainpower than I have right now at 2:30am to cohere my thoughts. so have these for now because I NEED TO TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT THIS
this is so cute. Rick couldn't even surprise Michonne with a proposal because she knows him like the back of her hand ❤️
