There's Something In My Heart

There's something in my heart

a painful feeling of mine

inexpressible

that hurts me all time

and I act like I don't care

but only I know how I feel

maybe this is how it feels

when once you loved someone

deeply and you were hurt in every way.

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My One Only Sister

See, that gal She my beautiful sister.

Apart by distance, Always connected and close to my heart ❤.

She seems to be quiet? but I know how naughty she is.

Known her for five years now and she already my family.

I don't call her my best friend because there's no end .

Slaps me at my mistakes, Hugs me at my achievement

Gal you got a golden heart💛 Wish I met you earlier but no regrets Only love.

She seems to know What's wrongly right And rightly wrong .

Picks-me-up up at every fall. You got my back my gal.

If I die tonight Would wish to see you In my next life, As my sister again.

Insecurities & Imperfection:

Truth is I'm too imperfect

it includes both from within and without.

May not be beautiful for everyone's sight

but, whoever sees

what's inside, will surely adore it

even if from far.

Truth is I'm insecure of many things

don't just choose to show

in fear of being bullied when they know.

I keep me so private

even from the one whom

I am closest to.

I don't want to die of that same pain again,

don't want to fall in the same pit twice.

They once pushed me.

They are not humans I say.

They are more of monsters!

that makes you feel so insecure

and down.

They speak things so mean.

Brown and blacks are not liked

for when it's skin tone,

but I don't understand

they still carry

red blood.

Then where's the difference?

aren't we all the same inside?

Laughed at, for acne marks

no matter

friend, relative, or a complete stranger.

All they care about is breaking hearts

and making me feel not good enough.

These monsters have a common goal,

they all just want to look down at me

and make me feel crushed.

Maybe all they want is to feel superior?

for their own insecurities.

Could they not just make fun?

or not give that look as if I am the monster?

I want to feel loved for once

and not the same time.

I wanna trust people again

but don't the same time.

I wanna smile like carefree

but heart feels ached.

I wanna feel safe

but I can't trust.

I try to let go off

but it repeats again and again.