.webs Deranged Ramblings - Tumblr Posts
a lot of people talk about how horrible tumblr is for people with moral ocd, paranoia, or other illnesses that could make, "IF YOU DON'T REBLOG, YOU ARE A HORRIBLE PERSON AND HAVE NO HEART" or "heyyyy, just a lil' friendly reminder if you do x you're a horrible pos who should die :)))))" absolutely detrimental to your mental health. WHICH IS TRUE. but. tumblr is geniunely NOTHING compared to tiktok. the guilt shaming is 10x stronger, these types of posts are a 100x more common, and probably the worst aspect of it is that because how algorithm-centered tiktok is, if you give into the compulsion on every post you see, eventually your entire fyp just become videos like this. (and if you don't know already, like 80%-90 of your time will be spent on this fyp, unlike tumblr's dashboard where atleast in my experience, most of my time is searching through tags.) the app your *supposed* to be leisurely scrolling on becomes literally a compulsion/ritual fulfilling minefield, and it gets to the point you honestly fear opening the app because you know as soon as you do, you'll just be flooded with millions of posts where you know you can't ignore (without freaking tf out) but acting on the compulsion doesn't help, because the next post will start the cycle all over again.
I've honestly decided to soft-delete the the app, which for me is just not using it at all because despite everything, I enjoy using the app when it's not like this and I still have tons of memories saved on there. but just. god.
Me starting up a puzzle game: heehee hoohoo fuck yes I love puzzle
Me when I get stuck on a puzzle:
I love itsfunneh but sometimes i reconsider my 6 years being a fan when i just watched felicia and brittney dab and only dab for ten seconds straight and be proceedingly booed off stage, and then minecraft hatsune miku starts performing and then the crowd goes fucking wild.
forever is an insane concepts. like after i die? and a long long long time after that? after everyone and everything dies?? and for infinity after that? infinity??? im sorry im so small and thats so big. I cant believe that. i dont think thats true
loving this era of bliltzø giving head centric discourse under the helluva boss tag
hate the whole 'sayaka is a snake so bad person' / 'leon technically didn't have to kill her so bad person' discourse so much. tell me you cant read without telling me you cant read honestly. the thesis of chapter 1 is that otherwise good people become their worst selves due to the killing game. that's why dr team had the sweet, scared teen idol kick off the killing game and backstab the protag in the process. but still had her go back on her decision to frame makoto, taking the time to write out her true killer's name with her last bit of strength. that's why, to a much lesser extent, they had leon not be completely blameless in sayaka's death, even though the plot would stay mostly the same if it was truly self-defense. but still had him crying, screaming, and even taking the time to draw a extra cg of him distressed to show that he's really no cold-hearted killer and likely wouldn't have done it if he felt he had any other choice. leon and sayaka are good people and that goodness shines through in their last moments. but they both unambiguously tried to kill someone, and now both must die for it. even though they were actively encouraged by the setting to kill. it's all a big commentary on the tragic nature of the killing game to change its victims for the worse!! to make its victims act in opposite to who they really are!! to create natural human desperation and then punish it!!! blaming leon/sayaka instead of their material conditions is just silly and against the point. and the game even explained this outright.
(you can find the full context at the end of any chapter 1 walkthrough, but I'm really not misrepresenting anything. the game really is this obvious about it. )
((also this discourse completely undermines that danganronpa as a whole is a tragedy first and foremost about teenagers being forced to kill eachother. this is literally step one of understanding danganronpa. and chapter 1, again, is just a long way of setting up this theme. how do people argue about this??))