Toh Angst - Tumblr Posts

More toh headcanons: angst edition! (Tw for mental health stuff, violence, murder, death, the list goes on-)

Hunter had Stockholm syndrome towards Belos, and still sometimes feels bad for what ended up happening to him. He even sometimes misses it in a way, though he understands now everything is better

The first time Vee saw Hunter she completely panicked, worrying he had come to take her back. She immediately attacked him out of fear, and Camilla and Luz had to pull the two away. Hunter hadn't fought back, just letting himself get hurt

Hunter sometimes just goes into an intense state of panic for no apparent reason. Normally it is unexplained, but he's told Luz it normally happens when he sees, hears, or thinks of something similar to a poor interaction with Belos

In addition, sometimes Hunter reverts back to how he acted as the golden guard and has to be reminded he doesn't have to address the others formally, bow to them, ask for permission to speak, etc

Even after the events of the final episode, Luz struggles a lot with her self-esteem and image. She thinks a lot about how the world would be without her, and sometimes even considers leaving or something else to rid her loved ones of the burden of simply her existing. Amity reassures her a lot about this

Willow hides her pain by masking. She has simply learned hiding her emotions can prevent further taunting or bullying, but it ended up spreading to doing it in front of people she trusted as well.

Hunter couldn't bear to make himself another palisman for years after Flapjack. When carving the bird palisman Waffle, when it came to life for him, he cried his eyes out. At first he pushed the bird away, not wanting to replace Flap.

The Collector has extreme attachment issues. They are so incredibly scared of being alone they often come off as clingy and desperate. After learning what crying was they end up doing it often when alone, scared of being swallowed by the darkness

King normally comes off as excitable and happy, but ever since he figured out he was a titan he can't stop thinking about how he will outlive all his friends... and have to watch them leave...

Luz has 'broken up' with Amity quite a few times. Never because she wanted to. Because she thought Amity would be better off. Amity knew this and always managed to fix it up.

Not everyone survived the day of unity. Quite a few succumbed to the draining spell before the collector could stop it.

Hunter can not bear to look at the emperor's sigil on his arm. He covers it up as much as he possibly can, but everything he sees it everything floods back like a tidal wave

that's all for now cuz I'm eepy and need sleep :,) more headcanons coming soon!

Just a spot of Hunter angst to start off your day ^^

Late night Hunter Angst hehehe-

Hey everyone! Just wrote my first (technically second but the first is unfinished) fic on ao3! Go check it out!

[Lyrics to Problems by Mother Mother]

Spoilers for Watching and Dreaming!

After my fifth rewatch of this episode, I noticed a detail that maybe made me cry. Just a bit. As we all know at the start of the episode Luz, King, and Eda are all stuck in their worst nightmares due to the Collector. The one I want to focus on is Luz's dream.

Now I could rant a ton about this, the details the emotion, but I'll keep this to a minimum. Luz finds Amity first, and Amity starts to try and attack. Luz runs off and ends up with Willow, who is also aggressive and threatening. Then Gus, who passive aggressively attacks her. Then there is Hunter. Now this one is different. Hunter is simply broke down. But the main thing is when the rest of the group, Gus Willow and Amity, start to attack, Hunter does nothing. He simply stays crouched down on the floor, crying.

After thinking about it this means so much more than just he is simply sad. Luz's worst nightmares for each of her friends are exactly as the nightmare goes. She is afraid Amity, Gus, and Willow will feel betrayed and turn and fight against her. But with Hunter, she may be afraid of this, but she is more scared that he will break down, stop fighting. Luz is more scared that her brother will finally snap, than for him to attack her. Literally sobbing help 😭

Anyways this has been a Chaos Rambles, byeeeee!

Started as pure fluff, turned into half fluff half angst. Still love how it turned out tho ^^

Text for those who can't read mine:

Panel 1: It was just a joke, don't be mad!

Panel 2: Oh really!? A joke!? Well that "funny joke" has now got them crying every night and questioning their existence!

Panel 3: Their looks, their shape, and even their weight. Now they wonder why they are even alive.

Panel 4: I hope your proud of yourself. "What a funny joke"

Hunter angst?? The main idea is basically everyone got a happy ending, except the "right person, wrong time" character. And that character would be y/n?

It's not my time (TOH Hunter x M! Reader)

Apologies if this isn't what you wanted exactly but it was the best I could think of! Also sorry for the cliffhanger.

Characters: Hunter

CW: Angst, Internalized homophobia (from hunter)

Theme: Hunter Angst

Reader: Male reader

A/U: None

Premise: Hunter loves Y/n but he has no room for a relationship, or well he's not ready for one

THIS IS SFW BUT ANGSTY

...................................................................................

It was hard for him to realize why his heart felt the way it did. Why it would pound louder and beat faster than normal, Hunter couldn’t place a word for it. At first he thought he was dying when he saw him. The boy that changed Hunter’s whole world view, it was odd. Hunter soon fell in love with the feeling that he felt when he saw that h/c haired boy walk by his jurisdiction that Hunter was in charge of.

