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The murmurs of the night <3
pairing : yyxy (loona) x reader
Word count : 2,2k
Genre : hurt/comfort, fluff
Warnings : implied overthinking
Hi hi hi !! I've been so busy lately sobs </3 but here is a (short) post that I hope can make it up to you all :)) Thank you for being so patient with me ! I have bigger works that I need to finalize ehe ! I hope I can get to write more often ! But that's besides the point ! I hope you enjoy the following story :D
The ceiling above you was getting boring
You have been looking at it for a long time now. It's been, minutes ? Hours ? You don't have a single clue of even what time it is now, the only thing you can clearly understand as of right now, is that no matter how much you wish to fall asleep, you just can't seem to find the strength to close your eyes and drift away to dreamland
Ironic isn't it ? It shouldn't take much to just lay down and let yourself rest, yet, you can't bring yourself to do it, it's like there's something restraining you, and it's getting tighter by each second that passes, so much that you can feel yourself running out of breath, even if you're barely moving in your empty bed. The stress of fighting against the part of you that isn't willing to let your mind rest is tiring you, so much that you can feel a tear caressing your poor cheek
It's cold, a cold breeze that causes you to not be able to stop that shivering manner of yours, a cold breath coming from the thoughts that have been worrying you lately. Why couldn't today be a normal night ? Why did you have to cry today ? That was only draining you more, and yet again, you just couldn't fall asleep
"what to do" is what you kept asking yourself on and on, not knowing how to handle things, how to handle your poor figure sitting down, your hands covering your face from the embarrassment that someone could ever find you in that state
When it comes to scientific manners, the cold is described as in an absence of warmth, and for once, you can say you agree with the boring lessons you have to go through everyday at school. There is something missing, something that would help you get warmer, a whole bunch of blankets wouldn't be enough to compare to the comfort that something gives you, you miss a certain someone
You miss them, you miss their presence, you would do anything just to have them talk to you, you know you shouldn't feel like this, you should be grateful to even have them in your life, but you do feel lonely, you feel like you may not be as important as you've always been to them, you feel as if you're failing, you are scared
Scared of waking up and knowing they're not there anymore, scared of breathing without sharing the same air as them, scared of eating at a restaurant alone, without them to accompany you, scared of loosing yourself through their absence, scared of falling asleep alone, you just cannot do it
It's rather difficult to explain your own feelings sometimes, we're all mysteries after all, even for ourselves, even if we'd like for everything to make sense, it sometimes just doesn't, and it's something we have to learn to accept, or else, we'll always be stuck in a spiral of infernal questions, lost in a crowd of thoughts that can stab right in the heart you at any given moment with no warnings
Life isn't made to always be fair
You miss them so much, but you feel so scared to even look at your phone, and realize that they're once again not texting you, that they're once again busy together, without you, without even thinking of you, you just want them to be there
The people who you keep thinking of are your lovely girlfriends
They are awesome people, truly, though they haven't been very present lately, you are conscious of their tight schedule, yet, you are terrified they don't want to put in efforts in your relationship anymore, you would do anything for them, but would they do everything for you ?
...
Your dear girlfriends
As much as them not being here breaks your heart, thinking about them automatically makes you smile
Sooyoung is such a kind girl, she always assures you are feeling safe and the thought of being away from her is genuinely terrifying, because her being there means you being alright, she has a way to make you calm, even if she makes you incredibly nervous. She always looks out for you and defends you no matter what may happen, she loves to bicker with Hyeju about who gets to protect you the most, and you can't help but grin whenever you witness their "fights". Sooyoung feels warm, warm because you know there's always a spot available in her arms, for you to slip in and for you two to stay that way for hours
Jiwoo is your happy place, a sunshine really, she colours the days that are too bland, she brings such a bright energy around her, that just the thought of seeing her makes you smile more than anything else. She clings onto you endlessly, and you would never complain about it, since it makes you feel so loved, making you feel like you matter. When she takes your face in her soft hands and kisses you, you feel at home, you feel like nothing else matters in the world. You feel at ease with Jiwoo, at ease when she brings you close to her and swears that she will never leave your side, her words staying in your mind for days after you and her talk
Chaewon is like an angel, she doesn't need to say much for you to feel at ease, her beautiful self makes you question regularly how lucky you got to be to meet someone as amazing as her. Chaewon is such a loving girlfriend, even when her mouth stays closed for a long while, her lovely glances are comparable to thousands of love letters, she brings you peace when you need it. Life might be a mess sometimes but when Chaewon is around, it feels like paradise is being brought to you, her way of holding your hands, by gently grabbing them and rubbing her thumbs inside of your palms to remind you that she's here, or when she kisses your forehead to help you forget about what's troubling you. Chaewon is peaceful, you find an indescribable source of comfort in her, so much that if things are going wrong, your first reflex is to think of her, and suddenly, things seem to be stable again
Hyeju is not always expressive about her soft feelings, but sure thing is, she is trying to be the best for you, reminding you that she loves you whenever she thinks about it, so that you never forget just how much she cares about you. Even when you get scared to lose her, she'll kiss you on the spot to make you accept the truth that she simply cannot leave your side, she cares about you much more than you could ever imagine. Her protective gaze over you as well as her way to always have you in her arms and the few words she says to express her love for you is enough to make you feel like you matter. With Hyeju, you feel like you belong, because you do, and you will for as long as you desire, because Hyeju promised to never leave you
...
