My Girlfriend And I Found And Bought The Stanley Parable Indiebox, And We Read Through The Entire Manual

My girlfriend and I found and bought the Stanley Parable Indiebox, and we read through the entire manual and this last page killed us

The Narrator hopes we set Stanley free....😭

this boy really be out here loving everyone but himself. give this man therapy please

Kai Version: Isn’t it so incredibly interesting how both smith siblings handled their trauma in drastically different ways?

Kai  has low self esteem/self worth (depends on people, powers, and statements to determine his value), constantly needs to prove himself, and is immensely dependent on external validation (his obsession social media is a prime example of this). He invalidates himself, dismissing his emotions/feelings, and needs regular reassurance (tendency to blame out-of-control situations on himself, likely derived from the mindset that his parents purposely left him because he wasn’t good enough, and i’ll bet my soul he stayed awake  nights wondering that if nya was firstborn, would his parents still leave?) .

His fear of being useless is also likely derived from that same mindset and as such he portrays himself through a cocky/prideful ‘persona’. This is false portrayal of himself, simply to appear stronger in the eyes of others, because if others think he’s of value they won’t leave him, because with or without this ‘mask’ not even he knows who is truly is.

He tends to dissociate during emotionally intense/overwhelming situations, or go into a state shock/confusion. He developed unhealthy coping mechanisms (violently self destructive) with situations regarding loss and grief. All of these things are results of and/or mechanisms he developed from his childhood trauma.

but. despite everything i’ve written above.  he loves nya. raised her. protects/supports her. took lloyd under his wing. he loves lloyd. throws heaps of physical affection towards cole. he loves cole. accepted jay as a brother in law, was so supportive of jaya and helped jay in proposing. he loves jay. makes things fun for zane, reassures him. he loves zane. showed master wu to believe in himself. he loves wu. he loves his entire team and expresses it in ways that value each of them individually. he makes friends with dragons. he loves dragons. he taught/worked with kids. he loves kids. despite what the disappearance of his parents did to him and nya, despite nya’s refusal to show her parents love (valid, btw) kai loved maya. he loved ray.  he loved his parents all over again, he loved his parents again so easily. he loved and loves and keeps loving.

trauma gave him self-destructive mechanisms. trauma instilled insecurity in him. trauma took away his sense of self worth. trauma emptied him of self-love. trauma stole his sense of identity. but kai held on to the ability to protect others, to care for others, to help others. he held them close to his chest. because like hell he’d let his trauma take that.

kai refused to let trauma strip his ability to love. his ability to love is unmatched.

Inspired by this post:

https://sugarglider-s.tumblr.com/post/692022087001473024/every-single-day-of-my-life-i-think-about-how-kai

Chapter 1 ----- 🌊Swallowed🌊

 NINJAGO HAVOC AU

I’ve had this au in my head for a while, and the season finale for season 15 finally gave me the inspiration/motivation to write it! So, hope you enjoy it! Comments and reblogs are super appreciated! 

*Post-season 15 AU*

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Every part of the ocean looks the same.

It’s just water. There were no distinguishing landmarks, unless they stuck up out of the surface. There was no change to the “landscape”. It was like a vast, dark, and deep desert. A desert that pulsated, as if it were alive. A living desert, full of life, just beneath its moving skin. A desert that simultaneously destroys and gives life. A desert full of gaping mouths that will swallow you up if you get too close. And when you’re swallowed, it gives you up as food to those residing inside it. It was fluid, it was so big it….it…

It made his head hurt.

He had no idea how long he had been flying above the ocean. It was so…so vast. The night sky made the ocean look like a second, moving sky. A churning void of black ink and glittering lights. He pulled a scroll of paper from his bag.

He had tried to be strong.

He had tried not to run away.

After all, he had his parents now. Oh but what did they know? Sure, it wasn’t their fault they had vanished, but, it didn’t change the fact that they weren’t there. Nobody was there, when it was just him and her. Alone, against the world. She was the only one who understood. She was the only one who could truly comfort him. Sure, the others were family, and they did their best, but it was nowhere near…she wasn’t there anymore. 

