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A living, breathing existential crisis

They / It // This originally was just a fandom blog, but now you have to deal with my bullshit. // Assume me to be dead if I don't post for a day, thanks.

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Ao3 Is Going To Delete My Draft If I Don't Post This Tomorrow So Woo! The First Part Of My One-shot Series

Ao3 is going to delete my draft if I don't post this tomorrow so woo! The first part of my one-shot series "Undying" is up now!

Mind the tags and warnings, but rest assured that this abomination of a death scene is not required to read the later (and slightly more wholesome) parts of the series. I'll probably put the second and third parts up sometime next week when Ao3 threatens to delete them, so look forward to that maybe!

Ao3 Is Going To Delete My Draft If I Don't Post This Tomorrow So Woo! The First Part Of My One-shot Series

(Also, I just might be working on a fourth part, but you didn't hear that from me-)

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1 year ago

Assigning the Redacted cast Genshin mains because somebody has to.

Asher: Just wants to play Fu Hua, but she doesn't exist here, so this man is a Dps Barbara main just to cause chaos.

Sweetheart: Was a Jean main until Itto came out.

Milo: Was turned into a Gorou main once Sweetheart got Itto. He didn't play the game before then and sarcastically hates Sweetheart's constant "dog boy" jokes.

Angel: The thirstiest Raiden main to ever be a Raiden main.

David: ...That man mains Diluc and Angel gives him so much shit for it (and, to be fair, he doesn't even really "main" Diluc, seeing how David hardly plays the game).

Darlin: Geo Traveler because they want to piss off Angel.

Lovely: A Keqing main who still believes she has real cat ears.

Sam: Noelle main because claymore characters are the only ones slow enough for him to keep track of and he needs the shield because otherwise he will perish.

Vincent: A Eula main. Obviously.

Gavin: A Rosaria/Yelan main. Again, obviously.

Damien: "Stop fucking healing me" the Hu Tao main.

Lasko: Sucrose main turned Heizou main.

Huxley: His main is Itto, but his best built character is Nahida.

Freelancer: A Sayu main who strictly refers to her as "the lazy avatar."

Kody: A (very badly built) Xiao main.

Blake: Wanderer main. I will not elaborate.

Bestie: Yae Miko main because they enjoy thirsting over fictional characters.

Sunshine: Ayaya main who only refers to her as "Ayaya."

Elliott: Ayato main because he likes how well he and Ayaka play together. Switches mains to support Sunshine's.

Starlight: Yanfei main (no idea why tho).

Avior: "This is a what game?"


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1 year ago

Our beloved Redacted cast as sodas I drink regularly (and sodas I loathe with my entire existence) in order of how much I like said drink:

Darlin - Coke. No debate.

Damien - Diet Coke. No difference between this one and the first.

Angel - Chupa Chups strawberry and cream flavor. Because they're so sweet <3

Guy - Mountain Dew. Always a good time and knows how to keep me up all night.

Freelancer - Coke and orange juice mix. Always a solid choice and Freelancer knows it.

Frederick - Fanta pineapple flavor. So sweet, too much sugar - my poor heart can't take it! /pos in the most "/pos" way to ever "/pos."

Lasko - Chupa Chups watermelon flavor. Very sweet but somehow still refreshing.

Asher - Fanta berry flavor. For some reason it makes me think of him.

Blake - Regular Fanta. Usually too sticky for my tastes, but I can enjoy it like once every six months-

Gavin - 7 Up. Only better than Sprite because it's not as sticky.

Elliott - Pepsi. I honestly have no idea why.

Vinecnt - Coke cherry flavor. It just doesn't mix well in terms of soda - take Coke or cherry but not both for the love of god (Still love Vincent tho and a coke/cherry slushy does taste amazing <3).

Kody - Sprite. He and it are sticky and I don't like it.

Regulus - Dr.Pepper - Better than Root Beer by like .0001%

Sam - Root Beer. He might like it but I sure as hell don't (but unlike Vincent, I am severely judging this man despite my undying love for him).


