Hey Taleblr. Just Wanna Make An Official Hiatus Post For The Fandom, I Guess. I Know I Havent Actually

Hey Taleblr. Just… wanna make an official hiatus post for the fandom, I guess. I know I haven’t actually posted anything related to this fandom in awhile, so… yeah XD

I mean my last post was done in… November. I’ve had a lot of ideas, especially for the TMNTPIE AU, and I’ve been bouncing them around in headspace here but… I haven’t found the time to do anything with it. And I won’t for awhile probably.

We as a system have been working on ourselves a lot. I won’t go into specifics because it’s nobody’s business but our own. However, I just want to be somewhat clear about this in case anyone thought I died or dropped the fandom or something.

I want 2024 to be our year. We’ve gone through a lot of shit throughout 2023. There was just… so much going on. I won’t give a bunch of details because, again it’s no one’s business but our own, but we’ve gone through so much to finally feel comfortable as a system and within our own skin. Like… it’s taken all of us so long to finally be comfortable as we are. We’ve done so much work over the past few months and will continue to do so during this year as well. It’s an ever going journey, but it needs to be a major focus for us right now before school starts back up.

So… an official hiatus post for the taleblr fandom. I’ll still likely reblog stuff here, but… uh… yeah.

Until next time Taleblr! Because I definitely will be back!

Our family: You’ve got a major obsession with Handsome Jack…

Jack🎭, fronting but trying to mask currently: Yeah. Weird huh?

Jack🎭, in headspace: I am egotistical, aren’t I…?

Blue🍓: Yeah. But you’re not the only one with the obsession/hyperfixation currently

Jack🎭: Meaning????

Rhys🦾:

Rhys🦾: Why is everyone staring at me…?

We have a kind of similar issue, from what I’ve heard from other alters that is.

We’re mostly doing a “we know we have this disorder, but we know that we won’t check literally every box because human brains are complex and shit like that” so our hosts do research on their own about DID as a whole, get a bit dissociated, or even start fake claiming themselves because of the fact that we don’t check every box.

So, over here anyway, we’re doing two things: just living with it and not worrying about it too much (and attempting to hide it from others because we’re currently not in a safe physical environment for systems), and we’re also doing our own research in our own system specifically. Like, writing down things we notice.

For example, we have something we call “voice glitches.” It’s always a little stutter where you accidentally say two words at once, or repeat yourself like a normal stutter, even if you don’t have one. It’s always a sign that we need to pause and think for a second before continuing to speak, or that a huge wave of dissociation/rapid switching might come if you’re in the front.

Another thing is how we all share dreams. Whole system has the same dream.

Or how they’re just a little tv where we can watch imaginary shit.

So many interesting things that we’ve noticed and written down and doesn’t cause us dissociation. However, it’s also stuff our hosts have been scared to share due to fearing being fakeclaimed and people just… not relating to our experiences. (Also seen so much about system in-fighting that none of us relate to at all because we have alters whose job is to be a mediator and help with conflict, so hosts keep fake claiming themselves because of that too funnily enough :/ )

But yeah. That’s just my two cents :)

-🎭

Something minorly infuriating is the fact that im pretty sure im still not supposed to “know” about DID.

I’ve known for years about our DID, and ive done a ton of reasearch and looked into so many different things, and interacted in/been around so many different system spaces.

But every single time, without fail, even years later, if i spend a bit too much time reading about/hearing about/thinking about/etc. etc. DID, i get super disassociated and get a massive headache, and i have amnesia surrounding those moments a lot. I dont know if its another alter, or what, it doesnt feel like it.

But that gets super annoying because we have this disorder, and its so much of who we are, who i am that this happens so much, because this disorder affects every part of our life. But spending to much time even thinking about it dissociates us and gives us a massive fucking headache for hours.

Its like even though i know about our DID, im not supposed to know about it, yk? And that gets super annoying. Because its most of who i am.

anyways its really kicking our ass tonight because reasons, so i just wanted to yell about that. Let me know if you have any advice/relate at all/vnf

-host

"my brain said"

Translation: an alter said something funny that I must share with you

[Text: This system frequently has multiple alters fronting and it gets confusing. Please be patient.]

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