Thinking about them made you feel a bit of hope again
Suddenly the empty feeling faded a little bit, of course, not at all erased, it's still there, smudging your heart, but at least you get to feel a little better
Missing them so much, you just give up on worrying that you might bother them and you roll over the bed to text them. They obviously won't answer tonight, but at least it'll make you something to wake up to. Wearing Hyeju's hoodie and Sooyoung's sweatpants, you feel a bit warmer remembering it's theirs, giving you just the courage you need to open your phone
Opening your messages, you click on the conversation you share with the four of them, curious of what the new messages they sent are about
Jiwoo
Where's Y/n D: !!
Y/n !!!! Come onlineeee <3333
Y/nnnnn
Y/N SOBS
Chaewon
They might be sleeping woo
Jiwoo
Yes yes, but like-
I miss them :<
Sooyoung
I miss them too
Hyeju
Then let's wait for them to wake up
It's not that long
We can do it
Right ?
Chaewon
I mean, I do really miss them
Hyeju
Me too wonnie, but they're probably asleep
And that's only a tiny glimpse of everything that was being said about you
So you were worrying over nothing ?
Crazy how many things the dark of the night can make you believe
It'll start by a few shivers, becoming more and more bothering, going down to the bottom of your spine, making you feel nude, from how cold you feel, from the absence of warmth around you. You then start getting dizzy, a headache that hurts more than what it sounds like, isolating you from the rest of the world. And there it comes, the night, between the four walls of your room, the darkness becomes able to mouth words, little innocent worries that soon turn into fears you cannot forget about, forcing you to stay awake, wanting to sort things out, even when it's not possible. Facing the empty sky of your ceiling, you can only imagine what it would when it's filled with stars, them, the people who make you feel important, who complete your universe
You can strangely feel your tears coming back, but this time, out of pure enthusiasm, the euphoria to know they care, and they are there, even when you are apart, separated from having lives that are too different
You choose to answer your dear girlfriends, to notify them of your restlessness
Y/n
Hello :)
Jiwoo
Y/NNNNN !!!
Hyeju
Baby, I'm so glad to see you
But shouldn't you be asleep ?
Chaewon
Hyeju is right love
Is everything okay ?
Sooyoung
You know you can always tell us
What does it cost to be honest ?
Y/n
I just miss you all so much
...
...
You wait for an answer
But nothing
"Huh ?"
You try hard to not think harsh about it
But why did they suddenly disappear ?
Did you do something bad ?
You stare at your phone, ignoring your surroundings, feeling yourself falling back to the state you were a while ago
"No, no this can't be !"
Why do you always have to feel that way ? Why do little things hurt so much
"How am I going to even fall asleep now ?"
...
It's strange, the night seems to be taking over again
...
You feel ashamed even
...
"What made you believe you could stay happy" this thought resonates louder and louder in your aching head
...
You close your eyes
Just to forget for a second
Even if it won't do much
...
"It's so warm" you think, you can feel yourself laying down on something that seems to be the warmest thing you have possibly ever touched in your entire life
Confused, you open your eyes again, only to be met with the sun shining right in your face
that's right
your sun
Jiwoo is here :)
To your left you can see Chaewon sitting on the bed, stroking your hair gently, and to your right, you can see Hyeju admiring how beautiful you look, not wanting to interrupt your sleep
And around you
Sooyoung's arms
...
They're here, they're finally by your side !
This wasn't all a dream, they really did stop answering for a while, just because they were preparing themselves to come see you in the middle of the night
"Hey cutie ! How was your sleep ?" Sooyoung asks you softly
You answer her that it was great, and you try to get up to get a hug from everyone, though, sooyoung keeps you close to her
"nono, today you're resting baby, stay here okay ?"
And well, who are you to refuse Sooyoung after all ?