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1 year ago

Because I've been playing them too much myself, here are my favorite victims of gacha games:

Angel, the numero uno who plays literally every gacha game there is and has spent so much money on them that David had to call the bank and change the access code for their and his credit cards.

Freelancer, a close second with the only difference being that they are broke and can't spend as much money as Angel does.

Asher is s definite third place because he's been playing Honkai Impact 3rd almost since release. He was f2p for the longest time but he did spend money on HoS and is the most chaotic Senti main there is.

Honorable mentions to:

Darlin, who does not at all care about the games and is strictly f2p, their favorite game is Project Sekai.

Sweetheart, the luckiest Genshin Impact f2p on this planet.

And Vincent and Lovely, who share accounts and commonly argue about what character they should save for only to end up spending money on both of the characters they were arguing over.


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1 year ago
Time To Ruin Someone's Day, Here We Go!

Time to ruin someone's day, here we go!

(Aka: Me going on a rant about fluffy DarlinxQuinn.)

Warnings (?): Me swearing a lot because I wrote this the moment the thoughts came into my head without a filter, domestic fluffy things, and Quinn, who deserves to be his own warning.

Time To Ruin Someone's Day, Here We Go!

Darlin and Quinn were so sweet together and you can not possibly fathom how endearing they were with one another.

For example - hear me tf out - they got matching rings to wear for their first anniversary-type thing. And I know now you might say:

"Uhh Existence, they weren't even together for a whole year. Did you even read the timeline?"

To which all I have to say is, bitch I studied the timeline, you amateur, now keep listening to what I have to say. Quinn is the type of person that celebrates this kind of shit monthly - He's the kind of person to celebrate "half-birthdays" or whatever they're called. So yea, he got himself and Darlin matching rings to put on necklaces as a first monthly anniversary gift.

Another grand example would be how these two shared each other's clothes all the time. Nobody knew which hoodie or t-shirt was whose anymore after a few months and so they'd just start buying clothes together and for each other instead of individually for themselves because they just knew they'd end up sharing the clothes anyway. And Darlin accidentally kept some of Quinn's clothes even after they broke things off.

Also, Darlin did Quinn's makeup for him. These two would be sitting pretty on the bathroom floor of Quinn's dingy little apartment, Darlin in Quinn's lap, and they'd be doing his eyeliner and applying glitter to his eyeshadow and putting on his highlighter. Once they were done, Quinn would give them the softest kiss and share his lipstick or chapstick with them before saying something like "To treat/cover up that scar I left" with the sweetest apologetic look he could muster.

Also, Quinn would always give Darlin massages and he was weirdly good at it. Most of the time these two weren't intimate in those innocent and lovely little ways, but when they were, it usually was Quinn massaging them.

And he wasn't just good with his hands when it came to massaging because this man has such steady hands that it became a regular thing for him to paint Darlin's nails, only for them to miserably fail at doing his in return. They were always super embarrassed and apologetic about it when they got the nail polish all over his fingers but to Quinn it was just the cutest thing to see them scramble to clean him up and damn near hear the blood rush to their face in embarrassment.

Another thing would be that Darlin tends to have a very hard time falling asleep, so they'd ask Quinn to trance them to sleep sometimes and he'd hum a little tune while he held them in his arms and they drifted off in his trance. When they were fully asleep he'd give them a little forehead kiss and just cuddle them closer while watching them sleep very non-creepily (definitely not creepy, why would you even suggest that?).

This one's not as wholesome, but Quinn thought it was cute and quirky to wear Darlin's blood like it was lipstick which they found disgusting, but they got desensitized to it to the point they played up their annoyance whenever they saw him do it. They'd say something like "You know it looks bad when it gets this dry, right?" before getting a wet cloth or just straight up licking it from his lips. The latter of those only encouraged Quinn to keep doing this because of course it did.

Time To Ruin Someone's Day, Here We Go!

And those were my wonderful thoughts and ideas for the day, hope you enjoyed (or were miserable throughout) reading this stuff.

Also, how are we liking the dividers? I made them myself and I think they turned out pretty cute.


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