I Need Help Desperately!!!

I need help desperately!!!

Basically, I went to see my therapist a couple days ago and I haven’t seen her in soooo long so she pointed out the weight loss and I tried to cover it up as much as I could but she was so concerned so she took my weight and height she put it into a bmi calculator and omg when I tell u I’ve never been happier to see that I woke up 1lb more that day cuz it said healthy weight on it (16.8) which according to other bmi calculators that’s underweight but ok we move

But she rang early today and I have to get my bloods done and she talked to the head of the ed department and they used a different calculator and according to that one I am actually underweight

Then she basically just said that I have to get my weight to a healthy point by myself and if I do that I won’t have to go near the ed department

So like wtf do I do??? I can’t just put on 5kg like i would rather be in a saw movie

But if I don’t do anything then more than likely I’ll be forced into recovery and I seriously cannot imagine how that would go

Andddd they said if I don’t sort my weight out they’ll pull me out of this school year

Like I’ve been freaking out about this for these past couple days like someone seriously please help me

Is anyone scared they are never gonna lose weight and feel fat forever? 😭😭

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I can't be anorexic silly! I'm fat!

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the feeling of losing the same weight that you had lost months ago💀

Guys I’ve been eating like an absolute pig and put on 6kg..Wtf am I doing ( also why I haven’t been active for ages soz)

Someone give me harsh motivation in genuinely going crazy

Guys should I do a metab day this week or no?

Usually I do them every Friday but I’ve just felt like utter shit this whole week and I feel if I eat a bigger amount it will make me feel worse and I’ll fully have a breakdown..anyway

Idk what to dooooo cuz ik they’re good to be doing but I feel like I’m going to regret it sm

I go on a lil mini rant here:

AND IVE BEEN MAINTAINING FOR 3 DAYS OMG UGH. LIKE JUST GO DOWN! IF I DONT DROP AT LEASSSST 1LB TN I WILL EXPLODE LIKE U CANT DO THIS TO MEEEE