I Wish For Something. Something Like A Hug And The Feeling Of Being Loved.

I wish for something. Something like a hug and the feeling of being loved.

But what is God compared to him loving me?

I'd do anything for someone to hold me.

When he says he wants to see me again >>

Holy shit that is just awesome. Like, the kind of wanted I feel is insane.

Getting reassurance before even having to ask for it >>>>

Tw: abuse

Me vibing but suddenly I remember all the times he hit and manipulated me into apologizing to him because he had to hit me.

Not fun. Not what I wanted to randomly remember. Why the fuck does my head keep reminding me of all of that shit??

And the worst part is that I still can't belive someone loves me if they don't hurt me. Like, the way I was taught love works, is always through hurting me.

I don't want that.

My sister and I are just scrolling through her instergram and I see someone I don't know and ask who is this?

And she answers with oh, I was in jail with him.

She is an activist btw, she didn't actually do anything.