It was hard for Hunter not to watch that boy walk by. But with that love and admiration for this boy, whom Hunter didn’t even know the name of, came sadness. Hunter often rationalized a lot of his thoughts when it came to this boy. Often thinking of the pros and cons of even introducing himself to this mysterious boy that has seemed to capture his heart.

Hunter often spent a lot of sleepless nights over thinking a whole interaction between this boy and how it would go. However, any time Hunter tried to confront this boy either Hunter would become really harsh as if he were talking to someone breaking the law or he would chicken out and just apologize. Hunter did learn of this boy's name though, and it was thanks to Luz.

It was during the first time Hunter met Luz, during the Selkidomus hunt. Y/n did go with Luz during this, and Hunter had taken capture of the boy along with King as a way to get what Belos needed. Y/n didn’t talk much but Hunter did oddly enjoy the boy's company. This was when Hunter’s feelings for Y/n developed. It was weird for him to take such interest in someone that wasn’t Belos and much less a human.

A human that wasn’t from Hunter’s world. That was one of the downfalls of his crush. However Hunter didn't even place it to be a crush at the time. Only ever thinking of the feelings that Y/n caused was admiration or some sort of feeling that was the same. Hunter knew that Y/n wouldn’t stay forever, much less stay in the Boiling Isles with him.

Hunter spent his days in daydreams of Y/n and what might happen if he even just said hi. All he wanted was to befriend Y/n. So why couldn’t he? What was stopping him? He always wondered and berated himself for becoming so scared about even just interacting with Y/n.

He was the golden guard. He’s fought monsters that were bigger and stronger than him. But his weakness was this h/c h/l boy. It made no sense to Hunter. And he really couldn’t go to anyone for answers, other than Luz. He wasn’t on good terms with the girl however.

So in all Hunter was alone. He was alone and he couldn’t find a way to go about even befriending Y/n. Y/n however, always admired Hunter. That admiration settled when he talked to the blonde a bit during his short time of being captured. Hunter somehow opened up to Y/n, even when he was a stranger to the boy.

It was odd for the two. Y/n learned about Hunter’s dedication to Belos and seemingly managed to understand that Hunter really couldn’t discover himself as a person during his time as the Golden Guard. Y/n learned that Hunter was just a blind follower and made himself to be whatever the others wanted him too.

It hurt Y/n a bit, he could only guess how old Hunter was just by his height alone. Y/n had never initiated any conversation so as not to disturbed the working Hunter. This displeased the blond guard a great deal. What hurt Hunter the most though was seeing Y/n with someone else.

Someone who wasn’t him.

It was a normal sunny day in the Boiling Isles, chaos was everywhere and there were wild witches to catch. Hunter was tasked with this near the town center. Just his luck because this was where he saw Y/n most of the time.

Today was going to be the day he was going to say hi and introduce himself. No more running away. No more being a coward. Here and now Hunter was going to befriend Y/n. His body stiffened when he heard a familiar voice.

“Oh yeah! I love doing that!”

Hunter felt his face heating up. What was this? Hunter felt weird that even hearing the melodic tone of Y/n’s voice had caused such a reaction from him. This wasn’t normal. The very few times Belos told him stories of love it wasn’t like this.

This sort of guilt settled in his heart. Hunter had turned around to find the familiar boy he had been seeing in the area for a long time now, even after the small capture. It was as if fate was giving him something good after years of torment, but with that good feeling settled more guilt. But then he heard an unfamiliar voice that followed Y/n’s. 

“It had me rolling over on my side! That’s how funny it was!”

Hunter ignored whoever was speaking to Y/n. They weren’t important in his mind. He was wracking his brain to find an answer for his feelings, for why he was acting like this. This jealousy in him wasn’t uncommon but the reason for it was new.

He didn’t expect to have fallen so hard for a human that wasn’t even from this world. So much so that there was this possessiveness in him for Y/n. He wasn’t even sure why he felt this way.

What made Y/n so likable to Hunter?

That question in his mind was the least of his worries. He was in love with Y/n! It didn’t feel right to him. He was making himself sick. But this sickness didn’t stem from his thoughts on him liking another boy. No. It was from the one who cared for him most of his life.

Belos.

Belos put this self hate in Hunter, even when he tried his hardest Belos seemed to never be pleased. With those thoughts of not being good enough for Belos added to the thoughts of Y/n didn’t work well.

Under his mask Hunter was crying. Tears welled up in his red eyes, his vision blurring in the process. Y/n noticed a familiar figure that he had grown to be able to recognize from anywhere. Hunter froze as he saw Y/n walking up to him. 

‘Why now?’

Hunter’s mind was close to exploding. He didn't want to misplace this anger and hate to Y/n. So he did what he said he wasn't going to do. He ran. He ran from the one person who made him feel so many good things.

He blamed Y/n for how he made him fall in love with him. Part of Hunter wanted to hold Y/n's hand but those thoughts were suppressed. He couldn't go to any one, he didn't want to be labeled as something unpleasant.

Y/n was left alone. It would be a lie if he didn't admit that he was a bit hurt. The friend Y/n was walking with had approached him.

"Hey you okay dude?"

Y/n didn't respond. He only stared to where Hunter had ran away.

'What am I doing wrong?'

...................................................................................

Do not repost or translate without my explicit permission! Reblogs are welcome!