Devils Playground (my Anti Religion Poem Reading)

Devil’s Playground 💀 (my anti religion poem reading)

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my poem:

I don’t believe I’m god

But I still pray to him

Cause god I’m tired of blaming myself

In a phase of, “what’s the point”

I’m only holy on Sundays?

Under a million dollar roof

Where god can hear me most

Stab yourself but god forbid l touch myself

He’s only watching, 24/7

Tripping over stones

Searching for god in stone tablets

It’s as if my minds been wiped clean

Remember who you are

But that page has been erased

Live this chapter, they call it earth life

Til it’s too late and can’t rob the bank

That moneys not his and neither yours

No one’s in charge down here

He who owns this playground

Comes from the heavens too

Devil in disguise

God these guys, are my only ticket to ecstasy

Thigh high socks and American dreams

I’m only pretty on my knees

Anything for a dollar

Wait for the boys to holler

Anything for my American dollar

Cross the road whenever you want

Everybody’s high around here

Take me out of my misery

Make it quiet

But make it hurt

I don’t wanna come back to this place

Heaven on earth, the biggest lie ever told

Ball of dirt

With pretty skies

That turn off at midnight

Smile on accident

Give me that free feeling

That’s god promised

I’m god promised

But I didn’t make my mothers mistake

Choosing the wrong dudes, is a hobby of mine

Don’t give me normal

Pick them Wild like my dad

Promise me you won’t stay and I’ll fall

Head over heels

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Promised we would meet down here, that’s what we’re told

Soul mates and soul plays

Soul ties and karmic dates

I don’t know if I believe that anymore

That we choose how our day goes

A head so dense, now I get why my dad was a drunk

I wish I could be too

But I don’t really like the taste

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What starts at home, spills outward

Trapped in my own sorrow, I’m just like you

Human like you

That’s my only flaw

I’m built to breathe

Built to live

Decay by the day

I only wanna be alive when the sun’s down

Kicked out of society

2 feet on the ground

But I only see what’s outside of me

Remind myself of the holy

Til something ugly shocks me

God, I’m human

Nobody’s daddy

Don’t wanna harm no body

Just want a somebody

Not just another body

I don’t touch mine

Why waste your time, I can’t be your dream

I’m only pretty when I’m not thinking

Dare ask me to speak

I wear my ugly

Can’t hide me

Trust me I tried

But it oozes out like black jelly

Overgrown roots and dirt under my nails

No amount of nail polish can make this in between boy pretty

Trust me I’ve been trying

But nobody gets me

Am I too ugly

Am I just a nobody

Am I okay with that?

Not knowing the answers

But knowing myself

Know my worth, with no dollars in my pocket

Borrowing mommy’s money

Im sorry, im so me

Out of hope

Abundant with time

Don’t rush me

It only makes me angry

Don’t wanna hurry

I’ll double tie my own shoes

Bite my tongue

Kissing someone only leads to shots and pills

Picking the wrong boys

I blame me for wanting to feel pretty

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I’m not needy

Just a little bit crazy

All the fun girls are

Not ready for a hubby

I’m not shiny and thin

Dark Brunette to your Blonde Baby

I can only fake my beauty

Like tan in a bottle

Perfect shiny skin in a liquid

I’m American and for that I’m so sorry!

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my poem:

I don’t believe I’m god

But I still pray to him

Cause god I’m tired of blaming myself

In a phase of, “what’s the point”

I’m only holy on Sundays?

Under a million dollar roof

Where god can hear me most

Stab yourself but god forbid l touch myself

He’s only watching, 24/7

Dare ask me to speak

I wear my ugly

Can’t hide me

Trust me I tried

But it oozes out like black jelly

Overgrown roots and dirt under my nails

No amount of nail polish can make this in-between boy pretty