Sometimes Things Slip Through

Sometimes things slip through

I swear this keeps happening every time I do homework. Happens to Blue too. Trauma holders have a rough time always holding everything.

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Working

Traumatic memories resurface suddenly

Back to working, memories completely forgotten again

something thats been helping us a lot recently has been letting alters just exist. i see a lot of systems who have strict roles and distinct alters, and it can be stressful to see that be the “norm” when our system isnt like that.

we’ve tried forcing individuality, but it only let to more dormancy. we tried figuring out everyones role, but there are too many alters who front just to do very specific things.

now, we are just letting ourselves exist as we are and communicating is way easier. we dont lose so much time anymore. i can remember a lot more (even if i still have emotional detachment).

i guess im just saying that as a system, do what helps you.

tracking fronts? go for it. assigning roles? pop off. making picrews and profiles for every person? thats so awesome.

if you can’t do any of that? you aren’t less of a system.

Ok… like… sorry to followers but I’m debating about reposting Blue’s art. They gave me permission… beware everyone. Beware.

- Ghost🩶👻

forgive yourself. forgive yourself for all the versions you couldn't become. forgive yourself for the wrong things you said. forgive yourself for not knowing any better at certain point of your life. for fucking things up so much that the grief still haunts you. forgive yourself for the darker and shadowed parts of you. you have to learn to integrate all parts of you, even the ones you desperately want to disown. it'll be alright.

First prompt of @tmntober-2023: Warm-up.

These guys are just warming up for training. Johnny Ghost is warming wrong and Donnie is trying to correct him. And of course, Ghost isn’t having any of it.

Also: Blue mentioned on our old blog how the turtles were getting redesigned for this AU. Well here they are! Leo stayed mostly traditional for some obvious reasons.

And of course, the rest of PIE is laughing in the background at how Ghost is refusing to acknowledge that he’s wrong. He’s convinced himself everyone else is wrong, even though the turtles have been training for 15 years.

Me (and Blue honestly) having no more emotional connection to our system’s trauma and feeling like shit about not having that emotional connection

(I’ve had 0 emotional connection to our trauma except pissed about how it’s affecting the people I care about and from our side it appears we’re the only ones given a punishment. Blue has had on and off emotional connection to our trauma. And it sucks because they are such a sweet and caring person with a heart of gold and they’ve just become so apathetic recently because of all this.

Love how people outside the system are like “it’s too soon” since it was like… 2 weeks ago that this recent trauma happened. Simon and Sierra still feel it, but for me and Blue is feels like that shit was years ago. Thank you brain for being so weird. At least us hosts can function!

Also: Blue literally forgetting who the people who were also involved in this traumatic drama are is a mood. Meanwhile introjects of those people be like: bitch tf?? Nah don’t worry, they remember you guys. But not your sources. It’s called fucked-up-coping-for-systems.

Trauma holders doing their jobs well folks)