ayaisokay - The Girl That Doesn't Exist
The Girl That Doesn't Exist

21 / MtF / Poly โ€” Please Fix Me

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I Find Both To Be Isolating In Their Own Way. So, Consider Them Carefully.

I find both to be isolating in their own way. So, consider them carefully.

No communication is the obvious isolation, and it gets worse when you consider the danger involved with having no vocal, written, or signed voice. But, to speak every thought could cause its own problems.

How often do you have unspeakable intrusive thoughts? How often do emotions shape your thoughts to contradict your true feelings? It could get you into serious trouble or sever all of your bonds. Sure, you could try explain yourself and work with friends to correct the matter... But what's to say their reaction to the initial upset won't make you say worse things?

The question is a matter of choosing your own prison. At least for me.

I'm dependent on others so a loss of ALL communication destroys everything for me. But I'm also emotionally unstable and generally struggle to maintain bonds already. If I vocalised every thought and feeling, I'd probably look insane. I'd probably hurt too many friends.

Is it just me, or is this a cruel choice?

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8 months ago

Google Play search for E-Play free music software

I'll have you know I use FL Studio, thankyou ๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ–ค


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7 months ago

Like the photography? โค๏ธ (P.S. my walk playlist)

Like The Photography? (P.S. My Walk Playlist)

I took a walk to enjoy nature and it was honestly nice ๐Ÿ˜Œ

With all this despair, my alter human but needed it ๐Ÿฅฒ

I guess lately, I've just been enjoying the whole nature child vibe ๐Ÿฅ€

But in a way I guess it makes sense. As much as I've at times avoided them, I prefer animals to people ๐Ÿˆ

That being said, I didn't get home and expect to find a wasp casually crawling about my neck ๐Ÿ’€

Maybe I'm too in touch with nature ๐Ÿ˜…

Tragic therian matters ๐Ÿ˜ญ


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7 months ago

Aya's PP Paradox

The average pp is 5.5" [1]. So, 5" is typical, 4" and below is small, and 6" and above is large. 4" or 6" should be less common than 5", right? Yet, every guy I talk to is supposedly rocking 6" inches or more?

I have 3 reasonable solutions, no more...

Dishonesty: due to a negative social perception of small pp, everyone claims to be a part of the big pp gang, fearing exclusion or judgment.

Insecurity: either fragile masculinity or other factors make people claim to have a larger than average pp as it contributed to their ego.

Innaccuracy: either we or the data collectors are not measuring pp size correctly, contributing to inconsistent stats.


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7 months ago

How is asking a question forcing an agenda? Respectfully, the crowd you cheer for are the people that claim a boy in a dress is an agenda in itself. Feminine boys and masculine girls existโ€” but being trans isn't the same

If you took a moment to learn, rather than opting to just complain, you'd know that.

Egg posting is a fun joke; but, sometimes a question like that is what someone needs to actually consider new options.

Moreover the trans label and flag is an umbrella that includes gender non-conformity and non-binary identities. A tomboy or a feminine guy can be considered examples of non-conformity.

"The agenda" you despise celebrates our freedom to do as we wish, rather than, exclusively conforming to arbitrarily decided categories.

Please stop using children as a defence for your own lack of understanding.

Anybody Else Get Serious Egg Vibes From This Kid?

Anybody else get serious egg vibes from this kid?


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7 months ago

No worries. I just wanted to ensure I'm not connected to anything illegal. That aside, your vents will usually be fine if you give the necessary trigger warnings and such. Anyways, @notayamichan is kinda like my main, but in Japanese. I was hoping to attract some JP interactions for practice :3

Block don't report? For what?

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tbh i saw other people in the jirai tumblr space w it in there bios/pinned posts, so i thought i should add it just in case considering i do post a ton of vents ~ even though they arent triggering (at least i dont think so)

also thank you for the follow :3 i actually found ur main blog first but i thought it was cool you have a study blog as well, and for jp


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