He had promised he wouldn’t leave again but-

But this was different.

She left first.

And now?

Now she was a part of the ocean. Kai wasn’t even sure if she was… if she had a physical form to her anymore. Water can’t- water can’t hold its shape unless it’s contained in something. That he knew. He was certain there wasn’t a Nya shaped container in the ocean. But then again, their elemental powers, and the magic they had seen, didn’t exactly obey the regular laws of science, so why should this.

His elemental dragon flapped in place as he stared at the map he had snagged on his way out. He didn’t know he could summon a dragon anymore, but somehow, he had managed. Maybe it was out of anger, or grief, or guilt, or…something. He didn’t know what he was feeling, but whatever it was had caused him to create a dragon. 

He ran a hand through his hair, keeping the other one on his dragon’s back, on the map, so it wouldn’t blow away in the steady breeze. He sighed, letting his hand fall limply onto his dragon’s back. His dragon let out a low rumble, attempting to comfort Kai. It didn’t work.

His mind felt just like the ocean below him. A tumultuous thrashing of darkness and confusion, of hurt and guilt, of sadness. He just wanted his sister back…was that too much to ask?

The crashing of the ocean was his only reply.

His dragon let out another low rumble, louder this time, snapping Kai out of his thoughts. He gave the elemental dragon a half-hearted pat, still holding the map down with one hand. He reached back into his bag, pulling out a black pen and adjusting himself. Fortunately, the soft, warm glow of his elemental dragon gave off just enough light for him to see the map.

It was a map of Ninjago and the surrounding ocean. The ocean around Ninjago had been marked with at least 100 crudely written x’s, starting from the top of the map and going down. She couldn’t have gone far…right? She wouldn’t just-just leave them. Surely, she would have gained back more of herself with time, she would-should have started to remember them.

She wouldn’t just…forget about the ninja. She wouldn’t forget about Jay, the love of her life, the man who Kai now hoped he could eventually call “brother” one day. Jay was a dork, but he was good for her, and she loved him, Kai had come to accept that.

She wouldn’t forget Cole, the one who was able to hold his own against her, strength wise. The kind-hearted soul of the group, the big brother, the shoulder she had cried on. A true friend, especially to her. They had a special bond that he couldn’t put into words.

She wouldn’t forget Zane, or Pixel, she had fixed them countless times, they talked for hours on end about stuff Kai couldn’t begin to grasp. Zane was such a steady calm to her, to all of them in fact. And she was a rock for him too.

She wouldn’t forget about Lloyd, the one they considered their little brother. The one she had stayed with when Zane had…when he couldn’t-She wouldn’t forget Lloyd, the one she whole-heartedly supported and cared for.

She wouldn’t forget about their parents. Sure, she hadn’t known them, but they were back now. And things were finally…they had a chance to build something that had been torn from them.

She wouldn’t…she wouldn’t forget about him. Right?

He should have been better. He should have heard her when she walked away. He should have stopped her. It…. was just like Zane. Like everyone else on this seemingly cursed team. It should have been him. He would have gladly taken her place, had he had the chance to. After all, he’s just the loud-mouthed, cocky ninja. The idiot, the screw-up. It would have…it would be better if he had taken Nya’s place. Or Zane’s.

He was sure he was cursed to watch everyone else’s curses play out. Why…why does everyone he starts to love have to be ripped from his grasp, in some way or another. He…was starting to doubt it. He had gotten just about everyone back! Or maybe this…”curse” was just preparing him for the biggest hit yet.

His sister. His little sister…

It should have been him.

Kai blinked, bringing himself back to the present. Enough.

He blinked again, trying to get his eyes to stay open as he moved to mark the map. His hand hesitated above the paper. Where was he again?

He looked around, seeing nothing but the black void of water and the night sky. His elemental dragon’s reflection shimmered in the inky water down below. 