"Sooyoung is right, stay there, if you need anything you can always ask us" Hyeju smiles at you, coming closer to kiss your cheek before sitting back to the place she was at
Chaewon takes your hand in hers, kissing it, before murmuring "beautiful, how could I ever fall for some this much"
And Jiwoo, her, not even a word yet, just screams and whines from not being able to kiss you because Sooyoung is keeping you away from her
“I’m so glad to be here” Jiwoo said while climbing up on the bed, joining Sooyoung to cuddle your sides
“Me too, it’s so glad to get back to our angel” gowon agreed
You smiled at them, not even knowing what to say, them being right here, was so, magic :)
“We tried to come as fast as we could yesterday night but when we arrived, you were already asleep like a baby” Hyeju laughed
“You were so cute, I had to resist the urge to wake you up and ask to kiss you on the spot !! Sooyoung made me wait until this morning”jiwoo whined
“mhh ! but now that I’m up, why don’t I get a kiss ehe !” You replied giggling, and jiwoo obviously did what you desired, soon followed by the rest of the girls, making you feel like the most important person in the world, because, in their eyes (and in mine bc ily all), you are <3
This is only the beginning of a new day
And yet you feel so right already, you just, feel, like everything is back to normal, the loves you just cannot get enough of are back, and that dear night that loves to keep you company through the dark is finally gone, letting you enjoy some kinder words from the ones you love, murmurs that remind you of your worth, and of how perfect you are :)
The end 0:
I hope this was enjoyable aha ! I wrote this in the middle of the night ! It's just a short lil fit because I thought it fit my mood well :) I will now drift to sleep myself, I wish you all to have an awesome day/night, take care of yourselves lovelies :D <3
And yes I will answer requests and inbox messages v v soon ! Thank u to everyone sending me stuff :))
An angel waved at me
with Loona’s gowon
wordcount : 0,7k
warnings : none !! pure fluffy content :>
surprise surprise !! Gaypeople4itzy is able to post writings two days in a row :o no way !!!! Anyways🤭 I hope you all enjoy this silly scenario <3
A beautiful Sunday, in the middle of the afternoon, you were heading for the mall with in mind the new clothes you wanted to buy for yourself. You hadn’t had much time to shop lately, so you were more than happy to take today’s day off as a shopping one, time to spend your well-earned money on the cutest outfits you could find
Once there, you immediately turned to a shop you had always liked a lot, wanting to make sure there would be enough clothes left for you. Entering it, you went to the sweater section, it was already so cold outside, so why not wear one?
Done with that purchase, you attempted to find one of your favorite places, it had many clothing pieces you were tempted to get in the past, today was a good day, a great day even, so there was nothing stopping you from getting those desired clothes!
Another purchase done and you were now heading to another shop that held a special place in your heart. Time passed quickly as you went to check a few more brands and your arms began to feel sore since you were carrying so much ! You decided it was a good time for a little break
Heading to the dining hall, you felt someone eying you, but couldn’t tell from who it was coming from. There were so many people around you, it was nearly impossible to tell if strangers were looking at you or if you were simply paranoid
Lowering the volume of your music, you kept walking until you reached a free table, where you put the bags of clothes you had bought previously today. You sat down for a while, scrolling on social media and answering your friend’s texts. A bit of time passed until you felt like you were being observed again, leading to you looking away from your phone to try and find who seemingly couldn’t take their eyes off you
Your heartbeat increased when you found out who was staring at you, a beautiful girl stood there, blonde hair and a shy smile. A slight blush made its way to her cheeks when she realized you were looking right back at her, turning away to who seemed her friends, she disappeared in the crowd of people around you both
As if she was an angel sent to you, you thought for a second you must had dreamed, there was no way such a mesmerizing girl was (what seemed like it) flushed at the sight of you ?!
Amused and surprised at the same time, you did feel a little disappointed thinking that you would probably never see her again. Though quickly enough, your mind was no longer preoccupied by the pretty girl, as you were too hungry to think properly
Getting yourself sweets at one of the many options you had around you, you came back to your seat only to find a little paper note laying on your table. Picking it up you could read “You are so pretty, I literally cannot stop looking at you, I’m so sorry for seeming embarrassing but I hope the compliment made you smile” in such a lovely handwriting !
She was right clearly, her message had you smiling instantly as you were looking around, trying to find where she could be hiding. Quickly you caught a glimpse of her face, looking at you lovingly, waving at you when she saw you watching her again, right before disappearing through the mass of people that stood over where she was
Determined to find her, you got up once more and started to walk around the dining hall, desperately wanting to at least ask for her number. You could feel your cheeks heat up, clearly, you hadn’t felt like this before, and you didn’t know what to do !!
After long minutes of research, you had to give up, your legs tired from walking all day long. Heading to your seat defeated, your eyes lit up as you saw another paper placed near your food. On this one was written “if you didn’t understand it yet, I’m quite shy, though I would like for us to get to know each other, so here’s my phone number :)” and she signed with what you assumed was her name : “Chaewon”
Looking up to see where she might be this time, you quickly recognized her blowing you a kiss, but this time, heading towards you instead of hiding as you gave her your warmest smile
Maybe you weren’t too tired after all, at least not tired enough to head home yet