He…he couldn’t have gone too far from where he was last. He looked back at the paper. Which x had been last?

He was starting to realize how…pointless this search method was. Nya could be in any part of the ocean.

He had started searching the ocean two days ago, and had been searching nonstop since. He figured she would be a bright…glowing blue, like she had been that night. Or that she’d be a giant water dragon. But he hadn’t seen anything like that. What if she was deep inside the ocean? What if…what if…

He rubbed his eyes with his right hand, smearing a bit of ink across his face. His vision was blurry. He hadn’t slept, hadn’t eaten or drinken anything since that morning…he wasn’t sure how many days ago. It had been days, he knew he’d seen the sun set at least twice. Or was it three times?

Funny how there was a bunch of water below him, even funnier that he couldn’t drink it. But he wasn’t going to quit. Ninja don’t quit. Brothers don’t give up on their sisters.

Lloyd had been so worried about him. They…they all had been. But he would never forget the look Lloyd gave him the night before he decided to start his search. That sad, pitiful, desperate look that seemed to bore its way through his whole body. A full-body-wrenching look of “please don’t go.” It was Kai’s fault. It was all…He should have done better.

He had tried, he really did, but he failed, again. He couldn’t keep himself together. He had almost stopped sleeping entirely, barely ate, barely moved from that dreaded room. Surrounded by books, scrolls, texts, and just about anything else that could possibly tie into saving Nya. They had all tried to help him, but Lloyd was the most persistent. Kai…he had pushed him, he had…pushed them all away. 

He felt terrible now, but…he needed to find her. He wanted…no, no…needed her here, with him, with all of them.

He blinked some more, trying to sit up straight. A excruciating wave of dizziness racked at his brain, and he fell back down into a hunched position, gripping his head with shaky arms. What was happening, and why so sudden?

His elemental dragon let out a surprised grumble, turning its glowing head towards him. Was it just his eyes, or was his dragon…fading? It looked like a dying fire. Kai gave himself 30 seconds before the world stopped spinning at 80 mph. 

“I’m…..I’m fine, bud. Let’s keep going,” Kai started, trying to get back up. He finally succeeded after a few minutes. He sat, panting harshly. He was…so tired. He lifted his arms to prompt his dragon to move, but he couldn’t seem to keep his eyes open.

Suddenly, his body went limp, against his will, and his hand slipped from the reins and his map.

He was falling.

He was barely able to blink open his eyes, and watched as his dragon let out a pained roar, before dissipating into nothing but a shower of glowing embers. His bag, pen, and map were falling above him. It was almost like he was moving in slow motion.

He turned his head to look behind him, seeing the oceanic void, desperately opening one of its many mouths to swallow him up. That wouldn’t be too bad. Drown this and all his other failures. Nya was there…in that void. Would she be happy to see him, or upset that he’d given up? He shouldn’t be so scared of the ocean anymore…he would get to see Nya again…right?

The pounding of his heart, still terrified, rang in his ears.

He stared down at the ocean as he fell, finally willing himself to fall into the darkness as millions of watery teeth and hands grabbed hold of him and pulled him into their hungry depths.

@peachyninjago I read your tags yesterday and just couldn't resist hahwhuah

Vessel Kai got a surprise adoption + Brumm live reaction

TheFamousFilms Fnaf Series

Bryan doodles :DDD

I gave him amber eyes because why not? I think it’s neat.

So does anyone remember the gift Molten gave Bryan for Christmas? Because I do.

(RIP OG Freddy’s bow and star. And arm. And everything else.)

AU. Where Bryan never died but did something stupid anyway. What’s new? A lot. But his decision making never changes. Might explain someday.

Hint: The mask has something to do the changes ;)

Oh. And Molten kinda died. (He’s alive. Not doing so well tho.)

Lefty never died. I miss him :,)

Kai passes by the group with Lloyd wrapped around him like a koala. The green bean dead asleep.

Kai: If any of you wake him from his nap, I will forever heat up your cold drinks by sticking my fingers in it.